tw:ed

Block, don't report. It does more harm than good when you report accounts

[pink-haired-weirdo]

A little bit about me:

This is an ed account. If you don't have an ed or are in recovery, get tf away from here

ADHD

I go by Jo on here (feel free to message me)

23 year old

Always, always, ALWAYS gonna be pro recovery

5' 3.5" tall

Sw 160, cw 150, lw 128, ugw 100

If you you ever think it's okie to body shame someone, no matter how they look, kindly go deep throat a cactus 🙂

[murphy3d]

i love my bf but god how i hate how much i eat when im with him

[cookibredxx]

me after ruining my progress

[pink-haired-weirdo]

I've been struggling with keeping up with fasting and restricting in general. Every time I smoke, without fail, I eat everything I get my hands on. Does anyone have tips to prevent binging while high?

[saturated-soul-deactivated20240]

Some people don't realize how hard it is to live a future you didn't plan on having

[only-knives]

Abuse has a goal behind it, and a lot of the time, it's about changing the victims behavior. If someone screams at you for not doing X activity, eventually you learn to do X activity. If someone hits you when you defy them, eventually you learn not to defy them. If someone abuses you frequently enough, and you begin to break down to their will... It is possible to reach a point where it may seem like you're not being abused anymore.

They don't yell anymore because you stay quiet and do what you're told. They don't threaten you anymore because you don't voice even the slightest disagreement or need. What used to be screaming fighting arguments have become lectures at your expense. They may even praise you for doing what they want you to. And all those mundane moments - breakfast, the rare kind act - stand out more. Your perception of the relationship skews even more. It's all normal now.

And it's still abuse. It's just reached its end goal - wearing you down so badly that they don't need to overtly abuse you anymore to get what they want. All they need to do is make a joke, or complain to guilt you, or tell you want to do/not to do, etc. etc. The fact that's all it takes now doesn't make what's happening to you less severe - if anything, it means you're in much, much more danger than you could realize.

It's abuse. It's horrific. It's just not obvious anymore... and that's terrifying. You deserve so, so much better. You deserve to truly be safe - not to have your wellbeing held behind fearful compliance. That's not safety. That's not love. That's abuse. It being psychological doesn't make it less dangerous.

[skinee-carebear]

Things that have happened since I’ve lost weight

I can run up the stairs and not feel out of breath

All my classmates from 9th grade asking me how I lost so much weight

I finally have the confidence to wear cute clothes so I get tons of compliments from cute girls

People notice me more

I showed an old pic of myself to my crush and he was like “wow you looked so different! And now you look like a model!”

My bus driver who never talks to me complimented me on my weight loss

My parents actually being concerned when I don’t eat enough instead of applauding me

My thighs don’t burn anymore when I wear shorts

All the stares

My high tops look more aesthetic around my thin ankles

My friends constantly measuring my wrists

Guys hit on me more and not as a joke

I stare at myself in the mirror with admiration and not hatred

My mom changing her nickname for me from “piggylicious” to “skinny mini”

I don’t feel inferior next to my friends

My rings constantly sliding off my fingers

I don’t get frustrated in changing rooms anymore

Poking extra holes in my belts

My tummy doesn’t bulge out of my high waisted pants

My feet don’t feel as sore when I wear heels

I don’t feel as awkward when I jump up and down

I can fit bracelets that I haven’t been able to fit since I was nine

My arms don’t get tired when I wash my hair

Since I’ve gained confidence I’ve become a bit more social

I don’t cry in the shower anymore

I can dance around my room without feeling like I’m breaking the floor

I’m now thinner than the girls I used to envy

Not having to constantly pull my skirts down when I walk

I take up less space when I sit on the bus

This list is really random but making it made me realize just how far I’ve come and I honestly think 14 year old me would be so fucking proud cause I never thought this possible❤️

[ed-bitcx]

I want my e/d to get so bad, that my partner finnaly notices and gives me at least some kind of attention.

[digitvlvom1t]

me: *self destructs, relapses, purposely makes myself depressed, ruins my own life and happiness for literally no reason*

also me: life is so unfair :( i’m tired of being in pain :(( i wish i was happy and normal :((

[pink-haired-weirdo]

Me: "I'm gonna get back on track and lose this weight!"

Also me: " I wonder what the new doughnuts at work taste like?" *eats half a dozen in break*

[pink-haired-weirdo]

I got into a new relationship and gained that "happy relationship weight" and I hate it. Gotta get back on track

Especially since he wants me to go with him to his family reunion in July where people will be swimming. I just don't want to look like a whale when I meet his family for the first time

Edit: the weight loss for the reunion did not happen. In fact, I actually gained more! I need to figure out how to get back on track

[toothistired-deactivated2024092]

i just made a fool of myself. i’m at the ed clinic and i got the time wrong. i came in an hour early, all because i had it in my head that it was at x time. i forget things. this is the third time in less than a week that i’ve made a fool of myself in front of my ed team.

[crushvanilla-deactivated2023022]

i don't think they see it that way; you're in an ed clinic after all. brain fog and memory issues are common even though getting times wrong feels really embarrassing in the moment

[toothistired-deactivated2024092]

THIS IS YOUR SIGN TO UP YOUR CAL INTAKE

[akindplace]

Remember: your anxiety does not tell you facts, it tells you the worst-case scenario, it turns things you can solve into catastrophes. It is not the truth, even if it tells you it is. You don’t have to fight it alone. Reach out for help. You can conquer it.

[darling-with-no-problems]

[k-i-l-l-e-r-b-e-e-6-9]

[pink-haired-weirdo]

It is almost fully decided that my husband and I are going to be getting a divorce. He fell in love with someone else and she made him pick either me or her, and he didn't pick me. In a way, I'm happy to be out because I've been unhappy in the marriage for a good while but it still hurts like hell. I still love him, despite him not loving me enough to want to stay

[thxtfuckup]