KENT: A Clark Kent Furniture-Breaking Collaboration Masterlist
Looking for quality furniture or durable equipment? Have no fear, KENT is here! We guarantee the quality of all of our pieces — trust us, only Superman could break it.
(Alternatively, Clark Kent breaks a lot of furniture items during sex)
Warnings: Minors do not interact. All stories are NSFW 18+. Please be sure to read the content warnings in each of our catalogue items prior to reading!
In a world where Superman never became a journalist, he crafts custom countertops for a living. His biggest challenge isn’t the work; it’s keeping his hands to himself around you long enough not to break what he’s trying to sell.
Under Pressure — @anon-188 (May 12)
⤷ on sale: bathtub
Clark can’t leave you alone—even when he really, really should. the pressure builds… and something has to give.
Is This Desk Taken? — @pinksplace (May 14)
⤷ on sale: executive desk
A party. An empty office. A very pretty dress. A very tight dress shirt. A drink, maybe two. A note. A desk. A questionable amount of trust placed in some wood and Formica.
Horsepower — @sparklingsin (May 19)
⤷ on sale: lex luthor's ferrari
Tired of the parade of men falling at your feet at Lex Luthor's wedding and your silence from last night's fight, Clark decides to take you on a wild ride in his best friend's Ferrari.
One More Load — @kryptidfiles (May 21)
⤷ on sale: washer/dryer
"Sweetheart, unless completely irreparable: it stays." Newly moved into Clark’s apartment, you’re trying very hard not to let his shitty washer and dryer ruin the honeymoon phase. Then one more load comes out damp, wrinkled, and still holding a soggy sock hostage at the bottom, and you finally snap. Clark walks in on you all bare legs and bad attitude, and decides if he’s handling the laundry, he’s handling you too.
Neighborly Favors — @thceseus (May 26)
⤷ on sale: couch
Clark Kent is the perfect neighbor and the ultimate gentleman. Baking cookies, fixing stuff around your apartment, always there with his reliable smile. So who's he to say no when you ask him to help build your new couch and… break it???
Going back to Smallville was supposed to be simple—visit his parents and keep them company for the weekend. Easy as pie, right? But when Clark comes face-to-face with a decade-old crush, a dinner at his ma's turns into bonding over apple pie, broken hearts, and a broken porch swing.
Off the Books — @heldbybarnes (June 2)
⤷ on sale: workout bench
Clark hires you off the books to help him control his strength in bed—because every partner before you has gotten hurt. You agree for the wrong reasons, pushing his limits on the workout bench until reinforced steel buckles and Clark loses control. He thinks you’re saving him. You’re really making yourself the one thing he can’t walk away from.
American Boy — @maiamore (June 4)
⤷ on sale: copier/printer
Staying at work late to impress the new editor-in-chief proves to be something Clark Kent isn't equipped to handle.
A very big shoutout to all my incredibly talented friends for participating in this brainrot collab. We're bringing our collective goon to the dash 💞
Special thank you to @unificsation and Pink (pinksplace) for helping me with the inspiration for the masterlist header and Ash (sparklingsin) for creating the lovely fic headers above!!!
Without further ado, we hope you enjoy all the stories in this collection. Please be sure to reblog, comment, and like if you've read and enjoyed the story! Us writers always adore seeing feedback wink wink!!!
clark kent 𝐱 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫
𝐭𝐚𝐠𝐬 / 𝐭𝐰 – 18+, MDNI, secret admirer au, slowburn romance, mutual pining, radical acceptance and love is the real punk rock, yearning, clark is a softie, smut, piv, oral sex (f!recieving), fingering, creampie, touch starved clark Kent
word count: 18k
Summary: You start getting anonymous love notes at the Daily Planet—soft, sincere, impossibly romantic. You fall for the words first, then realize they sound a lot like Clark Kent. And just when the truth begins to unravel, you start to suspect he might be more than just the writer… he might be Superman himself.
notes – not proofread and my first full Clark Kent fic!
— reblogs comments & likes are appreciated
The first thing you notice isn’t the coffee—it’s the smell.
Sharp espresso. The exact blend you order on days when the world feels like sandpaper. Dark, hot, and just a touch too strong. But when you reach your desk and set your bag down, the cup is already waiting for you, balanced on the corner of your keyboard like it belongs there.
A single post-it clings to the cardboard sleeve, the ink a little smudged from condensation:
“You looked like you had a long night.”
No name. No heart. Just that.
You stare at it for a second too long. The office hums around you—phones ringing, printers whining, the low buzz of voices—but your ears tune it all out as you reread the handwriting. Rounded letters. Slight right slant. You can’t place it.
And no one in this building knows your coffee order. You made sure of that.
Across the bullpen, Jimmy Olsen drops into his chair with a paper bag in his teeth and two cameras slung around his neck.
“Someone’s got a secret admirer,” he sings, catching sight of the note.
You glance up, but try to play it cool. “Could be a delivery mistake.”
He snorts. “Right. And I’m dating Wonder Woman.”
Lois, passing by with a stack of mock-ups under one arm, pauses just long enough to lift a perfectly sculpted brow. “Who’s dating Wonder Woman?”
“Jimmy,” you and Jimmy say in unison.
“Right,” she says, deadpan, and moves on.
You feel a little heat crawl up your neck. You pull the cup closer. The lid’s still warm.
You’re still turning the note over in your hand when Clark Kent rounds the corner. His hair is a little damp at the ends, like he didn’t have time to dry it properly, already curling from the late-summer humidity. His tie—striped, loud, undeniably Clark—is halfway undone, the knot drifting lower by the second. His glasses are slipping down his nose like they’re trying to abandon ship.
He’s juggling three manila folders, a spiral-bound notebook balanced on top, a half-eaten blueberry muffin in his teeth, and what you’re almost certain is the entire city council’s budget report from 2024 spilling out of the bottom folder. It’s absurd. Kind of impressive. Very him.
“Clark—careful,” you call out, mostly on instinct.
He startles at the sound of your voice and turns a little too fast. The top file slips. He manages to catch it, barely, with an awkward swipe of his forearm, the muffin top bouncing to the floor with a quiet thwup. He rights the stack again with both arms now locked tight around the paperwork, and when he looks at you, he’s already wearing one of those sheepish, winded smiles.
“Morning sweetheart,” he says breathlessly. His voice is warm. Rough around the edges like he hasn’t spoken yet today. “Sorry, I’m late—Perry wanted the zoning report and the express line was… not express.”
You don’t answer right away. Because his eyes flick toward your desk—specifically the coffee cup sitting at the edge of your keyboard. And the note stuck to its sleeve. He freezes. Just for a second. A micro-hesitation. One breath caught too long in his chest. It’s nothing.
Except… it’s not.
Then he clears his throat—loud and awkward, like he swallowed gravel—and shuffles the stack in his arms like it suddenly needs reorganizing. “New… uh, budget drafts,” he says quickly, eyes very intentionally not on the post-it. “I left the tag on that one by mistake—ignore the highlighter. I had a system. Kind of.”
You blink at him, watching his ears start to go red. “…You okay?”
“Oh, yeah,” he says, waving one hand too fast, almost drops everything again. “I’m fine, sweetheart. Just, you know. Monday.”
He flashes you the smile again—crooked, a little boyish, like he still isn’t sure if he belongs here even after all this time. That’s always been the thing about Clark. He doesn’t posture. Doesn’t strut. He’s got this open-face sincerity, like the world is still worth showing up for, even when it kicks you in the ribs.
And you’ve seen him work. He’s brilliant. Way too observant to be as clumsy as he pretends to be. But it’s charming. In that small-town, too-tall-for-his-own-good, mutters-puns-when-he’s-nervous kind of way.
You like him. That’s… not the problem. The problem is— He turns to walk past you, misjudges the distance, and thunks his thigh into the sharp edge of your desk with a grunt.
You flinch. “You good?”
“Yep.” He winces, but manages a thumbs-up. “Just, uh… recalibrating my ankles.”
Then he’s gone, retreating to the safe, familiar walls of his cubicle, still muttering to himself. Something about rechecking source notes and whether anyone notices when hyperlinks are one shade too blue.
You’re left staring at the cup. At the note.
You run your thumb over the y again, the way it loops low and curls back. There’s something oddly familiar about the penmanship. Not perfect. Neat, but casual. Like whoever wrote it didn’t plan to stop writing once they started. Like they meant it.
You don’t say it aloud—not even to yourself—but the truth is whispering at the edge of your brain.
It looks like his. It feels like his. But no. That would be— Clark Kent is thoughtful, sure. He’s the kind of guy who remembers how you like your takeout and always lets you borrow his chargers. He holds elevators and never interrupts, and he stays late when you need someone to double-check your interview transcript even though it’s technically not his beat.
He’s the kind of guy who brings you a jacket during late-night stakeouts without asking. He’s the kind of guy who makes you laugh without trying. But he couldn’t be the secret admirer.
…Could he?
You glance toward his cubicle. You can’t see him, but you can feel him there. The way his presence always lingers, somehow warmer than everyone else’s. Quieter.
You tuck the note into the back pocket of your notebook.
Just in case.
-
You forget about the note by lunch.
Mostly.
The newsroom doesn’t really give you space to linger in your thoughts—phones ringing, printers jamming, interns darting between desks like caffeinated ghosts. It’s chaos, always is, and you thrive in it. But even as you’re skimming through edits and fixing a headline Jimmy typo’d into a minor war crime, part of your brain keeps circling back to that one y.
By the time you head back from a sandwich run with mustard on your sleeve and a half-dozen emails on your phone, there’s another cup on your desk. Same order. No receipt. No name.
But this time, the note reads:
“The line you cut in paragraph six was my favorite. About hope not being the same thing as naivety.”
You freeze mid-step, bag still dangling from one hand.
You hadn’t published that line. You wrote it. Typed it, then stared at it for twenty minutes before deleting it—thought it was too sentimental, too soft for the piece. You didn’t want to seem like you were editorializing. And yet… it had meant something. You’d loved that line.
And someone else had read it. Which means…
Your eyes flick up. Around.
The bullpen looks the same as always: fluorescent lights buzzing, keys clacking, the faint scent of stale coffee and fast food. Jimmy’s arguing with someone about lens filters. Lois is deep in a phone call, gesturing with a pen like she might stab whoever’s on the other end.
And then—Clark. Sitting at his desk, halfway behind the divider. Fiddling with his glasses like they won’t sit quite right on the bridge of his nose. He glances up at you and smiles. Soft. A little crooked. Familiar in a way that does something deeply unhelpful to your chest.
You stare for a second too long.
He blinks. Looks down quickly. Reaches for his pen, drops it, fumbles, curses under his breath. You see the top of his ears turning red.
Something inside you shifts. The notes are sweet, yes. But this is specific. This is someone who read your draft. Someone who noticed the cut line.
You never shared it outside your initial file. Not even with Lois. You almost didn’t send it to copy at all. So… who the hell could’ve read it? How could they have seen it?
You return to your chair slowly, like it might help the pieces click into place. Your eyes catch the handwriting again.
The loops. The slight leftward tilt.
Clark does have neat handwriting. You’ve seen his notebook, all tidy bullet points and overly polite margin notes.
You tuck this note into your drawer. Next to the other one.
You don’t say anything.
-
Later that afternoon, the newsroom’s background noise crescendos into something louder—Lois and Dan from editorial locked in another philosophical brawl about media framing. You’re not part of the fight, but apparently your latest piece is.
“It’s fluffy,” Dan says, waving the printed article like it personally offended him. “It doesn’t do anything. What’s the point of it, other than making people feel things?”
You open your mouth—just barely—ready to defend yourself even though it’s exhausting. You don’t get the chance. Clark beats you to it.
“I think it was insightful, actually,” he says from across the bullpen, voice louder than usual. “And emotionally resonant.”
The silence is sharp. Dan arches a brow. “Listen, Kent. No one asked you.”
Clark straightens his tie. “Well, maybe they should.”
Now everyone’s looking. Lois leans back in her chair, visibly suppressing a smile. Dan scoffs and mutters something about sentimentality being a plague.
You just stare at Clark. He meets your eyes, then seems to realize what he’s done and looks at his notebook like it’s suddenly the most fascinating object in the known universe.
Your heart does something inconvenient. Because now you’re wondering if it is him. Not just because he defended you, or because he could have somehow read the line that didn’t make it to print, but because of the way he did it. The way his voice shook just a little. The way he looked furious on your behalf.
Clark is soft, yes. Awkward, often. But there’s something sharp underneath it. A quiet kind of intensity that only shows up when it matters. Like someone who’s spent a long time listening, and even longer choosing his moments.
You make a show of checking your notes. Pretending like your stomach didn’t just flip. You don’t look at him again. But you feel him looking.
-
The office after midnight doesn’t feel like the same building. The lights buzz quieter. The chairs stop squeaking. There’s an eerie sort of calm that settles once the rush hour of deadlines has passed and only the ghosts and last-minute layout edits remain.
Clark is two desks away, sleeves rolled up, tie finally abandoned and flung haphazardly over the back of his chair. He’s squinting at the screen like he’s trying to will the copy into formatting itself.
You’re just as tired—though slightly less heroic-looking about it. Somewhere behind you, the printer groans. A rogue page slides off the tray and flutters to the floor like it’s giving up on life.
Clark gets up to grab it before you can.
“You’re going to hurt yourself,” you say as he crouches to retrieve it. “Or fall asleep with your face on the carpet and get stuck there forever.”
He offers a smile, crooked and half-asleep. “I’ve survived worse. Once fell asleep in a compost pile back in high school.”
You pause. “Why?”
“There was a dare,” he says, deadpan. “And a cow. The rest is classified, sweetheart.”
You snort before you can stop it.
It’s late. You’re punchy. The kind of tired that makes everything a little funnier, a little looser around the edges. He sits back down, stretching long limbs with a groan, and you let the quiet settle again.
“You know Clark, sometimes I feel invisible here.” You don’t mean to say it. It just slips out, quiet and rough from somewhere behind your ribcage.
Clark looks up instantly.
You keep staring at your screen. “It’s all bylines and deadlines, and then the story prints and nobody remembers who wrote it. Doesn’t matter if it’s good or not. No one sees you.” You tap the corner of your spacebar absently. “Feels like yelling into a tunnel most days.”
You expect him to say something vague. Supportive. A standard “no, you’re great!” brush-off. But when you finally glance over, Clark is staring at you with his brow furrowed like someone just insulted his mom.
“That’s ridiculous,” he mutters. “You’re one of the most important voices in the room.”
The words are firm. Not flustered. Not dorky. Certain. It disarms you a little.
You blink. “Clark—”
“No. I mean it, sweetheart," he says, almost stubborn. “You make people care. Even when they don’t want to. That’s rare.”
He looks down at his coffee like maybe it betrayed him by going cold too fast. You don’t say anything. But that ache in your chest eases, just a little.
-
The next morning, you’re halfway through your walk to work when you find it.
Tucked into the side pocket of your coat—the one you only use for receipts and empty gum wrappers. Folded carefully. Familiar ink.
“Even whispers echo when they’re true.”
You stop walking. Stand there frozen on the corner outside a coffee shop as cars blur past and someone curses at a cab a few feet away. You read the note twice, then a third time.
It’s simple. No flourish. No name. Just words—quiet, certain, and meant for you.
You don’t know why it lands the way it does. Maybe because it doesn’t try to dismiss how you feel. It just… reframes it. You may feel invisible, small, unheard—but this person is saying: that doesn’t make your truth meaningless. You matter, even if it feels like no one’s listening.
You fold the note gently, like it might tear. You don’t tuck this one into your notebook. You keep it in your coat pocket. All day.
Like armor.
-
By midafternoon, the bullpen’s usual noise has shapeshifted into something louder—one of those half-serious, half-combative newsroom debates that always starts in one cubicle and ends up consuming half the floor.
This time, it’s the great Superman Property Damage Discourse, sparked—unsurprisingly—by Lois Lane slapping a freshly printed article onto her desk like it insulted her directly.
“He destroyed the entire north side of the building,” she says, exasperated, as if she’s already had this argument with the universe and lost.
You don’t look up right away. You’re knee-deep in notes for your community housing series and trying to keep your lunch from leaking onto your desk. But the words still hit.
“To stop a tanker explosion,” you point out without much heat, eyes still scanning your page. “There were twenty-seven people inside.”
“My point,” Lois says, crossing her arms, “is that someone has to pay for all that glass.”
“Pretty sure it’s the insurance companies,” you mutter.
Lois raises a brow at you, but doesn’t push it. She’s used to you playing devil’s advocate—usually it’s just for fun. She doesn’t know this one’s starting to feel a little personal.
And then Clark walks in. He’s balancing two coffee cups and what looks like a roll of blueprints tucked under one arm, sleeves rolled up and tie already loose like the day’s been longer than it should’ve been. His hair’s a mess, wind-tousled and curling near the back of his neck, and he’s got that familiar expression on—half-focused, half-apologetic, like he’s perpetually arriving a few seconds after he meant to.
He slows as he approaches, catches the tail end of Lois’s rant, and hesitates. Just a second. Just long enough for something behind his glasses to tighten. Then, without warning or warm-up, he steps in like a man walking into traffic.
“He’s doing his best, okay?” he blurts. “He can’t help the building fell—there was a fireball.”
