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sun square moon
-for people with this aspect, what they want in life may be very conflicting to what they need in life which may cause difficulties for them
-this is said to be one of the most difficult aspects in astrology, as the sun [the need to shine] is always in conflict with the moon [the need for emotional security]
-they usually feel like their head and their heart are not able to work together and are always sending mixed messages which are hard to translate into positive actions/reactions
-they may experience inner struggles which cause them to become/act as their own worst enemy at times; they may be self destructive, attract challenging situations, practice negative habits, get stuck in damaging cycles and/or have negative mindsets/attitudes
-it is common for those with this aspect to struggle with feeling unwanted or unaccepted by others; this either being a big theme of their past or a prevalent belief in their present
-it is possible that for some reason, people with this aspect did not feel accepted, loved, cherished, wanted or appreciated by their parents or prominent figures in their life [maybe particularly their childhood]
-however, it may sometimes be the case that their parents did not necessarily not love them, not accept them or not want them; in some cases their parents may just be opposites to them and express their love in different ways [the quote 'just because you love me does not mean I feel loved by you' may be apt for them]
-regardless of whether they were loved or not, they may have felt unloved or unaccepted in some way at some point, and if so this often causes them to feel determined to prove themselves to the world somehow [sometimes this can be a motivation to prove themselves to whoever made them feel unwanted, but often this can be a drive to prove to themselves that they are deserving of love and deserving of being accepted by others]
-people with this aspect usually experience a struggle between wanting to be nurtured, wanting to be cared for, wanting to be loved and needed by others but in contrast wanting to be independent, wanting to be self sufficient, not wanting to rely or depend on others which can be very conflicting and difficult for them
-because of this, they may experience an internal conflict and feel like they never truly know what they want or understand what they need; for example, if people treat them how they believe they want to be treated, they might react in a way that conflicts what they were initially seeking [if someone gives them the space they believe they needed to be independent, they end up feeling unsupported, whereas if people try to care for them and show love to them, they end up feeling smothered]
-at times, they may just feel like nothing seems right or nothing goes right; they may experience several clashes, conflicts or difficulties in various areas of life which likely will leave them feeling lost and lonely
-despite commonly experiencing a fair share of negativity in life, people with this aspect are commonly a lot more resilient than most [often due to any negativity they have already experienced] and tend to be good at overcoming hard times because of this
-usually, they learn best through experience and generally have had a lot of experiences/hurdles to overcome and work through to learn from. they usually benefit from finally understanding that they need to live life for themselves rather than constantly seeking to prove themselves to others or gain validation from others
-people with this aspect may notice that they experience a lot of ups and downs in life, or have to go through various scandals or dramas
-because of this and their internal struggles, they can become quite reactive people which can result for people around them to be defensive around them or tread carefully around them
-people with this aspect would generally benefit from not reacting too emotionally to things, instead trying to take time to process and understand things rather than reacting straight away or taking things to heart/taking things too personally
-it can be easy for them to blame others/external things on their problems but it would be better for them to acknowledge that a lot of their issues are caused by subconscious internal conflicts that stem from the contrast between their wants and needs
-they may experience repetitive behaviours or hold on to bad habits that impair them from succeeding or healing; sometimes these can stem from the pressure they put on themselves to prove themselves to others or can be a release from the stresses of the conflict between their wants and needs
-perhaps they would need to acknowledge their emotions more than most in order to help themselves and heal from any internal struggles
