My Personal Bizz

I'm getting real and personal with all of ya'll. As you will find, I am many things. Random, creative, inspired, and unique. I. Am. Me.

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I got an email stating this blog is a year old. JFC can aging just stop already...

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Late Night Answers on my Main Blog

myleatherlace asked: Write ten facts about yourself and then pass this on to ten of your lovely followers/friends

Bahaha Alrighty then Michelle!!!

I’m obsessed with candles. I just love their existence.

I’m selling my soul to my old restaurant job over the summer. Money is evil.

My brother works on a farm, and in turn, the laundry makes my entire family’s clothes smell slightly farmy. As a side note, the smell of manure barely registers with me anymore.

I live in a one horse town.  Literally my closest neighbor is a quarter mile away. And they are cows.

I have been the same size since 8th grade… That’s almost 7 years if you are counting. Haven’t grown at all.  

I was a really chubby child. My shirts from elementary school would still fit me if my boobs weren’t so huge.

I am a media hoarder.  I love things to be in their physical forms (like cds, dvds, and games) This doesn’t mean I don’t have an iPod or a digital library… I’m just a disk pervert.

I’m a complete nerd for the anime, Bleach.  I started watching the show back in 2009 when I was pulling an all nighter making a piñata for spanish class… I’ve been hooked ever since.  I still get the same excitement when the title screen rolls and I have to tell myself to calm my tits.

I want to travel.  When I was younger I thought Japan was the only place I wanted to go… But recently I realized I want to go everywhere!!! I want to see everything and experience different cultures.

It is currently 3:21 in the morning and I have no idea why I’m not in bed… I’m not tired though… Life of an internet hobo I guess!! Also there is a dog barking outside. SHUT UP DOG!

This was fun!! Thanks for helping me procrastinate some more haha!! DANITIS!!! Also, you should let me know your answers for this because I want to know them!!!

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Because I enjoy collages and I think this will brighten up my blog... INCOMING WEEKLY UPDATES ON:

What I'm watching: Doctor Who Season 3, Red Vs Blue Season 4

What I'm listening to: Fall Out Boy, The 1975

What I'm playing: Portal 2

What I'm reading: Looking for Alaska by John Green

YouTube Channel I'm obsessing over: Rooster Teeth/ Achievement Hunters Let's Play

Projects I've finished: Dan Howell Portrait in Colored Pencils

My Govens of the week: Adventure Time Season 2, Union Jack Sunglasses, Daft Punk's new album, Strings for my guitar

This is going to be a HumpDay Exclusive... So it won't get too overwhelming for anyone who may happen across this blog. I mean, it's my personal blog. I'll do what I want!!! 

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I'm Not Tagging this on Purpose.

I'm updating now, fully conscious I promise!!! Just looking back on that last post makes me cringe. What was I even trying to say...? Whatever, I have a structured thought for this entry so let it begin!!! 

I do believe I was trying to talk about how I actually wrote my script for my new video, but I didn't do everything I would have liked with my day. It's quite alright, though!  That's the beauty of summer and setting your own goals! But... I'm not living up to my own goals... Shouldn't I feel less fulfilled than this...

I did end up shooting that video! Whoot! I was quite happy with it, but it needed a lot of editing.  My next idea will hopefully be less time intensive.  I'm doing that thing where I have too much going on in my own head to be able to focus my energy correctly... I joined Luminocity so I can improve how my brain works! Once a day you go on there and play the games and I guess it trains your brain. I don't know. I'm not a scientist.

I've started becoming heavily invested in Doctor Who.  It took me all of my will power to not buy a plush Dalek from Hot Topic today... I cried so much during the season 2 finale.  And I just spent 20 minutes comparing prices of other talking Daleks. And another 20 more have been invested in the Impossible Game.  Yeah... It's now 4 hours later... I have a problem.

I restrung my guitar! I'm pretty syked!!! I love music, and I'm going to start covering EVERYTHING!!!! The only downside is that I haven't played in a while... so my fingers are kind of sore right now.  Ah the familiar pain of pre-calloused fingers!!! I must build these babies up! 

I've decided I'm going to try and design some tee-shirts for TeeFury.com and see if I can't make any money haha! Speaking of jobs... I accidentally got hooked into signing up for an interview with Vector today... Yeah not gonna go to that one.  This is why you don't answer the phone when someone you don't know is calling you.  Lesson learned.  I also have to go back to my other, more reliable job, next week.  It's going to suck all of the bullocks. Not a fan of waitressing, but whatever I guess it makes money.

My cat broke one of my projects and it shattered into thousands of pieces all over my carpet.  I have now blockaded the window with my TV.

I cleaned my room.  Yay. No one cares. But to be honest, no one reads this anyway.  I feel better about using my blog as a journal though, because it's nice to have an outlet... Even if it is available for the whole world to see.

Honestly, there are other things I could ramble on about... But what is the point. Life goes on and none of these things are changing my life at the moment. So yeah.... I might go to bed at 10:30 now... I haven't gone to bed this early in 2 years. 