The bullpen quiets a beat. Just enough for the words to settle and sting. Lois doesn’t even look up from her monitor. “You sound like a fanboy.”
“I just—” Clark huffs. “He’s trying to protect people. That’s not… easy.”
He lifts his hand to gesture, but his elbow clips the corner of his desk and sends his coffee tipping. The paper cup wobbles, then crashes onto the floor in a slosh of brown across your loose notes.
“Clark!” You shove back in your chair, startled.
“Sorry—sorry—hang on—” He lunges for a stack of printer paper, overcorrects, and knocks over another folder in the process. Its contents scatter like leaves in the wind. He flails to grab what he can, muttering apologies the whole time.
The tension breaks—not because of what he said, but because of the way he said it. Because he’s suddenly in a mess of his own making, trying to mop it up with a handful of flyers and an empty paper towel roll, red-faced and flustered.
You can’t help it. You smile. Just a little.
Lois glances sideways at the scene, then turns to you, tone dry as dust. “Well. He’s… passionate.”
You arch a brow. “That’s one word for it.”
She doesn’t notice the way your eyes linger on him. She doesn’t see the shift in your chest when you watch him drop to one knee, scooping up wet files with shaking hands, his jaw tight—not from embarrassment, but from something quieter. Fiercer.
Because Clark hadn’t just jumped to Superman’s defense.
He’d meant it.
Like someone who knows what it feels like to try and still fall short. Like someone who’s carried the weight of people’s expectations. Like someone who’s watched something burn and had to live with the cost of saving it.
You know it’s ridiculous. You know it’s a stretch. But still… your breath catches.
He steadies the last folder against his desk, rubs the back of his neck, and looks up—right at you. Your eyes meet for a second too long.
You offer him a look that says it’s okay. He returns one that says thanks. And then the moment passes. You turn back to your screen, heart pounding for reasons you won’t name. And Clark returns to quietly drying his desk with a half-crumpled press release.
You don’t say anything. But you’re not watching him by accident anymore.
-
You’ve read the latest note a dozen times.
“Sometimes I wish I could just be honest with you. But I can’t—not yet.”
There’s no flourish. No compliment. Just rawness, stripped of any careful metaphor or charm. It’s still anonymous, but the voice… it feels closer now. Less like a mystery, more like someone standing just out of sight.
Someone with hands that tremble when they pass you a coffee. Someone who knows how your voice sounds when you’re frustrated. Someone who once told you, very softly, that your words matter.
You start thinking about Clark again. And once the thought roots, it’s impossible to pull it free.
-
You test him. It’s petty, maybe. Pointless, probably. But you do it anyway. That afternoon, you’re both holed up near the copy desk, reviewing your latest layout. Clark’s seated beside you, sleeves pushed up, his pen tapping lightly against the margin of your column draft. His knee keeps bumping yours under the desk, and every time, he apologizes with a shy smile that doesn’t quite meet your eyes.
You’re running on too little sleep and too many thoughts. So you try it. “You ever hear that phrase? ‘Even whispers echo when they’re true’?”
He looks up from the page. Blinks behind his smudged glasses. “Uh… sure. I mean, not in everyday conversation, but yeah. Sounds poetic.”
You tilt your head, eyes narrowing just slightly. “I read it recently,” you say, like you’re thinking aloud. “Can’t stop turning it over. I don’t know—it stuck with me.”
He stares at you for a beat too long. Then clears his throat and drops his gaze, pen suddenly very busy again. “Yeah. It’s… it’s a good line.”
“You don’t think it’s a little dramatic?”
“No,” he says too quickly. “I mean—it’s true. Sometimes the quietest things are the ones worth listening to.”
You nod, pretending to go back to your edits. But his pen taps a little faster. The corner of his mouth twitches. He’s trying to look neutral, maybe even confused. But Clark Kent couldn’t lie his way out of a grocery list.
And if he did write it, that means he knows you’re testing him.
You don’t call him on it.
Not yet.
-
Later that evening, he helps you file your story. Technically, Clark’s already done for the day—he could’ve clocked out an hour ago, could’ve gone home and slipped into his flannel pajamas and vanished into whatever quiet life he keeps outside these walls. But instead, he lingers.
His jacket is folded neatly over the back of your chair, sleeves still warm from his arms. His glasses sit low on his nose, catching the screen’s glow, one smudge blooming near the top corner where he’s pushed them up too many times with the side of his thumb.
He leans over the desk beside you, one palm braced flat against the surface, the other gently scrolling through your draft. His frame takes up too much space in that warm, grounding way—shoulder brushing yours occasionally, breath warm at your temple when he leans in to squint at a sentence.
You’re quiet, but not for lack of things to say. It’s the way he’s reading—carefully, like every word deserves to be held. There’s no red pen. No quick fixes. Just soft soundless reverence, like your work is already whole and he’s just lucky to witness it.
And his hands.
God, his hands.
You try not to look, but they’re impossible to ignore. Big and capable, yes, but gentle in the way he uses them—fingers skimming the edge of the printout like the paper might bruise, thumb stroking over the corner where the page curls, slow and absentminded. The pads of his fingers are slightly ink-stained, callused just at the tips. He smells faintly like cheap soap and newsroom toner and something you can’t name but have already begun to crave.
You wonder—just for a moment—what it would be like to feel those hands touch you with purpose instead of hesitation. Without the paper buffer. Without the quiet restraint.
He leans a little closer. You can feel the press of his shirt sleeve against your arm now, soft cotton against skin. “Looks perfect to me,” he murmurs.
It’s not the words. It’s the way he says them—like he’s not just talking about the story. You swallow, pulse jumping. You wonder if he hears it. You wonder if he feels it.
His eyes flick to yours for just a second. Something hangs in the air—fragile, charged. Then the phone rings down the hall, and the spell breaks like steam off hot glass. He steps back. You exhale like you’ve been holding your breath for three paragraphs.
You don’t look at him as he grabs his jacket. You just nod and whisper, “Thanks.”
And he just smiles—soft and private, like a secret passed from his mouth to your chest.
-
You don’t go home right away. You sit at your desk long after Clark and the rest of the bullpen has emptied out, coat draped over your shoulders like a blanket, fingers toying with the folded edge of the note in your lap.
“Sometimes I wish I could just be honest with you. But I can’t—not yet.”
You’ve read it enough times to have it memorized. Still, your eyes trace the handwriting again—careful lettering, no signature, just that quiet ache bleeding between the lines.
It’s the first one that feels more than just flirtation. This one hurts a little. So you do something you haven’t done before.
You pull a post-it from the stack beside your monitor, scribble down one sentence—no flourish, no punctuation.
“Then tell me in person.”
You slide it beneath your stapler before you leave. A deliberate offering. You don’t know how he’s been getting the others to you—if it’s during your lunch break or when you’re in the print room or bent over in the archives. But somehow, he knows.
So this time, you let him find something waiting.
And when you finally shrug on your coat and step into the elevator, the empty quiet of the newsroom echoes behind you like a held breath.
-
The next morning, there’s no reply. Not on your desk. Not slipped into your coat pocket. Not scribbled in the margin of your planner or tucked beneath your coffee cup. Just silence.
You try not to feel disappointed. You try not to spiral. Maybe he’s waiting. Maybe he’s scared. Maybe you’re wrong and it’s not who you think. But your chest feels hollow all the same—like something almost happened and didn’t.
So that night, you write again. Your hands shake more than they should for something so simple. A sticky note. A few words. But this one names it.
“One chance. One sunset. Centennial Park. Bench by the lion statue. Tomorrow.”
You stare at the words a long time before setting it down. This one’s not a joke. Not a dare. Not a flirtation scribbled in passing. This is an invitation. A door left open.
You slide it under your stapler the same way you’ve received every one of his notes—unassuming, tucked in plain sight. If he wants to find it, he will. You’ve stopped questioning how he does it. Maybe it’s timing. Maybe it’s instinct. Maybe it’s something else entirely.
But you know he’ll see it.
You pack up slowly. Shoulders tight. Bag heavier than usual. The newsroom is quiet at this hour—just the low hum of the overhead fluorescents and the soft, endless churn of printers in the back. You turn off your monitor, loop your coat over your arm, and make your way to the elevator.
Halfway there, something makes you stop. You glance back. Clark is still at his desk.
You hadn’t heard him return. You hadn’t even noticed the light at his station flick back on. But there he is—elbows on the desk, hands folded in front of him, eyes already lifted.
Watching you.
His face is unreadable, but his gaze lingers longer than it should. Soft. Searching. Almost caught. You feel the air shift. Not a word is exchanged. Just that one look.
Then the elevator dings. You turn away before you can lose your nerve.
And Clark? He doesn’t look down. Not until the doors slide shut in front of your face.
-
You tell yourself it doesn’t matter. You tell yourself it was probably nothing. A game. A passing flirtation. Maybe Jimmy, playing an elaborate prank he’ll one day claim was performance art.
But still—you dress carefully.
You pull out that one sweater that always makes you feel like the best version of yourself, and you smooth your collar twice before you leave. You wear lip balm that smells faintly like vanilla and leave the office ten minutes early just in case traffic is worse than expected. Just in case he’s early.
You get there first. The bench is colder than you remember. Stone weathered and a little damp from last night’s rain. Your coffee steams in your hands, and for a while, that’s enough to keep you warm.
The sky begins to soften around the edges. First blush pink, then golden orange, then the faintest sweep of violet, like a bruise blooming across the clouds. You watch the city skyline fade into silhouettes. The sun drips lower behind the glass towers, catching the river in a moment of molten reflection. It’s beautiful.
It’s also empty.
You wait. A couple strolls past, fingers laced, talking softly like they’ve been in love for years. A jogger nods as they pass, earbuds in, a scruffy golden retriever trotting faithfully beside them. The dog looks up at you like it knows something—like it sees something.
The wind kicks up. You pull your coat tighter. You tell yourself to give it five more minutes. Then five more.
And then—
Nothing. No footsteps. No note. No him.
Your coffee goes cold between your palms. The stone starts to seep into your bones. And somewhere deep in your chest, something you hadn’t even dared name… wilts.
Eventually, you stand. Walk home with your coat buttoned all the way up, even though it’s not that cold. You don’t cry.
You just go quiet.
-
The next morning, the bullpen hums with the usual Monday static. Phones ringing. Keys clacking. Perry’s voice barking something about a missed quote from the sanitation board. Jimmy’s camera shutter clicking in staccato bursts behind you. The Daily Planet in full swing—ordinary chaos wrapped in coffee breath and fluorescent lighting.
You move through it on autopilot. Your smile is small, tight around the edges. You’ve become a master of folding disappointment into your posture—chin lifted, eyes clear, mouth curved just enough to seem fine.
“Guess the secret admirer thing was just a prank after all.” You drop your bag beside your desk, shuffle through the morning copy logs, and say it lightly. Offhand. Like a joke. “Should’ve known better.” You make sure your voice carries just far enough. Not loud, but not a whisper. Casual. A throwaway comment designed to sound unaffected. And then you laugh. It’s short. Hollow. It dies in your throat before it even fully escapes.
Lois glances up from her monitor, eyes narrowing faintly behind dark lashes. She doesn’t laugh with you. She doesn’t smile. She just watches you for a beat too long. Not with judgment. Not even pity. Just… knowing. But she says nothing. And neither do you.
What you don’t see is the hallway—just twenty feet away—where Clark Kent stands frozen in place. He’d just walked in—late, coat slung over one arm, takeout coffee in the other. He had stopped just inside the threshold to adjust his glasses. He’d meant to offer you a second coffee, the one he bought on impulse after circling the block too many times.
And then he heard it. Your voice. “Guess the secret admirer thing was just a prank after all.” And then your laugh. That awful, paper-thin laugh.
He goes still. Like someone pulled the oxygen from the room. His hand tightens around the coffee cup until the lid creaks. The other arm drops slack at his side, coat nearly slipping from his grasp. His jaw tenses. Shoulders stiffen beneath his white button-down, and for one awful second, he forgets how to breathe.
Because you sound like someone trying not to care. And it cuts deeper than he expects. Because he’d meant to come. Because he tried. Because he was so close.
But none of that matters now. All you know is that he didn’t show up. And now you think the whole thing was a joke. A stupid, secret game. His game. And he can’t even explain—not without tearing everything open.
He stares down the corridor, eyes fixed on the edge of your desk, on the shape of your shoulders turned slightly away. He watches as you pick up your coffee and blow gently across the lid like it might chase the bitterness from your chest.
You don’t turn around. You don’t see the way he stands there—gutted, unmoving, undone. The cup trembles in his hand. He turns away before it spills.
-
That night, you go back to the office. You tell yourself it’s for the deadline. A follow-up piece on the housing committee. Edits on the west-side zoning profile. Anything to fill the time between sunset and sleep—because if you sleep, you’ll just dream of that bench.
The newsroom is quiet now. All overhead lights dimmed except for the halo of your desk lamp and the soft thrum of a copy machine left cycling in the corner.
You drop your bag with a sigh. Stretch your shoulders. Slide your desk drawer open without thinking. And find it. A note. No envelope. No tape. No ceremony. Just a single sheet of cream stationery folded in thirds. Familiar handwriting. Neat loops. Unshaking.
You unfold it slowly.
“I’m sorry. I wanted to be there. I can’t explain why I couldn’t—
But it wasn’t a joke. It was never a joke. Please believe that.”
The words hit like a breath you didn’t know you were holding. Then they blur. You read it again. Then again. But the ache in your chest doesn’t settle. Because how do you believe someone who won’t show their face? How do you believe someone who keeps slipping between your fingers?
You hold the note to your chest. Close your eyes. You want to believe him. God, you want to. But you don’t know how anymore.
-
What you couldn’t know is this: Clark Kent was already running. He’d been on his way—coat flapping behind him, tie unspooling in the wind, breath fogging as he dashed through traffic, one hand wrapped tight around a note he planned to deliver in person for the first time. He’d rehearsed it. Practiced what he’d say. Built up to it with every beat of a terrified heart.
He saw the park lights up ahead. Saw the lion statue. Saw the shape of a figure sitting alone on that bench.
And then the air split open. The sky went green. A fifth-dimensional imp—not even from this universe—tore through Metropolis like a child flipping pages in a pop-up book. Reality folded. Buildings bent sideways. Streetlamps started singing jazz standards.
Clark barely had time to take a deep breath before he vanished into smoke and flame, spinning upward in a blur of red and blue. Somewhere across town, Superman joined Guy Gardner, Hawk Girl, Mr. Terrific, and Metamorpho in trying to contain the chaos before the city unmade itself entirely.
He never got the chance to reach the bench. He never got the chance to say anything. The note stayed in his pocket until it was soaked with rain and streaked with ash. Until it was too late.
-
It’s supposed to be routine. You’re only there to cover a zoning dispute. A boring, mid-week council press event that’s been rescheduled three times already. The air is heavy with heat and bureaucracy. You and your photographer barely make it past the front barricades before the scene spirals into chaos.
First it’s the downed power lines—sparking in rapid bursts as something hits the utility pole two blocks down. Then a car screeches over the median. Then someone starts screaming.
You’re still trying to piece it together when the crowd surges—someone shouts about a gun. People scatter. A window shatters across the street. A chunk of concrete falls from the sky like a thrown brick.
Your feet move before your brain catches up. You hit the pavement just as something explodes behind you. A jolt rings through your bones, sharp and high and metallic. Dust clouds the air. There’s shouting, then screaming, and your ears go fuzzy for one split second.
And then he lands.
Superman.
Cape whipping behind him like it’s caught in its own storm, boots cracking against the sidewalk as he drops down between the wreckage and the people still trying to flee. He moves like nothing you’ve ever seen.
Not just fast—but impossible. His body a blur of motion, heat, and purpose. He rips a crumpled lamppost off a trapped woman like it weighs nothing. Hurls it aside and crouches low beside her, voice firm but gentle as he checks her pulse, her leg, her name.
You’re frozen where you crouch, half behind a parking meter, hand pressed to your chest like it can keep your heart from tearing loose.
And then be turns. Looks straight at you. His expression shifts. Just for a moment. Just for you. He steps forward, dust streaking his suit, eyes dark with something you don’t have time to name. He reaches you in three strides, body angled between you and the chaos, hand raised in warning before you can speak.
“Stay here, sweetheart. Please.”
Your stomach drops. Not at the danger. Not at the sound of buildings groaning in the distance or the flash of gunmetal tucked into a stranger’s hand.
It’s him. That word. That voice. The exact way of saying it—like it’s muscle memory. Like he’s said it a thousand times before.
Like Clark says it.
It stuns you more than the explosion did.
You blink up at him, speechless, heart stuttering behind your ribs as he holds your gaze just a second longer than he should. His brow furrows. Then he’s gone—into the fray, into the fire, into the part of the story where your pen can’t follow.
You don’t remember standing. You don’t remember how you get back to the press line, only that your legs shake and your palms burn and every time you try to replay what just happened, your brain gets stuck on one word.
Sweetheart.
You’ve heard it before—dozens of times. Always soft. Always accidental. Always from behind thick glasses and a crooked tie and a mouth still chewing the edge of a muffin while he scrolls through zoning reports.
