[saintacea]

2 versions of a memorial portrait for @memendoemori 's birthday, of her sweet boy Geoffrey.

[thoughtkick]

“Success is not final, failure is not fatal: it is the courage to continue that counts.”

— Unknown

[dragongirlafro]

[dragongirlafro]

from this moment forward, "Real Kiwi Hours" shall be every Friday @ 4:20 PM local time. i expect you all to queue this post accordingly 🥝

[patcheddd]

notifications,

notifications,

none from who i'm hoping expecting

notifications,

notifications,

please give me a sign

notifications,

notifications,

i'd do anything

notifications,

notifications,

please say his name

[thoughtkick]

“I’ve had so many knives stuck into me, when they hand me a flower I can’t quite make out what it is. It takes time.”

— Charles Bukowski

[patcheddd]

hysterics can be fueled

by different types of gas;

anger,

joy,

sorrow,

fear.

but i never realized

the source of mine

developed over time

built up by the

bitter,

sticky

words that clung

to the nooks and crevices

of my mind.

as a gift from you.

but yet,

you never wanted

to deal with

the flame --

no,

the blaze.

but it will burn you.

one day.

oh,

how unfortunate.

oh,

how divine.

[unrelenting-truth]

I replay the last few years

All the laughter all the tears

And you were the one I could always turn to

I never understood

Why you cared the way you would

But I knew in my heart there was always you

But then you were gone and

Everything felt wrong and

I didn’t know what to do

I kept my feelings inside

But I wish I never had to hide them

Cause now there’s a world without you

And no one understood

Why I felt the way I did

Because nobody knew the truth

That every time I thought

Of my happy ever after

Somehow I was there with you

I have to live

Knowing I never

Got the chance to say

That no matter what

I wanted you there

I don’t think I’ll ever be okay

Cause you’re still gone and

Everything still wrong and

I still don’t know what to do

I can’t keep these feelings inside

And I can’t keep hiding

Cause no matter what there’s a world without you

[unrelenting-truth]

Home isn’t as simple

As four walls and a door

Its the way your heart flutters

And the way your soul soars

It’s the feeling of kisses

On top of your head

And being wound round a finger

Like a tight little thread

It’s the shine of the sun

Falling swiftly on their face

And the way their eye twinkles

As you feel their embrace

It’s the warmth in your stomach

When their hand touches yours

And you catch a glimpse of the smile

You’ve grown to adore

Home is not always

Four walls and a door

Home is a person

And that means so much more

[patcheddd]

i'm not looking for perfection

i want someone to grow with

to make mistakes,

and fix with.

and that growth comes with

the other qualities that

we were made to

hold,

cherish,

and

endure with.

without that,

what is there to find?

i'm not looking for perfection.

i want someone to grow with.

[iambrillyant]

“you’ve read me wrong, but it’s not my responsibility to summarize or explain the pages within me that you can’t or choose not to understand.”

— iambrillyant

[patcheddd]

i thought of you today.

peeking through the glass

of the fogged up panes

there was snow on the grass

fresh as the memories of

the endless, whispered conversations

spoken into the night,

and the quiet reprieve

of the moments in between,

and the things that make me heave,

because the biting, harsh cold

of the things i had felt, heard, seen --

i remembered that too.

as the wind hit me.

it's been months.

i thought of you today.

and for the first time,

i was afraid.