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ever since i was a little girl i wanted to be a man with a homoerotic years long incredibly intense friendship with another man
It really was a different kind of pain when Skott died.
Didn't even feel this way when I thought firefly died.
My Lyndon Skott.
hi mootie!! who's your favorite character (and why) for each of MXTX's works?
OMG HIIIII I'M SO HAPPY YOU ASKED!!!
For SVSSS it's no doubt no competition at all it's Shen Jiu. Like absolutely no doubt. I love him as such a hugely flawed and bitter character. And l really relate to his jealousy and bitterness and overall I just love his character depth and how complex he is. I do enjoy fics with him and SY because it really shows he really just needs at least one person.
For TGCF it's probably Shi Wudu and Shi Qingxuan. I LOVE DOOMED SIBLINGS And I just love their personalities and relationship so much and we didn't even get enough time about Shi Wudu before he was done in.
For MDZS is Wei Wuxian U_U I just luv my Boi. He really got dealt all the worst cards and lost his found family and liekjejekekb I have really really strong opinions for him. But I also love him as a morally Grey character during yllz era.
WHAT ABOUT YOU???
ooh i totally get you on shen jiu, he's so tragic 😭like he did a lot of wrongs, but he's just really hurt. i can totally relate to his bitterness and jealousy too, like he's one of the most realistic characters in the novel imo. and yesss SY and SJ fics are my favorite <33 especially when they're twins or brothers! they're so different from each other, but would get along so well and SY is definitely what could change SJ for the better. i could talk about shen bros all day 🤧 but what do you think happened to SJ canon wise? i still havent read the extras 🤡 but i think it's still up to interpretation. i always wished that he would be given an opportunity to heal but idk if he just vanished :(
(i talked so much i had to add a 'read more' im so sorry lol 😭)
OMG I LOVE YOUR TAKES AND I LOVE YAPPING TOO AHHHHHH
As for SJ in cannon they really didn't mention anything which is just so sad, I hope maybe he got reincarnated into a world with a Shen Yuan to heal him even if by a bit. And he'll find peace and happiness somewhere. The way everyone just moved on when SY took over Sj's body will always make me sad like he really was so hated over there.
OMG GONGYI XIAO IS SO BABIE I LOVE HIM AND FR HE DID NOTHING WRONG. Really just as you said his only mistake was not be Luo Binghe. He was probably one of the only good people in Huan Hua. AND HE GOT OFF SCREENED. THAT WAS SO FREAKING- NOT EVEN A SMALL PARAGRAPH ABOUT HIS DEATH So personally I love fics where he's alive. He deserves so much better. And he has so much angst potential like the OPM possibly seeing him as his ex-head disciple replacement, and what that could've caused, until LBH came along. The palace mistress and just LBH in general. Augh I love him too.
AND YESS HUA CHENGGGG AUGHDHEJEJJE I DON'T EVEN HAVE ANYTHING TO SAY CAUSE THAT MANHS IS SO FREAKING AMAZING. His design too, as you said, and his lore too. Is so freaking amazing. I still randomly wonder what his array password is. Oh yeah that reminded me He Xuan is probably my second favorite in TGCF like very close second favorite there's not a huge gap between him and the Shi siblings for me. He's the epitome of a cursed existence. Like from life unto death, and even in death. AND OMG YOU'RE BASICALLY RELATED TO HC THEN😔 WHAT DIALECT IS IT???
JIANG Cheng my man with 2638839 complexes. I have very mixed feelings on his and WWX's relationship LIKE ON ONE HAND I LOVE IT BUT ON THE OTHER HAND I FEEL LIKE THERE'S SO MUCH TO UNPACK THERE. But FR he's also such an angsty character and I love angst fr. I could talk about Yunmeng bros for so long there is just so much angst and hurt and I lwk hate JFM.