Clark says it when he forgets you’re not his to claim. Clark says it when you’re both the last ones in the office and he thinks you’re asleep at your desk. Clark says it like a secret. Like a slip.
And Superman just said it exactly the same way. Same tone. Same warmth. Same quiet ache beneath it.
But that’s not possible. Because Superman is—Superman. Bold. Dazzling. Fire-forged. He walks like he owns the sky. He speaks like a storm made flesh. He radiates power and perfection.
And Clark? Clark is all flannel and stammering jokes and soft eyes behind big frames. He’s gentle. A little clumsy. His swagger is borrowed from farm porches and storybooks. He’s sweet in a way Superman couldn’t possibly be.
Couldn’t… Right? You chalk it up to coincidence. You have to.
…Sort of.
-
You don’t sleep well the night after the incident. You keep replaying it—frame by impossible frame. The gunshot, the smoke, the sky splitting in half. The crack of his landing, the rush of wind off his cape. The weight of his body between you and danger. And then that voice.
“Stay here, sweetheart. Please.”
You flinch every time it echoes in your head. Every time your brain folds it over the countless memories you have of Clark saying it in passing, like it was nothing. Like it meant nothing.
But it means something now.
You come into the office the next day wired and quiet, adrenaline still burning faintly at the edges of your skin. You aren’t sure what to say, or to whom, so you say nothing. You stare too long at your coffee. You snap at a printer jam. You forget your lunch in the breakroom fridge.
Clark notices. He hovers by your desk that morning, a second coffee in hand—one of those specialty orders from that corner place he knows you like but always pretends he doesn’t remember.
“Rough day?” he asks gently. His tone is careful. Soft. As if you’re a glass already rattling on the edge of the shelf.
You don’t look up. “It’s fine.”
He hesitates. Then sets the coffee down beside your elbow, just far enough that you have to choose whether or not to reach for it. “I heard about the power line thing,” he adds. “You okay?”
“I said I’m fine, Clark.”
A beat.
You hate the way his face flickers at that—hurt, barely masked. He pushes his glasses up and nods like he deserves it. Like he’s been expecting it. He doesn’t press. He just walks away.
-
You find yourself whispering to Lois over takeout later that afternoon—half a conversation muttered between bites of noodles and the hum of flickering overheads.
“He called me sweetheart.”
She raises an eyebrow. “Clark?”
“No. Superman.”
Her chewing slows.
You keep your eyes on the edge of your desk. “That’s… weird, right?”
Lois makes a sound—somewhere between a scoff and a laugh. “He’s a superhero. They charm every pretty girl they pull out of a burning building.”
You poke at your noodles. “Still. It felt…”
“Weird?” she teases again, nudging her knee against yours.
You shrug like it doesn’t matter. Like it hasn’t been clawing at the back of your brain for three days straight. Lois doesn’t press. Just watches you for a second longer than necessary. Then she moves on, launching into a tirade about Perry’s passive-aggressive post-it notes and the fact that someone keeps stealing her pens.
But the damage is already done. Because you start thinking maybe you’ve just been projecting. Maybe you want your secret admirer to be Clark so badly that your brain’s rewriting reality—latching onto any voice, any phrase, any fleeting resemblance and assigning it meaning.
Sweetheart.
It’s a common word. It doesn’t mean anything. Maybe Superman says it to everyone. Maybe he has a whole roster of soft pet names for dazed civilians. Maybe you’re the delusional one—sitting here wondering if your awkward, sweet, left-footed coworker moonlights as a god.
The idea is so absurd it actually makes you laugh. Quietly. Bitterly. Right into your carton of lo mein. You tell yourself to let it go. But you don’t.
You can’t. Because somewhere deep down, it doesn’t feel absurd at all. It feels… close. Like you’re brushing against the edge of something true. And if you get just a little closer—
You might fall right through it.
-
Clark pulls back after that. Subtly. Slowly. Like he’s dimming himself on purpose. He’s still there—still kind, still thoughtful, still Clark. But the rhythm changes.
The coffees stop appearing on your desk each morning. No more sticky notes with half-legible puns or awkward smiley faces. No more jokes under his breath during staff meetings. No more warm glances across the bullpen when you’re stuck late and your screen is giving you a headache.
His chair now sits just a little farther from yours in the layout room. Not enough to be obvious. Just enough to feel. You notice it the way you notice when the air shifts before a storm. Quiet. Inevitable.
Even his messages change. Once, his texts used to come with too many exclamation marks and a tendency to type out haha when he was nervous. Now they’re brief. Punctuated. Polite.
“Got your quote. Sending now.”
“Perry said we’re cleared for page A3.”
“Hope your meeting went okay.”
You reread them more than you should. Not because of what they say—but because of what they don’t. It feels like being ghosted by someone who still waves to you across the room.
You try to talk yourself down. Maybe he’s just busy. Maybe he’s stressed. Maybe you’ve been projecting. Maybe it’s not your admirer’s handwriting that matches his. Maybe it’s not his voice that slipped out of Superman’s mouth like a secret.
Maybe, maybe, maybe.
But the space he used to fill next to you… feels like a light that’s been quietly turned off. And you are the one still blinking against the dark.
And yet, one afternoon, someone in the bullpen makes a snide remark about your latest piece. You don’t even catch the beginning—just the tail end of it, lazy and smug.
“—basically just fluff, right? She’s been coasting lately.”
You’re about to ignore it. You’re tired. Too tired. And what’s the point in arguing with someone who thinks nuance is a liability?
But then—Clark speaks. Not from beside you, but from across the room. You’re not even sure how he could have possibly heard the guy talking across all the hustle and bustle of the bullpen. But his voice cuts through the noise like someone snapping a ruler against a desk.
“I just think her work actually matters, okay?”
Silence follows. Not because of the volume—he wasn’t loud. Just certain. Unflinching. Like he’d been holding it in. The words hang in the air, charged and too real.
Clark looks immediately horrified with himself. He goes red. Not a faint flush—crimson. Mouth parting like he wants to take it back but doesn’t know how. He tries to recover, to smooth it over—but nothing comes. Just a flustered shake of his head and a noise that might’ve been his name.
The other reporter stares. “…Okay, man. Chill.”
Clark mumbles something about grabbing a file from archives and practically stumbles for the hallway, papers clenched awkwardly in one hand like a shield.
You don’t follow. You just… sit there. Staring at the space he left behind. Because that moment—those words—it wasn’t just instinct. It wasn’t just kindness. It was him.
The way he said it. The emotion in it. The rhythm of it. It felt like the notes. Like the quiet encouragements tucked into the margins of your day. Like someone watching, quietly, gently, hoping you’ll see yourself the way they do.
You think about the phrases he’s used before.
“The line you cut in paragraph six was my favorite. About hope not being the same thing as naivety.”
“Even whispers echo when they’re true.”
And now:
“Her work actually matters.”
All said like they were true, not convenient. All said like they were about you.
You start to notice more after that. The way Clark compliments your writing—always specific. Never lazy. The way his eyes crinkle when he’s proud of something you said, even when he doesn’t speak up. The way he turns the thermostat up exactly two degrees every time you bring your sweater into work. The way he walks a half-step behind you when you both leave late at night.
It’s not a confession. Not yet. But it’s a pattern. And once you start seeing it—
You can’t stop.
-
It’s a quiet afternoon in the bullpen. The kind where the overhead lights hum just loud enough to notice and everything smells like stale coffee and highlighter ink.
Clark’s sprawled in front of his monitor, sleeves rolled to his elbows, brow furrowed with the kind of intensity he usually saves for city zoning laws and double-checked citations. You’re helping him sort through quotes—most of which came from a reluctant press secretary and one very talkative dog walker who may or may not be a credible witness.
“Can you check the time stamp on the third transcript?” he asks, not looking up from his notes. “I think I messed it up when I formatted.”
You nod, flipping through the stack of papers he passed you earlier. That’s when you see it. Folded beneath the top printout, half-tucked into the margin of a city planning spreadsheet, is a different kind of note. A loose sheet, scribbled across in black ink. Not typed—written. Slanted lines. A few false starts crossed out.
At first, you think it’s a headline draft. A brainstorm. But the longer you stare, the more it reads like… something else.
“The city is loud today. Not just noise, but motion. Memory. The way people hum when they think no one’s listening.”
“I can’t stop watching her move through it like she belongs to it. Like it belongs to her.”
You freeze. Your eyes track down the page slowly, like touching something sacred.
The letters are familiar. The lowercase y curls the same way as the one on your very first note—the one that came with your coffee. The ink is the same soft black, slightly smudged in the corners, like whoever wrote it holds the pen too tight when they’re thinking. The paper is the same notepad stock he’s used before. The same faint red line down the margin.
You don’t mean to do it, but your fingers curl around the page. Your chest goes tight. Because it’s not just similar.
It’s exact.
You hear him coming before you see him—those long, careful strides and the faint jangle of the lanyard he keeps forgetting to take off.
You tuck the paper into your notebook. Quick. Smooth. Automatic.
“Hey, sorry,” he says, rounding the corner with two mugs of tea and a slightly sheepish smile. “Printer’s jammed again. I may have made it worse.”
You nod. Too fast. You can’t quite make your voice work yet. Clark hands you your tea—just the way you like it, no comment—and sits across from you like nothing’s wrong. Like your whole world hasn’t tilted six degrees to the left.
He launches into a ramble about column widths and quote placement, about whether a serif font looks more “established” than sans serif.
You don’t hear a word of it. You just… watch him. The way he gestures too big with his hands. The way his glasses slip down his nose mid-sentence and he doesn’t bother to fix them until they’re practically falling off. The way his voice drops a little when he’s thinking hard—low and warm and utterly unselfconscious.
He has no idea you know. No idea what you just found.
You murmur something about needing to catch a meeting and excuse yourself early. He nods. Worries at his bottom lip like he’s debating whether to walk you out. Decides against it.
“Thanks for the help,” he says quietly, as you shoulder your bag. “Seriously. I couldn’t’ve done this draft without you.”
You give him a look you don’t quite know how to name. Something between thank you and I see you.
Then you go.
-
That night, you sit on your bedroom floor with the drawer open. Every note. Every folded scrap. Every secret tucked under your stapler or slid into your sleeve or left beside your coffee cup. You line them up in rows. You flatten them with careful hands. And you compare. One by one.
The loops. The lines. The uneven spacing. The curl of the r. The hush in every sentence, like he was writing them with his heart too close to the surface.
There’s no room for doubt anymore. It’s him. It’s been him this whole time.
Clark Kent.
And somehow—somehow—he’s still never said your name aloud when he writes about you. Not once. But every letter reads like a whisper of it. Like a promise waiting to be spoken.
-
The office is quiet by the time you find the nerve.
Desks are abandoned, chairs turned at angles, the windows dark with city glow. Outside, Metropolis hums in its usual low thrum—sirens and neon and distant jazz from a rooftop bar—but here, in the bullpen, it’s just the steady tick of the wall clock and the slow, careful steps you take toward his desk.
Clark doesn’t hear you at first. He’s bent over a red pen and a half-finished draft, glasses low on his nose, the curve of his back hunched the way it always is when he’s lost in edits. His tie is loosened. His sleeves are pushed up. There’s a smear of ink on his thumb. He looks soft in the way people do when they think no one’s watching.
You speak before you lose your nerve. “Why didn’t you just tell me?”
Clark startles. Not dramatically—just a sharp breath and a too-quick motion to sit upright, like a kid caught doodling in the margins. “I—what?”
You don’t let your voice shake. “That it was you. The notes. The park. All of it.”
He stares at you. Then down at his desk. Then back again. His mouth opens like it wants to offer a lie, but nothing comes out. Just silence. His fingers twitch toward the edge of the desk and stop there, curling into his palm.
“I—” he tries again, softer now, “—I didn’t think you knew.”
“I didn’t.” Your voice is gentle. But not easy. “Not at first. Not really. But then I saw that list on your desk and… I went home and checked the handwriting.”
He winces. “I knew I left that out somewhere.”
You cross your arms, not out of anger—more like self-protection. “You could’ve told me. At any point. I asked you.”
“I know.” He swallows hard. “I know. I wanted to. I… tried.”
You watch him. Wait.
And then he says it. Not loud. Not dramatic. Just the truth, raw and shaky and so Clark it nearly breaks you. “Because if I told you it was me… you might look at me different. Or worse… The same.”
You don’t know what to say to that. Not right away. Your heart clenches. Because it’s so him—to assume your affection could only live in the mystery. That the truth of him—soft, clumsy, brilliant, real—would somehow undo the magic.
“Clark…” you start, but your voice slips.
He rubs the back of his neck. “I’m just the guy who spills coffee on his own notes and forgets to refill the paper tray. You’re… you. You write like you’re on fire. You walk into a room and it listens. I didn’t think someone like you would ever want someone like me.”
You stare at him. Really stare. At the flushed cheeks. The nervous hands. The boyish smile he’s trying to bury under self-deprecation. And then you say it. “I saved every note.”
He blinks.
You keep going. “I read them when I felt invisible. When I thought no one gave a damn what I was doing here. They mattered.”
Clark’s breath catches. He opens his mouth. Closes it again. He takes a slow step forward, tentative. Like he’s afraid to break the spell. His eyes search yours, and for a moment—for a second so still it might as well last an hour—he leans in. Not close enough to kiss you. But almost. His hand brushes yours. He stops. The air is heavy between you, buzzing with something fragile and enormous. But it isn’t enough. Not yet.
You draw in a breath, quiet but steady. “Why didn’t you meet me?”
Clark goes still. You can see it happen—the way the question lands. The way he folds in on himself just slightly, like the truth is too heavy to hold upright.
“I…” He tries, but the word doesn’t land. His jaw flexes. His eyes drop to the floor, then back up. He wants to tell you. He almost does. But he can’t. Not without unraveling everything. Not without unraveling himself.
“I wanted to,” he says finally, voice rough at the edges. “More than anything.”
“But?” you press, gently.
He just looks at you and says nothing. You nod, slowly. The silence says enough. Your chest aches—not in a sharp, bitter way. In the dull, familiar way of something you already suspected being confirmed.
You glance down at where your hand still brushes his, then look back at him—really look. “I wish you’d told me,” you whisper. “I sat there thinking it was a joke. That I made it all up. That I was stupid for believing in any of it.”
“I know,” he murmurs. “And I’m sorry.”
Your throat tightens. You swallow past it. “I just… I need time. To process. To think.”
Clark’s eyes flicker—hope and heartbreak, all tangled up in one look. “Of course,” he says immediately. “Take whatever you need. I mean it.”
A beat passes before you say the part that makes his breath catch. “I’m happy it was you.”
He freezes.
You offer the smallest smile. “I wanted it to be you.”
And for the first time in minutes, something in his shoulders unknots. There’s a shift. Gentle. Quiet. His hand lingers near yours again, knuckles brushing. He doesn’t lean in. Doesn’t push.
But God, he wants to. And maybe… maybe you do too. The moment stretches, unspoken and warm and not quite ready to be anything more.
You both stay like that—close, not touching. Breathing the same charged air. Then he laughs under his breath. Nervous. Boyish.
“I’m probably gonna trip over something the second you walk away.”
You smile back. “Just recalibrate your ankles.”
He huffs out a laugh, head ducking. “I deserved that.”
You start to turn away. Just a little. But his voice stops you again—quiet, sincere, something earnest catching in it. “I’m really glad it was me, too.”
And your heart flutters all over again.
-
Lois is perched on the edge of your desk, a paper takeout box balanced on her knee, chopsticks waving in lazy circles while you pick at your own dinner with a little too much focus.
You haven’t told her everything. Not the everything everything. Not the way your heart nearly cracked open when Clark looked at you like you were made of starlight and library books. Not how close he got before pulling back. Not how you pulled back too, even though your whole body ached to close the distance.
But you have told her about the notes. About the mystery. About the strange tenderness of it all, how it wrapped around your days like a string you didn’t know you were following until it tugged. And Lois—Lois has been unusually quiet about it. Until now.
“I’m setting you up,” she says between bites, like she’s discussing filing taxes.
You blink. “What?”
“A date. Just one. Guy from the Features desk at the Tribune. You’ll like him. He’s taller than you, decent jawline, wears socks that match. He’s got strong opinions about punctuation, which I figure is basically foreplay for you.”
You stare at her. “You don’t even believe in setups.”
“I don’t,” she agrees. “But you’ve been spiraling in circles for weeks, and at this point, I either push you toward a date or stage an intervention with PowerPoint slides.”
You laugh despite yourself. “You have PowerPoint slides?”
“Of course not,” she scoffs. “I have a Google Doc.”
You roll your eyes. “Lois—”
“Listen,” she says, gentler now. “I know you’re in deep with whoever this guy is. And if it is Clark… well. I can see why.”
Your stomach flips.
“But maybe stepping outside of the Planet for two hours wouldn’t kill you. Let someone else flirt with you for once. Let yourself figure out what you actually want.”
You press your lips together. Look down at your barely-touched food.
“You don’t have to fall for him,” she adds, softly. “Just let yourself be seen.”
You exhale through your nose. “He better be cute.”
“Oh, he is. Total sweater vest energy.”
You snort. “So your type.”
“Exactly.” She lifts her takeout carton in a mock toast. “To emotionally compromised coworkers and their tragic love lives.”
