Savior of the Cursed and Damned

Dear Diary, I'm not a believer. People are born, they grow old, and then they die. That's the world we live in. There's no magic, no mysticism, no immortality. Indi Elena Gilbert of the CW's Vampire Diaries. My Elena was established in November of 2015. She has been through a few blogs.

[petrovalined]

Why I Haven’t Called - An Update

Trigger Warning: mental health

I owe you all an explanation for why I dropped off the face of Tumblr and the RP world entirely. This is going to be long, so please bear with me. Simply put - I was overworked, underappreciated, and just suffering mentally. I probably should have given you all notice because this world has meant so much to me, but at the time I was so done with everything that it included RP. Writing had begun to feel like a chore and I wasn’t sure who I was anymore.

I was waking up angry at my job and the life I’d set up for myself. I woke up wondering how I was just going to make it through the day. I would come home stressed and crying. It was bad enough that my dog became a certified Emotional Support Animal from my doctor because I just wasn’t dealing with my life well.

I was getting physically ill more and more and my physical health was affecting my mental health and visa-versa. It was a horrible cycle that I wouldn’t wish on even someone I loathe. I would wake up, go to work, come home and sleep and do the entire routine over again with little to no variation.

I gave up. I gave up on everything.

My mom and my boyfriend realized I wasn’t the same person anymore. I was putting on a happy face but that was all it was - just a face. They helped me realize that I needed a change.

And so I gave up a job where I was making not great money but enough to live on. I had even gotten a raise recently but it hadn’t helped me feel like I was worth anything. I took a pay cut to do something I’ve always wanted to get into - social work.

It was hard and I came home physically exhausted but I was feeling more like me. I was excited to go to work and help people. But I went into a position that had seen 3 people in the same chair in a year’s time. Of course, I was arrogant and thought I would be the exception because I’m a hard worker.

Spoiler Alert: I wasn’t.

Despite my hard work and willingness to learn, I was terminated just before my 3 month anniversary with no reason given. I suspect that they didn’t want to start my insurance benefits and that my supervisor didn’t like me because she hadn’t been the most helpful person.

So I started unemployment. I was depressed again. And on top of it my boyfriend’s boss told him he needed to move or he would lose his job. So we started packing.

And that’s where I am now. I’ve moved in with my boyfriend and we have his friend as a roommate to help with the rent. I’m slowly getting over being knocked down and RP is starting to feel like something I could love again.

I’m going to be trying to get back into it. I understand if I’ve lost some friends here because of my absence, but I hope that isn’t the case.

I love you all and hope to write with you soon.

-Amber

[petrovalined]

Why I Haven’t Called - An Update

Trigger Warning: mental health

I owe you all an explanation for why I dropped off the face of Tumblr and the RP world entirely. This is going to be long, so please bear with me. Simply put - I was overworked, underappreciated, and just suffering mentally. I probably should have given you all notice because this world has meant so much to me, but at the time I was so done with everything that it included RP. Writing had begun to feel like a chore and I wasn’t sure who I was anymore.

I was waking up angry at my job and the life I’d set up for myself. I woke up wondering how I was just going to make it through the day. I would come home stressed and crying. It was bad enough that my dog became a certified Emotional Support Animal from my doctor because I just wasn’t dealing with my life well.

I was getting physically ill more and more and my physical health was affecting my mental health and visa-versa. It was a horrible cycle that I wouldn’t wish on even someone I loathe. I would wake up, go to work, come home and sleep and do the entire routine over again with little to no variation.

I gave up. I gave up on everything.

My mom and my boyfriend realized I wasn’t the same person anymore. I was putting on a happy face but that was all it was - just a face. They helped me realize that I needed a change.

And so I gave up a job where I was making not great money but enough to live on. I had even gotten a raise recently but it hadn’t helped me feel like I was worth anything. I took a pay cut to do something I’ve always wanted to get into - social work.

