funny little headcanon is that i believe if victoria ever came out to her mom that shamsi would be like 'okay, that's fine. but i still don't understand why you do not want to go into surgery. all the other gay women are in surgery; do you not want to be a gay surgeon like yolanda and emery? what about your lesbian friend trinity, doesn't she want to do surgery as well? you can do better victoria'
emery walsh meets her first wife, lacy, in her first year of undergrad at boston university. they date for years and then get married a month before they graduate and emery is deployed.
lacy is the perfect military wife. she has a job, calls emery whenever emery has a chance, and sends mail. but her deepest fear is that emery will not come home at all. she will never get the true domestic life she wants.
the day emery comes home is the happiest day of lacy's life. emery has ptsd and flashbacks and nightmares, but she is there for every moment. lacy rocks emery to sleep after nightmares, drives her to support group, calms her down during panic attacks, helps her study for the mcat, makes her a cake when she gets accepted into med school, and is perfectly happy to move to pennsylvania for upenn. emery is a planet, and lacy is the sun keeping her in orbit. life is good and domestic, and they live paycheck to paycheck but that's ok because at least they are together.
lacy dies in an eight-car pile-up on the highway four years later (during emery's ms4 year).
emery finds out during her cardiology rotation, which is ironic because she thinks her heart stops. she goes home early that day and doesn't come back for another three days. the only reason she eats or showers is because yolanda (a friend from med school forums, ms2) comes over and makes her. after those three days, she goes back to rotations and finishes the year. then she hops right into her residency and just keeps going because stopping would mean thinking and processing. she shuts off her emotions at work and becomes emery walsh, the incredibly competent surgery resident that scares all the others.
five years later, after she's moved to pittsburgh, her residency is over, and she's started her fellowship, she meets samira. her emotions are completely divided between pure guilt over someone coming after lacy and pure joy because no one has made her feel this way since lacy.
(does loving samira mean she doesn't love lacy? does it mean she's forgotten about her?)
years later, she will have mostly moved past it, but the thought will still nag her.
samira knows about lacy and leaves emery alone on lacy's birthday and death day. emery always takes the day off and goes to sit by her grave, alone. she brings flowers and cries and goes home and sleeps alone. samira knows lacy existed, but she did not know lacy.
after they have been dating for a year and a half, samira asks emery if she can come with her on one of her smaller visits to lacy. emery is surprised but she says yes. it's kind of nice to have samira there as she cries. not saying anything or touching her, but there nonetheless as a silent i'm here for you. afterwards, samira drives her home and makes her hot chocolate and gives her a cookie she'd made earlier in the week.
this is the first time that it hits emery that samira does not resent her for having a wife or a life partner before her. she is happy to share emery's love.
as the years go by and they get married, samira occasionally goes with emery to the short visits. during the day-long ones during lacy's birthday and deathday samira packs her meals and water and is always waiting when she gets home. emery's favorite part about it is that samira never expects anything from her on these days.
when they have kids, samira makes sure they know that it's a rough day for your mom, so make sure to give her a hug before school and it's not your fault if she's sad. emery feels bad that she's so closed off on these days, even decades later, and ends up whispering to her kids that mom isn't mad at you and you didn't make her sad. mom loves you so much. it's a rough day for mom but she loves you and her sadness isn't your responsibility.
emery knows that samira cares about her--and by extension her grief about lacy, but she figures that samira only thinks about lacy as an extension of emery, a fragment of grief rather than her own person.
until one day samira tags along to a visit to the grave. she sits with emery while she talks, rubs her back like she always does when she comes. when emery mumbles into between tears that she wants to take a lap alone samira says of course i'll be right here.
when emery gets in distance of the grave ten minutes later, samira is still sitting there, but her mouth is moving. i just wanted to say thank you for making her her, i wish i could have met you, thank you for trusting me with her. the words are spoken in a low voice, and emery can tell that she has only witnessed half of the conversation, but it hits her nevertheless.
she loves samira so much, but another devastating wave of love for her hits emery in that moment. she finds herself running the rest of the distance back to samira and pulling her into the biggest bone crushing, snotty hug she's ever given.
Iâm thinking about Ellis and Walsh watching Dr Garcia, the mean bossy lesbian who terrifies most residents at PTMC and has an absolutely insane RBFâŠ
absolutely fold like a lawn chair whenever trinity smiles at her
I know they donât give her a MOMENT of rest about how down bad she is for the snarky r2
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
âIâm sorry that I called you trouble. Youâre not trouble.â Garcia looks at Trinity with a ferocity that is made gentle by the warmth of her brown eyes. âYouâre a good doctor, Santos.â
âThank you, Dr. Garcia,â Trinity says sincerely. âThat means a lot.â
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Trinity Santos, Yolanda Garcia, and the first thirteen months of them.
the stupidest circle of hell is when you're like oh this ship is SO obviously supported by canon surely everyone must talk about it and then you find out the dedicated popular yaoi is some total bullshit
i think a big reason that the pittâs fan base is so upset with season two was because it set itself up so differently. it spent the previous 12 months as an ensemble show, one made up primarily of women, and hugely of woc. it won awards for its ensemble, it had one of the most beloved cast of characters on tv right now. and sure everyone had their personal dislikes in the cast, but there was someone for everyone.
the pitt season two took all of that goodwill, that huge, diverse, incredibly intelligent and kind audience, and instead of continuing to give them the stories they wanted - that the show promised in season one - once it grabbed their attention it directed 90% of it towards the white men.
i think if season one had been more robby focused, people wouldnât have been so disappointed by season two. but they also probably wouldâve had a smaller fandom.
âoh but robby was always the main character even back in season one, the show was always going to be about him! heâs always been the most important to the narrative!â if you genuinely believe this i have a beach to sell you. the show SAYS robby is the main character, and everyone took that at face. but the problem with a show trying to say something is that it doesnât matter if it doesnât back it up with on screen evidence. it spends so much time telling you to read between the lines and then gets surprised when people call out the sexism and racism.
i think to a lot of people they felt like their identity was leveraged for views, and once the show had the audience it wanted, it stopped focusing on them at all. and if your character is robby or langdon or whitaker then thereâs nothing wrong with that, but theyâre definitely not the reason that i watched the show iâll tell you that.
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