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[pazwashere]

Beware / Callout warning.

ATTENTION BEATLEMANIACS AND NINJAGO FANDOM!!!

I know I died about three years ago but I temporarily revived this account to discuss something very serious because I've been waiting far too long to say something about it.

If anyone knows @/lennon-cuddlywump, please understand that they are a gr00m3r and active pr3d4t0r in The Beatles and Ninjago community.

This is someone I used to consider as my friend all up until the very beginning of 2021 when the allegations first began to come up, but for the sake of my younger friends from DA and the very disgraced Beatles Amino, I wanted to wait for them to be okay with me talking about it to protect them and ensure they were safe.

This user, who goes by the pseudonym "Rita", is in their mid to late 20s and has been continuously engaging in NSFW role play with minors for the last 8 years. One of them being my good friend from the same Amino, @smittenzs, who started engaging with Rita when he was 12 and Rita was 18.

This was in 2018.

In 2019, Rita would begin uploading vore drawings and vore fanfics - sometimes ABDL related - regarding REAL musicians and their own ch1ldr3n, engaging with more people and minors within the Beatles community at the side. Art trades, fanfictions, and roleplays regarding the same depraved topics have been overlooked by Rita's following and at this rate, autism and other mental health conditions they may have are not excusable for the subject at hand.

Fuck, I'm autistic with ADHD, anxiety, and fucking borderline personality disorder, yet I have zero desire to do any of the things done by this sinister user. What in any way, shape, or form does having autism and mental illness have to do with preying on k1d5?

It's revolting.

In 2021, during my dark period after leaving the Beatles Amino, Smittenzs was 15 at the time and reached out to me to talk about his true feelings about Rita while I was processing the p3d0ph1l1c actions the BA admins made on me a few years prior. I blocked Rita AND pleaded with my friend to be careful when talking to any adult online, and all to the point of making myself sick and sleepless for the entirety of that year.

As far as I know, as of this current time, Rita is still active. I do not see much of their art anymore, but they do lurk online and reblog posts regarding their AUs and fandoms.

TLDR: PLEASE DO NOT FOLLOW OR ENGAGE IN ANYTHING FROM THE USER @/lennon-cuddlywump. They are SCUM.

[n0nexistantttt-deactivated20260]

This account hasn't been Beatles or Ninjago related in quite sometime, but I can't be silent about this any longer.

It's me, I'm smittens. I'm currently 18, almost 19. This is my side of the whole story. Rita began talking to me when I was 12 years old on Wattpad, and we kept talking until I cut her off right around when I turned 17 or so.

Rita has gone by a lot of names on the internet. Some I believe she's going by now, are Ringo Starrmadon on Discord, Bloatles on Wattpad, and lennon-cuddlywump on tumblr. I believe she still actively engages in the Ninjago and Beatles fandoms, both of which are full of minors. If you are a minor in either community, please take the time to read through this. I don't want what happened to me to happen to anybody else.

General trigger warning for the following topics:

Sexual discussions with a minor

Predatory behavior

Sexual topics and mentions of kink (specifically vore, WG, and ABDL)

RPF (real person fanfic) and sexual/kink RPF

Please do not witchhunt, harass, or threaten anybody mentioned in these posts. This is meant to spread awareness and nothing more

Things began back in 2018. I was twelve years old, actively finishing out sixth grade, and actively on Wattpad, engaging in the Beatles fandom. I knew of Rita, and her work, and I was a fan of her more family friendly beatles content. I can't remember if I reached out, or if she reached out first. But we began talking.

Even before things got weird between us, I knew she had a thing for weight gain and inflation. It was what she was known for. From what I know, her fanbase was mostly minors, like myself, yet she still posted fat fics, fat art, and a bunch of stuff like that. If you look at her wattpad page, it's just fanart of the cartoon beatles, but fat.

Now, something I should point out, Wattpad removed their private messaging feature, and I lost access to the account we talked through ages ago, so I won't have screenshots for what happened on wattpad. I might be able to scrounge up one or two screenshots, but for the most part, I'm asking you to just please take my word for it.

Things were sexual almost right off the bat. After I think a week or two of us talking, she mentioned a beatles AU she had where Ringo was a rich sugar daddy, and Paul was his sugar baby. Immediately we began roleplaying this fantasy. She always played as Ringo, I always played as Paul. We called them cowrites. I was twelve. She was either a junior or senior in high school.

I managed to scrounge up a couple of old screenshots off of my old icloud account. These are very hard for me to share due to their disturbing nature. (CW: RPF smut)

This is the tamest of what I could find

After I lost access to my wattpad account, we moved everything to discord. This commenced in a three to four year period where we would do NSFW roleplays like this. I was living in a highly restrictive household, and I found a lot of solace in the internet. I was developing my sexuality still, and I was finding myself interacting with a lot of kinks and fetishes, at way too young of an age (piss play, ABDL, diaper fetishes) and she was encouraging it. I will admit, I started a lot of our NSFW roleplays, but I was a young teen. I struggled with hypersexuality due to my trauma, and often used NSFW stuff to cope. I was 12, 13 and 14 when most of this was happening. She was in her late teens to early twenties. She should have been a responsible adult, and known better. She should have shot that stuff down right off the bat but she didnt. She KNEW how old I was, and she still did stuff like this anyway. In fact, she actually encouraged it.

I don't want to share most of our discord screenshots because they're very embarrassing for me to look back on. They are also very disturbing. But here's a snapshot into what everything was like.

Here's proof she knew I was under 18. This is from december 8th. I was 13.

