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[Sims 4] MDZS - Qishan Wen - Nightless City 不夜仙都

Hi All!

This is the last blog from my Sims4 MDZS Build series! Last but not least, the most powerful, wealthiest, and main antagonist in the story's first half is Qishan Wen Sect, Nightless City.

Source: https://modao-zushi.fandom.com/wiki/Nightless_City

Quoted from the moda-zushi.fandom, the Nightless City gained its name from the saying that there was no nightfall in their residence, which was comparable in size to a city.

When I look at the concept and the architecture, it reminds me of the Forbidden City, an actual site still preserved in Beijing, China. The fact that City is used to describe Wen Sect's residence shows how big and powerful Wen Sect is.

In the nightless city, there are some notable palaces like The Scorching Sun Palace and The Inferno Palace, which was Wen Ruohan's torture chamber.

However, as we have limited space in Sims and lack of reference from the series, I found a nicely built forbidden city replica by a Chinese user. With an additional touch, I renovated the lot to be suitable for Wen Sect's residence.

Welcome to the Qishan Wen - Nightless City!

FIRST LOOK

This is a replica of Forbidden City, and I think this suits well for Wen Sect's Nightless City. The color is red, and we have the long big stairs that also can be seen in the scenes where Wen Ruohan gathering his armies for war.

THE ENTRANCE

The entrance is very similar to the Forbidden City. This is a super iconic grand entrance that welcomes you to one of the wonders of the world.

An additional touch is the Wen Sect's emblem rug.

STAIRWAYS TO THE THRONE

After the gate, you'll see the long, high stairs to reach the throne.

This is the throne area of Nightless City.

OVERALL LOOK

1st Floor

The overall look is dominated by red pillars and lanterns.

Lounge to entertain guests

Kitchen & Tea Bar

Entertainment Hall

2ND FLOOR

You can see the stairs clearly, and the complicated architecture.

Personal Office Room

2nd Floor Layout in the main building for main family bedrooms

This is one of the rooms inside the main palace, the room I built following the traditional Chinese layout.

This might be the most complicated lot I have ever seen while playing the Sims (after Harry Potter's Hogwarts). The fact that all these details and rooms can fit into a 64 x 64 lot still left me wondering how long it takes to assemble all of this.

THE SECRET CHAMBER

There are 3 levels of basement, which leads to the secret chamber in the lowest level.

The original creator of this building created an amazing underground chamber. This space is definitely well thought-out and well put that it looks amazing. I imagine that this is the place where Wen Raohan does his demonic cultivation in the middle of the pond. The space is also facilitated with a nice onsen and a lot of other rooms.

The space consists of spa spaces, massage, another bedroom, and a beautiful underground garden.

Overall, Nightless City is the most impressive in terms of details and the most massive in terms of size. I didn't make a lot of changes for this build as it is already complicated and very heavy to play. LOL.

Of course, I put some customized elements like the Wen Sect's emblem rug on every strategic spot.

You can DM and message me to get the link to download the lot.

Happy Simming :)

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[Sims 4] MDZS - Qinghe Nie - Impure Realm 不净世

Hi All,

This is another update for the MDZS series; it is time for the Nie Clan / Nie Sect build! Impure Realm!

The Impure Realm (不净世, Bùjìng Shì) is the residence of the Qinghe Nie Clan.

Among all the families, sects, or clans, the Nie sect perhaps is the least focused family in the series. Judging by the number of family members being very small, the role of the characters in the series is mostly supporting. I don't even know the name of their residence is Impure Realm, as it is very rarely mentioned in the series.

However, with such a little information, it leaves us with a room to explore and ideas. Here is the full look!

THE BUILD

Following Nie Sect's characteristics, I tried to make the building represent the family persona. Like other builds, I'm not building the lot from scratch. I found this beautiful build from EA Gallery that really represents the Nie Sect clan well, with a twist. The build stood on 64x64 lots, dominated by brown and dark colors. The residence consists of multiple buildings connected with pathways and gardens.

Although the name suggests an Impure/Unclean realm, the inside of the building itself is very beautiful. It is dominated by gardens, trees, and a beautiful bridge.

1ST BUILDING

Getting into the Impure Realm, you'll first arrive at the 1st building in the front of the area, greeting you with the grand entrance: the Nie Sect Leader's throne.

The space is dominated by dark colors, with seating and tables for the guests.

Dining Room in the 2nd Floor.