You clink your chopsticks against hers like it’s the saddest champagne flute in the world. And later, when you’re getting ready, you still feel the weight of Clark’s almost-kiss behind your ribs. But you go anyway. Because Lois is right. You need to know what it is you’re choosing. Even if, deep down, you already do.
-
The date isn’t bad. That’s the most frustrating part. He’s nice. Polished in that media school kind of way—crisp shirt, clean shave, a practiced smile that belongs on a campaign poster. He compliments your bylines and talks about his dream of running an independent magazine one day. He orders the good whiskey and laughs at your jokes.
But it’s the wrong laugh. Off by a beat. The rhythm’s not right.
When he leans in, you don’t. When he talks, your thoughts drift—to mismatched socks and printer toner smudges. To how someone else always remembers your coffee order. To how someone else listens, not to respond, but to see.
You realize it halfway through the second drink. You’re thinking about Clark again.
The softness of him. The steadiness. The way he over-apologizes in texts but never hesitates when someone challenges your work. The way his voice tilts a little higher when he’s nervous. The way his laugh never lands in the right place, but somehow makes the whole room feel warmer.
You pull your coat tighter when you leave the restaurant, cheeks stinging from the wind and the slow unraveling of a night that should’ve meant something. It doesn’t. Not in the way that matters.
So you walk. You tell yourself you’re just passing by the Daily Planet. That maybe you left your notes there. That it’s just a habit, stopping in this late. But when you scan your ID badge and push through the heavy glass doors, you already know the truth. You’re hoping he’s still here.
And he is.
The bullpen is almost entirely dark, save for a single desk lamp casting gold across the layout section. He’s hunched over it—tie loosened, sleeves rolled up, shirt rumpled like he’s been pacing, thinking, rewriting. His glasses are folded beside him on the desk. His hair’s a mess—fingers clearly run through it too many times.
He rubs at his eyes with the heel of his palm, breathing out hard through his nose. You don’t say anything. You just… watch. It hits you in one perfect, unshakable moment. The slope of his shoulders. The cut of his jaw. The furrow in his brow when he’s thinking too hard.
He looks like Superman.
No glasses. No slouch. No excuses. But more than that—he looks like Clark. Like the man who learned your coffee order. Like the one who saves all his best edits for last so he can tell you in person how good your writing is. The one who panicked when you got too close to the truth, but couldn’t stop leaving notes anyway.
And when he finally lifts his head and sees you standing there—still in your coat, fingers tight around your notebook—you watch something shift in his expression. A flicker of surprise. Panic. Bare, open emotion. Because you’re seeing him without the glasses.
“Couldn’t sleep,” you murmur. “Thought I’d grab my notes.”
He smiles, slow and unsure. “You… left them by the scanner.”
You nod, like that matters. Like you came here for paper and not for him. Then you walk over, slow and deliberate, and retrieve your notes from the edge of the scanner beside him. He swallows hard, watching you.
Then clears his throat. “So… how was the date?”
You pause. “Fine,” you say. “He was nice. Funny. Smart.”
Clark nods, but you’re not finished.
“But when he laughed, it was the wrong rhythm. And when he spoke, I didn’t lean in.”
You meet his eyes—clear blue, unhidden now. “I made up my mind halfway through the second drink.” His lips part. Barely. You move to the edge of his desk and set your notebook down. Then—carefully, slowly—you pull out the chair beside his and sit. The air between you goes molten.
Clark leans in a little, eyes flicking to your mouth, then back to your eyes. One hand moves down, like he’s going to say something, but instead, he reaches for the leg of your chair—fingers curling around it. And pulls you toward him. The scrape of wood against tile echoes, loud and deliberate. Your thighs knock his. Your breath stutters.
He’s so close now you can feel the heat rolling off him. The weight of his gaze. Your heart hammers in your chest. And lower.
“Clark—” But you don’t finish because he meets you halfway. The kiss is fire and breath and years of want pressed between two mouths. His hands come up—one to your jaw, the other to the back of your head—and tilt your face just so. Fingers tangle in your hair, anchoring you to him like he’s afraid you might vanish.
You moan into his mouth. Soft. Surprised. He groans back. Rougher. You reach for his shirt blindly, fists curling in the cotton as he pulls you fully into his lap—into the chair with him, your legs straddling his thighs. His hands don’t know where to land. Your waist. Your thighs. Your face again.
“You’re it,” he whispers against your mouth. “You’ve always been it.”
You know he means it. Because you’ve seen it. In every note. Every glance. Every moment he looked at you like you were already his. And now, with your bodies tangled, mouths tasting each other, breathing the same heat—you finally believe it.
You don’t say it yet. But the way you kiss him again says it for you. You’re his. You always have been.
His hands roam, but never rush. Your fingers are tangled in his shirt, your knees pressing to either side of his hips, and you feel him—all of him—underneath you, solid and steady and shaking just slightly. The chair creaks with every breath you share. His mouth is still on yours, slow now, like he’s memorizing the shape of you. Like he’s afraid if he goes too fast, you’ll disappear again.
When he finally pulls back—just enough to breathe—it’s with a soft, reverent exhale. His nose brushes yours. “You’re really here,” he murmurs, voice hoarse. “God, you’re really here.”
You blink at him, your hands sliding to either side of his jaw, thumbs brushing the high flush of his cheeks. He looks so open. Like you’ve peeled back every layer of him with just a kiss. And maybe you have.
His lips find the edge of your jaw next, slow and aching. A kiss. Then another, just beneath your ear. Then one lower, along the soft skin of your neck. Each press of his mouth feels like a confession. Like something that was buried too long, finally given air.
“You don’t know,” he whispers. “You don’t know what it’s been like, watching you and not getting to—” Another kiss, right beneath your cheekbone. “I used to rehearse things I’d say to you, and then I’d get to work and you’d smile and I’d forget how to talk.”
A laugh huffs out of you, but it melts fast when he leans in again, his breath fanning warm across your skin. “I didn’t think I’d ever get this close. I didn’t think I’d get to touch you like this.”
You shift in his lap, chest brushing his, and his hands squeeze your waist gently like he’s grounding himself. His mouth finds your temple. Your cheek. The corner of your mouth again.
“You’re so—” he breaks off. Tries again. “You’re everything.” Your pulse thrums in your throat. Clark’s hands stay respectful, but they wander—curving up your back, smoothing over your shoulders, settling at your ribs like he wants to hold you together.
“I used to write those notes late at night,” he admits against your collarbone. “Didn’t even think you’d read them at first. But you did. You kept them.”
“I kept every one,” you whisper.
His breath catches. You tilt his face back up to yours, studying him in the low, golden light. His hair’s a little messy now from your fingers. His lips pink and kiss-swollen. His chest rising and falling like he’s just run a marathon. And still, even now—he’s looking at you like he’s the one who’s lucky.
Clark kisses you again—soft, like a promise. Then a trail of them, across your cheek, your jaw, your throat. Slow enough to make your skin shiver and your hips shift instinctively against his lap. He groans quietly at that—barely audible—but doesn’t press for more. He just holds you tighter.
“I’d wait forever for you,” he murmurs into your skin. “I don’t need anything else. Just this. Just you.” You bury your face in his shoulder, overwhelmed, heart pounding like a war drum. You don’t say anything back. You just press another kiss to his throat, and feel him smile where your mouth lands.
-
The city is quieter at night—its edges softened under streetlamp glow, concrete warming beneath the fading breath of the day. There’s a breeze that tugs gently at your coat as you and Clark walk side by side, your fingers still loosely laced with his. His hand is big. Warm. Rough in the places that tell stories. Gentle in the ways that say everything else.
Neither of you speaks at first. The silence isn’t awkward. It’s thick with something tender. Like a string strung tight between your ribs and his, humming with each shared step.
When he glances down at you, his smile is small and almost shy. “I can’t believe I didn’t knock over the chair,” he says after a few blocks, voice pitched low with laughter.
You grin. “You were close. I think my thigh is bruised.”
He groans. “Don’t say that—I’ll lose sleep.”
You look at him sidelong. “You weren’t going to sleep anyway.” That earns you a pink flush down the side of his neck, and you tuck that image away for safekeeping.
Your building looms closer, brick and ivy-wrapped and familiar in the soft hush of the hour. You slow as you reach the front step, turning to face him.
“Thank you,” you murmur. You don’t mean just for the walk.
He holds your hand a beat longer. Then, without a word, he lifts it—presses his lips to your knuckles. It’s soft. Reverent.
Your breath catches in your throat. And maybe that’s what breaks the spell—maybe that’s what makes it all too much and not enough at once—because the next second, you’re reaching. Or maybe he is. It doesn’t matter. He kisses you again—this time fuller, deeper—your back brushing against the door behind you, his other hand cradling your cheek like he’s afraid you’ll vanish if he doesn’t hold you just right.
It doesn’t last long. Just long enough to taste the weight of what’s shifting between you. To feel it crest again in your chest.
When he finally pulls back, his lips hover a breath away from yours. “I’ll see you tomorrow,” he says softly.
You nod. You can’t quite say anything back yet. He gives your hand one last squeeze, then turns and disappears down the street, hands stuffed in his pockets, shoulders curved slightly inward like he’s holding in a smile he doesn’t know what to do with.
You unlock the door. Step inside. But you don’t go to bed right away. You walk to the front window instead—bare feet quiet on hardwood, heart still hammering. Through the glass, you spot him half a block away. He thinks you’re gone. Which is probably why, under the streetlight, Clark Kent jumps up and smacks the edge of a low-hanging banner like he’s testing his vertical. He catches it on the second try, swinging from it for all of two seconds before nearly tripping over his own feet.
You snort. Your hand presses against your mouth to muffle the sound. And then you smile. That kind of soft, aching smile that tugs at something deep in your chest. Because that’s him. That’s the man who writes you poems under the cover of anonymity and nearly breaks your chair kissing you in a newsroom.
That’s the one you wanted it to be. And now that it is—you don’t think your heart’s ever going to stop fluttering.
-
The bullpen is alive again. Phones ring. Keys clatter. Someone’s arguing over copy edits near the back printer, and Jimmy streaks past with a half-eaten bagel clamped between his teeth and a stack of photos fluttering behind him like confetti. It’s chaos.
But none of it touches you. The world moves at its usual speed, but everything inside you has slowed. Like someone turned the volume down on everything that isn’t him.
Your eyes find Clark without meaning to. He’s already at his desk—glasses on, shirt pressed, tie straighter than usual. He must’ve fixed it three times this morning. His sleeves are rolled to the elbow, a pen already tucked behind one ear. He’s doing that thing he does when he’s thinking—lip caught gently between his teeth, brows drawn, tapping the space bar like it owes him money.
But there’s a softness to him this morning, too. A looseness in his shoulders. A quiet sort of glow around the edges, like some part of him hasn’t fully come down from last night either. Like he’s still vibrating with the same electricity that’s still thrumming low behind your ribs.
And then he looks up. He finds you just as easily as you found him. You expect him to look away—bashful, flustered, maybe even embarrassed now that the newsroom lights are on and you’re both pretending not to be lit matches pretending not to burn.
But he doesn’t. He holds your gaze. And the quiet that opens up between you is louder than anything else in the building. The low hum of printers. The whirr of the HVAC. The hiss of steam from the office espresso machine.
You swallow hard. Then you look back at your screen like it matters. You try to focus. You really do.
Less than ten minutes later, he’s there. He approaches slow, like he’s afraid of breaking something delicate. His hand appears first, gently setting a familiar to-go cup on your desk.
“I figured you forgot yours,” he says, voice low.
You glance up at him. “I didn’t.”
A smile curls at the corner of his mouth. Soft. A little sheepish. “Oh. Well…” He shrugs. “Now you have two.”
You take the coffee anyway. Your fingers brush his as you do. He doesn’t pull away. Not this time. His hand lingers for half a second longer than it should—just enough to make your pulse jump in your wrist—and then slowly drops back to his side. The silence between you now isn’t awkward. It’s taut. Weightless. Like standing at the edge of something enormous, staring over the drop, and realizing he’s right there beside you—ready to jump too.
“Walk with me?” he asks, voice barely above the clatter around you. You nod. Because you’d follow him anywhere.
Downstairs, the building atrium hums with the low murmur of morning traffic and the soft shuffle of people cutting through the lobby on their way to bigger, faster things. But here—beneath the high, glass-paneled ceiling where sunlight pours in like gold through water—the city feels a little farther away. A little quieter. Just the two of you, caught in that hush between chaos and clarity.
Clark hands you a sugar packet without a word, and you take it, fingers brushing his again. He watches—not your hands, but your face—as you tear it open and shake it into your cup. Like memorizing the way you take your coffee might somehow tell him more than you’re ready to say aloud.
You glance at him, just in time to catch it—that look. Barely there, but soft. Full. He looks at you like he’s trying to learn you by heart.
You raise a brow. “What?”
He blinks, caught. “Nothing.”
But you’re smiling now, just a little. A private, corner-of-your-mouth kind of smile. “You look tired,” you murmur, stirring slowly.
His lips twitch. “Late night.”
“Editing from home?”
He hesitates. You watch the way his shoulders shift, the subtle catch in his breath. Then, finally, he shakes his head. “Not exactly.”
You hum. Say nothing more. The moment lingers, warm as the cup in your hand. He stands beside you, tall and still, but there’s something new in the way he holds himself—like gravity’s just a little lighter around him this morning. Like your presence pulls him into a softer orbit. There’s a beat of silence.
“You… seemed quiet last night,” he says, voice gentler now. “When you saw me.”
You glance at him from over the rim of your cup. Steam curls up between you, catching in the morning light like spun sugar. “I saw you,” you say.
He studies you. Carefully. “You sure?”
You lower your coffee. “Yeah. I’m sure.”
His brows pull together slightly, the line between them deepening. He’s trying to read you. Trying to solve an equation he’s too close to see clearly. There’s a question in his eyes—not just about last night, but about everything that came before it. The letters. The glances. The ache.
But you don’t give him the answer. Not out loud. Because what you don’t say hangs heavier than what you do. You don’t say: I’m pretty certain he’s you. You don’t say: I think my heart has known for a while now. You don’t say: I’m not afraid of what you’re hiding. Instead, you let the silence stretch between you—soft and silken, tethering you to something deeper than confession. You sip your coffee, heart steady now, eyes warm.
And when he opens his mouth again—when he leans forward like he might finally give himself away entirely—you smile. Just a soft curve of your lips. A quiet reassurance. “Don’t worry,” you say, voice low. “I liked what I saw.”
He freezes. Then flushes, color blooming high on his cheeks. His gaze drops to the floor like it’s safer there, like looking at you too long might unravel him completely—but when he glances back up, the smile on his face is small and helpless and utterly undone. A breath escapes him, barely audible—but you hear it. You feel it. Relief.
He walks you back upstairs without another word. The movement is easy. Comfortable. But his hand hovers near yours the whole time. Not quite touching. Just… there. Like gravity pulling two halves of the same secret closer.
And as you re-enter the hum of the bullpen, nothing looks different. But everything feels like it’s just about to change.
-
That night, after the city has quieted—after the neon pulse of Metropolis blurs into puddle reflections and distant sirens—the Daily Planet is almost reverent in its silence. No ringing phones. No newsroom chatter. Just the soft hum of a printer in standby mode and the creak of the elevator cables descending behind you.
You let yourself in with your keycard. The lock clicks louder than expected in the stillness. You don’t know why you’re here, really. You told yourself it was to grab the folder you forgot. To double-check something on your last draft. But the truth is quieter than that.
You were hoping he’d be here. He’s not. His desk lamp is off. His chair turned inward, as if he left in a hurry. No half-eaten sandwich or scribbled drafts left behind—just a tidied workspace and absence thick enough to feel.
You sigh, the sound swallowed whole by the vast emptiness of the bullpen. Then you see it. At your desk. Tucked half-under your keyboard like a secret trying not to be. One folded piece of paper.
No envelope this time. No clever line on the front. Just your name, handwritten in a looping scrawl you’ve come to know better than your own signature. A rhythm you’ve studied and traced in the quiet of your apartment, night after night.
You slide it free with careful fingers. Your heart stutters as you unfold it. The ink is darker this time—less tentative. The strokes more deliberate, like he knew, at last, he didn’t have to hide.
“For once I don’t have to imagine what it’s like to have your lips on mine. But I still think about it anyway.”
—C.K.
You stare at the words until the paper goes soft in your hands. Until your chest feels too full and too fragile all at once. Until the noise of your own heartbeat drowns out everything else.
Then you press the note to your chest and close your eyes. His initials burn through the paper like a touch. Not a secret admirer anymore. Not a mystery in the margins. Just him.
Clark. Your friend. Your almost. Your maybe.
You don’t need the rest of the truth. Not tonight. Not if it costs this fragile thing blooming between you—this quiet, aching sweetness. This slow, deliberate unraveling of walls and fears and the long-held breath you didn’t realize you were holding.
Whatever you’re building together, it’s happening one heartbeat at a time. One almost-confession. One note left behind in the dark. And you’d rather have this—this steady climb into something real—than rush toward the edge of revelation and risk it all crumbling.
So you tuck the note gently into your bag, where the others wait. Every word he’s given you, kept safe like a promise. You don’t know what happens next. But for the first time in weeks, maybe months, you’re not afraid of finding out.
-
You’re not official.