AND YESHHHHH I LOVE YAPPER TOOOOOO AAAAHHHH FEEL FREE TO YAP TO ME WHENEVER 💕
YAY 💕 YOU MATCH MY FREAK ‼️‼️YAPPERS UNITE 💪 /lh
i really really hope the same thing for SJ too, he deserves it so much :( you just broke my heart though omg </3 that's so depressing like... someone replaces you and no one even notices, instead they think this "new person" is even better and no one is even attempting to get to the bottom of it because no one misses or loves you enough to care 🤧 im so curious about your thoughts on SJ and yue qingyuan, they were doomed from the start 💔
YES GONGYI XIAO NEEDS SO MUCH MORE LOVE AND APPRECIATION 😭😭😭 him getting off screened was soooo ufhgdskjsd i crashed out so bad 😫🤧 i need to redirect his entire life so he gets a happy endings
FOR REALSSSS!! hua cheng is soo cool! i can't wait to meet he xuan now omg 😭and ikr, it's my biggest flex im practically hua cheng's sibling 😌✌️ (/lh /j) there's not like a specific name for it, but being located in china just makes the dialect sound more chinese so the accent and the words will differ. if they talk slow then i can maybe understand but if not then it's just a struggle 💀 + im not even totally fluent either so they'd have to talk even slower 🤡
YESSSS yunmeng bros are a whole can of rotting worms 😭😭😭 i love them so much but there's so much between them 🤧 i would loveee to talk about them with you asahdskajs and yesss JFM is a piece of trash there is absolutely nothing i like about him he's so unredeemable 😭what do you think of yi ziyuan??? i have so many mixed feelings about her like she's so powerful total girl boss but she's always really cruel and treated wwx horribly :( but at the same time JFM had no right to take in his past crush's kid without setting clear communication and boundaries with her first- dksjhdsjk its so complicated !!! JFM is a SPINELESS dog though i'll slander him like he deserves 😒 but i do adore fics where JFM and YZY are actually good parents and love their kids like yesss fix-it au let's go <33
nie huaisang is also one of my favorites he's so hilarious and cunning and silly 😭❤️
YESSS YAP TO ME WHENEVER TOO 💞💞💞
OMG DO YOU HAVE TWITTER I WOULD LOVE TO YAP✨💕💕
FR Sj's whole situation and character is just so sad. QIJIU IS DOOMED LIKE YUE QINGYUAN WAS LIVING A TRAGEDY AND A HORROR GENRE AT THE SAME TIME
OMG YOU'LL LOVE HE XUAN HOPEFULLY. AND THAT'S SO COOL YOU'RE HC'S SIBLING😔
FR we hate JFM in this house. YZY IS ALSO VERY MIXED FOR ME, Like she had the choice to nurture WWX but she was so short sighted and vindictive it's really pretty disappointing, because as a grown woman she couldn't see past her insecurities and jealousy and took it out on an innocent child. BUT ALL THE BLAME SHOULDN'T LIE WITH HER LIKE JFM IS WORSE FOR DOING NOTHING. Nothing for his wife, nothing for his son, nothing for wwx. OMG FIX IT FICS ARE SO GOOD BUT I CAN'T FIND ANY OF YOU HAVE SOME DROP THE LINKS BABES.
NHS IS SO COOL I LOVE HIM.
hi mootie!! who's your favorite character (and why) for each of MXTX's works?
OMG HIIIII I'M SO HAPPY YOU ASKED!!!
For SVSSS it's no doubt no competition at all it's Shen Jiu. Like absolutely no doubt. I love him as such a hugely flawed and bitter character. And l really relate to his jealousy and bitterness and overall I just love his character depth and how complex he is. I do enjoy fics with him and SY because it really shows he really just needs at least one person.
For TGCF it's probably Shi Wudu and Shi Qingxuan. I LOVE DOOMED SIBLINGS And I just love their personalities and relationship so much and we didn't even get enough time about Shi Wudu before he was done in.
For MDZS is Wei Wuxian U_U I just luv my Boi. He really got dealt all the worst cards and lost his found family and liekjejekekb I have really really strong opinions for him. But I also love him as a morally Grey character during yllz era.
WHAT ABOUT YOU???
ooh i totally get you on shen jiu, he's so tragic 😭like he did a lot of wrongs, but he's just really hurt. i can totally relate to his bitterness and jealousy too, like he's one of the most realistic characters in the novel imo. and yesss SY and SJ fics are my favorite <33 especially when they're twins or brothers! they're so different from each other, but would get along so well and SY is definitely what could change SJ for the better. i could talk about shen bros all day 🤧 but what do you think happened to SJ canon wise? i still havent read the extras 🤡 but i think it's still up to interpretation. i always wished that he would be given an opportunity to heal but idk if he just vanished :(
(i talked so much i had to add a 'read more' im so sorry lol 😭)
OMG I LOVE YOUR TAKES AND I LOVE YAPPING TOO AHHHHHH
As for SJ in cannon they really didn't mention anything which is just so sad, I hope maybe he got reincarnated into a world with a Shen Yuan to heal him even if by a bit. And he'll find peace and happiness somewhere. The way everyone just moved on when SY took over Sj's body will always make me sad like he really was so hated over there.