-it is important that people with this aspect work towards finding a balance in life; especially a balance between their wants and needs. it is vital that they do not give up/sacrifice one for the other; for example, they should not push themselves to never depend on anyone else ever, instead should try to allow themselves to be independent yet open to the love and care of others without feeling needy or incapable for it
-they may also be more linked/attached to their past, so working on letting go of old experiences and releasing anything from the past that does not benefit them in any way would likely help them a lot
-it can sometimes be the case that people with a sun square moon aspect had to suppress or hide their emotions a lot in their past or during their childhood which may cause feelings of low self worth, self doubt and issues expressing and understanding their emotions
-it can often be difficult for them to feel comfortable even with themselves; while it is often easier for them to understand why other people may make them feel uncomfortable at times, when it comes to their own discomfort it can be a lot more difficult for them to process and can therefore make it easier for them to hold onto negativity or feelings of low self worth, insecurity etc
-it can be easy for them to become frustrated with life and usually this is for good reason; it often seems that people with this aspect have been dealt a bad card in life and may feel like they attract misfortune or struggle to obtain any ability to find the resources to succeed or get to where they want to be in life
-while giving up may seem like the only option for them at times, it is so important for them to keep pushing and remain determined and hopeful, as giving up continuously will be more detrimental and harmful for their emotions
-although this aspect seems like total doom and gloom, those with it are capable of success and are capable to live a happy, fulfilled life; they unfortunately may just need to work harder than most to get there and need to be extremely dedicated, focused etc
-their internal struggle between what they want in life and what they need in life may cause them to wander aimlessly which can be the biggest cause of further difficulties or struggles; they would likely benefit greatly from being organised, planning more and having a better vision of their goals
-while it may be natural for people with this aspect to give up easily and stop at the first hurdle, it is essential that they plan enough and never give up when working towards their goals or anything they want in life; they need to be able to learn from their setbacks rather than giving up because of them and using these setbacks to make themselves feel worse emotionally
-inner conflicts may interfere with their external life, relationships, work etc but in order to prevent this they need to stop suppressing their emotions and not be afraid to feel things; they should listen to their deepest wants and needs rather than ignoring or hiding them
-they usually would do well to remember that any insecurity, lack of confidence or feelings of low self worth are not actually reality and instead is only their distorted perception of themselves that is able to be changed if they work on improving their confidence
Omg im a sun square moon native and im attacked-
Saturn in Houses (7-9) 🪐
Saturn in Houses (1-3)
Saturn in Houses 4-6)
Saturn in Houses (10-12)
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Writer’s note: (111) This is based on my understanding and belief of the placement.
Take what resonates and move along.
Sensitive content - Trigger warnings have be marked and cut (x).
This post may not be for you - Don’t get stuck on placements and meaning. If its meant for you it’s meant for you, take the postive and move along, since this is a karmic planet, I would rather have you not read it you tend to delve into things negatively and overthink, and potentially even if this can change some relationship perspective for you.
Read this taking Saturn’s placement from you moon and ascendant. Example- moon is in 8th and Saturn is in 7th in your lagna chart (birth chart), then read for Saturn in 7th and Saturn in 12th. ( For VEDIC ASTROLOGY ONLY)
Saturn represents serious matters, fears, delays, dissassociation, restrictions, setbacks, karma, lessons, frustration, perseverance, responsibility, duties, grief, sorrows, unexpected success, discipline.Its house is where you would have issues/insecurities with and need to put the effort to get the fruits. The house where it seems others have it easy than you. It is exalted in Libra and debilitated in Aries. It rules over Capricorn both in western and sidereal. And it co-rules Aquarius, with Rahu in sidereal and with Uranus in western. It represents feet, wind, hair, nervous system, teeth,etc. In vedic, it aspects 3rd, 7th and 10th house from its location.
