Do you mind telling me what's bpd like?
Bpd is the train wreck that is my life
- I’m terrified of being left/abandoned/broken up with/rejected in any way. I’ll do anything to make sure someone wants to stay with me, and I’ll spiral out of control if it doesn’t work
- if anything goes wrong, my go-to is suicide and/or self harm. A common thought for me is ‘oh well at least I can kill myself’
- sometimes I hear or see shit that isn’t there (these are called auditory or visual hallucinations). It’s scary as fuck. Oh and I used to have this girl called Maria living inside my brain who controlled what I did. She’s gone now they’ve got my antipsychotic medication right.
- I feel empty and bored all the time. Like to the point where nothing is interesting and I just want to cry because I don’t want to do anything
- I’m so emotionally sensitive. Everything hurts so bad, I don’t know what to do with myself and go into crisis mode so easily
- relationships are hard man, and can be so unstable. And then I try to fix things and end up making it worse and everything is a mess
- I go through cycles of depression, which sucks. It feels like I’ll never come out of it, and when I do, it’s like it never happened
- I crave attention, yet it’s so uncomfortable when I get it. I hate being the centre of attention but it hurts to feel ignored
- everything is black and white. It’s either the best thing in the world or the worst thing ever. I either love you or hate you, sometimes switching between the two quickly (this is called splitting)
- I. Need. To. Be. Loved… desperately
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