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[phan7asma]

#phan7asma //  independent . private . highly selective . phantom ghoul of GHOST LORE as created by tobias forge . heavily headcanon based. tobias forge canon critical . EST 2025

PLEASE READ ALL RULES BEFORE FOLLOWING .

// 𝗔 𝗦𝗧𝗨𝗗𝗬 𝗜𝗡 :: crackling midnight laughter , boots pounding on the edge of oblivion , a ferryman who dances between worlds , neon sparks in cathedral dark , shadow stitched to silver strings , a grin that dares the void , mischief in the margins of doom , heartbeat of the pit , chaos with a compass , joy that drags the dead back into the dance , comet-scattered laughter , starlight stitched into shadow , wings cut from midnight and meteors , celestial static in cathedral dark , dancing on the rim of forever , chaos blessed by the cosmos

DNI FOUND HERE DUE TO STALKING AND HARASSMENT mox . 30+ . est 2025 . please read all rules before following . [ mutuals only ]!!

also found at : @absclutio , @anticristvs , @la1cized , @scarbound , @vcrtexed

[astradecays]

"the ocean is a soup... water, salt, meat..." he totally hasnt eaten the wrong brownies. @hideko

she tried her best to separate feelings plain brown's from the "spiced" ones, but it looks like her efforts weren't COMPLETELY successful. hideko sat curled up on the couch, watching a movie when phantom shared the unfiltered thoughts. her eyes shifted up at him, a soft giggle answering while she pulled him into a gentle kiss. "you're missing the vegetables, feabug."

she pulled the ghoul into her arms, wrapping his tail around her and peppering his face in kisses, the movie long forgotten. hideko pulled him into her lap, pressing their foreheads together and humming. "you're so cute, sweetheart."

[phan7asma]

HE PROBABLY SHOULD HAVE ASKED ABOUT the brownies . he had smelled the difference stepping into the kitchen but he was sure that no one was going to leave behind weed brownies . they were far too valuable , weren't they ? so he hadn't thought anything about it when he'd devoured two in an instant and finished off a third on the way back to his den . it wasn't until the world started to SHIFT UNDER HIS FEET that he realized he'd fucked up . and now he's sitting on the couch , eyes wide and pupils large even for him . " no i'm not ! " he's a little too defensive about it . " sea cucumbers and coral and all of that shit count , don't they ? "

he's pouting even as she pulls him into her lap , but the kisses to his face quickly have it melting away into a goofy grin . " i'm the cutest . and you're not allowed to forget it . "

[deusabsentas]

@phan7asma : swiss... the ocean is a soup.

𝐡𝐞 𝐜𝐚𝐧'𝐭 𝐡𝐨𝐥𝐝 𝐛𝐚𝐜𝐤 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐧𝐢𝐜𝐤𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠 in response to his mate's ground breaking discovery. a snickering that rolled into a laughter as amusement turned into the realization that phantom wasn't quite wrong, which lead to the chaos ghoul wondering where the fuck he even pulled this genius idea from.         ❝  yeah, uh  —  pretty fuckin' raw soup, though.  ❞         another laugh follows.  not that he'd care.  he's eaten straight from the lake before ; what's the difference?  but another thought forms and he scrunches his nose at it.     

❝  —  i don't mind the raw meat but i'll pass on the piss flavor.  ❞

[phan7asma]

HE HAS HIS HEAD RESTING ON HIS MATE'S thigh , legs sprawled so that they drape over the arm of the couch , tail brushing the floor in slow , sweeping motions . wide eyes stare at the ceiling as a pout forms in response to swiss' laughter . " it's not raw soup . it's just some kinda delicacy we don't know about yet . bet if we went out more we'd know what to call it . " he's serious . completely serious . there's something about SPECIAL BROWNIES that turns him into some sort of philosopher .

" what ?! piss flavor ? why the fuck would it be piss flavored ? wouldn't it taste like sushi or some shit ? it's seafood . seafood soup . " he's not sure why , but he's absolutely distressed about this .

[kingsmemes]

「   RP MEME :   TOMODACHI LIFE: LIVING THE DREAM.  」     * change pronouns as needed. 

