Off the Map

A girl on a fool's errant.

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Eos

I.

The light was warm peaking through the silk curtains in gentle echo of the Out There through which they drifted; each moment taken as breath, an inhalation of silence of the darkness just beyond, but interrupted by the glimmer of both distant – & not so – stars. She watched it creep contentedly as a brush heavy with paint bestowing love the only way it knows how when it is welcome, small shards…

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Nightstalking. There's something about the dingy vibrancy of a city that I can't help but love. #FountainSquare #insomnioticfluid #nikond3100 #photography

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Snot.

In the shower, in this weather, I crank the faucet up to about 7^hotness – two points just below scalding – and let the heat soak into my face, into my pores, seep creeping into my freeze-dried skin until the warmth reaches my sinus cavity and I just let it stay there. I never take hot showers. I know that’s supposed to be odd but I was the youngest of four in a household of six and I just didn’t…

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#NewOrleansWiththeScots Update: So I live in this terminal now. It is my home. And for the record, precious old women who are so offended you're single as if you, personally, denied them grandchildren too isn't... ok, it's not my *least* favourite thing, but Gladys, honey, you need to fuckin chill. Just. bae. pls. ❤

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So I wear scarves at work. Sometimes it's cold. Sometimes it's rainy. Sometimes I'm giving the nonverbal cue that I don't want to be talked to unless absolutely necessary. So of course I've had people ask if it's for religious reasons, because I live in Indiana and let's be real; for the most part it's respectful because I look very white. For the record though: No self respecting religious practitioner would show this much hair floof if they did prefer to wear a "scarf." [[No one expects you to know everything, just educate yourselves + continue asking respectful questions, habibis. ❤ ]] TODAY, HOWEVER. Today, one of my coworkers simply stated, "You look Muslim," when he came to drop off paperwork. And before I could even begin to sigh heavily, he said, "Very chic." He's gone now and I need all of you to know how uncouth that former statement is and ask you to please not use it with anyone in the future, but I'm still giggling to myself because I. AM SO. MAD. AT HIM. for making such a perfect pun when I know he wouldn't understand it... #BigMad #VeryShiekh

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#Throwback to that one time I cosplayed as #Frost for Halloween; made the full costume, coloured my hair, even sparred, albeit drunkenly. 😘 I haven't been this cool in a long time; force me to do it again. #Frostplay #MortalKombat #FlawlessVictory #Babeality

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Me: *idly layering paint onto canvas* Also me: wut doin? - no idea. blank canvas. hate it. - Patty, honey, why don't you draw a birb? - ah jeez, uhhh... - just one birb, try it - I can't, I- - sure ya can, just. ya know. birb. there. boom. done. - but - you see birbs every day, how hard can it - at this particular moment I'm not entirely convinced I've ever truly looked AT a birb, tbh - JUST DRAW A FUCKIN BIRB, LADY - FINE - ... - ... - ... wow - I know - I mean, that's - is it, tho? - it's birb like - no it's not - no, not really, but you can see - it's ok that it's not - ok, good, because - you don't need to tell me - listen, you tried - I - WOO! - ... guess, but - BIRB LIKE! - you don't need to patronize - GOOD AS IT GETS - ok, that's hurtful #Acrylic #RoughSketch #Art #AmPainting

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How I'm trying to be today: sleepy, snuggly + adored. Is that too much to ask? 😔 #BabyPatty #BeautyandtheBeast #TaleAsOldAsTime #NapoftheAncientMariner #WhereIsMyWoobie #ConsciousnessIsExtortion

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No, you were all correct. The Lamb Rose. Spring is here. It's just, well, Persephone is taking a nap, though, so just... enjoy how pretty again. ❤

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FINALLY. 😀 😀 😀 All these years I've known them + @Audiodacity literally has to play at my work for me to be able to see their set. 😄 [[ I'll get better at this guys, I promise! 😘 ]] BABIES. SEE THIS BAND WHENEVER YOU CAN, THEY'RE SO GREAT. ❤ ❤ ❤ Also, visit the #IMA because it's lovely again. #Audiodacity #DiscoverNewfields #HelloSpring

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In celebration of this Pascal Season. 😘 #AmReading #Lamb #FifthGospel #GospelAccordingtoBiff #NoOneCanSayTheSonOfGodNeverSmoteAnyoneInTheFace

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You may be cool, but if you aint, "Get free drinks at the metal bar for your theological proselytizations on Good Friday," cool, you need to get on our level, bb. ❤ @kumascorner #GoodFriday #EliEliLamaSabachthani (at Kuma's Corner Indianapolis)

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Good morning, babies. I hope you all find yourselves capable of meditating throughout the day; if not, right now, I hope you learn to make time for you. FITNESS TIP I: Everyone you encounter in this world will teach you something, so pay attention. Sometimes the lessons are clear, other times not, but the gist can be as simple as this: Learning how you don't want to be is just as important as deciding who you do want to be, and the people you surround yourself with provide great examples of the frequency in which you are comfortable existing. On the same token, some people teach you how you want to be treated, versus how you don't. Be careful + aware of the energy you invite into your life. The great thing about people is that if you're ever uncertain as to the kind of person someone truly is, they will always show you. Let them. Listen. I have had the bad habit in the past of empathizing first, protecting myself later, thereby providing too many excuses as explanations for the behaviour exhibited + never stopping to think, "Just because I resonate at a deeper level doesn't mean everyone else does; maybe this person is just precisely what they're showing me." Some of you have been so helpful in pulling me out of my depths for a second to finally see someone at face value. See them at their own frequency. It hurts, sometimes, but I can't thank you enough for that. FITNESS TIP II: I. just. adore. how many of you feel you can come to me. About anything. Be it on behalf of yourself or people you want to help + know you can't. I've been through a bit, which gives me a very unique perspective on life. If you recognize that + wish to ask me for either advice or objectivity, please do not hesitate. I've been told, often, that I am "the strongest person" some of you know. Though that's flattering, I don't think that's true. But I think I see why, so have a secret to share: When you've gone through the fire, you can either harden your heart so it never feels it again or raise your tolerance for future pain. Having a penchant for choosing the latter isn't a pleasant experience, but it's the one I will always choose to be able to love in the way that I do. ❤

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It's such a good thing that my first order of books came in the mail, as I am truly at a loss for words. To be honest, it wasn't real to me until just now... Thank you all for making this possible. If you've ever wondered if you've affected my life in some way, you have + I love you. Even if we never speak - I am so glad you're here. ❤ #ImNotCryingYoureCrying #AmWriting#AmPublished #InsomnioticFluid #Zeitf #ZeitVitriol #Vitriol #Poetry #FlashFiction #IsthisRealLife

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This sweet muffin just asked if Aunt Patty shits out Reeseter Eggs the way the Easter Bunny does with coloured eggs... Ya caught me, tiny bae. Reeseter Bunny, reporting for duty. ❤ [[ps: yes, the only colouring book I own is #Hush but he loves #Batman ergo get off me... ]]

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Slinging art for the inimitable Chelsey Penrod at the Mousetrap last night + everyone thought this beautiful lady was me. ... it's because I am also a pale nimbus ghost hollow of a girl in dark lipstick, isn't it? #ChangeofFaceArtistry #OriginalArt #HighTechLowLife #HighLightsLowNeckLines

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Goals for 2018: 1. Have beautiful hair again. 2. Act in movies again. I am Jack's inflamed sense of rejection. #IAmJacksWastedLife #Vanguard #IndyActor