It was hard and I came home physically exhausted but I was feeling more like me. I was excited to go to work and help people. But I went into a position that had seen 3 people in the same chair in a year’s time. Of course, I was arrogant and thought I would be the exception because I’m a hard worker.

Spoiler Alert: I wasn’t.

Despite my hard work and willingness to learn, I was terminated just before my 3 month anniversary with no reason given. I suspect that they didn’t want to start my insurance benefits and that my supervisor didn’t like me because she hadn’t been the most helpful person.

So I started unemployment. I was depressed again. And on top of it my boyfriend’s boss told him he needed to move or he would lose his job. So we started packing.

And that’s where I am now. I’ve moved in with my boyfriend and we have his friend as a roommate to help with the rent. I’m slowly getting over being knocked down and RP is starting to feel like something I could love again.

I’m going to be trying to get back into it. I understand if I’ve lost some friends here because of my absence, but I hope that isn’t the case.

I love you all and hope to write with you soon.

-Amber

[petrovalined]

▛She’s basically ɴᴜᴍʙ to ᴇᴠᴇʀʏᴛʜɪɴɢ that makes her who she is.▟

[petrovalined]

Why I Haven’t Called - An Update

Trigger Warning: mental health

I owe you all an explanation for why I dropped off the face of Tumblr and the RP world entirely. This is going to be long, so please bear with me. Simply put - I was overworked, underappreciated, and just suffering mentally. I probably should have given you all notice because this world has meant so much to me, but at the time I was so done with everything that it included RP. Writing had begun to feel like a chore and I wasn’t sure who I was anymore.

I was waking up angry at my job and the life I’d set up for myself. I woke up wondering how I was just going to make it through the day. I would come home stressed and crying. It was bad enough that my dog became a certified Emotional Support Animal from my doctor because I just wasn’t dealing with my life well.

I was getting physically ill more and more and my physical health was affecting my mental health and visa-versa. It was a horrible cycle that I wouldn’t wish on even someone I loathe. I would wake up, go to work, come home and sleep and do the entire routine over again with little to no variation.

I gave up. I gave up on everything.

My mom and my boyfriend realized I wasn’t the same person anymore. I was putting on a happy face but that was all it was - just a face. They helped me realize that I needed a change.

And so I gave up a job where I was making not great money but enough to live on. I had even gotten a raise recently but it hadn’t helped me feel like I was worth anything. I took a pay cut to do something I’ve always wanted to get into - social work.

It was hard and I came home physically exhausted but I was feeling more like me. I was excited to go to work and help people. But I went into a position that had seen 3 people in the same chair in a year’s time. Of course, I was arrogant and thought I would be the exception because I’m a hard worker.

Spoiler Alert: I wasn’t.

Despite my hard work and willingness to learn, I was terminated just before my 3 month anniversary with no reason given. I suspect that they didn’t want to start my insurance benefits and that my supervisor didn’t like me because she hadn’t been the most helpful person.

So I started unemployment. I was depressed again. And on top of it my boyfriend’s boss told him he needed to move or he would lose his job. So we started packing.

And that’s where I am now. I’ve moved in with my boyfriend and we have his friend as a roommate to help with the rent. I’m slowly getting over being knocked down and RP is starting to feel like something I could love again.

I’m going to be trying to get back into it. I understand if I’ve lost some friends here because of my absence, but I hope that isn’t the case.

I love you all and hope to write with you soon.

-Amber

[petrovalined]

I’m looking through my icons and I’ve noticed that I have very few icons where Elena is happy... hmmm...

[junmyyeons]

favorite characters ➤ elena gilbert (the vampire diaries) i used to think the worst feeling in the world was losing someone you love, but i was wrong. the worst feeling in the world is the moment that you realize you have lost yourself.

[ravenclairee]

[thegardenof-eden-deactivated201]

If they had a kid meme

[fortheaskbox]

send me a pair name and I’ll tell you what I think it would be like if they had a child.

