*not all there*

not a fan of punctuation

[leave-her-a-tome]

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Unsplash -  photography, illustration, and art

Pixabay - same as unsplash

Pexels - stock photos and videos

Stockvault.net - stock photos

freepngimg - icons, pictures and clipart

Veceezy - vectors and clipart

Kissclipart and kissPNG - more vectors and clipart (often transparent!)

Getdrawings - simplistic images and drawing tutorials

Gumroad - photoshop brushes (and more)

Canva - needs login but has lots of templates

Library of Congress - historical posters and photos

NASA - you guessed it

Creative Commons - all kinds of stuff, homie

Even Adobe has some free images

There are so many ways to make moodboards, bookcovers, and icons without infringing copyright! As artists, authors, and other creatives, we need to be especially careful not to use someone else’s work and pass it off as our own. 

Please add on if you know any more sites for free images <3

[kmparker616]

Thanks for the information!!

[phoebe-does]

biggest pill to swallow for me was being in a deep dark place in my life and being told that I can either sink or I could come back and save myself. Those were the two choses, I could either let what was happening to me consume me and let myself fall apart or I could pick myself back up. I had to learn that no one would come and pick up the pieces for me, I would have to do that on my own. And that was rough! Being taught from a young age to have a damsel in distress complex meant I didn’t know how to do this. I would romanticise having to be saved and when that didn’t come I was still sinking and felt hopeless. I decided to start getting therapy and that made me realise what put me in such a dark place and helped me step by step to get me out and get better. Fuck being saved, find that strength within yourself because I KNOW you have it. Save your own damn self, it’s so much more rewarding.

[phoebe-does]

step one of being confident in your voice: Disagree with your friends and voice that when you do! If your friends and you start talking about something and you disagree, SAY SOMETHING! don’t nod and agree just because you feel the need to go along with the consensus, voice your opinion, have an open discussion and learn from each other! It’s crazy how much this practice in a safe and welcoming environment translate into further life and how much easier it becomes to disagree with strangers or in relatively foreign group environments

[taylorsavageee-blog]

[phatsecret-blog]

*♥* 𝖓𝖔𝖙 𝖋𝖎𝖙𝖙𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖎𝖓 *♥*

(first of all, im a teenager- still young)

when i was young, i mean like early years of primary school i was happy, i would smile all the time, i was innocent.

but as i grow older i’ve realised i don’t fit in anywhere. i don’t have the same mindset or morals as my peers. im too white for my asian fam but too asian for my white fam. im too young to have opinions but too old to be ignorant or just to simply not know. im not the same religion as most people i go to school with but im not as knowledgable about my religion as those who are also muslms.

im also white-passing, meaning im too white to experience racial discrimination myself but too asian to have all the same privileges as my white peers, friends or family.

for me it wasn’t even a question of, “where do i belong?” it was more of a fact that i don’t belong anywhere. 

but there are still people who feel like they belong even less than i

[phatsecret-blog]

*♥* 𝖞𝖊𝖆𝖗 𝖓𝖎𝖓𝖊 *♥*

year 9 was easily the worst year of my life

all lows, no highs

just, some days were better than others, but no days were good

and i hate the fact that year 9 was the worst year of my life because it was the year i could actually do something

year 9 i had decent teachers, none i was scared shitless of unlike year 7 + 8

but year 9

that was the year i lost my friends, family members and my mind

my entire life up until year 9 i was neutral

i was at a constant state of neutrality, there’s no other way to describe it

i was neither miserable not ecstatic 

but i could feel shit, but not too much

but i was also happy to be polite

to the point i didn’t know how to fucking cry

i had to go on youtube watch sad videos, sad multifandom edits, peoples stories so i could learn to cry

year 9

i was fucking miserable, i was angry, i was lost and i showed it

i didn’t hide my emotions

but i did hide my words

so maybe that made all the difference? idk

but no one saw me

no one cared

i tried to reach out

fuck, i tried

i talked to my tutor/form teacher

she said she would to talk to my guidance teacher

but my tutor teacher did nothing

and neither did my guidance teacher, who ended up leaving a few months later

i talked to my mum

i said i was concerned about my mental health

that i wanted to get it checked out

she insisted that i was fine, that nothing was wrong with me, that i was happy

tbh it reminded me of zach dempseys mum in thirteen reasons why

is is a  mum thing, a parent thing? or an asian thing?

