peppourin

a growing human with a lot of thoughts and feelings

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Doodled someone from “I’m a Spider, so what?” 👀

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I’m going to live inside this book and no one can stop me. 

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My new updated Pride buttons are here, as well as new Hippie inspired Pronoun buttons! 

Please check them out on my Etsy! These are updated from my 2019 60s/70s inspired pride buttons and they were a huge labor of love and I love how they came out!  US only.

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WIP

I have no idea what this is but I’m thriving on drawing this random thing

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Did a commission for breach before e e -seeing this makes me feel like someone else drew it. I don’t think I’ve done muscly guys in a while and with a sort-of-different rendering style too. (also not taking comms until July 1st) if you’re interested though, feel free to email me at [email protected] uwu

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Growth record

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AAAAAA <3 <3 <3

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Was doodling some desserts during feb and march uwu thought I’d share

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There was a fanfic about this on a03 but, I couldn’t remember the title anymore?? e e

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I’m sad 

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Random sketch, not sure if I should make this an oc yet???

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I could be doing well, nothing could be happening, but then a thought comes, and then another, and then another. Despite it all, I know I’ll be fine, my brain wants to protect me. I got through so much shit in the past, and I can do it again. 

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It will take a lifetime dropping all the masks I created to protect myself, and I know I can handle that. Small steps. 

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4. 29. 21

Thoughts  I told myself I could die any day, that I’m satisfied with how things are, and I am grateful for everything that I have. I still am, but I can’t help but wonder if all the thoughts and ideas I have in my brain will ever fully get out there to world.  I have more ideas than my life itself, but I can’t control everything. If I die by accident, at least, I’d be able to say I’m happy with my life and everything I had already experience. All the pain, hurt, joy, anxiety -all these different emotions from different thoughts, and experiences. Even despite the hardships, it makes me stronger and wiser than I was before.  And, those are what I want to create -retelling humanity through it’s dumb memes to the painful details. But there’s only so much I can do as of the moment, and I’m not willing to sacrifice certain things in order to get there.

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Despite all the distance, I could always talk to you no matter what. No filters. No shame. I’m so grateful for you. I strongly believe, we’ll be alright. 

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4. 27. 21

Morning Thoughts before work I am feeling peaceful.  I’m not a good person, but I want to do good as much as possible, even if people will call me a hypocrite or many other names. I’ve done bad things before, but it does not define me as a person. My good nor bad deeds will not define me.  The only identity that I can truly attach myself to is that I’m a human being who is constantly changing, with intuition constantly evolving as my knowledge and experience of the world grows, as I introspect on the sins I have done, and as I give myself room to fail and try to be patient with myself and others, in order to grow into who we truly are.  I believe that who I am is who I’m always progressing towards. “ Anyone's capable of great good and great evil. Everyone, even the Firelord and the Fire Nation, have to be treated like their worth giving a chance." -Aang, Avatar the Last Air Bender This quote always stuck with me a lot.  Feelings and Triggers

Read the article: Are you a good person? Morality experts say this is how you find out by Alia E. Dastagir (2018) --reading this made me feel calm. 

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4 . 26. 21

Thoughts of a 19 year old

I am feeling  calm and satisfied. 

Sometimes, I dream of many things and I can get scared. I wonder if I can accomplish them with my self-respect intact, and even if at times I lose it, I know I'll be able to find it back again. I just have to maintain that space I have for myself to know who I am and what I really want, and refine that as I go. Even if I died accomplishing not much at all, I can still say I lived my life fully. 

Feelings and Triggers

Writing this and sharing it --allowing my feelings to be seen, makes me scared because it makes it vulnerable to criticism and to the unknown, but I want to be brave. Maybe, just maybe, I'll find kindred spirits. I'll find counters to balance me out and find the truth. (I'll probably still filter myself)

Wrote a fanfic and got feedback: I was incredibly scared at first, but it wasn't that bad!

Watching Patch Adams made me feel: happy and hopeful, inadequate and hopeless, familiarity in mistrust after betrayal, resonated with the “I could jump.”