Not in the way people expect it. There’s no label, no group announcement, no big display. But you’re definitely something now—something solid and golden and real in the space between words.
It’s not office gossip. Not yet. But it could be. Because you linger a little too long near his desk. Because he lights up when you enter a room like it’s instinct. Because when he passes you in the bullpen, his hand brushes yours—just barely—and you both pause like the air just changed. There’s no denying it.
And then comes the hallway kiss. It’s after hours. The building is quiet, the newsroom lights dimmed to half. You’re both walking toward the elevators, your footsteps echoing against the tile.
Clark fumbles for the call button, mumbling something about how slow the system is when it’s late, and how the elevator always seems to stall on the wrong floor. You don’t answer. You just reach for his tie. A gentle tug. A silent question. He exhales, soft and shaky. Then he leans in.
The kiss is slow. Unhurried. Like you’re both tasting something that’s been simmering between you for years. His hands find your waist, yours curl into his shirt, and the elevator dings somewhere in the distance, but neither of you move.
You part only when the second ding reminds you where you are. His forehead presses to yours, warm and close. You breathe the same air. And then the doors close behind you, and he walks you out with his hand ghosting the small of your back.
-
You start learning the rhythm of Clark Kent. He talks more when he’s nervous—little rambles about traffic patterns or article formatting, or how he’s still not entirely sure he installed his dishwasher correctly. Sometimes he trails off mid-thought, like he’s remembering something urgent but can’t explain it.
He always carries your groceries. All of them. No negotiation. He’ll take the heavier bags first, sling them both over one shoulder and pretend like it’s nothing. And somehow, he always forgets his own umbrella—but never forgets yours. You don’t know how many he owns, but one always appears when the clouds roll in. Like magic. Like preparation. Like he’s thought of you in every version of the day.
You don’t ask.
You just start to keep one in your own bag for him.
-
The third kiss happens on your couch.
You’ve been watching some old movie neither of you are paying attention to, his arm slung lazily across your shoulders. Your legs are tangled. His fingers are tracing idle shapes against your thigh through the fabric of your leggings.
He kisses you once—soft and slow—and then again. Longer. Like he’s memorizing the shape of your mouth. Like he might need it later.
Then his phone buzzes.
He stiffens.
You feel the change instantly—the way his body pulls back, the air between you tightens. He glances at the screen. You don’t catch the name. But you see the look in his eyes.
Regret. Apology. Something deeper.
“I—I’m so sorry,” he says, already moving. “I have to—something came up. It’s—”
You sit up, brushing your hand against his arm. “Go,” you say softly.
“But—”
“It’s okay. Just… be safe.”
And God, the way he looks at you. Like you’ve given him something priceless. Something he didn’t know he was allowed to want.
He kisses your temple like a promise and disappears into the night.
-
It happens again. And again.
Missed dinners. Sudden goodbyes. Rainy nights where he shows up soaked, out of breath, murmuring apologies and curling into you like he doesn’t know how to be held.
You never ask. You don’t need to.
Because he always comes back.
-
One night, you’re curled into each other on your couch, your legs thrown over his, your cheek resting against his chest. The movie’s playing, forgotten. Your fingers are idly brushing the hem of his shirt where it’s ridden up. He smells like rain and ink and whatever soap he always uses that lingers on your pillow now.
Then his voice, quiet in the dark, “I don’t always know how to be… enough.”
You blink. Look up. He’s staring at the ceiling. Not quite breathing evenly. Like the words cost him something.
You reach up and cradle his face in your hands.
His eyes finally meet yours.
“You are,” you whisper. “As you are.”
You don’t say: Even if you are who I think you are.
You don’t need to. You just kiss him again. Soft. Long. Steady. Because whatever he’s carrying, you’ve already started holding part of it too.
And he lets you.
-
The night starts quiet.
Takeout boxes sit half-forgotten on the coffee table—one still open, rice going cold, soy sauce packet untouched. Your legs are draped across Clark’s lap, one foot nudged against the curve of his thigh, and his hand rests there now. Not possessively. Not deliberately.
Just… there.
It’s late. The kind of late where the whole city softens. No sirens outside. No blinking inbox. Just the low hum of the lamp on the side table and the warmth of the man beside you.
Clark’s eyes are on you. They’ve been there most of the night.
He hasn’t said much since dinner—just little smiles, quiet sounds of agreement, the occasional brush of his thumb against your ankle like a thought he forgot to speak aloud. But it’s not a bad silence. It’s dense. Full.
You shift, angling toward him slightly, and his gaze flicks to your mouth. That’s all it takes.
He leans in.
The kiss is soft at first. Familiar. A shared breath. A quiet hello in a room where no one had spoken for minutes. But then his hand curls behind your knee, guiding your leg further over his lap, and his mouth opens against yours like he’s been holding back for hours.
He kisses you like he’s starving. Like he’s spent all day wanting this—aching for the shape of you, the weight of your body in his hands. And when you moan into it, just a little, he shudders.
His hands start to move. One tracing the line of your spine, the other resting against your hip like a question he doesn’t need to ask. You answer anyway—pressing in closer, threading your fingers through his hair, sighing into the heat of his mouth.
You don’t know who climbs into whose lap first, only that you end up straddling him on the couch. Your knees on either side of his thighs. His hands gripping your waist now, fingers curling in your shirt like he doesn’t trust himself not to break it.
And then something shifts.
Not emotional—physical.
Clark stands.
He lifts you with him, effortlessly, like you don’t weigh anything at all. Not a grunt. Not a stagger. Just—up. Smooth and sure. His mouth never leaves yours.
You gasp into the kiss as he walks you backwards, steps confident and fast despite the way your arms tighten around his shoulders. Your spine meets the wall in the next second. Not hard. Just sudden.
Your heart thunders.
“Clark—”
He doesn’t answer. Just breathes against your mouth like he needs the oxygen from your lungs. Like yours is the only air that keeps him grounded.
His hips press into yours, one thigh sliding between your legs, and your back arches instinctively. His hands span your ribs now, thumbs brushing just beneath your bra. You feel the tremble in them—not from fear. From restraint.
“Clark,” you whisper again, and his forehead drops to yours.
“You okay?” he asks, voice rough and close.
You nod, breath catching. “You?”
He hesitates. Not long. But long enough to count. “Yeah. Just… feel a little off tonight.”
You pull back just enough to look at him.
He’s flushed. Eyes darker than usual. But not winded. Not breathless. Not anything like you are. His chest doesn’t even rise fast beneath your hands. Still, he smiles—like he can will the oddness away—and kisses you again. Deeper this time. Like distraction.
Like he doesn’t want to stop.
You don’t want him to either.
Not yet.
His mouth finds yours again—slower this time, more purposeful. Like he’s savoring it. Like he’s waited for this exact moment, this exact pressure of your hips against his, for longer than he’s willing to admit.
You gasp when his hands slide under your shirt, palms broad and steady, dragging upward in a path that sets every nerve on fire. He doesn’t fumble. Doesn’t rush. Just explores—like he’s memorizing, not taking.
“Can I?” he murmurs against your mouth, fingers brushing the underside of your bra.
You nod, breathless. “Yes.”
He exhales, soft and reverent, and lifts your shirt over your head. It’s discarded without ceremony. Then his hands are on you again—warm, slow, mapping out the shape of you with open palms and patient awe.
“God, you’re beautiful,” he murmurs, more breath than voice. His mouth finds the edge of your jaw, trailing kisses down to the hollow beneath your ear. “I think about this… so much.”
You shudder.
His hands move again—down this time, gripping your thighs as he sinks to his knees in front of you. You barely have time to react before he’s tugging your pants down, slow and careful, mouth following the descent with lingering kisses along your hips, the dip of your pelvis, the inside of your thigh.
He looks up at you from the floor.
You nearly forget how to breathe.
“I’ve wanted to take my time with you,” he admits, voice rough and low. “Wanted to learn you slow. Learn how you taste. How you fall apart.”
And then he does.
He leans in and licks a long, deliberate stripe over the center of your underwear, still watching your face.
You whimper.
He smiles, just slightly, and does it again.
By the time he peels your underwear down and presses an open-mouthed kiss to your inner thigh, your knees are trembling.
Clark hooks one arm under your leg, lifting it over his shoulder like it’s nothing, and buries his mouth between your thighs with a groan that rattles through your whole body.
His tongue is warm and soft and maddeningly slow—circling, tasting, teasing. He doesn’t rush. Not even when your fingers knot in his hair and your hips rock forward with pure desperation.
“Clark—”
He hums against you, and the sound sends a full-body shiver up your spine.
“I’ve got you,” he whispers, lips brushing you as he speaks. “Let me.”
You do.
You let him wreck you.
He’s methodical about it—like he’s following a map only he can see. One hand holding you steady, the other splayed against your stomach, keeping you anchored while he works you open with mouth and tongue and quiet, praising murmurs.
“So sweet… that’s it, sweetheart… you taste like heaven.”
You’re already close when he slips a thick finger inside you. Then another. Slow, patient, curling exactly where you need him. His mouth never stops. His rhythm is steady. Focused. Unrelenting.
You come like that—panting, gripping his shoulders, thighs shaking around his ears as he groans and keeps going, riding it out with you until you’re trembling too hard to stand.
He rises slowly.
His lips are slick. His eyes are dark.
And you’ve never seen anyone look at you like this.
“Come here,” you whisper.
He kisses you then—deep and possessive and tasting like you. You’re the one tugging at his shirt now, unbuttoning in frantic clumsy swipes. You need him. Need him closer. Need him inside.
But when you reach for his belt, he stills your hands gently.
“Not yet,” he says, voice like thunder wrapped in velvet. “Let me take care of you first.”
You blink. “Clark, I—”
He kisses you again—soft, lingering.
“I’ve waited too long for this to rush it,” he murmurs, brushing hair from your face with the back of his knuckles. “You deserve slow.”
Then he lifts you again—like you weigh nothing—and carries you to the bed. He lays you down like you’re fragile—but the look in his eyes says he knows you’re anything but. That you’re something rare. Something he’s been aching for. His palms skim over your thighs again, slow and deliberate, before he spreads you open beneath him.
He doesn’t ask this time. Just settles between your legs like he belongs there, arms hooked under your thighs, holding you wide.
“Clark—”
“I know, sweetheart,” he murmurs, voice low and raw. “I’ve got you.”
And he does.
His mouth finds you again—warm, skilled, confident now. No hesitation, just long, wet strokes of his tongue that build on everything he already learned. And then—without warning—he slides two fingers back inside you.
You cry out, hips jolting.
He groans into you, fingers moving in tandem with his mouth—curling just right, matching every flick of his tongue, every wet press of his lips. He doesn’t stop. Doesn’t falter. He watches you the whole time, eyes dark and hungry and so in love with the way you fall apart for him.
You grip the sheets, gasping his name, over and over, until your voice breaks on a sob of pleasure.
“Clark—God, I—I can’t—”
“Yes, you can,” he breathes. “You’re almost there. Let go for me.”
You do. With a cry, with shaking thighs, with your fingers tangled in his hair and your back arching off the bed.
And he doesn’t stop.
He rides your orgasm out with slow, worshipful strokes, kissing your thighs, murmuring into your skin, “So good for me. You’re perfect. You’re everything.”
By the time he pulls back, you’re boneless—dazed and trembling, your chest heaving as he kisses his way up your stomach.
But the way he looks at you then—like he needs to be closer—tells you this isn’t over.
His hands brace on either side of your head as he leans over you. “Can I…?”
Your hips answer for you—tilting up, chasing the heat and weight of him already pressed between your thighs.
“Yes,” you whisper. “Please.”
Clark groans low in his throat as he pushes his boxers down just enough, lining himself up—his cock flushed and thick, already leaking, and you feel the weight of him between your thighs and gasp.
“God, Clark…”
“I know,” he murmurs, forehead resting against yours, hips rocking forward just barely, teasing you with the head of his cock, dragging it through the slick mess he made with his mouth and fingers. “I know, baby. Just—just let me…”
He nudges in slow.
The stretch is slow and steady, his breath catching as your body parts for him. He’s thick. Too thick, maybe, except your body wants him—takes him like it was made to.
You whimper, and his jaw clenches tight.
“You okay?”
“Y—yeah,” you breathe. “Don’t stop.”
He doesn’t. Not even for a second. Inch by inch, he sinks into you, whispering your name, kissing your temple, gripping the backs of your thighs as you wrap your legs around his waist.
“Fuck,” he hisses when he bottoms out, buried deep, balls pressed flush against you. “You feel—Jesus, you feel unbelievable.”
You’re too far gone to answer. You just cling to him, nails dragging lightly down his back, moaning into his mouth when he kisses you again.
The first few thrusts are slow. Deep. Measured. He pulls out just enough to feel you grip him on the way back in, then does it again—and again—and again.
And then something shifts.
Your body clenches around him in a way that makes his head drop to your shoulder with a groan.
“Oh my god, sweetheart—don’t do that—I’m gonna—fuck—”
He thrusts harder.
Not rough, not yet, but firmer. Hungrier. The control he started with begins to slip. You can feel it in his grip, in the sharp edge of his breath, in the tremble of the arm braced beside your head.
“Been thinkin’ about this,” he grits out, voice low and wrecked. “Every night—every goddamn night since the first note. You don’t even know what you do to me.”
You whine, rolling your hips up to meet him, and he snaps—hips slamming forward hard enough to punch the air from your lungs.
“Clark—”
“I’ve got you,” he gasps, fucking into you harder now, his voice filthy and tender all at once. “I’ve got you, baby—so fuckin’ tight—can’t stop—don’t wanna stop—”
You’re clinging to him now, crying out with every thrust. It’s not just the way he fills you—it’s the way he worships you while he does it. The way he moans when you clench. The way he growls your name like a prayer. The way he falls apart in real time, just from the feel of you.
He grabs one of your hands, laces your fingers with his, pins it beside your head.
“You’re mine,” he grits. “You have to be mine.”
“Yes,” you gasp. “Yes—Clark—don’t stop—”
“Never,” he groans. “Never stopping. Not when you feel like this—fuck—”
You can feel him getting close—the way his rhythm starts to stutter, the broken sounds escaping his throat, the way he buries his face against your neck and pants your name like he’s desperate to take you with him.
And you’re almost there too.
You don’t even realize your hand is slipping until he’s gripping it again—pinned tight to the pillow, your fingers laced in his and clenched so tight it aches. The bed frame is starting to shudder beneath you now, the headboard knocking a rhythm into the wall, and Clark is gasping like he’s in pain from how good it feels.
His hips snap forward again—harder this time. Deeper. More desperate.
“Fuck—fuck—I’m sorry,” he grits, voice ragged and thick, “I’m trying to—baby—I can’t—hold back—”
You moan so loud it makes him flinch.
And then he breaks.
One second he’s pulling your name from his lungs like it’s the only word he knows—and the next, he slams into you so hard the bed shifts a full inch. The lamp on the bedside table flickers. The candle flame bursts just slightly higher than before—flickering hot and fast, the wick blackening with a thin curl of smoke. It doesn’t go out. It just burns.
Clark’s back arches.
His cock drags over everything inside you in just the right way, hitting that spot again and again until you’re clutching at his shoulders, babbling nonsense against his skin.
“I can’t—I can’t—Clark!”
“You can,” he pants. “Please—please, baby, cum with me—I can feel you—I can feel it.”
Your body goes taut.
A white-hot snap of pleasure punches through your spine, and your vision blacks out at the edges. You tighten around him—clenching, pulsing, dragging him over the edge with you—and he loses it.
Clark curses—actually curses—and growls something between a moan and a sob as he slams into you one last time, spilling deep inside you. His body locks, every muscle trembling. His teeth scrape the soft skin of your throat—not biting, just grounding himself. Like if he lets go, he’ll come undone completely.
The lights flicker again.
The candle sputters once and steadies.
He breathes like a man starved. His chest heaves. But you can feel it—under your hand, against your skin. His heart’s not racing.
Not like it should be.
You’re gasping. Dazed. Boneless under him. But Clark… Clark’s barely even winded. And yet—his hands are trembling. Just slightly. Still laced in yours. Still holding on.
After, you lie there—chests pressed close, legs tangled, the sheets barely clinging to your hips.
Clark’s arm is slung across your waist, palm wide and warm over your belly like it belongs there. Like he doesn’t ever want to move. His nose is tucked against your temple, breath stirring your hair in soft little pulses. He keeps kissing you. Your cheek. Your jaw. The edge of your brow. He doesn’t stop, like he’s afraid this is a dream and kissing you might anchor it in place.
“Still with me?” he whispers into your skin.
You nod. Drowsy. Sated. Floating.
“Good.” His hand runs down your side in one long, reverent stroke. “Didn’t mean to… get so carried away.”
You hum. “You say that like I didn’t enjoy every second.”
He smiles against your neck. You feel the curve of it, his lips brushing the shell of your ear.
A moment passes.
Then another.
“I think you short-circuited my bedside lamp somehow.”
Clark freezes. “…Did I?”
You roll your head to look at him. “It flickered. Right as you—”
His ears turn bright red. “Maybe just… a power surge?”
You arch a brow. “Right. A romantic, orgasm-timed power surge.”
He mutters something into your shoulder that sounds vaguely like kill me now.
You grin. File it away.
