I've got pawtism!

Luna Moon - it/its - 30s - autism, mental health, and general disability side blog - main: @puppyfag-luna

[pawtism-luna]

Introductions

Our name is Luna Moon (it/its) and we are the main host of our current system! We are in our early 30s. We are queer, intersex, nonbinary, aroacespec, and a dog. We made this blog to be a place for us to talk about our disabilities, both the vents and the wins. We try very hard to view my disabilities as a neutral thing, and not something that needs to be hidden or cause shame.

We are autistic and our therapist suspects ADHD too. We have CPTSD and are currently seeing a therapist to us manage moving forward in our life. A large part of our neglectful abuse at home involved our mother denying us the physical and mental health care we needed, and even has stepped in to stop us from getting help as an adult. We know we are currently under-diagnosed and hoping we can figure things out and get more help/support, because we are constantly drowning.

We are struggling a lot with autistic burnout and regression from many stressful and traumatizing events that happened in our 20s. We haven't all figured out what skills of ours are just temporarily struggling vs might be permanently lost skills vs skills we never actually had but were forced to mask and pretend we could do it. We tend to yap a lot about autism burnout and pushing ourselves too far because we hate seeing this happen to other folks.

We have also been diagnosed with POTS, Hashimotos, chronic Gastritis, PMDD, PCOS and some other things. We have hyper mobility that causes us pain, but have not been able to be evaluated for hEDS yet. We had surgery to remove a dysfunctional gallbladder almost 10 years ago. Our therapist tells us a lot of these things are common in people with autism.

We are a part time high and low tech AAC user. We have used communication cards in the past, and have started using an AAC app to speak this year. We use both symbols and typing to talk. We have to mouth speak at work, but outside of work we tend to prefer using our AAC.

We do at times experience extreme paranoia, delusions, and hallucinations. We haven't been told we have been diagnosed with what is causing it yet, but are continuing to work with our therapist to understand it.

This blog is safe for people with all mental illnesses, even the scary ones. This includes shizospec, schizophrenia, and personality disorders. When we were younger we were diagnosed with a personality disorder and we are familiar with the mistreatment that comes with it, both medically and socially. We do not believe in narc abuse or anything similar.

We are plural and therian and this is a blog that welcomes other plural and nonhuman/alterhuman folks of all origins, including endo system and physical nonhumans.

This blog does not have a DNI, we will block individuals who make us uncomfortable. Please follow your own DNI when interacting with us.

We are more than okay with asks about our disabilities, autism, or AAC, as long as they are asked with respect. We like sharing information with others when we can. There may be times we can't answer you because of privacy or safety concerns, thank you for understanding!

[amarillodelbosque]

AAC user Madoka!!

silly headcannon i have!! madoka already seem autistic to me

[unwell-radio-transmissions]

what 'cyberpunk dystopia already exists for disabled people' looks like for high tech aac users:

(here using 'voice' to mean both an aac program and an aac device.)

Your voice used to be free but now is behind a paywall. Your voice only runs on a subscription payment model and doesn't offer outright purchasing. The cost of outright purchasing your voice is several hundred dollars. Your voice runs ads. Your voice has planned obsolescence. Your voice ran out of funding and is no longer being updated. Your voice is free but requires coding knowledge to create. Your voice can only be used and accessed with a wifi connection. The people most trained to help you with your voice are expensive or unavailable specialists. You require additional aids to use your voice that are difficult to get and/or expensive.

Feel free to add on your own experiences. We listen to and look out for each other.

[kaninchenzero]

your voice may omit words about sex, reproduction, drugs, and other "adult" stuff, preventing you from being able to join conversations, express desire, or describe assault

[catgirlapologist]

isn't it insane though how schizophrenic people are viewed as violent and dangerous by the majority of society when in reality schizophrenic people are nearly 14 times more likely to be on the receiving end of violence than to be the perpetrators...

[catgirlapologist]

schizophrenic person: makes a post trying to raise awareness about the disproportionate abuse and harmful stereotypes schizophrenic people face

yall: "yeah im not gonna reblog this they used the word ins*ne which is so problematic ://"

[truth-spatter]

What the fuck happens that changes these stats to such a massive degree?

[catgirlapologist]

1) schizophrenia hardly ever causes people to be violent so schizophrenic people aren’t more likely to be violent than anyone else

2) schizophrenic people’s autonomy is often taken away from them because of their schizophrenia. because the authorities and mental healthcare providers often automatically assume schizophrenic people to be violent, they’re more likely to immediately react to schizophrenic people's symptoms with violence, without even knowing for sure said schizophrenic person was going to be violent. all of this causes schizophrenic people to be more likely of being victims of violence and abuse. schizophrenic people also have a harder time getting out of abusive households because of the risk of their autonomy being taken away. if a schizophrenic person’s relative or partner is abusive, often the schizophrenic person has no way out of the situation, both because our disconnect from reality can result in us being easier to manipulate, and because the system is built in a way that it takes away our autonomy because of our condition.

[catgirlapologist]

also schizophrenic people and psychotic people in general, please do a lot of research before picking a provider for your own sake, and if they try to treat your psychosis in a way that you think is harmful then don’t hesitate to switch providers. your safety and wellbeing should be a priority over everything else.

[catgirlapologist]

can y'all please reblog this version instead

[disabled-mermairy]

friendly reminder that it’s not ok to mock how high tech AAC sounds

I Know it pronounces stuff weird sometimes and I Know it sounds robotic you don’t have to tell me. I know. some of us are hyper aware of it. stop pointing out shit we have no control over.

it’s mean to make fun of how somebody speaks verbally and it’s mean to mock somebody speaking with technology. don’t do it.