2ND BUILDING

In the second building, the space is dedicated for Spa and Gym room. The gym is located on the 1st floor. Spa rooms on the 2nd floor are divided into women's and men's rooms. On the 3rd floor, we have saunas and a shower area.

3RD BUILDING

The 2nd building next to the first building is used for the library and study area.

Between the first and second buildings, there is an outdoor yoga space where Nie Sects can have some time to relax and cleanse their mind.

4TH BUILDING

The magic/cultivation room on the 1st floor

The meeting room is on the 2nd floor.

MATERIAL ARTS AND SPARING SPACE

One area that I love the most is this sparing area. I use the dance floor as a sparing arena floor. Nie sect is identic with fights and power. I would imagine the Nie Sect leader would enjoy sparing matches between its students. Thus, I think having this sparing area with a special seat for the leader to enjoy the matches suits Nie Sect very well and is what makes this build unique.

5TH BUILDING / MAIN FAMILY BUILDING

The main family building is located in the back of the area. This is where the main family members do their activities and live.

We have a living room on the first floor with a modern kitchen and dining table. Among all sects/clans, I find the Nie sect would be the most warm and make their place very homey.

On the 2nd, you'll find bedrooms, and the 3rd floor is dedicated to the leader's room. He got his own big closet, nice bedroom space, and even his own study room.

OTHER SPOTS

There are other spots and areas that can be highlighted. I love this build, as it gives different vibes to the MDZS world I'm building in the Sims. It feels really humble, homey, and peaceful. That's why I called it a twist. The name of the building is Impure Realm, dominated by dark colors and lighting. However, it also has a nice big garden, blending well with nature.

Beautiful garden and pathways

Chilling and Community Space

Dormitory

I was surprised that I really enjoyed building this build so much, despite Nie Sect's less significant role in the story.

Feel free to reach me through DM to get the download link if you would love to play with this build.

See ya in the next post!

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[Sims4] MDZS - Lanling Jin - Golden Carp Tower 金鳞台

Hi All, I'm back with a new build for Sims 4. This is the The Golden Carp Tower of Lanling Jin Sect!

I have received a lot of love and requests to download the previous 2 MDZS Sims4 Build series. I'm sorry for my late reply, as I rarely open my Tumblr.

I have replied to all the messages, and for you new readers who somehow discovered my Tumblr, don't be shy and drop me a DM for the download link. Please expect a delay in reply, as I rarely open my Tumblr.

Now that I'm back and have some free time, I finally got to re-visit my Sims4. Continuing the MDZS / the untamed build series, here I present you the residence of Jin Sect in Lanling City. The Golden Carp Tower (金鳞台, Jīnlín Tái; lit. Golden Scale Tower; also: Jinlin Tower, Koi Tower, Carp Tower) - source https://modao-zushi.fandom.com/

There's not much reference to Golden Carp Tower from the animation or the live-action series. However, watching the series, I feel that Lan Ling Jin's residence is very beautiful, a bit feminine, with a lot of flowers. As the name suggests "Tower", Lan Ling Jin's residence should be a tall building with long enormous stairs.

source: https://modao-zushi.fandom.com/wiki/Golden_Carp_Tower

I found a beautiful castle built by one of the Sims 4 players, and I worked around and renovated most of it to suit the style of Lan Ling Jin's residence that I remember from the animation and live-action series.

THE BUILD

Overall look from above: LanLing Jin's Golden Carp Tower

Due to limited capabilities in Sims 4, I tried hard to fit in ideal stairs to the castle. I am proud of the end result. Dominated with yellow gold and light green, the Golden Carp Tower looks elegant with a huge garden and outdoor space. The tower stood on a 64 x 64 lot.

THE ENTRANCE

The entrance with big stairs is the highlight. With Jin Sect's emblem

BUILDING MAP

The 1st-floor situation is giving a big outdoor area in the middle. From the entrance, you can walk straight to the main building where the throne of the sect leader is located and the main room and house for the main family. On the sides, you'll find supporting buildings, which each have their own function.

GARDEN LANDSCAPE

The vast beautiful garden will greet you right through the high stairs and gate before entering the main building.

THE THRONE

Main building situation, where the leader of Jin Sect sits and welcomes important guests.

On the right side, we have some leisure space and a dining room which then extends to lounge space. Upstairs we have a bedroom

Lounge and Guest Room

Kitchen

We have a pond and a nice creative space on the left side of the main building.