Name:

Gender:

General Appearance:

Personality:

Special Talents:

Who they like better:

Who they take after more:

Personal Head canon:

Face Claim:

[petrovalined]

“tired?”

Elena yawned and stretched so much that her muscles almost felt sore. When it was obvious to her that her limbs could stretch no further she pulled her arms and legs back to her body with a sigh that was somehow both satisfying and dissatisfied. “Was it that obvious?” she asked.

[peterquillsuggestion]

this dumb website is in need of some love, so reblog this if you like the person you reblogged it from!!!

[petrovalined]

The to-do list for my TVD blogs. If I missed you let me know.

[lilyluner-deactivated20150224]

Everyone I RP with deserves a Nobel Peace Prize for not killing me when I don’t reply for like a month

[memestockpile]

good morning / good night sentence starters. feel free to change pronouns / descriptors as you see fit. put two sentences together if needed be. some of these are interchangeable. 

good morning.

‘ i’ll make breakfast. ‘

‘ i made you breakfast. ‘

‘ we should make a big breakfast. ‘

‘ did you sleep good? ‘

‘ good morning, sleepyhead. ‘

‘ i slept so good last night. ‘

‘ i didn’t sleep at all. ‘

‘ you’re up early. ‘

‘ you sure slept in late. ‘

‘ you have a little crust around your eye. ‘

‘ you look like hell. ‘

‘ here’s your breakfast. ‘

‘ what do you want for breakfast? ‘

‘ your favorite cartoon is on. ‘

‘ oh, i used to watch this all the time as a kid on saturday mornings. ‘

‘ your morning cleaning music woke up me. ‘

‘ i would’ve slept in later. ‘

‘ someone’s grouchy. ‘

‘ i haven’t had my coffee yet. ‘

‘ up and at ‘em! ‘

‘ hey. you awake? ‘

‘ good morning, sunshine. ‘

‘ morning, sweetie. ‘

good night.

‘ i’m going to bed. ‘

‘ go to bed. ‘

‘ back to bed. ‘

‘ let’s get you in bed. ‘

‘ you’ll feel better in the morning. ‘

‘ let’s take some medicine then send you to bed, okay? ‘

‘ i’ll be home in time to tuck you in. ‘

‘ up you go. ‘

‘ shhh. shh. sh. ‘

‘ time for bed. ‘

‘ can you tuck me in? ‘

‘ will you come in before you leave for work and check on me? ‘

‘ alright, sleepyhead, i think it’s time for bed. ‘

‘ you should be in bed. ‘

‘ can i stay up later? ‘

‘ bedtime. ‘

‘ it’s past your bedtime. ‘

‘ what are you still doing up? ‘

‘ this bed is comfy. ‘

‘ let me carry you. ‘

‘ do you want me to tuck you in? ‘ 

‘ can you tell me a story? ‘

‘ once upon a time … ‘

‘ when’s the last time you slept? ‘

‘ of course i can do that, honey. ‘

‘ i love you. ‘

‘ what helps you go to sleep? ‘

‘ i had a bad dream. ‘

‘ can i sleep with you? ‘

‘ i don’t think you’ve been getting enough sleep. ‘

‘ i’m expecting you to go to bed earlier. we have a big day tomorrow. ‘

‘ you had a long hard day, didn’t you? ‘

‘ you keep yawning. i’ll take it from here. ‘

‘ you, bed. now. ‘

‘ i can’t ever go to sleep on time. ‘

‘ goodnight, baby. i’ll see you in the morning. ‘

‘ go to sleep. i’ll put you to bed. ‘

‘ where’s my goodnight kiss? ‘

[rpmemesforthesoul]

Send “tired?” to notice my sleep-deprived muse nodding off

[petrovalined]

pokes her.

Elena brushed his arm away. “Seriously, could you be more annoying right now?”

[petrovalined]

flicks her nose.

“Hey, stop it!”

[bitcherine]