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linden, it/its, chronically ill and physically disabled, autism with medium-high support needs, other neurodivergencies, plushie special interest!!!!!

[stuffieautism]

🦕✨🌈 hi everyone! i'm making this blog to talk about my disabilities so my main @8irdies doesn't get too loud. i'm a toy collector, writer, and artist. my special interests consume my entire life and i wouldn't trade my love for them away for anything.

i also have multiple physical disabilities, chronic illnesses, and neurodevelopmental disorders. nonverbal (i cannot talk at all) and full-time aac user (mostly home sign and my communication device)

i use it/its pronouns and am bigender, in my 20s

diagnosed with autism; found by care team to have level 2 social communication, level 3 restricted repetitive behaviors.

identify with the labels cripplepunk, neuropunk, and autpunk + will (try to) be who i am and (try to) ask for what i need whether or not abled people like it

if you would like to support a queer severely disabled person who is unable to work check out my p@tre0n 💛

[disabled-dyke]

so one of the most insanely fucked things about getting on SSDI disability in the US is that if you don’t have enough work credits, you’re not eligible. period.

sorry, you’ve never been able to work because of your disability? sorry you don’t qualify for SSDI, only SSI. we don’t care that SSI is under poverty level and that disabled people have higher costs of living. oh you have $2000.01 in your bank account? we’re taking you off it immediately and it will take you a looong time to get back on.

sure there’s Disabled Adult Child, buuut your parent/s either need to be on disability themselves, on SSA retirement, or dead. and you only get 50% of their payments.

it’s definitely not by design. certainly not ableism and eugenics, no, no.

[im-problematic-ignore-me]

Stop telling disabled people they're not allowed to exist in public. I'm so fucking done with this being brought up in spaces that are supposed to be "safe."

I'm looking at you age regression community.

The amount of fucking times I've had to have the same conversations with ignorant ableists about minding their fucking business about how others cope without hurting a single fucking soul is appalling.

You are only hurting your own community, plus disabled people every time you claim people can't bring any gear outside.

I don't give a flying fuck if people are uncomfortable seeing that person in the emerge holding onto their dear stuffed friend. Mind your damn business. I don't care if you're uncomfortable seeing a sliver of someone's diaper for a single second as their shirt lifts up as they play basketball. Mind. Your. Damn. Business. I DON'T CARE if you're closed minded ignorant ass can't fathom seeing someone with a pacifier in their mouth at the mall. Mind your mother fuckin DAMN BUSINESS.

You have NO idea why someone might have certain gear out in public. And telling them to leave it behind closed doors is ableist no matter how you fucking twist it.

Get your head out of your ass and see beyond your own fucking nose. You aren't the center of the universe. You entitled privileged fuck. Fight me and my crippled disabled ass.

[starfuckerz-incorporated]

i think leftists need to start thinking of taking a job as a psychologist/ psychiatrist with the same extreme suspicion as someone taking a job in the justice system

yes, the person in the justice system *could* be a prison teacher or a restorative justice practitioner, but most likely they are going to uphold the status quo and make a living of the violent oppression of others.

just like how the psych *could* be anti forced rescue, anti forced treatment and work with service users to decide if they wish to be diagnosed or not. but more likely, they will swallow what the system teaches them unquestioningly, and go on to enact terrible violence to a group of people they see as a doomed underclass to fall in line with the policies of regulatory bodies.

[five-thousand-loaves-of-bread]

uhhhm not to poke hornet nest but like. (scratches head) ok gentlest way possible

there many disabilities (n other experiences n identities in general) only one system member have/be when you aka the whole system aka “body” no have [edit: ? idk what this mess of paragraph be but mean to say there many disabilities (n other experiences n identities in general) that only the whole system aka “body” can have n not only individual system members n not others]

your system member can’t be autistic unless whole system body brain everyone be autistic - symptom may present different for various system member but entire system be autistic

would even go on say again yes different system member can have different experiences n needs… but it rly uncomfortable as higher support need person talk to someone who call self HSN n later find out they mean they as system member in system that… not HSN

same with nonverbal - yes can have system members who do not speak but it rly uncomfortable as nonverbal person talk to someone who call self nonverbal too n only later find out they mean they as system member in a verbal system

esp there are high support need systems there are nonverbal systems

your system member not intellectually disabled / have intellectual disability unless whole system be it have it

your system member not “have” facial difference or limb difference unless you bodily have facial or limb difference… having it in headspace not same as living w it external

n to echo my Deaf friends, your system member not be Deaf unless whole system Deaf - can absolutely have system member who not able hear but Deaf be very specific meaning