Little Library

Little Pond was created by Jin Zixuan for Jiang Yanli when the latter missed Lotus Pier so much Jin Zixuan created the pond to mimic Lotus Pier. How sweet :)

Dormitory

SURPRISE BASEMENT

Down below the Jin's Sect leader's throne, we have another throne and space for different occasions. This is where the party happens, a beautiful garden hall.

On the left side, we have a study room, where the teacher will lead the learning of Jin's sect students.

On the right side, we have a material arts practice space.

CHILL & RELAXING SPACE

Jin Sect, as one of the wealthiest families in the series, of course, needs a place for leisure with fancy facilities. We have an onsen with a nice bathroom and lockers next to the material arts dojo room. It's a nice location for the students to recover and relax after practice.

THE CULTIVATION AREA

Lastly, since I will never be able to let the magic stuff not be embedded in the house. For me, the magic furniture really completes the MDZS / The Untamed Universe in the Sims. This is where the magic and rituals happen.

BEDROOMS

Bedrooms, bathrooms, and private study room.

That's all pretty much the overall look of Lan Ling Jin's Golden Carp Tower from the Mo Dao Zu Shi / The Untamed / Grandmaster of Demonic Cultivation series. Of course, there are a lot of rooms, like the main bedrooms, more bedrooms, and the academy area, which I haven't put in here. Thus, for you who are interested in downloading and adding this beautiful build to your gallery and Sims world, feel free to DM me for the files!

See you in the next post!!

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[Sims 4] MDZS - Yunmeng Jiang - Lotus Pier 莲花坞

Hello everyone!

I’m back back back again, with another iconic build from MDZS (Mo Dao Zu Shi) / The Untamed / The Master of Demonic Cultivation on SIMS 4.

Lotus Pier (莲花坞, Liánhuā Wù) is the residence of the Yunmeng Jiang Clan in the series of MDZS. Lotus Pier is so iconic as it stood in and connected to a huge lake. I really enjoy re-building the Lotus Pier and I hope you can enjoy the build too.

For the Sims Build, you need the latest update version of the Realm of Magic at the very least.

I found a Lotus Pier build made by CreativeLoozje, (please check the original build). I made several adjustment to suit my taste and to make it look more like the movie/animated series.

Without further a due, let me present you my version of Lotus Pier.

THE BUILD

Front Look

Back Look

Stand at a 50x50 lot in a beautiful world of Sulani on sims 4.

The build is dominated with natural color of stone wall combine with wood accent. With Jiang sect signature purple color, we added purple flags, curtains, rugs and windows to show which sect in charge.

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THE ENTRANCE & MAIN ROOM

The iconic Lotus Pier’s round foyer

Jiang Sect’s Throne Room

The iconic round outdoor foyer that connecting the sand and the sea, the main room with the others building.

This place is an iconic setting that often shown in the live action series, and I definitely longing to incorporate this iconic set on my sims build.

The foyer leads to the main room, where the leader of Jiang sect greets and entertain their guests. I tried so hard to create the throne similar to the live action, but it’s just impossible, so I ended up using the flowery patterned chair as the throne.

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THE GAZEBO

Not forgetting the uniquely lotus pier gazebo placed in the outer side of the build, this is a small but yet very comfortable serving a nice view, the gazebo for Jiang sect to enjoy.

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Other Room on 1st Floor

Well I build other several rooms on the 1st floor, like study room, library, exercise room, kitchen and so on. However,  I’ll just share some of the room pics on this blog.

1. Tea Room / Guest Room

2. Dining Room

3. KitchenLook! Who’s cooking in the kitchen!

4. Ancestral Room: This might looks nothing like the ancestral room in the animated or live series. But the original builder have created this, and it looks just right to me. So we are keeping this, as this is also very important part in the Lotus Pier.

5. Office & Library Room

6. Gym Room

7. Outdoor Space

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2nd FLOOR

1. Private Office Room

2. Spa Room: Yes we do have spa in Lotus Pier. It’s actually looking pretty cool.

3. Student Bed Room and Class Room

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3rd FLOOR

1. Bedrooms: we do have several other bed room in the house and third floor. This is the 2 main bedrooms incorporated with purple combined with woods interior to match the style of humble Jiang Sect.

2. Cultivation / Magic Room: Magic Cultivation room for the Jiang sect to do rituals and practice their cultivation.

3. Laundry Room: Yes, we do need laundry room.

and that’s all for the Lotus Pier tour! Please comment down below, what do you think about the build! If you want to download this lot, let me know by message me. LINK DOWNLOAD --> Message me

See ya in the next post!