Exhibit 7: Lightbulb went dim at the exact second he came. Candle flame doubled in height.
-
Later that night, long after you’ve both dozed off, you wake to find Clark still holding you. One of his hands is under your shirt, splayed low across your stomach. Protective. Possessive in the gentlest way. His body is still curled around yours like a question mark, like he’s checking for all your answers in how your breath rises and falls.
You shift just slightly—and his grip tightens instinctively, like even in sleep, he can’t let go.
Exhibit 8: He doesn’t sleep like a person. Sleeps like a sentry.
-
In the morning, you wake to the scent of coffee.
Your kitchen is suspiciously spotless for someone who swears he’s clumsy. The pot is full, the mugs pre-warmed, your favorite creamer already swirled in.
Clark is flipping pancakes.
Barefoot.
Wearing one of your sleep shirts. The tight one.
You lean against the doorframe, watching him. His back muscles flex when he flips the pan one-handed.
“Morning,” he says without turning.
You blink. “How’d you know I was standing here?”
“I, uh…” He falters, then gestures at the sizzling pan. “Heard footsteps. I assumed.”
You hum.
Exhibit 9: He heard me from across the apartment, over the sound of a frying pan.
-
You’re brushing your teeth later when you spot the mirror fogged from the shower.
You reach for a towel—and notice it’s already been run under warm water.
You glance at him, and he just shrugs. “Figured you’d want it not freezing.”
“Figured?” you repeat.
He leans against the doorframe, smiling. “Lucky guess.”
You don’t respond. Just kiss his cheek with toothpaste still in your mouth.
Exhibit 10: He always guesses exactly what I need. Down to the second.
-
That night, he falls asleep on your couch during movie night, head on your thigh, hand around your wrist like a lifeline.
You swear you see the movie reflected in his eyes—like the light isn’t just hitting them but moving inside them. You blink. It’s gone.
You look down at him. His lashes are impossibly long. His mouth is parted. His breathing is steady—but not quite… human. Too even. Too perfect.
Exhibit 11: His pupils did a thing. I don’t know how to describe it. But they did a thing.
-
The next day, a car splashes a wave of slush toward you both on the sidewalk.
You brace for impact.
But Clark steps in front of you, faster than you can blink. The water hits him. Not you.
You didn’t even see him move.
You narrow your eyes. He just smiles. “Reflexes.”
“Clark. Be honest. Do you secretly run marathons at night?”
He laughs. “Nope. Just really hate laundry.”
Exhibit 12: Literally teleported into the splash zone to shield me. Probably didn’t even get wet.
-
And still… you don’t say it.
You don’t ask.
Because he’s not just some blur of strength or spectacle.
He’s the man who folds your laundry while pretending it’s because he’s “bad at relaxing.” Who scribbles notes in the margins of your drafts, calling your metaphors “dangerously good.” Who kisses your forehead with a kind of reverence like you’re the one who’s unreal.
You know.
You know.
And he knows you know.
Because he’s hiding it from you. Not really.
When he stumbles over his own sentences, when his smile falters after a late return, when his jaw tenses at the sound of your name whispered too softly—you don’t see evasion. You see weight. You see care.
He’s protecting something.
And you’re trying to figure out how to tell him that you already know. That it’s okay. That you’re still here. That you love him anyway.
You haven’t said it yet—not the knowing, not the loving. But it lives just under your skin. A second heartbeat. A full body truth. You think maybe, if you just look him in the eye long enough next time, he’ll understand.
But still neither of you says it yet. Because the space between what’s said and unsaid—that’s where everything soft lives.
And you’re not ready to let it go.
-
The morning feels ordinary.
There’s a crack in the coffee pot. A printer jam. Perry yelling something about deadlines from his office. Jimmy’s camera bag spills open across your desk, and he swears he’ll fix it after his coffee, and Lois is pacing, muttering about sources.
And then the screens change.
It’s subtle at first—just a flicker. Then the feed cuts mid-commercial. Every monitor in the bullpen goes black, then red. Emergency alert. A shrill tone splits the air. Someone turns up the volume.
You look up.
And everything shifts.
The broadcast blares through the newsroom speakers, raw footage streaming in from a local news chopper.
Metropolis. Midtown. Chaos. A building half-collapsed. Smoke curling upward in a thick, unnatural spiral.
The camera jolts—and then there he is.
Superman.
Thrown through a brick wall.
You feel it in your bones before your brain catches up. That’s him. That’s Clark.
He’s on his knees in the wreckage, panting, bleeding—from his temple, from his ribs, from a gash you can’t see the end of. The suit is torn. His cape is shredded. He’s never looked so human.
He tries to stand. Wobbles. Collapses.
You stop breathing.
“Is Superman going to be ok?” someone behind you murmurs.
“Jesus,” Jimmy whispers.
“He’ll be fine,” Lois says, too casually. She leans back in her chair, sipping her coffee like it’s any other news cycle. “He always is.”
You want to scream. Because that’s not a story on a screen. That’s not some distant, untouchable god.
That’s your boyfriend.
That’s the man who brought you coffee this morning with one sugar and just the right amount of cream. The man who kissed your wrist in the elevator, whose hands trembled when he whispered I want to be enough. Who holds you like you’re something holy and bruises like he’s made of skin after all.
He’s not fine. He’s bleeding.
He’s not getting up.
You freeze.
The bullpen keeps moving around you—half-aware, half-horrified—but you can’t speak. Can’t blink. Can’t breathe.
Your hands start to shake.
You grip the edge of your desk like it might anchor you to the floor, like if you let go you’ll run straight out the door, out into the chaos, toward the wreckage and the fire and the thing trying to kill him.
A part of you already has.
A hit lands on the feed—something massive slamming him into the pavement—and your knees almost buckle from the force of it. Not physically. Not really. But somewhere deep. Something inside you fractures.
You don’t know what the enemy is.
Alien, maybe. Or worse.
But it’s not the shape of the thing that terrifies you—it’s him. It’s how slow he is to get up. How much his mouth is bleeding. How his eyes are unfocused. How you’ve never seen him look like this.
You want to run.
You want to be there.
But you’re not. You’re here. In your dress pants and button-up, in your neat little office chair, with your badge clipped to your hip and your heart breaking quietly.
Because no one else knows. No one else understands what’s really at stake. No one else sees the man behind the cape.
Not like you do.
Your vision blurs.
You wipe your eyes. Pretend it’s nothing. The bullpen is too loud to hear your breath catch.
But still—your hands tremble and your heart pounds so violently it hurts.
And you cry.
Quietly.
You cry like the city might if it could feel. You cry like the sky should. You cry like someone already grieving—like someone who knows what it means to lose him.
The footage won’t stop. Superman reels across the screen—his suit torn, the shoulder scorched through in a blackened, jagged arc. Blood smears the corner of his mouth. There’s a limp in his gait now, one he keeps trying to mask. The camera catches it anyway.
The newsroom is silent now save for the hiss of static and the low voice of the anchor describing the damage downtown.
You sit frozen at your desk, the plastic edge biting into your palms as you grip it like it might stop your body from unraveling. The taste of bile has settled at the back of your throat. Your coffee’s gone cold in its cup.
Across the bullpen, someone mutters, “Jesus. He took a hit.”
“Look at the suit,” Lois says flatly, standing by one of the screens. “He’s never looked that rough before.”
“Dude’s limping,” Jimmy adds, pushing his glasses up. “That alien thing—what even was that?”
Their words feel like background noise. Distant. Warped. You can’t seem to hear anything over the white-hot panic blistering in your chest.
You blink, your eyes burning, throat tight. You can’t just sit here and cry. Not in front of Lois and Perry and half the bullpen. But your body is trembling anyway. You clench your hands in your lap, nails digging crescent moons into your skin.
He’s hurt.
And he’s still out there.
Fighting.
Alone.
You can’t just sit here.
You shove your chair back hard enough that it scrapes against the floor. “I’m going.”
Lois turns toward you. “Going where?”
“I’m covering it. The attack. The fallout. Whatever’s left—I want to see it firsthand.”
Lois’s brow lifts. “Since when do you make reckless calls like this?”
“I don’t,” you snap, already grabbing your coat. “But I am now.”
Jimmy’s already halfway to the door. “If we’re going, I’m bringing the camera.”
Lois hesitates. Then sighs. “Hell. You two’ll get yourselves killed without me.”
You don’t wait for her to finish grabbing her phone. You’re already out the door.
-
Downtown is a war zone.
The smell of scorched concrete clings to the air. Smoke spirals in uneven plumes from the carcass of a building that must have been beautiful once. Sirens scream in every direction, red and blue lights flashing off every pane of shattered glass.
You arrive just as the dust begins to settle.
The battle is over but the wreckage tells you how bad it was.
The Justice Gang moves through the remains like figures out of a dream—tattered and bloodied, but upright.
Guy Gardner limps past, muttering curses. “Next time, I’m bringing a bigger damn ring.” Kendra Saunders—Hawkgirl—has one wing half-folded and streaked with blood. She ignores it as she checks on a paramedic’s bandages. Mr. Terrific is already coordinating with local emergency crews, directing flow with a hand to his ear. And Metamorpho—God, he looks like he’s melting and re-solidifying with every breath.
And then…
Him.
He descends from the smoke. Not in a blur. Not with a boom of sonic air. Slowly. Controlled.
But not untouched.
He lands in a crouch, shoulders tight, the line of his jaw drawn sharp with tension. His boots crunch against broken concrete. His cape is torn at one edge, flapping limply behind him.
He’s hurt.
He’s so clearly hurt.
And even through all of it—through the dirt and blood and pain—he sees you. His eyes lock onto yours in an instant. The rest of the world falls away. There’s no press. No chaos. No destruction.
Just him.
And you.
The corner of his mouth lifts—just a flicker. Not a smile. Just… recognition.
And something deeper behind it.
You know know.
And he is letting you know.
But he straightens a second later, lifting his chin, slotting the mask back into place like a practiced motion. He squares his shoulders, winces barely perceptible, and turns to face the press.
Lois is already stepping forward, questions in hand. “Superman. What can you tell us about the enemy?”
His voice is steady, but you can hear it now—hear the strain. The breath that doesn’t quite come easy. The syllables that drag like they’re fighting his tongue. “It wasn’t local,” he says. “Some kind of dimensional breach. We had help closing it.”
Jimmy’s camera clicks. Kendra coughs into her hand.
You’re not writing.
You’re just watching.
Watching the soot along his cheekbone. The split in his lip. The way he shifts his weight to favor one side. The way the “s” in “justice” drags like it hurts to say.
He looks tired.
But more than that—he looks like Clark.
And it’s never been more obvious than right now, standing under broken sky, trying to pretend like nothing’s changed.
You want to run to him. You want to hold him up.
But you stay rooted.
When the questions start to slow and the press begins murmuring among themselves, he glances over. Just at you.
“Are you okay?” he asks, barely audible.
You nod. “Are you?”
He hesitates. Then says, “Getting there.”
It’s not a performance. Not for them. Just for you.
You nod again. The look you share says more than anything else could.
I know.
I’m not leaving.
You don’t have to say it.
When he flies away—slower this time, one hand brushing briefly against his ribs—it’s not dramatic. There’s no sonic boom. No heat trail. Just wind and distance.
Lois exhales. “He looked rough.”
Jimmy nods. “Still hot, though.”
You say nothing. You just stare up at the empty sky. And press your shaking hand over your heart.
-
You fake calm.
You smile when Jimmy slaps your shoulder and says something about getting the footage up by morning. You nod through Lois’s sharp-eyed stare and mutter something about your deadline, your byline, your blood sugar—anything to get her to stop watching you like she knows what you’re not saying.
But the second you’re alone?
You run. It’s not a sprint, not really. Just that jittery, full-body urgency—the kind that makes your hands shake and your legs move faster than your thoughts can follow. You don’t remember the trip home. Just the chaos of your own pulse, the way your chest won’t stop aching.
You replay the scene again and again in your mind: his landing, the blood on his lip, the flicker of pain when he looked at you. That not-quite smile. That nearly imperceptible tremble.
You’d never wanted to hold someone more in your life.
And when you reach your door, keys fumbling, heart still hammering? He’s already there.
You pause halfway through the doorway.
He’s standing in your living room, like he’s been waiting hours. He’s not in the suit. No cape. No crest. Just a plain black T-shirt and flannel pajama pants, his hair still damp like he just showered.
He looks like Clark. Except… tonight you know there’s no difference.
“Hi,” he says quietly. His voice is soft. Familiar. “I didn’t mean to startle you.”
You blink. “Did you break through my patio door?”
He winces. “Yes. Sort of.”
You lift a brow. “You owe me a new lock.”
“It doesn’t work like that.” He says with a roll of his eyes.
A silence stretches between you. It’s not tense. Not angry. Just full of everything neither of you said earlier.
He takes a step toward you, then stops. “How long have you known?”
You drop your keys in the bowl by the door and toe off your shoes before answering. “Since the lamp. And the candle,” you say. “But… mostly tonight.”
He nods like that hurts. Like he wishes he could’ve done better. Like he wishes he could’ve told you in some perfect, movie-moment way.
“I didn’t want you to find out like that,” he says quietly.
You walk to the couch and sit, your limbs finally catching up to the adrenaline crash still sweeping through you. “I’m glad I found out at all.”
That’s what makes him move. He sinks down beside you, hands on his knees. You can see it in his profile—the exhaustion, the regret, the weight he’s been carrying for so long. You’re not sure he’s ever looked more human.
“I’ve been hiding so long,” he says, voice barely above a whisper. “I forgot how to be seen. And with you… I didn’t want to lie. But I didn’t want to lose it either. I didn’t want to lose you.”
Your throat tightens. “You won’t,” you say. And you mean it.
His head turns then, slowly, eyes meeting yours like he’s trying to memorize your face from this distance. You don’t look away.
When he kisses you, it’s not careful. It’s not shy. It’s like something breaks open inside him—softly. The dam finally giving way.
His hands cradle your face like you’re something he’s terrified to shatter but needs to feel. His mouth is hot and open, reverent, desperate in the way it deepens. He kisses like he’s anchoring himself to the earth through your lips. Like everything in him is still shaking from battle and you’re the only thing that still feels real.
You reach for him. Thread your fingers into his hair. Pull him closer.
It builds like a slow swell—hands tangling, breathing harder, heat coiling low in your stomach. He pushes you back gently against the cushions, his body moving over yours with careful precision. Not to pin. Just to hold.
You feel it in every motion: the restraint. The effort. He could crush steel and he’s using that strength to cradle your ribs.
He undresses you with reverence. His fingers tremble when they touch your bare skin. Not from hesitation—but because he’s finally allowed to want. To have. To be seen.
You undress him too. That soft black T-shirt comes off first. Then the flannel. His chest is mottled with bruises, a dark one blooming across his side where that alien creature must’ve hit him. Your fingertips trace the edge of it.
He exhales, shaky. But he doesn’t stop you.
You’re straddling his lap before you realize it, chest to chest, foreheads pressed together.
“Are you scared?” he whispers.
Your thumb brushes his cheek. “Never of you.”
He kisses you again—slower this time. More control, but more depth too. His hands glide down your back and settle at your hips, thumbs pressing into your skin like he needs the reminder that you’re here. That you chose this.
The rest unfolds like prayer. The way he touches you—thorough, patient, hungry—it’s worship. Every gasp you make pulls a soft, broken sound from his throat. Every arch of your back makes his eyes flutter shut like he’s overwhelmed by the sight of you. The way he moves inside you is deep and aching and full of something larger than either of you.
Not rough. But desperate. Raw. True.
And even when he falters—when his hands grip too tight or the air warms just a little too fast—you hold his face and whisper, “I know. It’s okay. I want all of you.” And he gives it. All of him. Until the only thing either of you can do is fall apart. Together.
Later, when you’re curled up on the couch in a tangle of limbs and quiet breathing, he rests his forehead against your temple.
The city buzzes somewhere far away.
He whispers into your skin: “Next time… don’t let me fly off like that.”
Your smile is soft, tired. “Next time, come straight to me.”
He nods, eyes already fluttering shut.
And finally, for the first time since this began—you both sleep without secrets between you.
-
You wake to sunlight. Not loud, not harsh—just soft beams slipping through the blinds, spilling across the floor, warming the space where your bare shoulder meets the sheets. You blink slowly, the weight of sleep still thick behind your eyes, and shift just slightly in the tangle of limbs wrapped around you. He doesn’t stir. Not even a little.
Clark is still curled around you like the night never ended—his chest at your back, legs tangled with yours, one arm snug around your waist and the other folded up against your ribs, fingers resting over your heart like he’s guarding it in his sleep.
You don’t move. You can’t. Because it’s perfect. You let your cheek rest against his arm, warm and solid beneath you, and you just listen—to the steady rhythm of his heart, to the rise and fall of his breathing, to the way the silence doesn’t feel empty anymore. You don’t know if you’ve ever felt more grounded than you do right now, held like this. It isn’t the cape. It isn’t the flight. It isn’t the power that quiets the noise in your chest.
It’s him. Just Clark. And for once, you don’t need anything else.