Saturn in 7th -
Hardworking, ambitious, solitude-seeking, independent, rational thinkers, practical, especially if near descendant because Saturn from here directly aspects your ascendant. You may have had unpleasant experiences with relationships in general, could be yours or you saw somebody else’s that was failing this is particularly for romantic committed Relationships like marriages. On the other hand it’s possible you may find others having easier time getting into relationships or just being in one. This may stem from the fact you tend to have high expectations from your Partners and has no difficulty in staying single for a long time if it means waiting for the right one or the one that meets your eye. You yourself tend to be really faithful and loyal to partners. Your approach to relationships is practical and rational and less emotional, you would rather solve matters at hand by talking rationally. This is especially true if Saturn is close to Descendant. You may possibly have a had time with fame, but it will sure come if it’s a a goal after so much effort but it’s sure to stay permanent for most. You could attract older partners, or just in general your audience you attract could be older than you are. You may refrain from relationships or commitment as it may seem like a responsibility and duty to you which needs proper attention plus you may have fear of disappointing others. There’s a sense of not wanting to be alone yet cannot seem to open yourself up. Saturn here could give you problems in partnerships due to your inability to not adjust and be strict with own beliefs, you may be dominating and controlling in relationships, which causes conflicts for you and your partner’s as Saturn is much better handling things on its own, having the driver seat. If aspected by mercury this is usually less severe and is only for matters that matters most to them. With good aspects it makes one diplomatic, socializing and law abiding, for very few they could be justice seeking and can actually work in law. You may have fear of commitments, public, could be introverted, you would rather have your identity hidden. With a strong Saturn getting good aspects, you may have success in legal battles. You may marry for stability, status, finances rather than love. Others may look up to you or value your opinion or ask you for advice, you may serve as an authority figure to some many people. Your self worth could be affected by relationships or you may take some undeserving partners due to low self esteem. You are often focused on other areas of life than relationships, you may be aloof and are detached or unbothered by public and partnerships, you are more of a lone wolf or you pretend to be, which is often why you can give out an intimidating image to others.
In vedic - You may have a had time travelling though, if you are someone who loves travelling if Saturn is afflicted it can delay travel plans or just in general you have to put in so much effort to travel or only after much delay you may be able to travel. You could have health complications involving sexual matters, urinary problems, hormonal imbalances, thighs, hips, lower back, knees, migraines, headaches, problems of nervous system, mental health problems, chest, back problems. It may delay higher education or you can study at Doctoral or masters level in your 30s/40s. You may be non-religious, has difficulty with accepting spirituality or a higher being, and have issues with authority figures. Adjusting or giving into control is not your cup of tea, your relationship with spouse’s siblings may be restrictive or not very pleasant, they may live away. You may have difficulty in your career or get it going if Saturn is Afflicted, with many with this placement, it usually gives an independent source of income or you usually have a business than be employed under someone. You are usually dutiful and sincere and have no qualms taking a stand for yourself, you may get a kick when people challenge you, you like proving others wrong. You may have karmic debts that needs to be paid through partners platonic or not. You may have had some past life issues that concerns your either romantic partners or business partners or public in general. It’s possible you may have done public bad in past life, so it’s possible you were a famous person. You may have been a very dedicated/obsessed, dependent marriage partner, someone who let go of partner’s bad deeds just to be with them, or some one who lacked individuality, so probably why you are sent to be detached with said themes this lifetime, to focus on yourself and be less dependent on others whether it’s for tangible/mental/emotional stability or self wort. Which is often why Saturn in 7th is asked to marry late. This lifetime It’s about you and your goals and less about your attention on your partner. You may have done your business partners bad in past life and needs to pay debts through them. This Saturn if afflicted can make you fall sick often or give a weaker immunity and less job opportunities. With affliction or debilitation, either parent or both could have a difficult life or you had a difficult relation with them. With all efforts and perseverance your relationships and happiness is sure to come. Especially through family and stability, this Saturn provides a good potential for a happy life in the long term and a stable home life and a settled career and better emotional well being. The lesson is to have a balance in relationships, no be too giving nor receiving and whatever lessons had to be dealt with involves public, spouse or business partners, may have karmic relationship with these people, and is related to love and relationships.