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[Sims 4] MDZS - Gusu Lan - Cloud Recesses 云深不知处

I’m telling you that I’m so in love with the Mo Dao Zu Shi or The Untamed series. 

I was trying so hard to create the cloud recesses, the home of Lan Sect as similar as I can, based on what we’ve seen in the series “The Untamed” and from the animated series.

Cloud Recesses (云深不知处, Yúnshēn Bùzhīchù) is the residence of the Gusu Lan Clan hidden in a remote mountain outside the city of Gusu. I created this build with the help of this post: https://www.sglynp.com/t72998 But since it is uploaded to China’s platform, and I can’t download the tray, therefore I create my own! I’m here to share with you guys!

First, this is the overall look, and the good news is, I’m not using any cc, well only for one which is the rug with Lan Sect logo on it, which I made it myself!

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1ST LOOK

The build stands tall on a 64x64 lot, which is dominated by white, blue grey-ish color. You’ll see a layered building and tower that surrounds the area. During winter it looks cool and give the same vibes as Gusu Lan’s Cloud Recesses in the animation and live-action.

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ENTRANCE

Although we never see this on the Untamed series, but we sure need one space to welcome our guests! Oh yea, and I got Lan Sect rug too in the middle.

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THE LIBRARY

Next would be the iconic library, where all the turning point of the relationship between Wei WuXian and Lan Wangji began. I tried to create as similar to the series as possible, the shape, the seat setting, and the secret chamber too!

Although the secret chamber is nowhere close to the one in the series. But I think this one is pretty good.

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THE SPIRITUAL / CULTIVATION ROOM

I don’t know what it is called, but this is the place where Lan Wangji and Wei Wuxian tried to calm the processed hand (in the anime) or the sword (in the series) down, after they found that mysterious thingy from the Mo House. 

Since sims 4 released the magic pack, I think it is just the perfect theme to represent the spiritual power from the series into sims world.

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THE LAKE & HIDDEN CAVE

Do you remember the scene where Lan Wangji is taking bath after he was punished by Lan Sect leader, and together with Wei Wuxian they found out a hidden cave near the lake/river? So this is it! Well it might not look perfect, but I’m trying to incorporate that important scene into the sims world.

Well I did make some changes, where I created the hot spring underground instead of the Lan Founder secret hide out. Since Sims released the snow / Japanese theme pack, I’m so in love with the pack that I can help to use a lot of its items in this build.

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THE FAMOUS LAN’S SECT CLASS ROOM

Lan Sect is known for the literature, education, and teaching sect. The famous class room where the first 10 episodes happened is here in sims world!

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DINING & KITCHEN

I was thinking on how to fit in all the students into the dining table. I think there is a scene either in the live action or in the novel that they are dining together in Gusu Lan. However due to limited space we have limited seats.

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DORMITORY

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BEDROOMS

Of course sims need it’s bedrooms. I’m trying to copy the usual Chinese bedroom, but the shape of the room is jut not enough so I have to readjust the positions of the bed, table, and also the restroom, since I want the restroom to be inside the bedroom. So here it is, pretty much 2 bedrooms for Lan Wangji and Lan Xichen, and one main bedroom for the sect leader.

I think this is pretty much show you how the build looks like, and I hope you enjoy looking at it.

If you want to download this lot, let me know by message me. I’ll send you the link!

LINK DOWNLOAD --> Message me to request

See you in my next post!

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Morphine | OngNiel (on Wattpad) http://my.w.tt/UiNb/3aH1dfI8OE Ong morphinenya Daniel, begitu juga Daniel morohinenya Ong . Percintaan yang galau anak-anak SMA yang sedang mencari jati diri.. Di selimuti dengan kisah haru tetang kerasnya kehidupan, mengejar mimpi dan.. romansa. ONGNIEL + WANNAONE + PD101 Prolog: Selalu dunia baru, lingkungan baru, dan sekolah baru bagi ong. Dalam 4 tahun ini dia sudah pindah sekolah sampai 5 kali. Mungkin dia masuk ke rekor muri versi Korea sebagai orang yang gonta ganti sekolah terbanyak. Namun ketika ia harus berganti sekolah, menjadi skolah ke 7 yang akan datang, ia merasa berat sekali harus meninggalkan sekolah keenamnya itu. Ada apa dengan sekolah ke 6? Cinta?

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FINAL AUTHOR’S PICK for TOP 11 PRODUCE 101 Season 2

Well I think everyone here could make their own version/pick. 