' what did you have in mind? '

' i really like to think things through. '

' i'll find you immediately. '

' i'm not sure this is the right fit for you. '

' i do have a pretty active imagination. '

' i want to be friends with [name]. '

' i'm a bit of a people-pleaser, sorry. '

' i'm having fun, i promise. '

' other people tend to get in the way. '

' let's get going! '

' i'm right here, so tell me what's going on! '

' is it really you? '

' i keep my anxiety bottled up, where it belongs. '

' she liked it! '

' am i dreaming? '

' has anyone told you that you look like [name]? '

' looking at [name] has my heart racing. '

' we spend all our time together. '

' i believe this suits you better. '

' soak it in. '

' i'm in a bad mood. '

' ugh. fine. '

' what? i was thinking of something else. '

' we haven't met yet, have we? '

' it looks like someone wants to talk to you. '

NON-VERBAL:

[ WAVE. ] SENDER waves at RECEIVER.

[ BEACH. ] SENDER and RECEIVER splash around at the beach.

[ PICNIC. ] SENDER and RECEIVER share a picnic at the park together.

[ GARDEN. ] SENDER and RECEIVER work in the local garden together.

[ STARGAZE. ] SENDER and RECEIVER stargaze at night together.

[ PLAY. ] SENDER and RECEIVER play a song together. instruments are up to you!

[ MUSIC. ] SENDER sits with RECEIVER to listen to a new album.

[ STARES. ] SENDER stares silently at RECEIVER.

[ FOLLOWS. ] SENDER follows RECEIVER around town.

[ BOWS. ] SENDER bows in greeting towards RECEIVER.

[la1cized]

with work starting tomorrow , my activity is going to be awful .

i'll be working 8am - 5pm monday through friday . this means getting up at 6:30am and i haven't had to do that in almost a decade so i will probably be dead exhausted for a couple of weeks . this also means starting to go to bed by 10:30pm instead of ridiculous o'clock .

no promises on activity during the week , but i'll be around as i can . should be around at least some on the weekends , though ! i also plan on utilizing my queue more to keep things alive .

biggest change ? judith will be my main blog going forward and she is who i will be logged into on mobile . astarion , the multi , phantom , rose tyler , and terzo will probably run almost fully on a queue .

[phan7asma]

@faithstar snuck some kisses !

                  HE’S  SPENT  THE  ENTIRE  DAY  WITH  DUSK  while  cardi  handled  whatever  it  was  that  he  was  needed  for  by  the  rest  of  the  ministry .  he’d  taken  her  to  the  park …  which  had  him  realizing  that  she  was  still  far  too  small  for  anything  there .  he’d  never  been  so  thankful  about  packing  a  picnic  in  his  life .  he’s  still  getting  used  to  being  a  dad ,  especially  to  a  kit  who  had  had  one  parent  for  so  long  and  who  had  human  in  her .  he’s  thankful  for  the  time  to  spend  with  her ,  to  get  to  know  her  as  more  than  just  a  kit  that  he  absolutely  adored .  sitting  on  a  picnic  blanket ,  HE  GETS  TO  watch  her  curiosity  bloom  while  she  giggles  and  gurgles  at  leaves  and  flowers …  even  poking  at  some  sort  of  bug  that  quickly  scuttled  off .

many  pictures  and  videos  had  been  sent  to  cardi  over  the  course  of  the  day  in  the  hopes  of  making  him  feel  like  he  was  part  of  it .  it  shouldn’t  have  surprised  him  that  cardi  would  be  able  to  find  them ,  that  he  would  wander  out  to  spend  the  rest  of  the  afternoon  with  them .  but  he  hadn’t  even  thought  about  it  until  dusk  let  out  an  excited  squeal  and  began  to  CRAWL  QUICKLY  TOWARDS  THE  EDGE  of  the  blanket .  he  rolls  onto  his  hip  to  try  to  stop  her  from  getting  into  the  grass ,  but  she’s  instead  scooped  up  by  a  familiar  pair of  gloved  hands . 

phantom  looks  up  from  where  he  now  lays  on  his  side ,  perched  on  his  elbow ,  only  to  be  immediately  caught  up  in  a  kiss  that  makes  him  melt .  a  quiet  purr  escapes  from  his  throat  and  were  he  not  glamored ,  his  tail  would  be  thumping  out  of  pure  happiness .  another  series  of  soft  kisses  before  sitting  up  and  gently  pulling  at  his  mate’s  arm  to  tug  him  down  beside  of  him .  “ THIS  IS  A  SURPRISE .  thought  they  would  have  kept  you  for  ten  years . “

[invocari]

Storm hasn't put too much thought in going back to the Pit if it's honest. It has barely been topside long enough to have an opinion on anyone or anything beyond the band. It knows it adores Perpetua. There's this knot in its chest like a physical tie to Papa, and the loyalty might be built in, but it's genuine. Storm would kill for its Papa in a heartbeat, and die for them as well.