I would draw NSFW and show her. She encouraged it. CW: Sexual Content

Here's an example of fetish stuff we would talk about CW: Mentions of omorashi

I know these screenshots are disturbing and fucked up. I know about all of this. I didn't want to share them but I really don't want this happening again. I was thirteen. Please be nice.

I don't have any screenshots of specific RPs we did because they were in an old discord server I've long since deleted. Here's the best evidence I could find

This is from june of 2019. I would have been turning 14 in a few months. She was in either her senior year of high school, or just starting college.

here is a snapshot from later on in that RP from that same day.

CW: Kink RP, Sexual content

As far as I know, she's still in the Beatles and Ninjago fandom. I think she's still posting fat art and junk on her DA and Wattpad. She doesn't post as much on tumblr

This is as much as I am willing to share. This was very hard for me to do, so please be nice to me in the comments. I didn't want to post explicit screenshots, but I need people to see how fucking creepy she was.

She's also been accused of grooming in the past, when I was around 15 or so. I was stupid enough to defend and stick up for her.

For the victim of that incident, I am so sorry I didn't realize how horrible she was sooner. I'm so sorry I didn't say anything, and actually defended what Rita did. You were just a kid, you didn't deserve it. Oh! Minor edit. They're also a fucking proshipper!! For anyone who's in the Ninjago fandom, they ship greenflame, which is a ship between Kai and Lloyd. So yeah, major creep.

Thank you for taking the time to read all of that bullshit. Please STAY THE FUCK AWAY from lennon-cuddlywump/bloatles/ringo starrmadon. Don't let her into any discord servers, don't interact with her, just please don't do ANYTHING with her. She is scum, and she fucked me up immensely. Luckily, I was able to build up the courage and the strength to post this whole document thanks to the help of my big bro, who's post I reblogged, and my wonderful amazing girlfriend. Thank you so much for helping me process all of this, and giving me the support I need to get through this. Yall are the best

One more time, please DO NOT harass anybody mentioned. Just block, report, and don't let her into your communities.

Thank you. UPDATE: They currently go by sir-duke-of-rattler on tumblr. Be safe!!

[pazwashere]

REBLOGGING MY OWN POST AGAIN AND PINNING IT BECAUSE JULES REPLIED WITH HIS OFFICIAL TESTIMONY!! Please, please, please read everything and do not let this go under the radar. This is absolutely insane and vile.

[pazwashere]

I am a totally normal and mentally stable person.

I am a totally normal and mentally stable person.

I am a totally normal and mentally stable person.

[catrina-pauk]

🌹Арт на 500 реблогов🌹

[furryprovocateur]

i hope that bi woman and her boyfriend ruin pride for 23000 people

[n-noisemaster]

[cheebuss]

I had a terrible vision

[ineffectualdemon]

Since the OP made their post unrebloggable (and blocked me. Both actions they are well in with their right to do)

I'm going to make my response it's own post because I think the point is important

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As someone who is autistic and has BPD and CPTSD and loads of trauma yes you sometimes need to change how you interact with others to keep people around

When I was 13 I hit the few friends I had when I was angry

I had to change that in order to keep those friendships

When I was in my early 20s if I was losing an disagreement with my husband I would threaten to kill myself. My husband told me it hurt him and was cruel and manipulative behaviour, because it was.

So I worked hard to change that to keep my relationship

It's easy to say "I shouldn't have to change for others" and that's true to an extent. You shouldn't change your interests or passions or dim your light. And you should have space to be imperfect and flawed and not have to pretend your ugly bits aren't real. But if something you are doing it causing other people harm you kinda need to change that.

That's called "living in a society"

People adapt to each other and make space for each other in their lives. You adapt to them and they adapt to you

You start being more diligent about throwing away the empty toilet roll because it really bothers them. They start warning you before they run the blender because you hate loud noises

I stopped threatening to kill myself because I was mad I was losing an argument and my husband stopped being so vocally judgemental amount media he personally dislikes

There is a certain type of person who heard the phrase "your emotions are valid" and took that to mean "my emotional reactions and my behaviour are always objectively correct because my emotions are valid and if you have an emotional response or react to what I'm doing negatively then you are wrong and you can't be hurt because my emotions are valid"

And that's a recipe for disaster

Your emotions are valid to feel. They are how you feel and there are reasons you feel the way you do

However, your reactions and behaviour are something you can learn to control and can be irrational

We live in a society and we as people change each other as we interact and that isn't necessarily a bad thing

[borderline-culture-is]

Diagnosed BPD culture is everyone in your fucking family calling you lazy and inconsiderate of other people when in reality, it's evidently the exact opposite. Yet, I'll still believe my family over anyone else and insist that I'm a very shit person.

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[beatlesincolour]

[wewerebornsextuplets]

you know what fuck it. phil collins album cover redraw

[freedomuniverses]

NEW OSOMATSU SAN SEASON!!! NO WAYYY!

[pazwashere]

I'm gonna jump the gun and self project for a second. This mfer is negative-symptoms-BPD coded and I've been kinning him in secrecy for the last 3 months.

[superbeans89]

RIP Kabosu, who inspired one of the most influential memes of all time; Doge.

2/11/2005 - 24/5/24

[hellsite-yano]

[hokuto-ju-no-ken]

Important to know, she passed in a loving and quiet moment being pet by her owner while the sun shone through a window and the birds sang outside

Her owner says it's as if she simply drifted to sleep

[pazwashere]

Osomatsu mountain de yoyoi no yoi.

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[bashcrandicoot]

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