I'll make one. Pendi's Top 11 Picks for Produce 101 Season 2

1. Pledis Entertainment's Kim Jong Hyun - LEADER

I think everyone of us agreed that he should be up in the top 11 taking the title of Leader. He experienced being a leader not just in produce 101, but even before when he was still an active member of NU'EST. He already taste the bitter-sweet of becoming an idol and how tough it is to become one of them and have to take his pride down and join the Produce 101. With the right mentality, and wisdom, there is no one in Produce 101 (all at least so far from what we saw) can touch Kim Jonghyun in term of his capability to be a leader. Otherwise he is so talented and a soulful rapper with a great dance ability too. So he is no doubt would be on top 11 with his recent rank as no 1 in rap and also no 1 in overall 2nd ranking announcement. 

2. MMO Entertainment's Kang Daniel - JUST DO ANYTHING  

As beautiful his face and smile is. He is really the heart robber. He has great personality and motivation. I know he may got into some controversial act before, and cheating is really such an unhonorable act, with that being said, his personality and talent show that he is more than that. His attitude on the screen also shows that he is responsible and have a good fighting spirit. He is incredible with his dancing b-boy thing, and rapping and singing. He does improve a lot too, there are still room to grow even though he is already in Class A. With the right attitude and willing to learn & grow, he is a good example to be a great idol. 

3. Fantagio's Ong Song Sung Woo - VISUAL   

He is already my favorite since the first episode, but until Kang Daniel came and shows his cuteness. LOL. But he is the man of dance and popping God. His jokes and Gag talents is also worth to count. With great visual and stage presence he is for me one of the best stage & expression experts. His dance skills also great and also his attitude and how he cares about others. He knows how to put himself in different kind of situation, for me he is a man with many talents, without trying to hard to show off and he got his way to impress people effortlessly. and he is more than ready to steal your heart right from the first impression to his long career ahead. 

4. Brave Entertainment's Kim Samuel - DANCE    

I don't understand why people doesn't seem to agree that he deserve to be in the top 11. Even the trainers and national representative the Queen BoA fall in love with him and he is the first trainee to get into the A Class (based on the show). With his young age and how much he loves to dance and how much he spent his life practicing and dancing and how much he shows that he really want this is just.. beautiful. I really appreciate him to keep going and keep the fighting spirit. He is also respected by other trainees with his talents and I think he already shows improvement of his singing skills to. 

5. Chun Entertainment's Kim Yong Guk - VOCAL

He really shows his charm and how good his vocal is in the "If It Is You" performance. I think he is another good example on how much an underdog can do more and be success with his talent and not just his face. He has amazing vocal who can give different color to the group, I think he has so much potential and he doesn't have a problem with following the choreography, so he is up in top 5 for me. 

6. Individual Trainee Kim Jae Hwan - VOCAL     

He is no dubbed the best vocal in P101 now. But he is more than his vocal. I his personality and charms he shows during the interview. I really like the way he talk and how he is honest and not so greedy for a position (maybe because he is already got the top posisition). But I think he is a must in term for vocal ability to be put in the top 11. And I am glad everyone have voted and put him in the top 11, for his talents, not just for a pretty boy with no talents. 

7. CUBE Entertainment's Lai Guan Lin - RAP 

Talking about pretty boy without talent, the first time I saw him in the top 11 in the first voting result, and how he perform in front of the trainer for the first time, I basicly hate him for being in the top 11 with pretty face with no (I mean still in the making) talent & ability. But through out the show he shows how he is so passionate in rap and his ability to write and compose rap for his performance is amazing. He also know how to put great performance on stage, and I really appreciate him. It is not just a talent but his attitude also counts. I think everyone is working hard and everyone is also trying hard. But to put that hard work into something that is a great performance, I think he nailed it. Love his voice. 

8. Brand New Music's Park Woo Jin - DANCE  

I am agreed with everything Jenny said. He is one of my favorite now after the get ugly episode. Just seeing him saying "I'm Doomed" is cute and how he reacts to the first time he saw the Get Ugly Team. But I think he has a solid talent for vocal and dance. He is the perfect example for not craving for high ranks, just do and give the best, and now he got in the top 11. Love him so much. 

9. MAROO Entertainment's Park Ji Hoon - VISUAL   

Honestly I hope to see more talent from him, not just his visual. I think he has been to focus on how to act cute and come up with new trademark after the wink. But I know he is good tho, being in the Class B means he is great, and I think it is a safe choice to include him to the top 11 as we are talking about IDOLS, and boy like him with his charms and talents is one solid yes for an Idol. 