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Today Was a Step In a Direction.

What I mean by that is, I set goals for myself and I actually met a few of them!! I finished writing the script for my comeback video, but I got really distracted by voice acting tutorials. That isn't cheating the Internet. (Omg I just jolted out of half consciousness and read through that last sentence. what does it eveb mean!?! I'm falling asleep while I'm writing this on my phone. The situation is crucial and I'm about to fall asleep. I'm gonna revisit this tomorrow morning.)

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I decided my night would be better spent drawing Dan.

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I dragged some old drawings I did up from the dead while I was cleaning my room. I'm still quite proud of them, even if they only exhibit my ability to duplicate what I see.

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After thoughts.

This may prove to be more challenging than it is actually worth, but I'm writing this out from my iPhone. Tumblr seems to be down on my computer... I really have tried to get on all night but nope... So we will see if autocorrect is my friend or foe while I'm typing this all out at 3 in the morning. I have this problem. I find myself having so many ideas that I want to follow through with, but I'm too ambitious. This doesn't seem like it would be a bad thing, right? Yeah... What ends up happening is I start tons of projects and get halfway done with them before I get bored. Why do I do that??? I could easily start one project and carry on with only that thing until I get bored and then move on to something else. Then I could return to the first project when I'm bored or finished. That would be the logical way to approach a pile of projects. But no. I get ADD and want to start up ten at once. Then I can't focus and I flippin sit around all day watching YouTube videos. (I watched all of the Roosterteeth animated shorts tonight... There's 99). There's so much to accomplish. I don't even know where to start. I started thinking about my future tonight. That's what ultimately led me to sacrifice my hand muscles to type this out from my dinky phone. I just had to put it into words. When thoughts of my future rise up, I feel a sense of urgency and fear. I fear there won't be anything out there for me once I graduate. I fear I won't ever be able to leave behind my stupid hometown in buttfuck no where. I'm feel urgent because my time is running out. I need to get better at my craft. Not just better, but the best. That is why I'm taking on so many projects at once. But even with this feeling of urgency I am experiencing while I lay here, I cringe at the fact that I let an entire day go by and all I have to show for it is a page and a half long script that will guide me on my next video. I have so many plans. I need to learn to refocus my attention on my personal goals. If I want to get anywhere in life, I need to grow up in my mind. I need to start treating my projects like a job. Like I'm getting up in the morning and going to work. Wow. I'm doing this stream of conscious thing right now where I type what exactly is happening in my mind. The epiphany has stricken me. School is my job. My projects are my job. I'm a hard worker. That much I know. There's no reason why I can't start applying myself to reach my goals. I can do it. Is that all I needed? A pep talk to myself that I didn't know existed until I typed these words out? This definitely helped. I'm glad I took the time to type this all out tediously on my phone. Worth it!!! On a slightly related note, how cool would it be to get a job at Roosterteeth?? Maybe I should apply to intern there... Maybe I could study as an exchange student in Dallas and work for them. Bahh. I don't even know what I want to do in the future. But as long as I'm entertaining people in some way, shape, or form, I will feel fulfilled. Completely unrelated, but I'm starving. And being horizontal like this is making me get horrendous heartburn. Time to sleep it off I suppose. Hopefully tumblr is working tomorrow so I can write my daily thoughts down from a computer instead of a 1x2" block of letters.

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I can breathe.

Yep. It's happened again.  I turned in my books, took my tests, wrote my papers, and Lord have mercy, I finished all of my projects.  It was rough, but I managed to come out on top of this semester! *Insert victory dance here!!*  This ultimately means I get to go back to doing some things I'm actually interested in doing:

Kind of serious business stuff:

Get back into the vlogging scene since I took such a long hiatus... agh... Definitely caught Danitis there.

Launch a second YouTube channel that is strictly for my animations.

Create an art blog and put everything I have ever made up that isn't totally cringe.

Start an animated series that I've been ideating for about 2 months now.

Re-vamp a school project that I personally feel I failed miserably on... Bahh

Make channel art for both of my channels since YouTube is forcing this new layout down all of our throats now.

Stuff for me:

Keeping up with this personal blog as a journal.

Draw. Everything. Draw all the things.

On the same note, I want to do a 30 day drawing challenge during the month of June! WHOOT! I'M GONNA FINISH THIS TIME!

Finish Doctor Who (I'm halfway through Season 2!)

I have Legend of Zelda: Twilight Princess and Skyward Sword barely started... I want to play through them both.

I kind of want to play through Pokemon Blue again. Just for shits and giggles.

Things that are gonna have to happen... Even if I'm not particularly excited about them...:

Going back to work as a waitress... Kill me now.

Exercising, but at least there's that zombie app or whatever.

Quitting my soda addiction... Slowly but surely.