Saturn in 8th-
You are rational and practical when it comes to matter of money and wealth, you may be a spendthrift or spend your money in moderation, you like having control over money, you may know how your family budgets itself or how finances are managed in your home, you may control your future family’s finances, you just like to be in the know. You are careful with money and health also. You tend to restrict yourself when it comes to sexual expression, you may have difficulty with accepting your sexuality or you aren’t as comfortable as you would like to be, so you may not be as giving into sexual matters as other people are, you may often feel that others are much open than you ll ever be, this goes into your fear or being vulnerable to others, it makes you seem weak which is why you don’t like being vulnerable and hence at times you like to challenge yourself to have control over your fears. You tend to be closed off so it makes it difficult for others to connect to you or its possible you often feel alone and like no one understands you. You may have fear of hospitals or death in general or deaths may trigger some fears within you. Accepting change maybe difficult. Many tend to be skeptical of occult and often doubt science unless aspects says otherwise. You could though have high standards when it comes to marriage partners and also sexual partners, sexual compatibility may be a priority for you when looking for partners. Often with this placement, there is a piled up sorrow moments that stays hidden or they keep hidden. You may not get much money from your parents as inheritance since it aspects second house. You may experience the same transformation you would normally expect an event to have on you or on the other hand it can leave some deep wounds that are bound to be triggered later on. You may fear the love you will get, you feel vulnerable. At times it leaves you feeling undeserving of this love. You take intimacy with partner very seriously, if cheated on it will be very difficult for you to open up with anyone romantically especially you may retreat into your shell. You may do well in research. You are one partner person. TW: may attach self worth to body, and develop eating disroders.
In vedic- Saturn here can make you detach with your inner most self and gives difficulty in being vulnerable and being your truest self, so the lesson here is to not give in to isolation and deal with your dark side and fears head on. You may have few friends. or find yourself feeling like different than others. You could be somewhat different than your friends, not necessarily physically but could be experiences. You may not have normal childhood, may lack affection, emotional well being not being looked after by parents or they were distant, again possibly why you avoid vulnerability and intimacy. There could be abuse in marriage but if heavily afflicted otherwise it indicates a long and committed relationship. You get love later in life but it may be stable and fulfilling if unafflicted. It’s possible you may not have been faithful or betrayed your loved one and possible infidelity which makes you fear and detach from intimacy and makes you loyal and committed this lifetime, to create a balance or maybe someone else did this things to you which causes this fear and you may or may not have dealt with it then and avoided it which is why you need to work on your intimacy issues this lifetime. Other possible karmic debts include you being greedy or selfish or a heavy spender with wealth past life that you are made to be more cautious this life time or you not being on the best terms with your children or in-laws past life or to your family or you being extremely dedicated to your spouse and in laws and family and lacked self focus that you need to be detached this life with other people. You may face delays in getting a job, a marriage partner, a social standing, good friends, fortune and finances. This placement also suggests puting considerable effort in fulfilling your karmic debt. You have to put efforts in your job before you are finally where you want to be. Now you like being challenged for money or you don’t mind going after it or you have no problem waiting for it, you may also put efforts without much problem to gain self confidence, have patience dealing with family, you may be patient with cravings too and don’t give in to impulse. You have stage fright or going solo, so you may use wealth as a way to gain confidence or atleast you find yourself more confident and stable when you have money. You could be unclear about your life goals, which can cause possible delay in a well settled job. There is always heavy karma present with this placement so expect delays in what you want, it may make you hopeless sometimes but lesson is to persevere and know it’s all going to be okay in the end. You often feel your life is difficult compared to others. It does give a long life, then again if afflicted it could also give chronic diseases. You may have health issues involving eyes, teeth, neck, ears, tongue, sexual organs, stomach, liver, digestive system, knees, ankles, urinary problems, problems in intenstines, gastric problems, toilet problems yep. TW: Problems in conceiving children if you want any With patience and perseverance you do have potential for fame, happy marriage,love and in terms of children and knowledge. Your karmic debts that need to be paid will be paid either through a spouse, spouse’s family, children or its possible that these people are reincarnated souls of the people you did wrong past life time or in anycase have a karmic relation to you. Other possible causes of this karma may be related to death, you betraying someone for money, sex, or hospitals/doctors or these may be elements present in your karmic actions. Lessons that needs to be learnt are to be self sufficient, not attach your self worth to material items, be less focused on money, letting go of control and facing fears and being loyal and dutiful to your future family if you decide to have one, do good deeds, open yourself up, not be isolated and persevere in whatever you do cuz this placement asks for patience. Your good karma you earn is going to fructify in terms of good fame, children, knowledge and luck and fortune and happiness.
