You'll find here the main information regarding this blog as well as the list of all of my written works here !
So, let's start with a short introduction
I'm Phenixa (or Pheni), a living being that really can't care less about pronouns since they keep changing every two hour at least :}
I write a lot since a long time but I started to post my writing on Ao3 around lockdown period (aaaah, 2020, what a time you were) and sporadically posted small wips or drabbles on here. I only got more active here when the Kingdom Hearts brainrot hit me mid-2024.
Ever since, I am... Less active, but I sometimes appear with a wip/drabble or a character analysis. You'll find everything here.
Character Analysis
Twisted Wonderland
Kingdom Hearts
The Lycoris Masterlist
Miscellaneous
And here's my Ao3 account
Since the scraping, all of my fics have been set to registered users only, thus, you'll need an account to access them. This has been done in order to protect my work from more scraping and unauthorised GenAI training, especially since nearly all of my fics got scraped.
Forgot I wanted to post this here as well, this was supposed to be for a LiliBaul AU story idea where Lilia is a vampire Prince but it's likely never going anywhere so I'll just poost the unfinished sketch
Here's a little something I cooked while listening to a podcast on Lilith
You can find my other works in the masterlist
You were currently listening to a podcast about the Seven when he appeared in your living room.
"Khee hee hee. Good afternoon little bat." Lilia greeted with a smile as he plopped down on the sofa you were sitting on.
Your phone was on the sofa, right beside you. Your laptop was resting on your lap and you were writing on a text document where you were typing the info the podcast was teaching you.
"What are you doing?" Lilia asked after you simply ignored him the first time. He was eyeing the document you were typing on, listening vaguely to the podcast beside you. "Oh, it's about the Seven?"
"Yeah, I'm trying to get the gist of your religion." You replied, still concentrated on the podcast and your notes.
"What are you learning?"
You paused the podcast and turned to look at Lilia. He was looking at you with his raspberry red eyes, making you feel seen.
"the rise of the Seven is very ancient. The theologians aren't agreeing on when it started, and if the Seven were real people that walked this earth or just mythological figures. One theologian thinks that while similar figures might have walked the earth, the mythos surrounding the Seven is purely mythological." You explained while reviewing your notes. "This podcast delves into the different mythological aspects of the Seven."
"Ah, I see." Lilia uttered, one hand coming to rest on his chin. "Briar Valley's royal library might have numerous records of the Thorn Fairy if you're that much interested in religion." He mused, his eyes gliding from your face to your laptop's screen. There he could read things that looked like words, but that he couldn't understand. "Are you writing in your language?"
You blinked, then looked at your notes. The letters were the same as the ones used in the common language, but they spelled words in your native tongue. "I suppose I did." You confessed after a small moment of pause.
"You... suppose...?" Lilia repeated before a chuckle escaped him. "My my, beastie, you're more interesting with every passing day!"
You blushed. You were used to Lilia saying that kind of things, but it always felt a little weird. It made you feel all warm and fuzzy.
"And what can you make of these research and podcast?" The old fae asked with a small smirk on his lips. He had seen the effect he had on th prefect and was quite satisfied by it.
"I've read a few papers before I found that podcast episode, but mainly, some theologian think that the Great Seven come from a mixture of mythologies. For example, the King of the Underworld comes from a distinctive religion from the Kingdom of Heroes and the Isle of Woe. A religion that had multiple gods, that are said to be the ancestors of some families from these two lands." You explained, eyes going back on the document you were typing on.
"Ah, really?" Lilia voiced, listening intently at your words.
"Yeah, for example the Shroud family is said to be a descendant of the King of the Underworld. But it's just a theory. "
"Idia is a descendant of the King of the Underworld?!" His voice came out louder than anticipated. He was properly flabbergasted, and the idea of Idia being a descendant of one of the Great Seven was way too fantastical idea was way too far-fetched for him.