He stumbles into the kitchen half an hour later in your robe. Your actual, honest-to-god, fuzzy gray robe. It’s oversized on you, which means it fits him like a second skin—belt tied loose at the hips, collar gaping just enough to make you lose your train of thought. His hair is a mess, sticking up in soft black tufts. His glasses are nowhere to be found. He scratches the back of his neck, blinking at the cabinets like he’s not entirely sure how kitchens work.
You lean against the counter with your arms folded, watching him with open amusement. “You own too much flannel.”
Clark glances over, eyes squinting against the light. “I’ll have you know, that robe is a Metropolis winter essential.”
“You’re bulletproof.”
“I get cold emotionally.”
You snort. “You’re such a menace in the morning.”
“And yet,” he says, opening the fridge and retrieving eggs with the careful precision of someone who’s clearly trying not to break them with super strength, “you let me stay.”
You grin. “You’re lucky you’re cute.”
He burns the first pancake. Which is honestly impressive, considering you weren’t even sure it was physically possible for someone with super speed and heat vision to ruin breakfast. But he flips it too fast—like way too fast—and the thing launches halfway across the skillet before folding in on itself and sizzling dramatically.
You raise an eyebrow. Clark stares down at the pancake like it betrayed him. “I didn’t account for surface tension.”
“Did you just say ‘surface tension’ while making pancakes?”
“I’m a complex man,” he says solemnly.
You lean over and pluck a piece of fruit from the cutting board he forgot he was slicing. “You’re a menace and a dork.”
He pouts. Full, actual pout. Then shuffles over and kisses your shoulder. “I’ll get better with practice.”
You roll your eyes. But your skin’s still buzzing where his lips brushed it.
Later, you sit on the counter while he stands between your knees, coffee in one hand, the other resting warm on your thigh. It’s quiet. Not awkward or forced—just soft. Full of little glances and sips and contented silence. There’s no fear in him now. No carefully placed pauses. No skirting around things. He just… is. Clark Kent. The boy who spilled coffee on your notes three times. The man who kept writing to you in secret even when you didn’t see him.
“You’re not what I expected,” you say, fingers brushing his arm.
He lifts an eyebrow. “Oh?”
“I don’t know. I guess I thought Superman would be… shinier. Less flannel. More invincible.”
“Are you saying I’m not shiny enough for you?”
“I’m saying you’re better.”
He blinks. And then—just like that—he smiles. Not the bashful one. Not the public one. The real one. Small and warm and honest. The kind of smile you only give someone when you feel safe. And maybe that’s what this is now. Safety. Not the absence of danger—but the presence of someone who will always come back.
His communicator buzzes from somewhere in the bedroom. Clark lets out the most exhausted groan you’ve ever heard and buries his face in your shoulder like it’ll make the world go away.
“You have to go?” you ask gently, threading your fingers through his hair.
“Soon.”
“You’ll come back?”
He lifts his head. Meets your eyes. “Every time.”
You kiss him then—slow and deep and familiar now. The kind of kiss that tastes like mornings and memory and maybe something closer to forever. He kisses you back like he already misses you. And when he finally pulls away and disappears into the sky outside your window—less streak of light, more quiet parting—you just stand there for a moment. Barefoot. Wrapped in your robe. Heart full.
You’re about to start cleaning up the kitchen when you see it. A post-it note, stuck to the fridge. Just a small square of yellow. Written in the same handwriting you could spot anywhere now.
“You always look soft in the mornings. I like seeing you like this.”
—C.K.
You read it three times. Then you smile. You walk to the cabinet above the sink, open the door—and stick it right next to all the others. The secret ones. The old ones. The ones that helped you feel seen before you even knew whose eyes were watching.
And now you know. Now you see him too.
All of him.
And you wouldn’t trade it for anything.
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Pairing: Sorcerer!SuguruGeto x Sorcerer!reader Genre: Smut, slight angst ifyou squint
Content warning ⚠️ : MDNI, Hair pulling, nipple play (piercings), oral (reader receiving), praise kink, degradation kink (verbal, consensual), blurred dominance/submission, mutual obsession, first-time encounter, shared control, body worship, mental health issues (if you squint)
A/N - Trying out some new writing :) it’s my first time writing for Jujutsu Kaisen at all so let me know what yall think!
The water falling from the shower was hot and even as it burned Suguru’s skin he turned the heat up more. His muscles tense after weeks of consuming curses. His throat raw and his stomach-churning day after day. No one should feel this way at 27. Suguru looked down at his body. Lean, built muscle and faded scars, evidence of spending his formative years getting stronger. Looking further, he noticed flaws that only he was acutely aware of. He looked at his hands and sighed. Veins, more pronounced from the heat and palms red from the high temperature of the water.
He noticed other things too. Well, he remembered what you noticed about him. The bulge of his muscles under his lightly tanned skin and how your hands pressed into them. The path they paved down his abdomen. The smattering of soft hair under his navel and the feeling of your soft tongue going lower and lower. Suguru’s hands followed the path of memories down the front of his body. Sometimes when you looked at him, he knows you saw past his physical form. You saw his struggle. The want and the desperation. You saw his mental fight and his losses. His soul.
As he tugged and pulled at the sensitive skin he huffed against the tile. Suguru thought about you still, two years later. He pretended that his large hand was your smaller delicate one running through his locks of raven hair scratching at his scalp and tugging. The locks fell over his shoulders and soaked up the water falling down. The moisture making his hair like ink over white paper. He tried to replicate your grip as he pulled and his head fell back. Lips parting with a gasp and his other hand stroking fast. He came even faster. His abdomen tightening and his length twitching in his hand. He wished he could find you.
[two years earlier]
“The Veil.” Hidden deep in Tokyo’s nightlife district, was a sorcerer, owned, sorcerer, protected, and sorcerer frequented lounge. A haven between battles. Low lighting, deep crimson velvet furniture, and spell work woven through the sound system to keep the atmosphere charged but safe. Rumor had it the music thrummed with cursed energy. just enough to keep things interesting. Suguru didn’t come often. But that night, he needed quiet chaos. Something to distract him. And that’s when he found it.
You.
Dancing in the center of the lounge’s sunken floor, bare skin kissed by red and amber light. You weren’t showing off, but you didn’t have to. The way your hips moved to the slow, dirty rhythm of the bass was devastating. Like you knew exactly how to haunt someone without ever touching them.
Suguru stopped dead, drink still in his hand, dark eyes locked on you like you were a curse he wanted to let consume him. You weren’t dressed to show off, but the way your hips rolled, the way you moved like you belonged to yourself, was magnetic. Addicting. He wasn’t sure when it happened, but his drink had gone untouched for at least ten minutes. And when did you catch him staring?
You didn’t look away.
You just smiled.
He turned his head and swirled the dark liquor in his glass. Sorcerers moved like shadows here, tension shedding from their shoulders in low laughter, the occasional flare of cursed energy tucked beneath smiles and half, drunk drinks. Suguru nursed his glass, eyes still fixed on the dance floor watching all the bodies. He might have been more careful if he was sober but eventually his gaze landed on you again. You caught him watching you again. And this time, you didn’t just smile. You walked toward him.
“Didn’t think you were the lurking type,” you said over the music, voice a little breathless, cheeks flushed from dancing. “You’ve been watching me like you’re waiting for something.”
Suguru smirked, lazy but warm. “Maybe I am.”
You tilted your head, leaning closer. “What is it?”
He hesitated, not from lack of words, but too many of them.
Don’t say something vulnerable. Don’t tell her she moves like something you used to dream about before things got dark. Don’t invite her into your mess.
Don’t come on too strong.
So, he said the easier thing.
“You dance like you want to be followed.” He knew it could have been interpreted wrong as soon as he said it but you surprised him. You laughed. really laughed, and that sound cracked something in his chest.
“I didn’t think anyone here was brave enough.” You say smoothly.
He raised an eyebrow. “I’m not afraid of much.”
“No?” you asked, stepping in closer, bodies just shy of touching. “Then follow me out.”
There was a flicker of something in his eyes. A hesitation that didn’t reach his smile. He could take you to his place, it was quiet, private, safer in some ways. But he didn’t want to see the look in your eyes when you noticed how bare it was. How cold. How nothing in it looked lived, in.
Don’t let her see the wreckage. Let her think you’re just another man who enjoys watching pretty women dance.
So, when you asked, “My place?” voice coy, curious, he just nodded.
“Lead the way.”
You just reached for his hand. No warning, no glance back, just your fingers curling around his, warm and sure, and Suguru let you take it. He lets you lead him without asking where. His hand was big around yours, his grip loose at first, almost surprised. But he didn’t pull away. He followed.
Through the haze of The Veil’s floor, past the velvet, lined bar and the clusters of half-drunk sorcerers hunched over low, lit tables. The music pulsed around you like a heartbeat, but all he could hear was your steps ahead of him, the sound of your heels clicking soft against the floor, and the way your dress moved when you walked.
He couldn’t stop watching you from behind.
The sway of your hips. The curve of your bare shoulders. The quiet confidence in every movement, like you knew he was watching, and wanted him to.
Of course she does, he thought, lips twitching. She knows exactly what she’s doing.
But there was something more to it than that. It wasn’t just lust, it was curiosity. The kind that made his chest feel too full. The kind that made him want to know everything about you all at once, and not at all.
When you pushed through the club’s back exit into the night, the air hits sharp and cool. You let go of his hand, but only for a second. Then you turned, facing him under the warmth of the streetlights, and raised your eyebrows like Well?
Suguru stepped in close, brushing the small of your back like instinct.
Without saying a word, he pulled out his phone and called the first cab that came up.
You tilted your head. “That quick?”
“I don’t like you standing out here longer than necessary,” he said simply. His voice was calm, but there was something firmer in it now, grounded. Quietly protective.
You didn’t argue.
You just smiled, lips tugging at the corner as you turned back toward the street, his hand still hovering close behind you, like he didn’t want to touch unless he had to.
But if he did?
He’d be ready.
The night air wrapped around you like silk, cool, clean, but thrumming with leftover heat from the club. You stood just beneath the streetlamp, your head tilted back slightly, eyes closed for a moment like you were catching your breath. Suguru watched you from a step away, one hand still in his coat pocket, the other loosely curled at his side like he wasn’t sure if he wanted to pull you in or keep letting you lead. You glanced over your shoulder, catching him watching again.
“What?” you asked, soft but smug.
He smirked. “Didn’t say anything.”
“You didn’t have to.”
You stepped closer, slow, until your bodies were nearly touching again. The toe of your shoe brushed his, and your hand, light, almost playful, ghosted along the hem of his shirt. Just enough to make him feel it. Just enough to make him want more. Suguru’s eyes dropped to your mouth.
“You always this dangerous?”
You shrugged one shoulder, lashes dipping.
“You always this easy to pull out of a corner?”
He chuckled, breath catching slightly when your fingers grazed his waistband. “No,” he said honestly.
“Just tonight.”
You let that settle between you.
Then you lifted your hand, gentle, unhurried, and brushed his hair back behind his ear, your fingertips trailing down the side of his neck. His jaw tensed, but he didn’t move. Didn’t blink.
“You look better like this,” you murmured. “When you’re not pretending to be unbothered.”
Suguru tilted his head, eyes narrowing slightly.
“And you look better when you’re not trying so hard to act like this doesn’t have your heart racing.”
You smiled. Because he was right. He reached for your hand, not to hold it, just to touch, thumb brushing along your knuckles with a softness that betrayed the heat in his eyes. The cab’s headlights cut across the street a moment later, and the sound of tires rolling up to the curb broke the tension just enough to make you both exhale.
But neither of you moved.
Not right away.
“I could kiss you right now,” he murmured. Not cocky. Not demanding. Just real.
You leaned in just slightly, close enough for your lips to brush his. “You could. But I’d rather let you earn it.”
That made his grin tilt just crooked enough to be dangerous. He stepped back, finally, his hand lingering at your waist for one more second before he turned to the cab. Opened the door for you without a word, eyes locked on yours.
“After you,” he said, voice like a promise wrapped in silk and smoke. You stepped past him, your body brushing his, and he didn’t move. He just watched you sink into the seat, lips parted, eyes heavy. And when he got in after you, the door shutting behind him, the night didn’t feel cool anymore. It felt like the start of something dangerous. The cab door shut with a solid thud behind him, sealing you both inside the quiet hum of the city’s dark lull. The driver didn’t say a word, just pulled into the street like he already knew not to disturb whatever this was.
You shifted slightly in your seat, knees brushing his. His thigh was warm against yours, his hands resting on either side of him like he didn’t know what to do with them. Or maybe he did and was just choosing to behave.
For now.
Neither of you spoke. The silence wasn’t awkward, it was thick. Weighty in the best way. Like even your breath didn’t want to come too loud. You glanced over at him from beneath your lashes. He was watching the city slide past the window, one hand coming up to rest lightly against his jaw. His fingers grazed his bottom lip for a moment like he was thinking too hard or trying not to think at all.
“Regretting it yet?” you asked, voice low, teasing.
He turned toward you, and the cab’s passing headlights lit his face in flashes, sharp cheekbones, parted lips, tired eyes made soft by the way he looked at you. His gaze dropped to your mouth before sliding back up.
“No,” he said. “Not even a little.”
You didn’t say anything, just leaned your head back against the seat, letting your fingers drift lazily along your thigh. He followed the movement with his eyes, but didn’t reach for you.
Yet.
You could feel it, though, the way his body angled subtly toward yours, like his restraint was wearing thin.
“You never told me your name,” you murmured after a pause, still not looking directly at him.
He blinked. Then huffed a quiet laugh, like it had genuinely slipped his mind.
“Suguru,” he said, his voice smoother now, softened around the edges.
You repeated it in your head, Suguru. Let it roll around in your mouth like a secret you hadn’t been told until now. You looked over and met his eyes.
“I’m Y/n.”
He studied you for a moment. He remined silent, still, before his lips curved into something quiet.
“I know,” he said. You raised an eyebrow.
“You didn’t know.” I chuckle.
“I do,” he murmured, voice just above a whisper. “You couldn’t be anything else.”
And somehow that landed in your chest like a stone dropped into water, small, soft, but deep. You didn’t press. You didn’t ask what he meant. You just let your thigh stay pressed to his, fingers brushing his briefly in the space between you. And when he curled his pinky around yours like it was nothing? You didn’t move away. The weight of his pinky curled around yours should’ve been harmless.
It was light. Barely a touch. But it felt like a fuse, like he’d lit something just beneath your skin. You turned your head slightly. He was already looking at you.
You hadn’t moved, hadn’t even breathed too deeply, but the weight of that tiny connection buzzed all the way up your arm, settling somewhere low in your stomach. You glanced over at him. He was already watching you. Not shamelessly, but like he couldn’t help it. Like something about you was pulling.
Neither of you said anything. But the silence between you was starting to bend under its own weight. You shifted your hand slightly, just enough for your pinky to slide between two of his fingers, and that small change broke something open.
He moved first. Turned toward you slowly, one hand lifting to brush your jaw. His fingertips were careful, almost unsure, like he didn’t know if he was allowed to be gentle like this.
“C’mere,” he murmured, barely above the rumble of the road beneath you.
It wasn’t a command. It was an invitation. You leaned in, and your lips met his. soft, slow, and warm. Not rushed. Not greedy. Just curious. The kiss tasted like quiet tension, like held breath and city lights and something deeper neither of you had named yet. His lips moved against yours with surprising restraint, like he didn’t want to startle it, didn’t want to ruin the stillness of it.
His thumb brushed your cheek. You sighed into his mouth, tilting your head just enough to let him deepen it slightly, not desperate, just achingly intentional. When you pulled back, barely, your noses still touched. Your breath mingled in the space between. Suguru’s voice was low. Soft. Almost reverent.
“…yeah,” he said. “I needed that.”
You smiled, lips tingling. “So did I.”
for a second, everything was quiet again. But this time, it was full. Heavy with knowing. The space between you didn’t feel like space anymore. It felt like friction. Like if either of you moved even an inch, you’d fall straight into it. His eyes dropped to your lips again, then to your legs, still crossed close against his. the hem of your skirt tugged slightly higher than it had been when you got in. You didn’t shift to fix it. And Suguru, he didn’t fight the hunger in his gaze this time. You licked your lips without thinking. His jaw flexed.
“You’re gonna kill me,” he muttered, voice low and strained.
“Not before I ruin you first,” you whispered back and that was it.
His hand left the seat and slid to your thigh, fingertips brushing up slowly, reverently, like he was still giving you the chance to stop him. You didn’t. You leaned into him instead, lips barely brushing his ear.
“Do it.”
His grip tightened. His other hand slid behind your neck, pulling you in. and then he kissed you again. But this time, it was nothing like the first. This was filthy. Deep and hungry, all tongue and heat and breathless little gasps. His hand was sliding higher under your skirt now, just brushing the inside of your thigh, teasing, never quite reaching where you needed him.
Your fingers tangled in his hair, tugging just hard enough to earn a low groan into your mouth. You felt him twitch in his slacks, felt the way his hips shifted slightly toward you like his restraint was teetering. You were both panting now, mouths barely parting between kisses, your hands under his shirt, nails scraping across his stomach as his lips moved down to your jaw.
Then,
Tap tap.
The cab pulled up to the curb. You both froze, still tangled together, his hand under your skirt, your fingers in his hair, breathing like you’d just run through a storm. Suguru laughed under his breath, voice hoarse as he leaned his forehead against yours.