Saturn in 9th -
Usually a solitude seeking, content, quite, hard-working, law abiding person. They like their quite and peace. With this placement either you are into occult/religion/ Spirituality or none at all, you may have been pushed into religious or spiritual teachings by someone elder in your family when you were young, so either way to take this journey forward in your life or you get fed up of it and detest it while life. You may go on to study STEM or some subject that uses technology at college level. Your spouse may have constrained relations with their family or their family has a dominating authoritative person that everyone looks upto, or it could be one parent or their family may not have had an easy life. Very diplomatic, wise and honest and truth seeking people. You may face delays in travel or usually stick in one place your life, its unlikely you ll move to another land as permanent settlement but in the other hand with great indication of travel you may settle abroad and not just travel much. You tend to rebellious when it comes to higher beliefs, you usually have your own beliefs and you don’t follow others, even if it’s a particular religion you are seeking you have your sets of doubts and apprehensions. You are meticulous and calculative in such matters. Great intellectuals, people may look to you for spiritual advices or life advice on general, you may present a calm stable energy, however luck may be not as easy to come, nonetheless if aspected well it shows determination and perseverance. You could be unaccepting or uninterested in other cultures, may look down on other cultures or have controversies related to other cultures and religions. This can give superiority complex to you. Can be condescending. You may not get enough fatherly affection.
In vedic - You may have been very focused on religion Spirituality or into things that caused problems in other areas of your life in past life that you were made to detach this lifetime, or you may have been betrayed or hurt by a religious figure that caused this fear or detachment. You may yourself could have been this spiritual/religious figure and caused harm to others. You may have had a bad karma that was attached to authority figures mainly grandfather or father or these people will play an important role in this life for yo uto pay your debts. They may be incarnated souls of people in previous lifetime to whom this karma is attached, so you need to be mindful of these relationships. You may have less friends or be part of a community where you feel different than others, may not have easy life in terms of money but with efforts it will come in your 30s. You may put considerable efforts in school, among peers, while fitting in, probably in learning as well in your passion too. You may often feel creative blocks in your projects if you are artistic, but you don’t give up or you like creative challenges you certainly have the potential to persevere and keep making strides in your endeavours, this Saturn is likely to fructify all your good karma in your mental health, physical health, job. If afflicted it can cause extreme stress, diseases of nervous system, weak immunity, may face difficulty in sexual matters, have intimacy issues, problems in thighs, hips, lower back, ankles, feet, shoulders,neck, throat, respiratory system, mental health issues stress, anxiety. May have pressure to be successful. TW: Possible eating disorders. You may face financial problems after marriage. You could have strained relations with siblings or few siblings and cousins. You may have imposed your philosophies on others in past life so its possible you have unclear philosophies now and moving on from hardships can be difficult for you. Important lessons here are to respect every view and everyone and not look down on others or their beliefs. It means following a path that speaks truth to you and be moral and take actions based on your belief of right and wrong, be fair.
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4 Categories • 7 winners in total
Hi lovelies, your beloved forest fairy is here with her first blog giveaway and it is to commemorate the introduction of my paid readings from next month or so. I didn’t want to suddenly offer paid services without you knowing what it would be like to get an in-depth tarot+intuition reading from me. This will not only serve as a sample but also as a gift to you for supporting me throughout my journey here on Tumblr.
There are be four categories and 7 readings in this giveaway. One winner for each reading. You just have to pick which category and reading you’re interested in and mention it in reblogs. It’s that simple.
Once I close the giveaway, I’ll use a generator to pick out the winners. Thank you for joining in and let’s take a look at the categories and rules, shall we?
🌹 Love readings
A) All about your future spouse (super detailed)
I will answer the following questions for you (2 Tarot cards + 1 Oracle card for each question)
1) Their personality + astrological placements.
2) Their style & physical appearance.
3) How you will meet.
4) When you might possibly meet (or if you’ve already met them).
5) Their first impression of you.
6) Your first impression of them.
7) What you will love about them.
8) What they will love about you.
9) How will they treat you?
10) What will they teach you?