[postmanic]

a comic about verbal words :3

[chronicbitchsyndrome]

whenever you stop and listen to self advocacy by people w cognitive disabilities we're always saying things like "i want to choose what clothes to wear" "i want to date without someone supervising me" "i want to have input into what medication and surgeries i get" and like that's really fucking sad and nobody seems to consider how fucking miserable it is for any class in society to be pleading for these things as a group

[byjove]

on my posts about sexy Neanderthals people keep being like “they could not consent because they did not have the vocal range needed for complex speech” HELLO???? ableist weirdo. an inability to speak does not necessarily indicate an inability to consent, people with mutism are capable of having happy and healthy sex lives. verbal communication is not the only kind of communication. based on the close and complex society Neanderthals exhibited, I’m certain they had other forms of communication and since they created art, I’m certain they had fairly advanced forms of expressing themselves.

[openmindpsych]

sometimes autistic people still come across as weird, annoying, creepy, rude, "unlikable", or incomprehensible even when they're talking to other autistic people. autism is a communication disorder first and foremost. even if we can generally have fewer problems communicating with one another than with allistics, that doesn't mean that it's entirely a "language barrier" so to speak. our communication is still impaired even when we're talking to each other.

[stuffieautism]

one thing i’ve noticed is that people are very quick to claim you’re not really autistic and just “acting” when you look more autistic than they think is acceptable. this constant rocking back and forth verbal impairment holding a plushie and actually playing with it glancing around moving weird autistic person is too strange for them. they feel the need to distance from and shame me because the presence of a higher support needs autistic person makes them feel like they could be seen as like me in some way and that disgusts them. so this too-weird autistic person is actually nothing like them and actually i’m not autistic at all

[cytochrome-symbolz]

know (image of a blue dog looking at a yellow lightbulb)

work (image of a blue dog holding a shepherds crook looking after two white sheep)

[postmanic]

a comic about different ways autistic people communicate and show we care!

shoutout to @3leafedclover , @mickeymusketeer , and my partner for helping me out with this one and also for letting me use your characters (black cat with shades, orange dog with the mickey plushie, and orange/white dog with the 'nervous' vest, respectively!), y'all are awesomes!

also thank you @3leafedclover for the image ids!

[lifeafterpsychiatry]

Saw a post where someone made fun of another persons atypical way of typing and when they were then told that the person in question type like that because of a disability, they went “how was I supposed to just know that?” - and in case anyone wasn’t aware the answer to that kind of fuckery is: 

“You’re not supposed to know that, you’re just supposed to not make fun of anyone’s harmless differences regardless of whether they’re disabled or not. You’re not supposed to be able to tell “weird” abled neurotypicals and disabled/mentally ill people apart, you’re just supposed to treat people with respect generally speaking. It’s not that hard. “I didn’t know they were disabled” is just not the excuse you think it is cause you’re not supposed to make fun of anyone for completely harmless differences regardless of whether said differences are related to a disability or not.

[asexual-amanita]

Yes, you can call yourself disabled even if you don’t have a diagnosis yet. Disabilities exist before diagnosis. You are valid. Your disabled experience is valid. Those who are still seeking answers will always be welcome in the disabled community.

PS: There’s even a stripe for you on the disability pride flag! The white middle stripe represents undiagnosed and invisible disabilities.

[rainbow-rings-art]

us if we were a lobstaaaa /ref

anser using (our) aac

[pawtism-luna]

We made a zine about AAC. You can download it for free from our kofi shop.

[pawtism-luna]

Teehee while out for a walk today we left our zine in a LFL in the park. On the way back we stopped back to peak and someone had taken and displayed it all nicely inside :] (originally we just threw it in the bottom corner lol)

[diserbillyti]

As the United States continues to amp up its ableist policies, particularly regarding autism, with the characterization of autism being that of a high support needs, intellectually disabled child, I think it is of the utmost importance that low support needs people who, building from RFK Jr.'s definition of autism,

can pay taxes,

can hold a job,

can play baseball,

can write a poem,

have been on a date, and

who have used a toilet unassisted,

understand that "actually I've done those things and I'm autistic!" is not some defeat of ableist rhetoric. All you are saying is "well, he isn't talking about me!" and you're right, he isn't, he's talking about the people he meticulously described who, much to the frustration of low support needs autistic politics, do exist. They're out there. I've seen them. I've worked with them for years. They're often concentrated into institutionalized life and therefore extremely vulnerable.

You surely know who Hans Asperger was and what happened to the kids identified as Autism Flavour A, rather than Autism Flavour B.

In previous fascist and eugenicist movements, the scientific concensus shifting from curable to incurable was pretty fucking bad. Scientifically accurate in some respects, yes, but the thing about people being labelled as a useless eaters and then impossible to "fix" after "scientific" investigation, is that this creates an extremely tenuous situation where one of two things is going to happen: either the same fascist government that accepted a framing of eliminating the specific disabled population accepts they are incurable and decides to support them, or they investigate alternative solutions.

In about 1908, Eugen Bleuler defined "schizophrenia," and part of his definition involved schizophrenia's incurability.

By 1945, it was credibly believed there were no schizophrenics in Germany.

These are dangerous times, and dangerous concepts. Even if they say "cure" now, know embracing the framing of life unworthy of life and applying it to people who DO exist, sets the precedent for darker times ahead.

When you say that "well I'm autistic and I can do that!" you contribute less than nothing to the conversation. This is not an act of resistance, this is an act of classifying oneself as Autism Flavour A, when what you need to do is defend the people of Autism Flavour B.

I could give a fuck less if you can write a poem, Kyle.

Make it clear you'll protest on behalf of the kid who can't.