"It's just a theory though. Researchers all around the globe are looking into the mythology of the Great Seven. But most of it are theories. It's like religion in my world. So many things to look for. So many things to research. So many things to-" You cut yourself realising that you just started to ramble. "I'm sorry."
Lilia started to chuckle. "By all means, little bat, continue." He said, a small smirk. "I love to see you be all passionate like that." He leaned in slightly, entering your personal space and making you blush slightly.
You simply stared at him, trying to keep your thoughts straight, in vain. Lilia always had this effect on you, and the fact that he was listening to you ramble about his own religion was something.
"I just..." You started with a small voice, trying to not think about the fact that you could smell his perfume. Orange blossom and white musc. "I don't want to mansplain your religion to you."
"You're not mansplaining anything to me." Lilia replied, leaning in a little more into your personal space, making you see the little imperfections on his skin.
How can someone so perfect have little imperfections on his skin?
"You're not mansplaining anything. In fact you just taught me something!"
"Really...?"
He leaned in even more, his face just mere centimetres away from yours. You could only stare at him with bug eyes from how close he was. You had completely forgotten about your podcast, your notes or just this world's religion. Only Lilia subsided.
wow i wonder if that 300 year gap could be explained by any outside factorsâŠâŠ.whoa! for some reason it lines up with the timeline of britainâs invasion and subsequent colonization of ireland! wild, huh? i wonder if the two are connected in some way? i guess the world will never knowâŠ.
As I'm working on my latest fic, I got to think about the relationship between Lycoris and Ruggie, as the relationship between Yuu (that I loosely based off Lycoris) and Ruggie is somewhat important to the plot.
So here's my two cents on Lycoris and Ruggie's relationship.
You can find more information on Lycoris on the Lycoris masterlist
So, in this post I talk about the fact that Lycoris and Ruggie are on good terms, and that Lycoris secretly feeds Ruggie. It goes a little deeper than that.
It started slowly during book 2. Lycoris was quite sceptical about Ruggie at first but kept everything for themselves as they thought that their scepticism was unfounded, and they didn't want to bother Ace and Deuce with baseless ideas. They were quite surprised at his unique magic, but kept most of their worry to themselves.
During Leona's overblot they got quite worried about Ruggie as Leona nearly killed him, and after Leona let Ruggie go, Lycoris got him to the side almost immediately, and offered him one of the water bottles that they always have on them (as they're easily thirsty, they always keep a one litre water bottle on them).
After Leona's overblot, their relationship got on good terms, and Lycoris learnt about Ruggie's past through a passing conversation with him (he mentioned growing up in the slums and that got Lycoris thinking).
For you see, Lycoris didn't grow up with a silver spoon feeding them. Their parental figure got by, by working a normal, minimum wage 9-5, with the heritage she had from the family being from nobility. But Louise (Lycoris guardian) never raised Lycoris in wealth. She put some money aside in case Lycoris wanted to go to a private university, and to help them later in their life, but she didn't use her heritage money a lot, not wanting Lycoris to grow disconnected from the reality of things. Lycoris got a trust fund for them that they accessed at 18, but they still went to a public uni, with a scholarship, so uni was free for them. They worked outside of their study, saving their trust fund money to buy a house after their studies.
So Lycoris is used to live with less than âŹ1000 per month, they're used to skip meals because they didn't have money to buy enough groceries.
What I want to say, is that they know what hunger is like.
But not like Ruggie knows it.
So they started to cook for one more person just in case. Grim got his portion, Lycoris too, but there was always a third portion waiting to be given - which Lycoris never did outwardly.
Lycoris started to watch Ruggie closely, where he usually went when he didn't have enough money to buy lunch, what he usually did with his day. And they started leaving tupperwares of food where he went the most. Mostly in that spot in the greenhouse, in the staff changing rooms at Sam's, or on the bench near the Savanaclaw mirror. And they always made sure that no one saw them put the food there, or that no one took the food outside of Ruggie.
