Pillow Works

madness from a leaking brain

[helloiyad]

Idk I think I’m funny.

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[pillowworks]

Chicago

I mine the stories of other people.

I dig finely enough to figure out what he's like

Piece together something that looks like someone you love

And I love him too, in fake, in my head

I mine my imagination.

Imagine him visiting your friends

(What was his drink?)

The sound of his laughter on the tables.

Sitting in your bed, drunk, drinking you up

Leaving breaths on your back heavy in the dark.

I want so bad to ask,

Did he make you laugh? Was he smart?

I want to know how often he lied on my side of your bed

And fill you with Love Yous when he didn’t

While plotted to leave you lonely in the cold.

I want so bad to ask,

Did you love him? Did you forgive him because you love him? Do you wish I'm him?

I want to know the sound of his hellos. I want to know the words and street names you used to know by heart

That you used to bite back when they fell forward,

That drifted distantly away until they’ve been forgotten and the pool where the tears came from dried up.

The jokes that still make you laugh when you’re with me,

The tiny objects that bring you stories about him

That take you back to him, that take you away from me.

[pillowworks]

Ocean’s Captain

What you look like When you’re sleeping: You are an ocean’s captain, And I am your ocean man. The rough seas that make me tired and weary Fall still and silent between your hands. The oak on which I rest my head, Is your chest and arms around my neck. The creaks and groaning of this bed A ship with years upon its deck. The stars that blink above my head Are yours that wait for me to sleep. And when you’ve fallen first instead, I watch over the waves of air you breathe. The sea creatures that twitch upon my toes Are yours that miss mine under covers. The hush and hum of black waves below Fill my morning sky with colors. The miles of sails strewn high above me Obey your commands and keep me warm And should the sea grow thick and weary, You hold me tighter past the storm. I dive brave and deep in heavy sleep Beneath your sigh and crystalline eyes Glowing bright and blue like October moon

And I am your tide.

[pillowworks]

Saturday

Tonight you will call me drunk, (You promised we’ll go out) And I am glad. Have you ever had I love yous Ache to escape Be on the edge of your lips But also be unable to leave?

[helloiyad]

I made some fun Halloween stickers and am selling them on the cheap cheap. I’m really proud of these! Maybe check them out for me and let me know what you think.

[michigatita]

This poem broke my heart

[helloiyad]

HEY TUMBLR so I made this 90s sticker set and you should thinka bout reblogging this if you like me or downloading it if you love me <3

[pillowworks]

Vegas

If you go, my dear Will you will love me still, or Will you leave your sweetheart on the coast drive for miles, let your tears dry on the road and unlove me miles away in Vegas? I can tell you That it will be hard at first. You will miss me for months I will haunt you and infect you but just when I drown you, you will begin to forget my strokes on your black hair , the way I stack my pillows for you or making me laugh to tears in the car until you match in miles what you feel about me. I will pass your gaze for the last time When you find new love in the desert. He will be sweet, and my, He must be handsome. Let him treat you well and love him irresistibly, infectiously, from the start. Be raptured in his arms when the light goes off and let him take you in, like how you practiced on me. Feel about him like you are new to feeling and love him undeservedly, in a way he can never match, the way I love you.

[deeplifequotes]

[pillowworks]

your love you

You took the life from me when you told me you loved me, and i didn’t believe you.

You tried, but you bleached my mornings when you whispered it and left gaps between the words in negligence where my doubt could sink in and anxiety could flood it. When you just said it, and didn’t have me believe it.

Your love you was faded: barely lingered like old perfume, was in grayscale, and my chest cracked open when you pumped your love you toos in puffs into the air between us.

I knew it was shallow, but to me, the water glistened, and I was thirsty. Nothing hurt worse, I thought, than believing your love you was forced out from inside you, believing that every time you said it, you forged it. And each time I heard it, it was wished to be swallowed up again. Nothing, until you told me, worse yet Your love you was all of these things, and you took it back.

[loveserum-deactivated20191021]

1. Let’s take a shower together with the lights off. Let’s leave our insecurities in the brightness. 2. I like the way you look at me when you’re laughing. I like the way you know it’s my favorite sound. 3. Let me wear your sweater. Let me sit in your bed and listen to you tell me about how you were as a kid. 4. I like the way you talk about all the people before me like they didn’t come close. I like the way you make me feel like the only one who has ever had a chance. 5. I know forever is a shot in the dark, and love is fleeting and people are cynical and sometimes shit happens, but listen. I want to be that one shot in the dark. I want it to be us in the end. I want to be the story people tell in thirty years because no one fucking believed that we’d make it.

Let’s Make It. // Love Thoughts, Pt. 1 (via loveserum)

[to-intuit]

Teach boys how to be soft To hug with their whole hearts Hug your boys Love them Tell them you love them Teach them the greatest battles are won by the heart not the fist Teach them intimacy is more than birds and bees Teach them young so they won’t have to unlearn later like Daddy does Hug your boys

[pillowworks]

Cologne

In our silences In the car, or after the shower, Or on the couch Or before the door, with just one shoe on— I bloom And wonder where you go in your mind. And in the times I see his shadows On a walk to the car, Or waiting in line, or at the movies, I smell him, a residue of half-familiar cologne And with this I watch your eyes grow lustful You lose focus of me, and when you relapse, if for just a second, I blur.

[pillowworks]

The first time You held me by the waist and pulled me into your smile for a kiss Square center of your kitchen In that apartment with the bad stairs. I was trying so hard To squeeze out a sentence before you came in, Which ended into your mouth. You'll say it was cute, But I felt unprepared, and out of breath With your lips on mine and your hot air Laying on my neck. And I laughed down your throat In your kitchen, square center Before you pulled me back in.

[inksomniac-deactivated20170611]

‎و ان كنت تشعر بالوحده، اعلم انني قد دفنت نفسي في قلبك

And if you ever feel lonely, Know that I’ve buried myself in your heart.

- a.y.

[pillowworks]

January

That first night, We had soot on our shoes from walking in the city, With our ties contorted sideways From carrying our friend through the city streets noisemakers tucked in our jackets, masks and the smell of vodka too. When we got back to the apartment You settling in your sleeping bag in the living room, and I in the big bed The lights off, the year still fresh, and chance for chance alive, I should have nudged you in the dark. I should have peeled the door open and reached in your sleeping bag on the floor, Woken you, pulled you up and lead you to my bed. We would have shut the door behind me, minutes slow, And I bet you wouldn't have said a thing, or asked why, But just climbed up to the mountain of pillows and holding me from the back And letting the night be alive in the dark.

[pillowworks]

first morning

I remember that first night under the hot air, where you couldn't sleep. Turning and sitting, and not snoring. And so in your living room, where it's cooler I fell into you and later awoke With the sunlight dancing gently on your pale chest, heaving Sweat cooled off your brow your arms thrown around me, and mine piled on your skin And the sound of your snoring As light as the morning.