11) Your married life with them.
🥀 Career and Finance
A) Your truest passion. A comprehensive 7 card spread to help you identify your truest passion and guide you towards possible career paths that will utilise your passions and talents.
B) Where will my career take me? An overview of your career trajectory. You have to mention your chosen career path for this.
♥️ Spirituality and Growth
A) What are your strengths and weaknesses? Also includes how you can overcome your shadow traits.
B) Who are you meant to become? Your God/Goddess energy. Who will you become once you step into your full power and how to access it.
🍓 Life predictions
A) The Story of your life. An overview of the major themes and changes of your entire life. Includes predicting big events in the future.
B) What will happen in 2022? This one is self explanatory. Love, Career, Finances, Family, Spirituality. I’m going to include it all.
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🌹The giveaway ends on 1st September 2021. Don’t miss out this chance😉
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Giveaway : Love Reading
I am hosting a giveaway--5 free love readings. I will generate the 5 winners through a random generator.
Information about the Love Readings
I will tell you the following things in the love readings:
What you are like in relationships;
Whether you will have few or many relationships;
How likely you will get married;
Who do you normally attract;
What sort of problems you get into in relationships; and
When are you most likely to get into a relationship like the timing.
If there is anything else that I happen to sense, then I will let you know too.
After announcing the winners, I will make these 5 love readings public posts. It will take some time for me to complete the readings, so please be patient with me! Please do keep in mind that these readings will be posted online.
Deadline
12:00 pm on July 9, 2021 (PST)
Rules
You must follow me. I'll be checking to see if you follow me!
You must like this post and also reblog it! If you reblog more than two times, then I won't include your name in this game!
This game will be open until I reblog the post (12:00 pm on July 9, 2021 PST)!
you have been visited by the seven magic dragon balls your biggest wish will be granted but only if you reblog
Couldn’t risk it.
didn’t realize they change colors. now I know o gotta wish.
THIS SHIT IS REAL I GOT THE JOB I WAS NUTS ABOUT BC I REBLOGGED THIS YESTERDAY maybe it’s a coinkidink but it okay just take the necessary steps to achieve what you’re wishing for and YOU CAN DO IT
Fire + Water = Steam by River of Light Translated by me with permission
Some gray pls :) gray's so is an ice mage , she's his childhood friend, been frieng-zoning him for years with out realizing his love for her. After the tartaros arc she confessed to him but he needs time cuz the one who "killed" his father was her, not jujuv ??? Some angst, fluff or *wink wink* y'know :))) love your bloggggggg
woah im actually doing some angst?ya….. vvv badly still bc my angst sucks balls, im sorry if u wanted smut anon but ;((
After that day had passed you couldn’t look anyone in the face for a bit, mostly because of the guilt that’s slowly built up from that day. As much as the voice in your head told you to do it, it was still hard to do.
You hadn’t see Gray in the whole week that passed after Tartaros, and that felt like it hurt more-so than any physical pain you had gone through. And what was worse is that there was no guild to go back too because it had broken.
Making it worse; there was no where for everyone to gather up; there was no way you’d walk into the guild again with smiling faces. Everyone just seemed so… Broken after the battle, even after winning.
Not only that, but after you had killed Silver (or brought him peace) you became overwhelmed with feelings; guilt, sorrow and love. The love had hit you hard once you realized that Gray might no be able to forgive you if he found out it was you who did it.
That it was you who made his dad disappear.
And the feeling of Gray never forgiving you hurt more than anything else, more than the sorrow and guilt; more than the bruises and scars from the physical battle.
That exact moment was when you realized that you were, in fact, in love with Gray Fullbuster; your childhood friend. The big realization only made it harder for you to actually tell Gray that it was you who made his dad disappear; you who made his last piece of family disappear.
And finally, at the end of the week you finally swallowed your guilt and made your way to the place you knew Gray would be, after knowing him for so long you had a solid idea of where he’d be.
His parents grave.
You stopped when you saw Gray hunched over and looking at his parents grave, your heart beat sped up as you overcame with nervousness. You were sure that Gray would never forgive you, but he needed closure from his dad.