It does like all the ghouls, though. The stage ghouls they know best, but the touring and ghouls here at the Ministry are nice enough as well. Solidarity despite element, it thinks.

"I think he's weird... and grumpy. You are not shit on a shoe. You're all... bendy, and cool. Cirrus says 'Dewy is just a butthurt stompy bitch who was mad he lost his favorite stage toy.'"

It pauses, downing their drink with a frown.

"It was... kind of bitchy of her, but I don't think the ghoul before you was just a toy if he struggled so much to accept you."

It was a lot bitchy, actually, but Storm would never say that to her face. That was Aurora's job. He and Haze were the newest and it was just sort of understood that maybe it wasn't yet time to have an opinion.

However, it could have an opinion on alcohol and science! The goal tonight was set, and neither of them had to be back by a certain time... or did they? Storm didn't much care when there was fun to be had and more drinks.

"Fuck yeah, science. More drinks, barkeep!" It calls to the bar. "We have a hero to create tonight!"

[phan7asma]

                  HE'S  DONE  HIS  BEST  TO  BE  THE  BEST  rhythm  guitarist  that  the  band  could  ask  for .  he  found  himself  when  cardi  was  papa  but  he'd  begun  to  thrive  under  perpetua's  reign .  he  knows  he  hasn't  met  his  potential  yet  and  knows  that  he'll  never  get  the  chance  if  he  fucks  up  and  gets  sent  back .  though ,  it  didn't  seem  that  perpetua  was  too  keen  on  sending  ghouls  back .  he'd  made  it  a  point  to  find  a  new  place  in  the  ministry  for  any  ghoul  that  stepped  back  for  ANY  REASON .  and  all  it  had  taken  was  for  sister  imperator  to  drop  dead  for  everything  to  be  better .  he  almost  feels  bad  for  thinking  it …  but  he's  seen  how  she  treated  ghouls  and  cardi .  things  are  much  better  with  cardi  as  frater  and  no  one  would  ever  convince  him  otherwise .

these  days ,  he  enjoys  the  ghouls .  even  dewdrop .  it  had  taken  time ,  but  he'd  eventually  realized  that  dew  didn't  really  have  anything  against  him …  he  had  just  replaced  someone  who  was  BASICALLY  HIS  BEST  FRIEND .  phantom  can  only  imagine  what  that  feels  like .  he'd  been  heartbroken  when  swiss  had  been  forced  to  leave ,  sure  that  he  was  losing  everything  he  enjoyed  most  about  touring .  but  then  storm  had  shown  up  and  he'd  realized  that  it  wasn't  a  replacement …  just  a  new  assignment .

" may  be  bitchy …  but  is  she  really  wrong ?  from  what  i've  seen ,  that's  basically  what  it  was .  his  bestie  stepped  back  and  I  STEPPED  UP  and  he  didn't  have  anyone  to  be  weird  with  onstage  because  he  didn't  realize  that  i  was  fully  capable  of  being  the  dumbass  he  needed . "  he  shrugs ,  another  sip  taken  of  his  drink .  he  doesn't  mind  the  bitchy .  he  finds  cirrus  to  be  honest .  it's  welcome  after  having  to  play  a  fucking  guessing  game  with  dew .

he  shakes  his  head ,  pushing  thoughts  of  dew  away  before  signalling  for  yet  another  drink ,  bright  cackle  escaping  him  at  storm's  words .  " so  my  hypothesis  is …  i'll  eventually  GET  A  LITTLE  SILLY …  but  i  dunno  how  many  of  these  fuckers  it's  gonna  take .  got  a  guess ? "

[phan7asma]

gonna try to do some things today ! phantom is loud and i've learned to just follow the muse .

main focus is @la1cized , but my baby bat is screaming for attention .

[phan7asma]

so ... i have recently learned that phantom goes non - verbal when he's particularly upset about something . he also gets overstimulated much easier , so touching him is a toss up .

the only guarantee of being touched in any verse or timeline , platonic or romantic , is @sinworn 's rain . there's just a strong connection there no matter what .