(in similar vein your system member not “Asian” “Black” etc unless you actually be Asian or Black or etc aka whole system “bodily” etc however wanna call it)

like idk how better way say it (or not want hornet nest explode onto face) but like. some things need be Bodily. there whole meaning n specific experiences n reasons n basis n often culture behind words

well aware some system / members see self as fully separate whole peoples within system n may even complete amnesia every time but still following that logic n term n perspective it be very different from i guess living full time in body minds with that specific thing or systems who live in body minds w that specific thing.

not open to any more “syscourse” convo this not be invitation

[asexual-amanita]

Autism actually can make people violent and aggressive, and I’m tired of “autism advocates” saying it can’t. Many autistic people, especially higher support needs people lose control of their bodies during meltdowns and times of high emotion. Some autistics have limited control of their bodies at all times. This body brain disconnect is a prevalent associative feature of autism. This is not to say that measures shouldn’t be taken to protect and teach the autistic person and others, but you can’t erase real, but stigmatized parts of a condition, and then dare to call yourself an advocate. Just because a symptom is unpleasant or unpalatable doesn’t mean it’s not a genuine part of the disorder. Stop ‘cleansing’ your autism advocacy.

[sandersstudies]

Me: Well, I think it’s wrong to say that children are disgusting and repulsive. They are human beings who deserve respect.

Someone: But have you considered that they [something that applies to many disabled adults]

Me: … :) So. I think human beings with those traits still deserve equal love and respect. Actually.

[stuffieautism]

over six months no functional speech. over six months nonverbal.

mom still won’t accept it. still hear her on phone every week talking about how she just wishes i were “back to normal”. it was only ever normal for her

she says “you are like a ghost to me now” to my face while i sit there with device. i have no response to type. i am not a ghost? i am your kid and i sit here in front of you. i am still me? why don’t you understand? why can’t i be the same person who you have said you love. because i don’t talk.

[autie-hobbit]

Something I've been seeing quite a bit from people that believe that Autism is only a disability because of society, is the idea that the way higher support needs Autistic people become not disabled in our society is by having people around them help them with all of the things they can't do.

And like, I feel like this speaks to the massive disconnect between LSN Autistics and HrSN Autistics.

Having to rely on others just to be able to exist in the world, is, in and of itself, very disabling.

You can't do what you want, when you want. You are constantly on other people's time. If someone forgets or doesn't show up for you, then you're stuck, you can't do anything about it. Because you're disabled.

I highly implore that anyone that thinks this to please go and listen to and talk to higher support needs disabled people, and disabled people that have carers.

It is okay to be disabled.

[daeughterr]

Also friendly reminder that needing help to do basic tasks because you have a disability doesn’t make you a burden.

Able bodied people need help all the time and no one gives them half as much shit for it

You are not a burden because you have different needs or require more frequent help to meet those needs.

[five-thousand-loaves-of-bread]

you n your high support needs (HSN) / level 3 / severe / nonverbal etc autism never “high support needs” “level 3” “severe” “profound” “nonverbal” enough

if can speak by mouth then you not the “real” HSN we talk abt

if can communicate thoughts n try teach people with OWN voice n maybe make world understand you & people who may not be able communicate those similar HSN experiences better, then you not the “real” HSN we talk abt

if have functional communication then you not the “real” HSN we talk abt

if can get education then you not the “real” HSN we talk about

if not scream all the time then you not the “real” HSN we talk about

if have friends then you not the “real” HSN we talk abt

if can have sliver of meaningful resistance then you not the “real” HSN we talk about

bc we all know “real” HSN be perfect pliant talking points u can mold into whatever that support your view bc they not have voice right they can’t have voice or else they not “real HSN”, “real HSN” not have voice so need us have voice be their voice (but only us!! not the fake HSN people they not HSN profound enough)

or sth like that

(^ an pretend to say what those people say. not actually believe it)

words not work recently but it really funny how

say you advocate for HSN autistic ppl level 3 ppl severe profound autism ppl without functional communication. who can’t self advocate so you need do “for” them. bc world not understand n not support.

n oh look there be a HSN level 3 autistic person who try hardest get world understand n support, who can talk abt what it like be like a HSN level 3 person! n so maybe maybe performatively say, oh this be great! someone who lived experience give insight on what it like BE THE ONE ACTUAL LIVE IT!

then show true color, what you believe this entire time, when they say sth you not agree with, you can’t twist, that not benefit u. then suddenly they not qualified enough to speak on this (but you are??) bc well see they can speak they can communicate they not screaming they educated they have degree they have friends they this they that so they not the REAL HSN level 3 profound you mean. the REAL hsn Level 3 profound can’t do all that n it insulting YOU that they share same

if disagree w you then we not HSN anymore

bc now that some HSN ppl have voice can self advocate (with support u not see so must not exist) you can’t twist n manipulate n finger puppet through then that make you mad n so they must not be HSN enough

we perfect cute lil HSN people until we show autonomy n advocacy (ya know, the thing u advocate for) in way that you can’t finger puppet or be “our voice” speak for us while hide behind us the gracious cause

the perfect and real HSN autistic be someone who can’t communicate can’t resist n be perfect little puppet for you to speak through.

admit it. you want us stay that way.