10. C9 Entertainment's Bae JinYoung - VOCAL

He is just charming in many ways. With that shy not-so-confident personality is cute but also shame. He should know how good he is, he is charming in many ways, his face, his voice, his dance, his one covered eye, his stage presence, his smile. I am glad that he shows more smile and prove he is great on stage in the recent My Little Girl performance. I am just so happy to watch his performance with his smile through out the performance, and we also haven't talk about his performance the ballad song downpour, his voice is just great. And I shipped him with Jihoon haha

11. Brand New Music's Lee Dae Hwi - VOCAL   

It hurts my heart that he has lesser screen time now, but he proves to have more to show and more ideas and more stage presence in every performance he is on. I think he has so many talent and potential. Hope he can become more confident than ever and overcome all the hates he got. 

12. Pledis Entertainment's Hwang Minhyun - VISUAL.   

What just top 11? But I really can't leave this one. He is a great center to, I love all his stage presence, the smirk, the stares, the gaze. I think he is also have a solid vocal too. He is experienced and I think he deserve to be in the top 11. He has all the idol material, handsome, tall, sharp, and charming. He is price charming and he really completed the group as a whole. so please let him be in the top 11. 

Other trainees that I hope to be in the top 11 is actually Lee Woo Jin, although I know he might be hard to fit in, but I love himm.. #13 - VOCAL

Choi Min Ki & Dong Ho - it hurts my heart to hear they story and how they struggle to survive the idol life and music industry. As all the talents they got, they really are ready to get another chance to debut. But I think not in this group. I hope they both get success in the future. - #14 #15 VISUAL - VOCAL

Takeda Kenta. He is great I think he got all and everything you need as an idol, but poorly we have less interaction with him. Less interview, less screen time. But he nailed all the performance and I love him so much. #16 - VOCAL

Yoon Jae Sung he is incredible person and i just want to see him more and more. He is just hillarious. - #17 - I dont know what suitable position for him. Maybe Vocal or Responsible for GAG & VARIETY SHOW

Jung Se Woon - I love his understanding and his vocal. He is great, and it is waste of talent if he doesnt debut soon.  #18 - VOCAL

Lim Young Min & Kim Dong Hyun: Everyone from Brand New Music is ridiculously attractive to me. I think both of them have reputable capability as a rapper. Coming from the rap agency I think they have the quality looks and talent becoming an idol. #19 #20 - RAP

Ardor & Able trainees Noh Tae Hyun & Ha Sungwoon. Both are in Class A and super talented in dancing, but sadly they lack of screen time. I am happy for Taehyun he really still the spotlight in the position challenge. He did super great as the leader and choreographer for Shape of You, and he is just the best dancer in P101 for me. Next Ha Sungwoon who recently hopelessly and relentlessly trying hard to be get notice and to keep being in the competition. I think he has a great personality, and work ethic. #21 & #22 DANCE

NOTABLE MENTION:

LEE EUI WONG

AHN HYEONG SEOB

I dont know how they survive, for me their stage is average, but I think if you just be positive, and smile, and hard working enough, you’ll get notice.