[anticristvs]

a few quick house keeping things that have been rolling in my head for a bit

i'm finally starting to feel comfortable and safe again and happy with my writing . i shut my blog down and had exclusives because of anxiety and abuse and wanting to keep my circle close . it's been a bit since dealing with all of the craziness of the stalking and harassment , so i'm going to make a few changes based on that .

exclusives are being dropped on @absclutio , @anticristvs , @la1cized , and @phan7asma . rose keeps her exclusives because of the kind of muse she is and what makes that comfortable .

mains and affiliates are VERY MUCH still a thing . however , they will no longer be on my pinned post . when i turned off anon last year , my pinned post was used to figure out who could be harassed about being friends and writing with me . so , it's not perfect , i will be listing them in carrd only . i just want to try to protect my friends as best i can .

gonna be reblogging this on all of my blogs , so if you follow all of them , i'm so sorry for your dash . just want to make sure it's where it needs to be .

[phan7asma]

( #PHAN7ASMA)  —    there is something inside me and they don't know if there is a cure . a demonic possession unlike any before . it's a sickening heartache and it's slowly tormenting my soul . i've invested my prayers into making me whole . i should have known not to give in . i should have known not to give in . like a deadly affliction that is twisting and bending my core . i have begged god for the remedy . but i'm no longer sure .

                                           —   BLASPHEMY , HERESY

summoned by mox

[phan7asma]

@deusabsentas ( dew ) said : lucifer, you look like shit.

                  HE  HADN'T  INTENDED  TO  FALL  ASLEEP  IN  the  bell  tower  furthest  from  the  abbey .  he  had  only  wanted  some  alone  time  to  doom  scroll  and  wind  down  from  all  of  the  noise .  it  had  been  a  particularly  difficult  day ,  ears  practically  on  fire  with  all  of  the  movement  and  sounds  of  new  initiates  and  renovations .  he  had  forgotten  that  they  were  hard  at  work  on  cardi's  new  office .  though ,  he  still  wouldn't  have  expected  all  of  the  banging  and  shouting .  why  did  they  NEED  TO  DO  CONSTRUCTION  anyways ?  even  his  den  wasn't  safe  from  the  commotion  thanks  to  ears  far  too  sensitive  for  their  own  good  and  he  just  didn't  have  it  in  him  to  waste  the  energy  to  hold  glamor  for  only  his  ears .

he  had  underestimated  the  level  of  exhaustion  after  being  woken  up  far  too  early  for  days  on  end  by  the  sound  of  hammers  and  shouting .  if  he  had  realized ,  he  would  have  at  least  chosen  a  closer  hiding  spot .  though ,  he  couldn't  have  known  there  would  be  an  unexpected  rainstorm  that  would  PULL  HIM  OUT  OF  HIS  unintended  nap .  phantom  had  tried  his  best  to  wait  it  out  when  the  rain  against  the  roof  got  too  loud  to  sleep  through .  he'd  sat  there  for  what  felt  like  forever  as  the  storm  only  seemed  to  get  worse .  he  might  have  been  able  to  wait  longer ,  to  at  least  let  the  rain  slow  down  if  he  had  been  able  to  ignore  the  rumbling  of  his  stomach .  but ,  at  that  point ,  he  hadn't  eaten  all  day .

the  trek  back  to  the  abbey  was  long ,  wet ,  and  dirty .  the  area  he'd  been  lounging  in  wasn't  greatly  cared  for  and  there  were  spots  of  slick  mud  and  PUDDLES  UP  TO  HIS  CALVES .  by  the  time  he  reached  the  abbey  entrance ,  he  looked  less  like  a  ghoul  and  more  like  a  wet ,  grumpy  cat .  even  if  it  was  his  own  damn  fault ,  he  let  himself  silently  curse  the  construction  and  conversation  starters  that  he'd  run  away  from .  truly ,  he  wouldn't  have  even  bothered  wandering  out  that  far  if  they  hadn't  been  so  fucking  loud .  so ,  of  course  it  was  their  fault .

he  should  have  known  he  wouldn't  be  lucky  enough  TO  GET  BACK  TO  HIS  DEN  without  anyone  spotting  him …  especially  when  he  was  leaving  muddied  footprints  to  lead  anyone  straight  to  him .  it  was  just  his  fucking  luck  that  it  was  dewdrop  who'd  decided  to  follow  the  trail .  phantom  freezes  at  the  sound  of  the  other's  voice .  his  tail  flicks  in  embarrassment  before  he  turns  around  to  face  the  other  ghoul .  “ thanks  for  observation  captain  obvious . ”  a  frown  as  a  droplet  of  rain  drips  from  the  tip  of  his  nose .  “ can  i  help  you ? ”

[phan7asma]

@astradecays ( hideko ) sent : [ STROKE ] sender absentmindedly plays with receiver's hair while they're focused on another task .