[2003-playground]

It really really frustrates me when some people, disabled or not, say "well I can do [x thing] because I was forced to" in response to someone saying they can't do something.

"Well I had to eat whatever was for dinner or else I would have starved."

Me too! And I became severely malnourished because I could not eat what was put in front of me.

"My parents hit me if I didn't get good grades so I had to."

Mine too! Except I could not get good grades in a mainstream class no matter how hard I tried or what was at stake.

"I have to mask because I need to keep my job."

Me too! Except I can't even pass an interview because of my limited ability to mask.

"I can't have meltdowns around other people or else I'll be bullied/abused/mocked."

Same here! But I can't hold in my meltdowns.

You need to understand that some people will never be able to do the things you can, no matter how hard they're pushed or what the consequences are for not doing it. I'm really sorry that you were forced to talk, but someone else being unable to speak does not mean that they could if there was enough pressure. Stop assuming that everyone who doesn't mask/speak/etc. grew up in a safe and supportive environment. There are people who would (and do!) die because they're neglected and can't learn to just do things themselves.

I really don't want to be the "other people have it worse" guy or come across like I don't think people are allowed to complain about something just because it's less extreme than someone else's situation, but some of you need to have more compassion for people who are not like you. Just be kind. And if someone says they can't do something, don't assume that it's because they were coddled or whatever.

[post-human-oddity]

"if you had to you would" is a lie that kills people

[only-knives]

I really dont see enough people talk about how hard it can be to do things that you enjoy when you're autistic, especially if you have higher support needs.

It's not just that it's hard to do things that have to be done, like managing appointments, grocery shopping, cleaning, self care, eating, communicating, etc. These are important, but at least someone can help by communicating on my behalf, for example.

What can hurt more is... There are so many things I want to and love to do... but I often can't do them because I get overwhelmed so easily. Videogames. Playing with my cat. Watching a video. Listening to music. Making art. Going outside.

All these things can cause autistic meltdowns for me. I can get sensory overload. I can get confused and struggle to do the steps of the task. I can get cognitive overload from excitement. I often have even worse meltdowns with these tasks - I'm not only overwhelmed by the thing, but dysregulated because I love the thing and can't do it.

I love art, cats, music, videogames, nature. They're my special interests, but that doesn't mean they're all sunshine and rainbows. They're not immune from my other autistic traits & symptoms. It's hard being autistic for me, no matter what it is.

I wish more people understood that, and.. if you struggle the same way, you aren't alone. It's okay to struggle with your special interests. It's okay to be disabled by autism.

You're not doing anything wrong. There's nothing wrong with you. You're just neurodivergent & disabled. And even thought that sucks sometimes or a lot: it's also okay. You still deserve support and respect as much as anyone else.

[stuffieautism]

hate that as nonverbal & HrSN autistic people say i have no quality of life because i can't live their way (the only way they see valid)

and when i say "actually i quite want to be alive and also i need support to have my basic needs met and am not getting that. but when i am alive i get to have my toys and plushies and animal crossing and everything that makes me happy and i would like to live more for those things"

response is either "well you're lying because if you were really that autistic couldn't use internet."

"i know person like you and it is clear they have no quality of life and so you shouldn't be alive"

or "those are no reasons to live. you need to be like these people (job, not need daily care, independent or mostly so, smart, speaking, don't injure self involuntarily, etc etc) to be worth keeping alive"

they get to say our lives would be better not existing. we don't get to be heard to say we want to be here, we just want the world to be better for us

[postmanic]

comic i made about being higher supports needs autism and masking

(btw if anyone can help me out by writing an image ID for this that would be much appreciated !! - EDIT: here! thank u clover!!)

[deaf-cat-collective]

I <3 you pediatric psych survivors. We've dealt with so much and we're still alive and kicking. It wasn't right how they treated us and nothing you ever did could have ever justified it

[stuffieautism]

Do you have splootie puppy jellycat? If so, opinions on him?? I just ordered mine and I am excited!!

noo i dont!! i have some friends who got the splooties tho and im jelly :D looks like a perfect bedtime cuddle bud!