OMG GONGYI XIAO IS SO BABIE I LOVE HIM AND FR HE DID NOTHING WRONG. Really just as you said his only mistake was not be Luo Binghe. He was probably one of the only good people in Huan Hua. AND HE GOT OFF SCREENED. THAT WAS SO FREAKING- NOT EVEN A SMALL PARAGRAPH ABOUT HIS DEATH So personally I love fics where he's alive. He deserves so much better. And he has so much angst potential like the OPM possibly seeing him as his ex-head disciple replacement, and what that could've caused, until LBH came along. The palace mistress and just LBH in general. Augh I love him too.
AND YESS HUA CHENGGGG AUGHDHEJEJJE I DON'T EVEN HAVE ANYTHING TO SAY CAUSE THAT MANHS IS SO FREAKING AMAZING. His design too, as you said, and his lore too. Is so freaking amazing. I still randomly wonder what his array password is. Oh yeah that reminded me He Xuan is probably my second favorite in TGCF like very close second favorite there's not a huge gap between him and the Shi siblings for me. He's the epitome of a cursed existence. Like from life unto death, and even in death. AND OMG YOU'RE BASICALLY RELATED TO HC THEN😔 WHAT DIALECT IS IT???
JIANG Cheng my man with 2638839 complexes. I have very mixed feelings on his and WWX's relationship LIKE ON ONE HAND I LOVE IT BUT ON THE OTHER HAND I FEEL LIKE THERE'S SO MUCH TO UNPACK THERE. But FR he's also such an angsty character and I love angst fr. I could talk about Yunmeng bros for so long there is just so much angst and hurt and I lwk hate JFM.
AND YESHHHHH I LOVE YAPPER TOOOOOO AAAAHHHH FEEL FREE TO YAP TO ME WHENEVER 💕
hi mootie!! who's your favorite character (and why) for each of MXTX's works?
OMG HIIIII I'M SO HAPPY YOU ASKED!!!
For SVSSS it's no doubt no competition at all it's Shen Jiu. Like absolutely no doubt. I love him as such a hugely flawed and bitter character. And l really relate to his jealousy and bitterness and overall I just love his character depth and how complex he is. I do enjoy fics with him and SY because it really shows he really just needs at least one person.
For TGCF it's probably Shi Wudu and Shi Qingxuan. I LOVE DOOMED SIBLINGS And I just love their personalities and relationship so much and we didn't even get enough time about Shi Wudu before he was done in.
For MDZS is Wei Wuxian U_U I just luv my Boi. He really got dealt all the worst cards and lost his found family and liekjejekekb I have really really strong opinions for him. But I also love him as a morally Grey character during yllz era.
WHAT ABOUT YOU???
Guys does anyone know of any mdzs fics where it follows the untamed sort of ending and wwx leaves (I know they came together again don't come for me), I just really wanted to read something like that.
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Reading: I am currently reading Osamu Dazai’s Entrance Exam and I am very much enjoying, I’ll always be a sucker for Kunikida and Dazai’s dynamic.
Last series: bsd rewatch (no one is surprised)
Last film: A Beautiful Day in the Neighbourhood (very sweet movie I’d definitely recommend it)
Last song: Egg in the Backseat by Em Beihold (it’s on the Chuuya playlist)
Sweet or salty: ummm probably sweet, although I’m pretty neutral on both
Coffee or tea: much like the person who tagged me I am a fan of neither, hot chocolate any day
Working on: my attention is divided between working on the ballet au with @iamthymourningdog and working on my own ada chuuya fic
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ty for the tag!!!
reading: I’m Not That Kind of Talent (webcomic), Jane Eyre (novel)
last series: The Millionaire Detective: Balance Unlimited
last film: pretty sure it was The Polar Express
last song: Buy Me a Boat (trying to trick my brain into summer mode)
sweet or salty: completely depends on the day, but today i’m feeling sweet
coffee or tea: tea, but prev makes a point about hot chocolate
working on: books i’ve been trying to make for multiple years
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reading: finishing up mdzs and starting tgcf bc its been collecting dust on my bookshelf & concurrently rereading no longer human and kafka on the shore bc i keep forgetting to finish reading a book before i start a new one-
last series: cashero 💵
last film: grave of the fireflies
last song: cant remember... it was either body by mother mother or siena by the marias
sweet or salty: ehh i need both to balance it all out but i prefer sweet :)
coffee or tea: tea! i lowkey just like drinking plain water, but tea is good too~ coffee is alright in limited amounts and with lots of sugar.
working on: college and figuring my life out :(( finishing up my furin trio fics and updating my other fanfics and blogs and working on unanswered requests and asks <3 finding time to read the svsss extras !! juggling other responsibilities and things i need to do... etc etc it's like a whole list i cant handle 💀
no pressure tags: @peerlesscucumberx, @woahhhimleo, anyone else who wants to join
TYSM FOR TAGGING ME!!
reading: Rereading Crime and Punishment by Dostoevsky because I forgot the whole plot. Also reading Red, white and royal blue.