                  THE  WORST  THING  ABOUT  BEING  A  GUITARIST  is  most  definitely  the  part  where  you  break  strings  and  have  to  replace  them .  you  have  to  wander  into  a  store  and  hope  that  you  find  what  you're  looking  for  when  you're  not  even  sure  what  to  ask  for .  which  was  embarrassing  to  admit .  his  guitar  had  been  ready  for  him  when  he'd  been  summoned  and  he  was  pretty  sure  someone  on  the  crew  kept  replacing  his  strings  for  him .  but  who  the  fuck  was  gonna  do  that  while  there  was  a  break  in  the  action ?  he'd  neglected  to  ask  what  they  were  replacing  with  and  asking  dew  would  be  WAY  TOO  FUCKING  EMBARRASSING  and  he'd  already  made  a  fool  of  himself  enough .  but  a  man  needed  replacement  strings .

he'd  been  too  embarrassed  to  ask  anyone  to  go  with  him .  too  embarrassed  to  even  tell  hideko  where  he  was  going  because  he  knew  she'd  insist  on  going  with  him  for  support  or  help  or  something .  and  the  last  thing  he  wants  is  to  explain  in  the  middle  of  the  store  that  he  has  no  idea  what  the  fuck  he'd  looking  for .  at  least  going  alone  meant  he  could  come  up  with  some  excuse  for  why  he  was  buying  sixteen  fucking  styles  of  ernie  ball  strings  and  at  least  two  of  each .  a  friend  of  a  friend  of  a  friend  WANTED  TO  TRY  OUT  STRINGS  and  of  course  phantom ,  being  a  world  class  guitarist  himself ,  knew  that  nothing  could  be  better  than  ernie  ball  but  he  couldn't  be  sure  which  the  friend  would  like .  had  to  try  them  all .  like  a  fucking  pokémon .

even  when  he'd  gotten  back  to  the  abbey  and  was  sitting  in  his  den  floor  unwinding  the  broken  strings ,  he  can't  help  his  cheeks  flushing  a  dark  purple  when  he  hears  the  door  open .  “ had  to  run  out .  SORRY  FOR  DISAPPEARING ,  babe . ”  he  doesn't  lift  his  head  to  meet  her  gaze ,  instead  puts  the  now  useless  strings  off  to  the  side  while  he  lays  the  others  out  in  front  of  him .  it's  overwhelming ,  staring  at  them  all .  knowing  that  he  would  probably  only  like  one  of  them  because  only  one  of  them  could  sound  perfect  and  he  couldn't  have  less  than  perfect .  he's  not  looking  forward  to  the  trial  and  error .  maybe  he  should  grab  some  practice  guitars  to  test  them  all  instead  of  having  to  restring  his  own  SIXTEEN  TIMES .  but …  that  wouldn't  work  either ,  would  it ?  it  wouldn't  be  his  guitar .  and  he  knew  that  meant  it  wouldn't  sound  the  same .

he  hears  her  footsteps  and  feels  her  settle  on  the  couch  behind  him  and  he  shifts  slightly  so  that  he's  sitting  between  her  feet .  “ i'm …  TESTING  NEW  STRINGS . ”  oh  he's  a  shit  liar .  but  he  doesn't  even  try  to  offer  up  the  truth .  he  feels  her  hands  in  his  hair  and  the  tension  in  his  shoulders  eases .  he  closes  his  eyes  for  a  moment  and  grounds  himself  before  pulling  his  guitar  into  his  lap .  he  pulls  one  set  of  strings  out  and  begins  the  impossible  task  of  finding  the  perfect  sound .

[invocari]

It's not like ghouls had time limits like humans. He adored Perpetua, but the man had a distressingly short lifespan compared to Ghouls.

Of course, it seemed like Ghouls had a short timespan when it came to being topside as well. He'd heard all about the ones who had come before him in the band and he'd seen the... weird as hell setup that was called Veneration. Putting dead bodies on display was sure a decision. He didn't question was humans did.