AND JUSTIN PLS, I AM CRAVING FOR HIM

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Sorrow Midnight

I write it after I had a huge huge huge fight with him. I was so so sad, so angry, so galau, and feeling regrets in between. But it was indeed a huge fight. I just restore my storage and found this! And think that I actually quite talented lehh Tubuhku penuh keringat, bukan karena panas, tapi entah mengapa aku begitu khawatir. Aku sangat menyesal sekaligus kesal dengan kejadian yang terjadi saat ini. Jam di radio mobil menunjukkan pukul 11.50 malam. Suara klakson mobil dari arah kiri belakang terus menganggu konsentrasiku berkendara. Apakah dia tidak tau kalau kondisi ku sama dengannya. Bisakah berhenti? Aku kembali memperhatikan jalan, tak ayal ku keluarkan kepalaku lewat jendela pintu mobil melihat apa yang terjadi di depan. sudah begitu lama aku terduduk di kursi pengemudi dengan rem tangan dalam keadaan naik di sebelah tangan kiriku. Begitu kesalnya dan tak sabarnya, akupun keluar dari mobil, berjalan lurus kedepan menelusiri mobil-mobil yang berhenti di jalan dengan mesin tak bersuara. "Pak boleh kah pak bapak majukan sedikit mobilnya, saya mau puter balik terhalang mobil bapak, jadinya tidak bisa". Kataku pada seorang bapak yang menggendong anaknya sedang menatap langit hitam. "Tanggung dek, lagian ini mobil sampai depan gak jalan. Tunggu aja jam 12 lewat, tanggung sebentar lagi." Kata bapak itu sambil menujukkan bagaimana jalan dengan 4 lajur dipenuhi dengan mobil yang benar-benar diam tak bergerak di jalan. Aku begitu lemas, tak ada lagi yang bisa kulakukan. Memang harusnya aku jalan lebih awal agar tidak terkena macet seperti ini. Aku berusaha menghubungi dirinya, tapi memang kebiasaan kami, bila sedang di rumah kami tidak menyalakan signal hp alias menghidupkan mode pesawat dan menyalakan koneksi wifi. Entah mengapa tapi memang malam itu signal buruk sekali. Berkali-kali hp ku bergetar karena pemberitahuan bahwa pesan daring yang kukirim tidak masuk. Aku berharap dia mematikan mode pesawatnya dan mengangkat teleponku. Aku berusaha mencari signal wifi. Internet dari kuota hp ku tidak berjalan. Entah memang karena sudah habis menjelang akhir bulan atau memang signal yang terlalu buruk. Namun apa daya, saat itu aku benar-benar berada di tengah jalanan, diantara mobil-mobil dan motor yang berdesakan tidak bergerak. Para penumpang dan pengendara sudah berada di trotoar pinggir jalan, mengambil tempat mereka masing-masing dan menatap langit seakan menanti sesuatu. Aku semakin lemas ketika ku lihat jam hp ku yang hampir mendekati jam 12. Tetap tidak ada jawaban. Akhirnya dengan tangan bergantungan lemah aku berjalan kembali ke mobil yang aku pinjam darinya. Aku bersender di pintu sambil meratapi nasibku. 9..8..7..6..5..4..3... Aku mendengar para pengendara yang sedang menghitung mundur. Semua begitu bahagia bisa melewati malam itu bersama keluarga, teman dan mungkin kekasih mereka. Aku masih berdiri bersandar sendiri, jantungku semakin lama semakin berdetak cepat seiring orang orang sekelilingku menghitung mundur angka 10 sampai seterusnya.. 2..1... Suara ledakan terdengar, membuat dadaku lemas dan seperti terpukul sesuatu. Percikan api berwarna warni terbang meluncur keatas, diikuti dengan suara decak kagum para pengendara yang semuanya kini mendongak keatas. "Selamat tahun baru" kata seorang ibu di belakang mobilku yang bahkan tak kukenali wajahnya. "Selamat tahun baru juga bu" jawabku kepadanya. Aku benar-benar tidak mengerti kenapa setiap perayaan tahun baru semua orang rela pergi keluar rumah untuk sekedar melihat kembang api yang sebenarnya sudah mereka sering lihat setiap tahunnya, bahkan di hari raya lainnya. Semua orang benar-benar menikmati dan terkagum pada keindahan percikan api itu. Bila di sepanjang jalan itu ada yang tidak bahagia karenanya, orang itu pastilah aku satu-satunya. Aku terdiam sejenak berhenti menghubungi dirinya dan menatap ke langit. Setelah direnungkan, aku tidak pernah melewatkan tahun baru tanpa keluarga. Aku selalu dikurung dalam rumah bila sudah menjelang tahun baru, atau pergi ke pusat pembelanjaan yang sudah sejak bulan lalu memasang papan iklan perayaan tahun baru dengan kembang api spektakuler. Aku berpikir akan lebih baik kalau aku bisa melewatkan tahun baru dengannya. Aku tak ingat apakah tepat tahun lalu aku sedang bersamanya? Aku bahkan tidak ingat apa yang aku lakukan saat pergantian tahun lalu. Suara letusan kembang api pelan-pelan meredup. Saat itupun aku mencoba kembali menghubunginya mencoba kebaikan dewi fortuna yang mungkin saat itu lagi liburan, atau ikutan menyaksikan kembang api dan lupa padaku. Ttutttt ttutttt.... YESSSSS!!! Sahutku dari hati, kalian pasti tidak tau betapa leganya aku bisa menghubunginya. "Halo yangg, aku kejebak macet. Ini mobil pada gak jalan, bener-bener berhenti semua." kataku menjelaskan dengan nada lemah dan tertekan. "Kamu emang jalan jem berapa." Pertanyaannya membuat aku berpikir sejenak. Aku benar-benar merasa bodoh. Seharusnya aku tau dari pengalaman tahun-tahun sebelumnya, seandainya aku jalan lebih awal untuk bertemu dengannya. "Jam 10an" "10 berapa?" Tanyanya ketus. "10.30 an" balik kataku. "Kamu gak tau diri ya, kamu bukannya udah tau macet bukannya jalan duluan, kamu gak mau lewatin tahun baru sama aku? Kamu bisa-bisanya tadi masih mau pergi kesana padahal udah sore." Aku benar-benar lelah disalahkan terus, mungkin memang salahku, tapi saat itu aku terbawa emosi. "Aku tadi udah jalan duluan, acara belum selesai tapi aku tinggal, tadi aku nungguin soalnya aku laper banget belum makan, tapi acaranya ngaret. Abis makan aku langsung jalan." "Lagian kamu masih mau kesana, udah aku bilang gak udah." "Lahh kamu yang gak mau nemenin aku kesini." Bantahku cepat kepadanya. "Wah aku gak tau deh, kamu gak pernah mikirin aku." Ttuttt..ttutttt... Ia mematikan teleponnya. Begitu kesal aku dibuatnya, bagaimana bisa dia terus menyalahkan aku? Apa dia tidak tau aku diluar sini berusaha mencari jalan agar bertemu dengannya. Jalanan dimana-mana ditutup, dan belum lagi volume kendaraan yang seakan tumpah kemana-mana. Salahku? Aku kembali berusaha menghubunginya, tapi bahkan suara nada sambungpun tak terdengar. Setelah acara kembang api, para pengemudi mulai masuk kembali ke mobilnya. Aku segera menyalakan mobil dan berusaha mengambil jalur kosong yang sudah ditinggalkan pengendara di depan. Sepanjang perjalanan aku merenung. Aku tau bahwa ia sangat marah dan beberapa hari kedepan bahkan hitungan minggu aku harus menyiapkan mentalku menghadapi pertempuran yang besar. Ya, yang sangat besar, yang akan menentukan kemana arah hatiku berjalan nanti.