December,

that was the first to cut myself

but nothing was sharp enough

i tried scissors, my nails (which btw are weirdly strong), paperclips, idk what else

i asked my parents to get me a pencil sharpener, for the razor inside

but when i had the pencil sharpener i couldn’t do it

i felt too guilty

my parents spent their money on it, yk?

and my brother was doing fuck knows what, never here always just sneaking out

i couldn’t hurt my parents more than i already had

i guess i wasnt too far gone

i still cared

i mean there ware razors (the shaving ones), knives i could’ve used

but i didn’t

maybe if i didn’t care i wouldve used them

maybe i wouldnt of gotten so fucking angry

maybe i wouldn’t be so numb

but  i still can’t do it

[phatsecret-blog]

*♥* 𝖘𝖍𝖆𝖛𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖈𝖗𝖊𝖆𝖒 *♥*

...i have to admit

shaving cream is fucking amazing

i’ve never been so not embarrassed(?) to show off my armpits

and i’ve actually been wearing shorts around the house

but now all i need is a good razor

and other shaving creams to test out of course :)

[phatsecret-blog]

*♥* 𝖆 𝖒𝖊𝖘𝖘 *♥*

im a mess

im a mess

please get out of my head

the world is spinning

i cant stop shaking

i look out at the stars

they fade to black

the floor is so cold

oh God please help me

please help me

i beg please help me

oh theres nothing to do

the breaths left me

ringing in my ear

i fall asleep

no where am i seen

i fade away

i fade away

oh God who am i

[incorrecthouseofblack]

Bellatrix: Sometimes I talk to myself for no reason.

Bellatrix: Me too.

[thepersonalquotes]

[thestovetops]

Reblog if a fanfic has ever made you cry

[phatsecret-blog]

caring too early

cared about what people thought too early on, i was a 7 year old worrying about my appearance, hated my voice, hated my hair, hated my background, hated my religion, ashamed of my family. too early on did i care, now? now i have no personality.

ps: if i know you in real life (which hopefully i don’t tbh) then i probably leeched off your personality :)

[thepersonalquotes]

[phatsecret-blog]

don’t give it to the sims 4.

[anonymous-shxtposter]

[phatsecret-blog]

oop- i forgive to easy and resent to hard smh

[phatsecret-blog]

oops-

sometimes i wish i could spit on myself and think i dont deserve to live other times i think im better than everyone and highkey wanna make out with myself how awks low self-esteem or arrogant? who knows, i sure as hell don’t cause im dumb af ;)

[phatsecret-blog]

why is it that the people who are supposed to love and care about you the most are always the ones who refuse to see you grow and always the ones to hurt you most?

[thinnamonbuns]

common misconceptions about eating disorders

(aka what i made bc some people are smart asses :D)

we’re all stick thin.

sis. let me begin by saying that not everybody with an eating disorder is bone skinny. sure, some of us are underweight, but a lot of us are average weights, over weight, or obese. those are the facts. there are no standards for an eating disorder, we come in a lot of different forms.

we’re all white and female.

the stereotype for anorexia or bulimia is that everyone who has it is a white teenage girl who is obsessed with her looks.

newsflash.

not all of us are white, some of us are black. some of us are hispanic. some of us are asian. there’s no requirement or test you have to pass to say you have an eating disorder.

and not all of us are girls. eating disorders affect males too! boys can struggle with the same things as girls, similar to how girls can struggle with the same things as boys.

anorexics don’t eat at all.

now to an extent, your right.

it’s the truth, anorexics mostly don’t eat anything.

but do you understand that in order to function, we have to run on some sort of food???? like we don’t just slump around for months with nothing in our bodies. we fast for days, but we don’t just eat nothing all the time???

there are these things called safe foods. why is it called a safe food? because it’s safe to digest and not burn off.

we eat. we just don’t eat a lot. or as much as we’re supposed to. we purposefully give up nutrients, but it’s not like we don’t receive them ever.

bulimics throw everything up.

again, while this is mostly true, we have safe foods.

there are certain things that we are okay with having in our stomachs. but for the most part, everything we eat gets removed.

anorexia or bulimia is a thing you can “try”.

yes. i did see the meghan trainor thing about how she “tried anorexia”.

first of all, what the fuck. who just says that.

second of all, an eating disorder isn’t something you can try out. it’s not a diet. it’s not a weight loss regimen. it’s a disease. you don’t get a 30 day trial to see if you like it or not.

if you are eating ice and celery for two hours, you can’t go around telling people “oh i’m anorexic!” that shits not funny. some of us have fasted 50+ hours. some of us have passed tf out and not waken up until the next day.

if you think that self starvation is a quick and easy way to lose 10 pounds, buckle up sis because your in for a ride.

people with eating disorders either don’t eat anything or eat the same things.

have you heard of a binge?

everybody who has an eating disorder has experienced one, truth.

a binge is basically where you’ve been restricting for so long, that you lose control and eat everything.

and by everything, i mean e v e r y t h i n g.

i’m talking you eat food from every place in your kitchen. you open the fridge, freezer, pantry and you reach on top of that fridge and grab the cereal too because nothings fucking stopping you.

and then you regret it and wanna die.

that’s what a binge is.

so the next time an ignorant mother fucker comes in my messages and asks me if i even eat at all, i’m gonna write another one of these.