"Dew is... weird. For a Ghoul. Fun, but weird."

He hadn't quite been ballsy enough to ask Dew about details, but there was just enough gossip to know Dew had been part of the band longer than any of the current ghouls aside from Mountain and that he'd been summoned as Water, which sure made sense given his name. Who names a Fire Ghoul Dewdrop, anyway?

"One of the humans said it's only science if you write it down. I... I can't write, but I'll sure support you trying to get an overhang. If you can't, then I definitely can't."

Does Storm still order another drink? Yes. He's not Phantom's keeper, or his own keeper, and the funny plastic card they got sent along with makes the bartender give drinks. It's a win.

[phan7asma]

                  PHANTOM  HAS  NO  INTENTIONS  OF  BEING  SENT  BACK  to  the  pit .  he's  begun  to  enjoy  himself  way  too  much  in  the  human  world .  were  there  times  he  missed  ferrying  souls  to  their  final  resting  place ?  yes .  however ,  now  he  knows  what  loneliness  is .  now  he  knows  that  he  wouldn't  know  what  to  do  with  himself  if  he  was  stuck  without  anyone  else  on  the  shore  of  the  river .  it  doesn't  matter  that  the  ministry's  track  record  of  keeping  ghouls  was  absolute  shit .  that  had  been  before  cardi  had  taken  over  and  with  cardi  in  charge ,  he's  not  so  worried  about  having  to  MAKE  HIMSELF  USEFUL  even  if  his  time  with  the  band  ended .  on  the  bright  side ,  he  didn't  have  to  worry  about  being  made  into  a  weird  corpse  presentation  or  whatever .  not  that  they  preserved  ghouls .  not  that  he's  ever  seen  a  dead  one  around  the  abbey .

his  train  of  thought  is  interrupted  with  storm's  voice  reminding  him  that  he  isn't  alone  at  the  bar .  “ dew …  IS  ALWAYS  SO  GRUMPY .  does  that  make  him  weird ?  he's  always  been  like  that .  had  the  most  trouble  getting  him  to  accept  me  and  not  look  at  me  like  a  fucking  piece  of  shit  on  his  shoe . ”  a  swallow  of  his  drink  as  the  words  are  practically  grumbled .  those  early  days  had  sucked .  when  the  new  ghouls  had  been  summoned ,  he'd  sworn  that  he'd  make  sure  they  didn't  feel  like  he  did  when  he  got  here .

he  raises  his  glass ,  almost  as  if  it's  a  cheers ,  mischievous  grin  pulling  to  his  lips .  “ good  i  do  know  how  to  write ,  then .  means  I  GET  TO  DO  SCIENCE  and  no  one  can  tell  me  i'm  doing  it  wrong .  which  then  means  that  i  can  have  as  much  to  drink  as  i  fucking  want  in  the  name  of  science  so  that  i  can  go  back  to  all  of  the  ghouls  and  let  them  know  just  how  much  their  bodies  can  take .  i'd  be  a  damn  hero . ”

[phan7asma]

@muutos ( rain ) said : We don't choose passion, we feel it.

                  THE  REHEARSAL  ROOM  IS  EMPTY  SAVE  FOR  the  two  ghouls  huddled  in  a  corner  with  their  instruments .  phantom  should  have  known  he'd  find  the  other  there .  he's  not  sure  he's  ever  met  someone  as  passionate  about  his  music  as  rain  except  for  papa .  he's  sat  in  awe  of  the  water  ghoul  more  times  than  he  can  count ,  desperate  to  be  just  as  good  and  just  as  loved .  maybe  it  was  a  stupid  dream ,  a  stupid  wish …  but  he  couldn't  help  but  want  rain  TO  BE  IMPRESSED  BY  HIM  in  some  way .  definitely  a  stupid  hope ,  right ?

there's  been  something  growing  between  them ,  something  that  makes  phantom's  chest  swell  every  time  he  looks  at  the  other .  but  it  comes  with  this  need  to  make  him  proud ,  to  show  him  that  he  was  worth  being  with ,  staying  with .  he's  still  doing  his  best  to  fit  in ,  to  find  his  footing  AND  HIS  PLACE  within  the  band  while  everyone  seems  to  be  getting  more  used  to  his  presence .  at  least  they've  stopped  actively  shunning  him  or  whispering  behind  his  back  within  earshot  of  him .  it's  a  start .  and  having  rain  on  his  side  has  made  it  much  easier  to  deal  with ,  has  given  him  something  to  be  happy  about  other  than  stepping  onstage .