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The opposite of Loneliness - Quotes

lonely is just a powerful and such a fragile unpleasant emotional. It is the bottom most deepest problem of humanity. You don't always feel it, but you know it's there. Even the loudest person in your class, the smartest person in your school, the richest person, the sanguinary people, or even a top CEO could be swelled by loneliness. Doesnt care if you have all your family with you, or you have all your friend or so called bestfriend just because you hang with them the most. It is just another mask, another red curtain on stage. It is still that spot. The hole empty spot. Some people find to the edge of the world to mend themselve, to cover and redeem their murky loneliness. They look for it in bars, clubs, churches, communities, hobbies, or even dating apps. But some people are not lucky enough to found the true meaning to cover that particular problem. It has been used as a background problem for some movies, dramas, it is superficial yet it is actually true, the deepest problem in humanity, I thought. It was like a dominos effect Stream of trust Shaping how you think of the world Building your principles And mold your personality then character Some think to be alone is the answer To hid themselves from the wave of judgement, dissapointment, and bad memories. Some stucked and helplessly trying to walk againts the tide. The lightning of helpless and pain struck making holes in their heart. The cold blizzard from peoples' eyes, words, acts are piercing their soul. Still they running to the uncertain lights. They don't know what the light is, and they dont know how to find them. But they know they need it. It is the lowest bottom of life when you feel helpless, trying to find lights, but blindfolded. Do not know which is the right light, you just try the light everytime you found one. The result, not always good, it can even make your life worst. It is the wrong light. Because then you can't find the opposite word of loneliness. You can't find it in dictionary or on google. But I believe that in everyone life's there is at least ONE, one person who God sent to backing you up. Share your burden, and lead you to the right lights. But sometimes because we are to selfish to understand, we don't realize they are on your side all this time. Without you noticing they have given you hints like putting jellybeans making a trace for you to follow. Until you find that someone, or until you realize who the person is. You just have to be stay true, be wise and be strong, be HUMAN with common sense. Find them and find LOVE. Because love is the most powerful weapons that armed you as human. The basic thing of life, the most important that makes you himan. Therefore I've found the opposite word of loneliness. It is noun and it is verb. It is a fight between the basic important this for becoming a human being agains the worst deepest feeling as human being. It is Love that mend Loneliness