Without closure he’d never move on towards the future, a future that probably didn’t have you in that. And for now, you could live with that until Gray was ready to talk to you again and become close with you, no matter how much it hurt you.
“Gray…” You muttered, getting the boys attention. The male only looking over his shoulder at you, the snow on his head was a dead give away that he had been here for a long time without moving a single inch.
“[Name]… What are you doing here?”
“There’s…” You looked down avoiding Grays look, “There’s something I need to tell you.” You said, the male only looked at you with silence waiting for you to speak. You refused to let the tears building up in your eyes slip out, but they were very close to slipping out onto the ground.
“I’m… I’m sorry…” You apologized weakly, “The necromancer that controlled your dad was defeated by me.” You stated, the male staying silent for a moment before his eyes widened.
“It was you?” He simply asked, you let the tears fall down now feeling dread and guilt build up in your entire being. You knew this was coming, but it still hurt you every second you were here.
“I… I killed your father…” You whispered, loud enough for him to hear still, you looked up at Gray, “I… I love you and I’m sorry.” You said looking down again and shutting your eyes tightly preparing for Gray to shout at you or something.
Anything!
Surely frustration was building up within him knowing that you were the one who did it!
You opened your eyes when you felt cold hands on your face, the male right in front of you. You couldn’t tell what he was thinking, his face was giving you no signs about what he was thinking. Your tears were wiped, and Gray moved closer to your face.
Your eyes widened as Gray moved closer, your heart rate accelerating. You didn’t expect this to happen, for you to kiss Gray wasn’t something you expect when you told him you loved him and that you killed his father.
Though before Gray’s lips could even touch yours he tucked his head into your chest making you freeze, the tears still falling down your face. “I need time,” Gray whispered shaking, his voice cracking slightly.
You stood still for a moment, processing his words: you expected him to shout at you and never speak to you, you expected him to avoid you as soon as the guild was built up. But this… This was something that caught you off guard and you couldn’t help the feeling of happiness that built up within you.
“Of course.” You whispered dropping to your knees with the boy and placing your hands in his hair, your head tucking into his hear as well, “Thank you… Thank you…” He sobbed in your chest.
pinkbeardbeard reblogged your post:I’m leaving Tumblr….
Nuuuuuuuu Tiacchi :(((((((
Hey.. Hey! Don’t be sad! I’m still going to be HERE. This blog is not closing down any time soon! It’s just my main, Tiacchi, I’ll be deactivating so I can focus my attention on this blog.
Aaaaaaa I've got it, thank you! I hope you'd be doing your job well 😊😊
I’m leaving Tumblr....
Well, I’m leaving my OLD blog.. My MAIN blog. I didn’t mean for that to sound like a joke.. because I’m being absolutely serious. With things are right now with my life, I cannot handle running two blogs.. At this point, I’m more active here, and it’d probably be easier to just run this blog.
I could never quit writing or leave you guys behind. I never wanted you guys to think I would. This blog means a lot to me, helps me get through tough days. I need this sort of release to remain sane in this crazy life.
So Just a warning, I may end up reblogging some Kasamatsu out of habit of my old blog.. I apologize in advance. But if I do, it’ll be tagged as ‘Kasamatsu’ or ‘Knee sock senpai’ so if you don’t wanna see that, you can black list it.
Some Kaijou may pop up too because my love for them is insane and honestly, I need to see them on my dash in order to be happy.
Again, this will solely be writing for the most part. It just may have them pop up here and there on days where I can’t produce a request.
I haven’t decided if I was going to deactivate the blog, because I don’t want anyone else to have that URL, and I haven’t figured out how to save it so no one can use it.. If anyone knows how, please educate me?
Either way, I’m really glad you guys are here to support me, and I’ll continue writing until I can’t write anymore :)
Nuuuuuuuu Tiacchi :(((((((
Steven Yeun shares some stories from The Walking Dead and has a message for his younger fans!
This probably happened in canon and I just don’t remember
Based on this
You know you play too much SLBP when...