when  he'd  been  summoned ,  he  hadn't  been  sure  how  he'd  feel  about  playing  a  guitar .  in  the  pit ,  the  only  music  that  seemed  to  exist  were  voices ,  ghouls  creating  their  OWN  MELODIES  to  call  out  to  others ,  melodies  that  were  unique  to  each  voice .  there  had  been  souls  that  seemed  musical ,  ones  who  had  a  song  on  their  tongue  that  suffered  from  lack  of  breath  in  their  lungs ,  but  somehow  they  found  a  way .  but  instruments …  he  had  only  seen  them  in  the  eyes  of  the  dead  who  found  themselves  yearning  for  that  which  they  loved  most .  he  had  never  been  sure  if  he  should  pity  those  whose  heart  called  out  for  music  instead  of  a  loved  one .  until  now .  now  he  understands .  now  it  ALL  MAKES  SENSE .

when  he'd  had  a  guitar  pushed  into  his  hands  and  touched  the  strings  for  the  first  time ,  it  was  like  instinct .  there  was  a  connection  to  the  instrument  that  he  had  never  expected ,  a  connection  he  didn't  know  could  exist  with  an  inanimate  object .  but  he  now  understands  that  the  souls  that  sobbed  that  they'd  lost  a  part  of  them  they  couldn't  bring  with  them ,  those  that  swore  that  music  had  been  their  entire  life .  in  the  beginning  NO  ONE  HAD  BEEN  ABLE  TO  separate  him  from  the  guitar .  he'd  thrown  himself  into  a  days  long  learning  spree ,  forgetting  that  eating  and  sleeping  existed  and  hadn't  come  out  of  his  den  until  he  had  finished  learning  kaisarion .  

maybe  that's  why  HE  HAD  ALWAYS  FELT  SO  DRAWN  to  the  bassist …

he  crosses  the  room ,  letting  the  heavy  door  fall  closed  behind  him ,  and  takes  a  seat  at  rain's  feet ,  leg's  crossed  and  hands  crossed  over  the  other's  thigh ,  chin  resting  on  his  knee  as  mismatched  eyes  look  up  at  him  in  awe .  rain  has  always  been  beautiful ,  but  never  more  beautiful  than  when  he's  lost  in  his  playing .  the  quint  considers  himself  a  lucky  ghoul .  as  the  music  dies ,  phantom  can't  help  but  tease  him  about  his  dedication …  but  the  RESPONSE  IS  UNEXPECTED .  eyes  move  from  rain's  features  to  the  fingers  resting  on  the  strings  of  the  bass  and  falls  quiet  for  a  beat .  

lips  roll  together  and  brows  pinch  as  he  searches  for  his  own  words .  he  keeps  his  focus  on  the  other's  hands  when  he  finds  them .  “ kind  of  like  i  didn't  choose  to  be  passionate  about  you ? ”  cheeks  flush  a  darker  shade  of  purple  and  he  clears  his  throat .  “ you  know  that  every  time  you  pick  that  thing  up ,  everyone  can  feel  how  passionate  you  are  about  it .  there's  this  glow  that  you  somehow  get  when  YOU'RE  ONSTAGE  or  even  just  practicing .  part  of  why  i  like  you  so  much ,  i  think .  you  give  so  many  shits  about  the  music . ”

[phan7asma]

a reminder that phantom's left eye is a cloudy white / silver . i'll write something up eventually on the accident that caused it , but know that he can see really well out of his right eye , but his left only makes out shapes and lighting .

but also remember that as a ghoul , he's capable of his own kind of echolocation <3

[phan7asma]

quick update to this .

in glamor , his left eye is still cloudy . he could probably glamor it to match the right , but he prefers to leave it so that there's a quick explanation for any sight related mistakes he might make .

what he can't do is glamor the sight in it back . he's accustomed to it , though , and it rarely causes much issue anymore .

[phan7asma]

a reminder that phantom's left eye is a cloudy white / silver . i'll write something up eventually on the accident that caused it , but know that he can see really well out of his right eye , but his left only makes out shapes and lighting .

but also remember that as a ghoul , he's capable of his own kind of echolocation <3