It went on for quite a while, Ruggie just seeing food appear for him and thinking that he had a lucky star or something. He got slightly suspicious at some point, but he would never be one to turn down food.
He learnt that it was Lycoris who cooked homemade food for him after Malleus' overblot.
Basically, a tired Lycoris didn't check if someone saw them placing the tupperware, and Ruggie was suspiciously passing by when he saw them place the tupperware down and leave. He went to check, and when he saw the usual note with his name on it, he realised that it was Lycoris who prepared this food for him.
At the same time, outside of Lycoris acting like a grandma towards Ruggie, Ruggie started to ironically call Lycoris 'mom'.
"Because you fuss over everything for everyone." He had said after Lycoris had asked, not forgetting to give him a middle finger.
He continued to call them 'mom' jokingly, in front of everyone, until he discovered who was feeding him.
After that, he chose to not disclose to Lycoris that eh knew, but he kept observing them. And Lycoris kept doing it for a while.
Even during their second year (so Ruggie's third year), Lycoris continued to "secretly" feed Ruggie, which Ruggie was grateful for, because he oftentimes didn't have enough money to buy himself some food, as he sent most of his earned money to his grandma to help her.
And the thing is, Lycoris was planning on never telling Ruggie that it was them. They kept that fact hidden, even to Grim and Riddle, who just thought that Lycoris had this habit of overcooking and was probably eating those leftovers when they had a midnight snack.
"You're cooking a lot." Ruggie said one afternoon, as he was in Ramshackle, watching Lycoris cook.
"Yeah, I feed Grim. He's a endless stomach on legs." Lycoris replied with a smile that Ruggie didn't catch.
They were half lying, but the hyena let it slide, not wanting to expose them.
"You wanna taste?"
And Ruggie, never one to turn down food, accepted.
So, despite Ruggie being quite suspicious of Lycoris and their habit of knowing just about everything, he quite appreciated them for feeding him without fanfare.
And maybe along the way, 'mom' stopped being that ironic.
But Ruggie didn't have the time to dwell on that, starting his own life after his internship, and not hearing about Lycoris and their whereabouts for a while.
He simply guessed that they went to uni just like they were about to do before they got stranded in Twisted Wonderland.
Here's a snippet of my new fanfic, a post-canon idol!AU, and here's a snippet of the first chapter.
Btw, this whole fanfic is inspired by this post that really gave me the brainworm
Ace and Deuce were quick to convince, especially when the master plan and think of the money were uttered.
Jamil, howeverâŠ
"Absolutely not."
"Oh come on Jamil!" Kalim cried out, trying his last technique. "It'll be fun! And we have a chance of winning this time!"
Jamil studied Kalim for a good ten seconds, thinking. He really didn't want to do it.
"Plus it'll be at an all-girl school." Yuu piped in, with one of the arguments that had convinced Ace. "Think of it, performing in front of hundred of girls who will only have eyes for you."
"I'm not straight."
"There will be boys too!" Yuu countered, desperate. "Please Jamil, we need you!" They cried out, now completely desperate. Jamil's singing the previous year had been one of the key factors of NRC ending up being second, right behind RSA. "And it'll be your perfect chance to take revenge against RSA! For your last year!"
Jamil looked at Yuu like they had grown a second head. He stared at the prefect for a good few seconds. He then let his gaze slide from Yuu to the rest of the guys gathered around the prefect. They were all looking at him with expectant eyes, especially Kalim who looked at him with pleading eyes.
To be fair, Jamil had better things to do than play pretty boy again. Like, taking care of Kalim properly.
but again, having his revenge on RSA during his last year on campus was tempting.
too tempting.
Jamil looked at Yuu, then Epel, Ace, Deuce, Ruggie and Kalim. He could see the hope in the eyes of his Housewarden as well as in the eyes of the four second year. Only Ruggie was looking at him normally, his usual smirk on his face.
With a sigh, the Vice-Housewarden of Scarabia agreed. "Okay. But just to fuck these stuck ups."
