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I knew what I wanted to run to.

But it didn't exist, so I didn't leave.

~ Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie, Half of a yellow sun

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Indirect trauma dumping because its my birthday 2.0

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For those who want to be saved and want to be left alone at the same time.

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I hate how I don't feel real enough unless people are watching.

Chuck Palahniuk

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My mother’s trust issues are leaking into my chest and I’ve got my father’s nose and his tendency to stop calling back so I’m sorry about the 9 missed calls I have from you and the 6 voicemails I never played I swear I’d love you if I could.

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Days will pass, and you’ll abandon things you were addicted to, and leave someone, and cancel a dream, and finally, accept a reality.

-Nizar Qabbani

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Are all of us grieving the loss of something special?

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Salma Deera

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Is it better to out-monster the monster or to be quietly devoured?

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Indirect trauma dumping because its my birthday?

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I might just go crazy.

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Jeanette Winterson

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Nietzsche

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Fyodor Dostoevsky

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As I grow older, I've come to realize that no person is entirely bad just as no person is entirely good. We're all just a combination of good and bad.

The thought that absolutely gutted me is that we might be an angel for someone and for someone else we might be the worst enemy.

It's such a brutalizing thought that 2 people might have totally opposite perspectives of you.

How am I supposed to live with myself knowing that the person who's an angel to hundreds, is my worst nightmare.

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What’s important is that twice two is four and all the rest’s nonsense.

~ Ivan Turgenev