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i'm arianna & nothing happened in the way i wanted. taurus sun, libra moon, virgo rising. my writing my tags

[permanentlytragic]

hey!! it’s a new url!! i was previously pressurizes, but am now permanentlytragic. still the same forever sad girl who’s been on this site for ten years!!

i haven’t introduced myself here in a v long time so taking this opportunity for a pinned post to share a few things about me w/ the new url ~

3rd gen latinx, residing in the usa / adhd / ptsd / disabled / chronic illness queen / almost always high, happiest in neature with my greens / obsessed w my two cats, who isn’t / enneagram 2 / taurus sun, libra moon, virgo rising / burnt out gifted kid !!

this is a safe space !! this is no space for r*cists/h*mophobes/x*nophobes/t*rfs - gtfo. also mutuals pls be my friend even though i’m notoriously awful at notifs! gonna try getting back into writing and creative shit soon. time to roll up gnite ~

[latibule-e-deactivated20231012]

— Louise Glück, from “Timor Mortis.”

[fromdarzaitoleeza]

“If all goes well, I shall disappear for some time and there will be no way to get hold of me.”

{Quote:Aldous Huxley, Brave New World/Alfred Lord Tennyson, from Maud, A Monodrama/Fernando Pessoa, The Book of Disquiet/Mary Shelley, Frankenstein/David wojnarowicz/Anaïs Nin, from “The diary of Anaïs Nin, vol. 3: 1939-1944”/HermannHesse, from a letter to Conrad Haussmann written c. July 1911 //paintings: Pinterest}

[flowerytale]

Margaret Atwood, from The Blind Assassin

[flowerytale]

Virginia Woolf, from The Waves

[fromdarzaitoleeza]

{Quotes:Dreaming -cream/We shall be well prepared Mary Oliver/Who had a heart- Dionne warwick/Richard siken/Richard siken/euripides/Richard siken/euripides /letters to Milena Franz Kafka //picture: Pinterest}

“I have dreamed about you everynight since the day you left.”

[fromdarzaitoleeza]

Sanna Wani, “Who is the Sun, Asking for Sleep?”, My Grief, the Sun // Brenna Twohy, A Coworker Asks Me If I Am Sad, Still

[fromdarzaitoleeza]

Fortesa Latifi, from The Truth About Grief.

[deviika]

Jane O. Wayne // Kate Jacobs

[thecosmoswhispers]

The love was there.

(NOT BASED OFF ANY CURRENT EXPERIENCES)

Jeanette Winterson / Ashe Vernon / Clementine von Radics, "In a Dream You Saw a Way to Survive" / P.D, "there is no absolution for the fallen, only dying" / Sky Ferreia, "Sad Dreams" / ? / Lidia Yuknavitch, "The Chronology of Water: a Memoir" / ?

[saintsebastiensbf]

Jane Austen, Emma

Sufjan Stevens, Futile Devices

Virginia Woolf, The Letters of Virginia Woolf

Hozier, Shrike

Jane Austen, Sense and Sensibility

Sierra DeMulder, Your Love Finds Its Way Back

Nizar Qabbani

“What I feel for you can’t be conveyed in phrasal combinations; It either screams out loud or stays painfully silent but I promise — it beats words. It beats worlds.”

Katherine Mansfield

[llovelymoonn]

clarice lispector the complete stories: “brasilia” (tr. katrina dodson) \ james wright above the river: the complete poems and selected prose: “a blessing” (via @weltenwellen​)

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[archbudzar]

prints available here

[awakeningthevioletswithin]

Random Acts Of Violets

Watercolor On Black Cotton Paper

2023, 22"x 30"

Viola odorata, Sweet Violets

Private Collection

[morepeachyogurt]

i’m not easy to love, i know, i know, i know

1. Kim Addonizio | 2. yves olade | 3. @titsay | 4. Chelsea Carr | 5. l.m. dorsey | 6. @asoftwrongness | 7. nicole homer | 8. daughter | 9. downeaster

[unchildhood]

URSULA K. LE GUIN x RENÉ MAGRITTE

The Wind’s Twelve Quarters (1975);

La Foret, or The Forest (1927), painting, oil on canvas

[flowerytale]

Sylvia Plath, from a letter to Ann Davidow-Goodman, featured in The Letters Of Sylvia Plath Volume I: 1940–1956

[Text ID: I know I’ll always think of you with something like hurt and nostalgia―and a great deal of love.]

[leonardospoetry]

Some chapters of life don’t actually have an apparent ending. They just fade away silently.

It’s a strange feeling to look back at the past sometimes and see how some parts of life have simply dissolved into nothingness. And even though this poem might sound sad, I believe that being mindful of the transience of life actually helps us to feel all the preciousness and beauty of it.