But yeah. I'm going to be on this personal blog of mine more often than before because it's finally looking like I want it too.  I also just need a place to vent and I miss writing in a journal.  I feel like I should probably keep writing IRL because my penmanship is crap. Bahh I'm rambling.  Starting tomorrow, I'm going to journal.  End of story.  Why I feel like I need to shout this to all 15 of my followers here, well, It makes me feel like there's a commitment.  Lord knows I need commitment in my life.

As a side note, look what I found at Walmart today:

Made me think of danisnotonfire. K I feel like this should be done now... 

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Agh...

I was originally going to write an entire rant about how people are unreliable and if you want something done, you have to do it yourself.  I decided that was unfair.  I'm frustrated. That's all.  It has to be my fault that most of my group isn't taking our final seriously.  I am the director after all.

What am I supposed to do... I've done all I could.  And yet, no matter how dedicated I am to this project, the blame falls on me if any of my group members slack or pull an attitude.  It's hard to shoulder that kind of burden... I'm upset.  I thought I made myself clear when I told everyone what needed to get done and when it needed to be finished.  Everyone was eager to follow my directions.  But that can all come crashing down with one late night, oversleeping, and having zero communication.  

So now here I sit, still waiting for my group member to show up and help me shoot.  Three hours have gone by and we could have been finished for today, leaving tons of other time for other classes tonight.  But nope.  Now we are even farther behind... We are so close to our due date (3 weeks) and we only have 14 seconds out of 100... I guess the worst part is that I thought we were in good shape last night.  Funny how things keep going wrong and stressing me out.  Agh... 

I just needed to vent.  Other than that I'm in love with Fall Out Boy's new album.  It finally downloaded last night and it's bringing a little bit of light into the situation. 

Just one more month.

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This actually happened a few nights ago... But I posted it on my other blog because it was fandom related... My life...

I had all of my fandoms mixed into a modge-podge in my dream last night.

So I went to sleep while watching Soul Eater on my laptop last night.  Not sure if that had anything to do with what I’m about to describe to you all, but I feel like this needs to be put into words.

We were in a hotel.  By we, I meant Dan Howell and I.  (No this isn’t going to turn into some smutty fanfic situation, so just scroll along if that is what you are expecting.)  There was a group of random YouTubers meeting up, probably for a con. (Clearly my subconscious wishes I was going to be at Playlist live this weekend…. (-_-)…) So Dan and I were hanging out like bosses, and all of a sudden, Phil came into the room acting all weird.

He was clearly possessed, but not by a ghost.  I mean, it was kind of a ghost, but not really.  It was like a digital moving tattoo thing that could travel through the air (like in Willy Wonka and the shrinking machine) and when it landed on you, it took over your body.  This thing was evil and looking to possess a body so it could take over the human race.

I realized this thing existed and it knew I knew, so I pushed Phil into the wall before it could Phil’s body to attack me.  The creature got sucked into the wall instead, because whatever it touched became vulnerable to its powers.  So now, it was traveling through the building through the walls looking for people to possess.  

Now my obsession with Sherlock comes into the equation.  Dan and I became like Sherlock and Watson.  I, of course, was Sherlock (because I’m so flippin’ clever and whatnot… Sarcasm… That was sarcasm.) Dan was my Watson.  Yes, MY WATSON… Deal with it Dangirls.  Anyway, we went traveling through the hotel looking for the creature and finally we ended up in some kind of auditorium.  

Now the thing is hiding and the room has like 10 nameless and random people in it.  Dan is shouting at the people to leave the room.  They were all startled, so they left without much of a fuss.  Meanwhile, I’m trying to locate this stupid little tattoo demon, but it was really good at hiding.  All of a sudden, Dan sees movement coming from one of the seats towards the back of the room.  We run towards the moving chair and I launch myself towards the creature.  I’m flying through the air in slow motion and I’m about to make impact with this crazy thing that can possess me on impact…..

And….

I jolt back into consciousness as my mom bursts into my room asking if I wanted to go shopping…. Oh my god mom… I was just playing Sherlock with Dan Howell trying to hunt down a creature that had possessed Phil who was very very similar to Medusa from Soul Eater, and you are assuming I can answer a mundane question like that after what I’ve experienced… YOU DON’T KNOW WHAT I’VE SEEN!!! WHAT I’VE EXPERIENCED!!! 

Okay… That is all… What the fuck brain.

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I'm almost to 100 subscribers!!!! Whooot!

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HEY YOU GUYSSSSSSS!!!!! I made another video!!! I drew my life this time, so why not check out my mediocre white board skills?!?! Watch my other videos, and if you aren’t already, SUBSCRIBE TO MY CHANNEL!!! <3<3<3

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I’m my own morbid Valentine today and that is how I like it. :)

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So... Back to college... WAHHHH!!!! Like and Subscribe if you can relate to my pain and suffering... (-_-)

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Day 03 - A monster (bad)

So I can’t seem to break the frog theme… Oh well!! Yesterday’s cute good monster officially evolves into this monstrosity! 

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Day 02 - A Monster (Good)

So yeah… Don’t really know what has happened here… He is a good monster on the inside… Photoshop is my friend :)