Live Through This

Rachel J. 24 - PA - Veg - Designer Photos of me // Personal // Thoughts

[1forher-deactivated20220505]

[really-funny-posts]

:(

[demilypyro]

Before tumblr dies… anyone wanna admit they have a crush on me

[tailbud]

Having a “crush” is a level 3 horny offence and against Tumblr ToS, delete your fucking blog

[demilypyro]

Live horny die horny motherfuckers

[pettydavis]

being on here 5 years does not make you heauxes a tumblr ancient. im sorry but you have to have been here when ppl still said “creys” and “what is air” and you actually remember this cursed imaged

[koukidokie]

Been here way too long.

[biggest-gaudiest-poltergeist]

We were raised in, and exist in, a racist society.

Under these conditions: racism isn’t something you simply abstain from. Racism is something you must actively unlearn. 

[ghost-cassette]

And continually self-check for

[biggest-gaudiest-poltergeist]

And continually self-check for

[peachyxhoney]

I’m re-sharing this shot from the Friendsgiving I hosted last year (back when I had enough friends to host a Friendsgiving 🙈) to talk about how damaging big holiday meals like this can be for those suffering with body dysmorphia and/or eating disorders. Especially when you are being forced to be around family that makes you uncomfortable or tend to say triggering things. — Below are a few tips to help you & your family get through the big day tomorrow. 1. Focus on the person, not the body. (Aka “I’m so happy to see you! So glad you could make it!” Not “Have you lost/gained weight?” “You look great”) If you’re going to compliment someone, make it about something specific and not body-related. 🐣 2. Focus on the people, not the food. (No diet or “cheat day” talk) 🐥 3. Forget the food police. 🚫 (No judgement on how much anyone is eating, the portion sizes, getting seconds or thirds, etc) 🦃 I hope this can help some of you like it has helped me! Even if you can’t get some of your family to follow these “rules”, just having it in your head can help brush off the unwanted comments. Happy Thanksgiving! 🍁 (at Harrisburg, Pennsylvania) https://www.instagram.com/p/BqdHpjcHdlL/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=67313wnbd2ft

[peachyxhoney]

Hello here I am! One more day of work before the holiday weekend. How are we feeling? Any pre-holiday meal jitters? I’m definitely feeling a little all over the place mentally & emotionally, but still sturdy on my feet. November has been such a weird month for me but I’m here to make the most out of the last bits! 🙆‍♀️ - I haven’t taken a proper selfie in awhile so here’s one from last month 🦕 https://www.instagram.com/p/BqaciLunCIS/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=173uht36d74zi

[peachyxhoney]

Sooo ur girl is clearly slacking on here because I have new content on my YouTube channel and my blog and haven’t said a word!! I’m always sharing on my insta stories but if you don’t watch those, I’m here to tell ya that I have a new monthly goals blog up on 🍩donutjams.com🍩 AND I just finally uploaded the vlog from my weekend in Philly bein’ a hair model on my YouTube!! Link in bio! Go check them both out and sound off in the comments below 🎉 https://www.instagram.com/p/Bp5CENoH3pC/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1ljqz5yapezxl

[peachyxhoney]

“Hey, I know this is random. But, will you take a picture of me by the trees? I really like my outfit today.” My sister: *goes completely nuts, not a single straight angle* Well, okay 😅 Congratulations to @stashhbg and @midtowndandy on the grand opening of their shop! I’m gonna live forever in this new denim jacket now 💙 — #hbgmade #cherishburg #shopsmall #vintage https://www.instagram.com/p/BpuudHLHsyn/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1v61bfonnbc8s

[peachyxhoney]

That funny feeling ☕️ https://www.instagram.com/p/Bpr0Bdsn9db/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1m4xjtkxrjqwa

[peachyxhoney]

I just realized I haven’t added to my feed in awhile so here’s a picture of the tree in front of my house the day it suddenly turned a fiery red 🍁 - I didn’t really get to do anything fun or “halloweeny” all month and I’m pretty bummed about it but it’s about to be a new month so here’s to that. 🍷 https://www.instagram.com/p/BplBxManlJQ/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=ouygev4jmjk6

[peachyxhoney]

So apparently it’s been a year since I did my boudoir shoot with @ashleyseitz - and these beautiful pictures were never shared because I was too caught up with the look of my belly or my thighs and my body dysmorphia. That sucks. — They popped back up on my phone today and fell back in love with them, so here you go. — There has been a lot of talk this week about mental health and I thought it would be a good time to update my blog with some self-care tips. 🌹Go check it out through the link in my bio and let me know what your favorite self-care rituals are! https://www.instagram.com/p/Bo1_rC6gIR3/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=170gd7jxztlxj

[peachyxhoney]

It’s been over 3 years since I had my last panic attack. (See second picture) I am incredibly lucky for this. Over the years my depression has also become anxiety, bi-polar, PTSD, and OCD. Some days I wish I wasn’t in my body, both mentally and physically. I used to be a fighter and clawed my way out of these mental battles on my own, now I have the support of medication, an amazing therapist, and supportive friends. 🤝 — All of this to say, it’s okay to not be okay. You are not alone, we are in this together. And if you ever need someone to talk to, I’m here for you. Check in on the people you care about, tell them you love them, and don’t ever waste a second thinking you’re not good enough. Even if things seem dark and impossible right now, I promise you this life is worth sticking around for. I love you. Happy #worldmentalhealthday 💙 https://www.instagram.com/p/Bow7T-oAlS7/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1dov0jda9cgjb

[peachyxhoney]

This weekend was such a rush! Thank you so much to @quietcoolkid for doing my hair and letting me crash in your film room and @barnetfairhair for letting me be a part of the Old City Festival style exhibit! Oh, and the champagne. 🍾 - Love Philly, love creatives, love bad bitches 💅 (PS scroll for a surprise) Vlog coming later this week! (at Barnet Fair) https://www.instagram.com/p/Borkn1LgGlF/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1lp5l9ffz1h0n

[peachyxhoney]

The plant on the right is already dead 😬 I love those leaves but I always end up killing it! Anyone have better experience? #caladium #caladiumwhitechristmas #planthelp https://www.instagram.com/p/BokXnE0gnVG/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=ee1sahey1r53

[peachyxhoney]

I miss Chicago (at Millennium Park) https://www.instagram.com/p/Boh43NBg9JN/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=17x8h25itwk3

[peachyxhoney]

I signed up for @betterhelp a few months ago and I could not recommend it enough. I’ve had poor experiences with therapists in the past but the first therapist they chose for me is literally perfect. 🖤 — This week I sent her an 8 page text breaking down my sexual past, my first and second rape experiences, and more gritty, no-good experiences relating to men and my body. I guess it was timely of me to open up about it this week. But it probably goes without saying that I’m feeling very anxious and mentally/emotionally exhausted. So if I’m not posting much, that’s why. — If you feel so inclined I’d appreciate some cute memes rn. I’ll be in my bed watching Maniac and eating cereal, see ya. 👋 https://www.instagram.com/p/BoPtFd8gGWq/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=y9l9rlbhf6ac

[peachyxhoney]

Okay back to your regularly scheduled program of medium-quality selfies have a good day https://www.instagram.com/p/BoFGK1xg4hJ/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1s8hc96dxwdha