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Team “not actually oblivious to flirting, just terrified of appearing presumptuous” represent.

“Yes, in the balance of consideration this person’s behaviour could certainly be interpreted as flirtatious, but it would be purest arrogance for me to just assume they actually meant what they said. I should gather more evidence. Forever.”

feral-ballad

Tawanda Mulalu, from Please Make Me Pretty, I Don't Want to Die: Poems; “All we got was autumn. All we got was winter”

I was on FaceTime with him telling him about how I feel like no one cares about how sad I feel because I’m sad all the time and he sent me a instagram reel.

#does anyone care anymore #why can’t I just be happy #even the person I thought would always be there for me is tired of me #I don’t know what to do anymore

I’ve been feeling depressed these last few weeks, I’ve been missing school and calling out of work. I’ve been distancing myself from him because I felt like I was being too much. He had called me and asked about my day so I told him how I skipped class and called off again. He was disinterested and was sending me instagram reels while I tried not to cry. He had told me I could always come to him whenever I needed to talk but I guess he didn’t know how often I would need his shoulder to cry on.

#have I finally become to much to the one who said I’m never too much #should i just die #i don’t know what to do #I want to get better

He says he could tell when I’m horny by the way I breathe but little does he know I’m just trying not to cry

#afraid of intimacy

I need more movies with awkward teens/adults. Why did they stop making movies with awkward characters?

#im thinking of those moves with Michael cera #Juno #Superbad #lady bird #Napoleon Dynamite #eighth grade #does anyone have any recommendations

This feels like a personal attack

#very passive aggressive #google #thbaks google

I’m kinda bored might run into traffic to feel something

#way to often do i imagine myself getting hit by a car #the only reason I still look both ways before crossing the street #is so they driver doesn’t feel any grief for hitting another person #even if I feel a sense of relief as my bones crush #as pain wrap around my body like my childhood blanket #I’ll feel the comfort of death nearing me #as the sirens come closer yet sound far #too far to do anything #but the driver shouldn’t feel grief #all I wanted was to feel #pain seems like the only option #when everything else is out of reach

I’m not really attracted to anyone but if you like me I’m already in love with you whoever you are.

#I don’t feel any attraction to anyone #for a long time I thought something was wrong with me #until someone said they liked me #I then started to get excited when around them #i don’t think much about who I want to be in a relationship with #but if you want to start talking I start thinking of our wedding #maybe something is wrong with me

Watching the last episode of Disney shows just to feel something.

#sometimes when I’m sad I’ll watch last episode of shows #been feel kind nostalgic #heard the liv and Maddie theme song now I wanna die #i hate endings #they always make me sad #summer depression #Disney #Jessie #liv and maddie #gravity falls #good luck charlie

How do I fall in love with life?

I used to read old messages whenever I kissed them but I stopped when I saw that I had miss spelled a word. Since then I have been afraid that I made many other mistakes

#I didn’t even correct the word #the conversation continue like I didn’t just embarrassed myself #it was such a simple word too #how could I have spelled it wrong #I felt so embarrassed I deleted their number #reading old messages #missed them

Just experienced the opposite of dissociation in which I felt like I had been shove into this body. Like I wasn’t aware that I was real but all of a sudden everything became so real and I was a newborn wanting to cry. I became so aware of the fact that people could see me and possibly talk to me. I was afraid to move knowing that the predators (people) was around searching for prey (me) so I tried to stay as still as possible until the idea that I was just a watcher not able to interact came back.

#dissociation #I was honestly afraid #I often forget I am real #I’m not real actually #I’m just there #but I was so scared to move #I felt like forever

Just got a news notification that said a SIX YEAR OLD SHOT A GUN. I have so many thoughts but honestly what would you expect in a state with the third most registered guns in a country with the least gun control.

#how would a six year old get a gun #who left a gun where a child could get it #we need gun control