The purpose of my blog
Quite a number of years ago I realized some things about myself that I never understood before, but sort of dismissed them and pushed them back. As I've come to finally accept those things and realize new ones, with things about myself I never understood now making some amount of sense, there's also the realization that I'm middle aged now. I live in a backwards area. There is no possible way in reality I will ever actually get to be the individual I understand myself to be now, nor meet with anyone else to have such conversations about.
Because of that I decided to create a blog and a fursona to allow me to perhaps talk to other people that comprehend to some degree what I'm feeling or can help me to better understand these things. Since I can't meet people in real life with which to explore my more secret thoughts and habits, I hope to do so here. Since I can't live the life I would like in the type of world where I would be happy, perhaps I can do so vicariously through this character. And using a fursona instead of some drawn version of my physical self helps give some distance, which I think could be helpful.
Update 10/1/23: While I previously, as now, have questioned my gender identity(among other things - one of the purposes of the blog and all), I had identified as a male and used he/him as pronouns. With much introspection I'm identifying now as bigender. For this reason I no longer refer to myself as a cross dresser but I'm okay with the term(I think). They/them are the most correct pronouns, and she/her and he/him are both applicable. Truthfully, I'm realizing how much I prefer she/her. Something I'm working through is that I acknowledge I'm a man, but I also admit I dislike it. It bothers me and I wish I wasn't.
Penny Buck will be speaking from now on. They'd really like to make your acquaintance.
It's very nice to meet you! My name is Penny Buck. I'm a bigender deer whose gender expression is female. My pronouns are them/her. I love the color yellow, role playing games, cats, live theater and horror movies! Can we be friends?