Last series : Blood River
Last film : Apostle
Last Song : Family line by Conan Gray
Sweet or salty : definitely both but a slight bias for sweets.
Coffee or tea : Coffee!! I prefer coffee in the evening evening or when I'm out. Never really been a fan of tea.
Working on : Assignments that have piled up higher than mountains. And also trying to finish my Bingyuan fic so that I can start on an angsty changmu one that has been festering in my mind.
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"How could I kill you? Su Muyu's life is in your hands."
"Since Su Muyu is your guest, make sure you serve him fine food. He can't take spicy food."
I know what you are.
WOAH!? I love this. I love them.
I just started watching Blood River and OMFG why are they giving doomed yaoi aura already, nothing has happened yet.
Please don't die. Please don't give each other traumatic experiences.
Hear me out. Think about an Idol SVSSS au but shen siblings angst. Like CQM is an idol management company, A huge one. Because I lwk don't think SJ would wanna be an idol he likes his privacy manh.
The angsty past happens. The whole child trafficking thing, but SY is Sj's baby sibling, like let's say a lot younger. So eventually they're retrieved as the trafficking rings are busted and then put into foster homes. And surprise surprise The qius. Sj and Yq manage to escape the Qiu foster home because they become adults first but aren't legally able to take Sy with them because they don't have a job so they tell him they'll come back for him. Even though it kills them both to leave Sy in such a horrible situation.
So they obviously work their asses off, crash courses, side jobs, shitty apartments eventually landing a small job at CQM. After which they immediately try to find the Qius only to find out that there was a fire a few years ago and everyone in the house had passed away in it.
So Timeskip and now they've been promoted to the managers/directors or certain parts of the company. Like public marketing and Finance and budgeting. They've seen a bunch of new idol groups debut under them, a whole number of cruel idol survival shows. But no group ever really made a huge mark in the industry that was always changing it's current trend of music style and sense. But then SJ hears about a new group, only debuted around 2 years ago under a no name label now suddenly rising to fame at breakneck speeds especially abroad. They heard about it recently after Huan Hua (one of the big 4) agreed to merge the small label in return for partial management over the group's label. So obviously he looks it up with not much interest, but almost everyone is talking about it these days. And it's a small group sure, with constantly switching concepts. Demons to high school aesthetic. But one the faces out of the 5 people....looked at least 1 fourths like him. (Maybe his stage name can be Yuan-Jun? IDK help me out guys) although the last name has been changed and the records wiped. Sj would always recognize the brother he saw in each dream and nightmare every single night. The reason for his bitterness towards Yue Qi, towards everyone in general.
Now he goes into a rabbit hole, watching every single thing like a crazed person. From the survival shows to final lineup then pre debut practice videos, Debut stage, music videos, interviews, reality shows, group vlogs... All up to the latest concerts, music videos.
And he did not know how to feel, he knew his brother had always had a knack for swaying people and for singing, but he knew the harshness of the idol world so well and he knew for a fact that he didn't want his brother in this industry. Let alone under Huan Hua that would probably work them to their bone. He also lwk did not like how close they all seemed with each other. But it wasn't unexpected, survival shows tended to trauma bond the idols in a group and they do spend 24/7 with each other anyways.
And most of all
He needed his little brother back. He wasn't even an adult yet. If he couldn't find some way to bring him to CQ, Even if that meant the other little beasts in that group had to come with.
He refused to accept the possibility that Shen Yuan hated him or would not come with him. Or that he was happy where he was.
I'm gonna go check on my WIP. just in case it wrote itself while I was gone. You never know.
Does anyone else ever that crushing sadness or jealousy when your baby sibling likes someone else as an older sibling figure more?
I truly desperately wish I could've been like that for you, but it's not the way I was raised. I wish I wasn't so angry, I wish you could enjoy being with me.
I hope you don't grow to hate me. You'll always be the most precious person in my heart even if you never know it.
I have a fic idea pooks. And a whole fucking lot of lore for it. Should I write it. I'm scared I'll loose motivation and never finish it and it's my first time writing a fic for others to read as well😞😞✨
Guys hear me out.
We need more OP shen yuan fics. Like EXTREMELY OP. And not SY!Sqq. JUST SHEN YUAN himself. Make my twink OP guys. Like yes the sickly vibe always eats BUT COME ON. Do you see the vision. OP SY.
If ya'll know any fics then😔 please give me. THERE'S ALMOST NO OP SY OUT THERE AHHHHHH.