[ So I just thought of this thing that could be pretty interesting to do. Please feel free to add to this list via comment and/or reblog~ Let’s see how creative SLBP fans can be X’D ]
You hum the game’s theme song upon startup
You tell yourself you need to spend less time on the game, but end up checking it every 5 hours anyway
You’re suddenly good at math because you have to know how many hearts you need to get x love points, battle items
You have a massive amount of game screenshots that you’ve organized into folders (which have sub-folders, of course)
Reblog if your a SLBP (Samurai Love Ballad Party) blog or player
I’d like to see how popular this is on tumblr
Personal post
I’ve been doing lots of reflecting on my health, mostly mental. And I’ve realized that now my job is technically ‘full’ time, I need to properly sit down and organize myself.
I want everyone here to know; I am a gambler. But I’m not the type to gamble EVERY penny of my cheques away. No, I always make sure my bills are paid first. I only gamble the money i have remaining away. And I feel it’s part of my ‘depression’ .
I quoted depression, because I’m not diagnosed with it by an actual doctor. But I feel all my symptoms fit it best. Especially last year, when I had no job and well.. nothing going on with my life.
I have a credit card debt thanks to my gambling, because I used it when I didn’t have proper money to spend. Don’t get me wrong, I bought other things with it.. And I feel I was using this as a way to replace the loneliness I felt during my depression.
I don’t want you guys thinking poorly of me, or thinking I’m asking you for money. No, that’s not what this is about. This is me coming out about my struggle, because I’m slowly getting better. I’ve already cut up my credit card, removed it off every website possible so I have no access to it at all. If i lower my debt enough, MAYBE I’ll try again but be more conscious and smart about it.
Right now, I’m not ready to have one. And that’s okay. This blog, as well as @anniecrow , @knbaes-n-bakas , and @oi-aokaga have been the most supportive of my choices. And I really can’t thank you guys enough. It’s because of all of you, I’ve been able to battle this.. addiction and HOPEFULLY kick it away. That said, I’ve decided to officially quit my habit, starting today. But I will need emotional support, because it’s one of those things that helped deal with my family issues. (even if the reason we fought was because of money.)
It’s going to be a very long road getting out of my debt, but I’m fully prepared to face it. Because I need to do this, in order to be mentally healthy once more. I did feel better after cutting it up, but it also does make me worry should an emergency happen, what will I do without having some sort of security? That said, I’ve also started up a savings account strictly for saving, and I put money in it each month.. so I’m hoping this will work.
I’m really trying, because on top of my credit card debt, I have my student loan debt, and I think I won’t feel better, TRULY better, until I’m free of both debts. So I’m slowly working on getting rid of them. But i will need everyone’s support.
If you read this, thank you very much. And I hope you guys don’t really think badly of me. (This is mostly me feeling scared to admitting having such a problem.)
THIS THE TYPE OF QUALITY SHIT I WANNA SEE IN THIS FANDOM
NOT SHIPPING WAR BULLSHIT
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In case no one’s told you lately:
You’re not a burden.
It’s okay to be struggling.
It’s okay to tell people you’re struggling.
Please tell people you’re struggling.
Don’t suffer in silence. Tell someone. Get help.
It’s okay to need help.
Please get yourself help.
You’re not the exception to recovery.
The world is more beautiful because you’re in it.
You’re worth it.
You’re a good person.
Thank you for existing.
You’re beautiful.
You’re not the exception to recovery.
Please stay alive.
If you’re looking for a sign not to kill yourself, this is it.
Please, stay alive.
People love you.
I love you.
Don’t give up.
You’re not the exception to recovery.
You’re not the exception to recovery.
To any of my followers who made need this <3
@gladiolus-amicitiia
Eternally important. Never forget, my dears. <3
Please don’t scroll past this, take a minute to read it and understand that every person who posts this does truly mean it about you personally. I can honestly say that I do not know you, person reading, but I truly believe it about you and it does get better. I promise. If you don’t believe me ask me and talk to me for 5 minutes and I will prove it ^^