“Saved by the bell.”
You smirked, brushing your nose against his. “Don’t think we’re done.”
He opened the door, eyes still on you, and said with a soft, wicked grin,
“Not even close.”
Then he stepped out, offered his hand, and helped you out like he hadn’t just been ready to fuck you in the backseat. Gentle. Composed. But his fingers didn’t let go of yours. Not until you were both inside. And the door closed behind you.
The air in your apartment was thick with anticipation. Actually, that might have just been him. The anxiety of not knowing what was next ate at his mind as the desperation for touch pushed him towards you. Neither of you had said much since the cab ride over, just traded glances, fingertips brushing occasionally, both of you simmering in something unspoken. Something hot and a little dangerous. You kicked off your shoes with a quiet laugh, glancing over your shoulder as you dropped your keys onto the counter.
“You always this quiet after following a woman home?”
Suguru leaned against the wall just inside, gaze sweeping the space. It smelled like warmth. Lived in. A little candle wax. A hint of vanilla. You.
“I’m just trying to figure you out,” he said. “You’re not what I expected.”
“Disappointed?” you teased, walking back toward him.
He shook his head slowly. “The opposite.”
You stopped in front of him, just a breath of space between you. He looked even taller up close. Colder, maybe. But not in a cruel way, more like he carried something heavy and didn’t want to put it down yet.
“You’re hard to read,” you murmured.
“I like keeping it that way.”
You stepped closer to him. your fingers brushing against his shirt. “I bet you do.”
You wanted him to relax, to let go of whatever he was holding onto. To unpack it. He didn’t move when you touched him, but you felt the way his muscles tensed, the way his breath slowed as your fingers ghosted along his collarbone. You tilted your head slightly, eyes flicking up to meet his. He was beautiful, actually. Suguru stood in the soft lamplight by the entryway, his black coat hanging open, hair half-up and half-loose, strands falling around his face in a way that looked too effortless to be fair. He wasn’t looking at her, just taking in the space quietly, his fingers flexing slightly like he didn’t quite know where to put them.
She looked at him. Really looked. He was beautiful, sharper than he had any right to be. All angles and contrasts. The dark sweep of his lashes against lightly tanned skin, the faint line of a scar at his jaw, the way his mouth stayed soft even when his eyes didn’t. But there was something else, too. Something simmering just beneath the stillness of him. Like a shadow curled up behind his ribs. Like the moment he let his shoulders drop, whatever he was holding back would spill out. hot, sharp, too much.
She could feel it.
It pulsed in the air between them. Not dangerous, not yet but weighty. Familiar in a way she didn’t want to name. He turned then, just slightly and caught her looking. His eyes held hers for a beat too long. And instead of pulling away, she stepped closer. Not asking. Not prying. Just letting him be here, in the quiet, in her space, in her gaze. And for the first time all night, Suguru breathed like it was okay to let the edges of him tremble.
“I want to know what you sound like when you’re not trying to be mysterious.” I say softly.
“You’re trouble,” he murmured, voice deep and dark, eyes roaming your mouth. Suguru chuckled, low and rich.
You smirked, tugging at the front of his shirt. “You stared at me like you wanted it.”
“I still do.”
Then he kissed you. Hard. Deep. Like he was trying to figure you out with his tongue. You kissed him back just as fiercely, one hand tangling in the back of his hair, the other sliding under his shirt, dragging your nails lightly across the lean muscle of his stomach. He groaned against your mouth like he hadn’t been touched like that in years. Well, he hadn’t been touched like that ever.
You moaned softly into it, fingers sliding up the back of his neck, tangling in the thick strands of his hair.
That was his undoing.
He groaned, a real one, deep in his chest and pressed you back against the nearest wall, body flush with yours now, his knee sliding between your thighs.
“You don’t know what that does to me,” he whispered into your mouth.
“I don’t,” you breathed. “But I’m dying to find out.”
The sound he made was sinful.
“Bedroom?” He asked, voice raspy, mouth still hot against your breast.
“Down the hall,” you said, already tugging him toward it.
And the whole way there, he thought:
Don’t ask questions. Don’t ask to stay. Just let her ruin you for a night and don’t pretend you don’t want more.
You barely made it through the bedroom doorway before Suguru caught your wrist, spun you, and pressed you back against the door with a thud. His eyes were darker now, stormy with lust and something heavier. Not dangerous. Not quite. But close.
“You like being in charge?” he murmured, one hand sliding up your thigh, pressing his body flush to yours.
“Sometimes,” you breathed. “But I like being wanted more.”
He chuckled, low and wrecked. “Then you’re in luck.”
His mouth was on yours again, hot, urgent, more tongue this time. Less polite. He licked into you like he was trying to memorize your taste, groaning when your teeth scraped his bottom lip. You pushed his jacket off his shoulders, and he let it fall to the floor. You tugged his shirt free from his pants and dragged your nails along his bare stomach, and the way his abdominal muscles twitched under your touch made you smile into the kiss.
Suguru pulled back, just enough to look down at you. His hand curled around the hem of your top. He kissed you again, slower this time. But firmer. Hands slipping under your shirt, brushing against bare skin. You arched into his touch, and his palms slid up, finding the curve of your ribs. Your hips bumped into the bed frame and you laughed breathlessly, just before he backed you onto the mattress and hovered over you.
“You’re fucking stunning,” he said, voice a little rough now, pupils blown. His hands reached for your top, paused, asking without words. You pulled it off yourself and there they were. Nipple piercings, gleaming under the low light. Suguru stopped. Just stared.
His breath caught in his throat like you’d just punched it out of him. “Holy shit,” he whispered, the reverence in his tone making your skin burn. He ran his thumbs gently over them, eyes locked to your face, watching your reaction. The metal was cool against his skin, the flesh beneath already heating.
“Sensitive?” he asked, teasing now. You could hear the smirk curling into his voice.
You nodded, just a little too eager.
His grin widened.
Then he ducked down, slow, and took one into his mouth.
You gasped.
His tongue flicked against the barbell with perfect pressure, alternating between light sucks and hot, open, mouthed kisses across your chest. One hand cupped the other breast, his thumb circling lazily over the second piercing while he devoured the first.
You fisted your hand in his hair.
He groaned, loud, desperate, against your skin, grinding his hips down against your thigh. You could feel how hard he was through his slacks.
You tugged his hair harder. “Feel good?” you murmured.
His breath hitched. “More than I want to admit.”
There was a pause. Tension so thick it made your toes curl.
“You’re going to ruin me,” he muttered, cupping one breast, running his thumb gently over the barbell. “I already feel it.”
You tilted your head. “So dramatic.”
“I’m a little unhinged,” he said with a slow grin. “You’ll get used to it.”
He ducked down, took one nipple into his mouth, and sucked hard, before swirling his tongue across the sensitive peak. He walked you to the end of your bed. A popping sound was heard before kissed up your chest. He paused and looked at you for a moment. You kissed again, this time slower, deeper, bodies tangled at the edge of the bed. You climbed up first, sitting back against the pillows like an invitation.
He followed, not even bothering to take off his shirt. You tugged at the hem.
“Let me see.”
He hesitated. Not because he didn’t want you to. But because part of him, buried deep under the ego, the flirtation, the performance, was scared of being seen. He lifted it anyway. And when your eyes dragged over the scars and sharp planes of his torso, you didn’t ask. Didn’t say what happened here or who did this or what are you running from. You just pulled him in and kissed the edge of his jaw, one hand sliding down to cup him through his pants.
He hissed. “You don’t play fair.”
“You don’t play soft,” you countered.
He smiled, just barely. But it faltered just as fast. Because this wasn’t just about sex for him, not entirely. It wasn’t just about the way you looked or how you smelled or how your body felt under his hands. It was about needing to forget. Needing someone to give him a place to land. Even just for a night.
She doesn’t know you. Don’t ruin this. Don’t let her see what’s underneath it all. You don’t get to be saved.
Then you pulled off your top fully and when he saw the metal glint of your nipple piercings, his breath caught. Not because he hadn’t seen it before. But because the way you looked, back arched, proud, eyes locked on his, like you knew you were beautiful, it gutted him. He swallowed hard.
“You’re something else,” he muttered, reaching to cup one breast. His thumb grazed the barbell, and you shivered beneath him.
“Am I intimidating you?”
“No,” he said, but his voice cracked a little. “You just make me forget I’m not supposed to want anything good.”
You stilled. Just for a second. Lips parted like you were going to disagree. But you didn’t say anything. You didn’t say you deserve good things. Because you didn’t know. You reached for him. Fingers threaded into his hair, tugging gently, grounding him in the now. Suguru moaned actually moaned and pressed his face against your chest, kissing between your breasts like he was hiding there.
“Fuck,” he breathed. “Let me take care of you. Let me have you.”
“Then have me.” Your voice lilted.
Suguru took his time. He wanted to collect you. Pick you up and keep you on a shelf to admire. He started with your lips, kissed you slow and deep, savoring the way you melted into him like you wanted to be undone. Then his mouth drifted down, tracing the line of your jaw, then lower, pressing warm, open, mouthed kisses to your neck, your collarbone, the swell of your chest. His tongue flicked one of your piercings again, and the breath you let out sent heat straight to his gut.
“Fuck, you’re…” He pulled back just enough to look at you, really look. Your chest rising and falling under him, your mouth parted, eyes dark with want. “…you’re ridiculous,” he murmured.
You arched a brow. “That your way of calling me beautiful?”
“No,” he said quietly. “It’s my way of telling you I think you’re ruinous.”
And you were.
The kind of beauty that made his ribs hurt. The kind that made him forget why he’d spent so long pretending not to want things. You didn’t know how dangerous that made you. His mouth continued down your body, lips brushing the soft skin beneath your ribs, the dip of your waist, the curve of your hip. You reached down, pushed a lock of his hair behind his ear, and whispered.
“You’re beautiful too, you know.”
He paused, eyes flicking up at you like he didn’t know what to do with that. But he didn’t speak. He just kissed the inside of your thigh, slow, reverent, and let his breath spill warm over your skin.
Then another kiss.
Then another.
As if worshiping his way toward your core was the only thing in the world that made sense anymore.
Suguru kissed a path down your stomach, tongue tracing the lines of heat he left behind. When he reached the waistband of your skirt, he slowed, exhaled, and rested his hands on your hips, just holding. Still.
“Can I?” he asked, voice quieter than before. A little rougher. Like he wasn’t used to asking for things he wanted.
You nodded, breath soft. “Yeah.”
His fingers slipped beneath the waistband and slowly, so slowly, peeled the fabric down your hips. His knuckles brushed your skin, his lips followed the trail, and his eyes never left you. You lifted your hips to help him, and he dragged the skirt down first, then your underwear, inch by inch. Not like he was teasing. Like he was memorizing. And when he finally had you bare before him, legs still gently closed, thighs pressed together under his gaze, he paused.
Not out of hesitation.
Out of awe.
His hands returned to your knees, thumbs stroking slow, deliberate circles as he looked at you like he wasn’t sure he deserved to see you like this.
“Y/n…”
The way he said your name, like it hurt and healed him all at once, sent a flutter through your stomach.
You could feel your heart pounding against your ribs. You could see it in his chest, how his breath stuttered, how the heat in his eyes had deepened into something deeper than just lust. He gently coaxed your legs apart, spreading your thighs with care, like unwrapping something delicate, sacred.
And when he saw all of you?
His lips parted. Barely. And he breathed out the quietest, filthiest sound of admiration.
“Fuck me,” he whispered, voice hoarse. “You’re… unreal.”
His breath caught low in his chest, eyes glued to the wet, glistening heat between your thighs. You were soaked. Slick and swollen. So goddamn ready for him.
Suguru blinked, his throat bobbing around a hard swallow. “Jesus fucking Christ…” he muttered, barely above a breath. His voice was reverent, but wrecked, like the sight of you had sucker punched the composure right out of him. He hadn’t expected to lose it this fast. Your pussy was flushed and dripping, the lips parted just slightly like your body was already begging to be devoured. And gods, he wanted to. He needed to. He ran his tongue along his bottom lip and dragged his fingers up the inside of your thigh. They stopped just shy of touching your slick heat, trembling slightly.
“Fuck, baby… you’re messy already?”
His voice dropped an octave, hunger tightening it to something primal. You watched him, cheeks flushed, thighs twitching under the weight of his stare. But you didn’t hide. Didn’t close up. Because he was beautiful, too. Crouched between your legs, shirt long gone, dark hair falling over his shoulders like silk. Hands steady, gaze starved. Like he didn’t know whether he was about to worship you or beg for you to ruin him.
“Fucking hell… You’re glistening.”
Then his eyes met yours, dark, hungry, and completely undone.
“You look like you’re about to pray,” you said softly, fingers brushing his jaw.
“I might,” he murmured, pressing a kiss to the inside of your thigh. “If you let me.”
You smiled, your breath catching as his lips moved higher.
“Then pray.”
And with that, he lowered his mouth toward you, like this was a sin he’d never ask forgiveness for. He looked up at you, eyes darker than before, not cold. Just lost.
“Can I kiss you?” He asked as he was face deep between your legs. Purple eyes peering up at you. You took in a deep breath as the sight. In your mind as hazy as it was there was no other answer.
“Stop asking.” The words came out airy as you took in a deep breath. You nodded as he dove forward. His tongue finding your clit and licking softly to tease you. Soft moans left your lips as you drag your palms down your body. Fingers touching soft locks and you gripped hard. your hands found his hair. Thick black hair surrounded your fingers as he dipped his tongue further to really taste you. Delicate moans left his plush lips only getting louder as you tugged harder.
The skin between your thighs was damp. The skin was sticky and Suguru couldn’t leave if he tried. Your legs were pressed to his ears as you moaned out in pleasure.
“Oh Fuck.” You barely spoke above a whisper as Suguru sucked hard in your nerves. Swiping his tongue back and forth. Over, and over, and over. Your breath stuck in your throat causing you to groan and pull at his hair. Shaky groans and curses leave him as he dives deeper. The tension on his scalp from your pretty manicured nails was sending him into a blizzard of pleasure.
“Oh, you like that, huh baby?” You breathed out just barely loud enough for him to hear over the squelching of your juices and his saliva. Both of which coat his lips. You take a fistful of his hair and pull back. His eyebrows furrow at the sting but a loud moan betrays him. He licks his lips and his eyes lift to you despite feeling heavy. He nodded slowly and hummed in response. His lips and tongue moving in perfect, sinful rhythm.
“I love it,” he gasped against you. Deep voice cracked open, honest.
“Use me, Y/n. Let me drown in you.”
You tugged again, and he shuddered his entire body trembling beneath the force of it. His voice was nothing but broken murmurs now, praise tangled with pleasure:
“So, fucking sweet…You taste like heaven. Let me make you come. Please, please let me…”
Suguru Geto didn’t beg. But here he was, falling apart between your thighs, mouth wet and desperate, eyes wild with the need to please you. And gods, he did. Every flick of his tongue, every stroke of his lips, was perfectly tuned to you. His name fell from your mouth like a litany, each gasp punctuated by the sharp tug of his hair as you clung to him, grounding yourself in his desperation.
“Suguru, don’t stop, don’t…”
He didn’t. If anything, your words made him more feral. He gripped your thighs, held you open. His tongue explored and discovered new parts of you. Soft velvety and tender. He moaned into you and kissed at your thighs. locked eyes with you through the strands of hair you hadn’t pulled away and devoured you. Like you were sacred. Like you were his temple.
Your thigh muscles twitched and he took that as an invitation to pull you closer. His large hands spread and wrapped around your legs. His biceps flexed and he pulled. Your body easily slid in his direction and he settled again between your thighs.
You flexed your fingers as you looked down. He kissed your pink clit and sucked it into his mouth. The next drag and dip of his tongue against you was deliberate. He moaned low against your skin, the sound deep and shaken, and you felt it travel through you. It made your skin buzz like an electrical current. He didn’t rush learning a long time ago that patience was very valuable. He licked you like he was starving, but not desperate, devoted. Like this was a ritual. A prayer. An escape.
His hair fell over his face as he lowered his head, and you reached for it on instinct, twisting your fingers through the dark strands, tugging them back so you could see all of him. That beautiful, flushed expression. Those half, lidded, reverent eyes. The way his lips parted just before he,
“Fuck, Suguru.” The whine was ripped from your chest and he dragged it out of you with a harsh suck. You pulled his hair harder, and he groaned into you, hips twitching against the bed.
“You really do like that.” you whispered, voice breathless.
When you finally came it snuck up on you. At first it was a dull ache behind the pleasure. A small reminder that there was a limit on all good things. Suguru could sense it before you even started reacting. He gripped your thighs tighter and pressed against you. You whimpered as his tongue licked and pushed into you. Your thighs fell further apart and your abdominal muscles tightened.
He pushed you so fucking close to the edge you didn’t remember how you got there for a second. A high, pitched sound left your lips and your chest filled with air as your muscles tightened even more. He licked upwards and peered at you through thick lashes and inky tendrils that fell out of your grasp.
Then he brought you back down. The pressure lessened and your body simmered under his touch. Sharp whines left your lips hot, slow licks teased you open, kisses that lingered too long, like he was savoring each inch of you, committing your taste to memory. He nuzzled closer, tongue flattening against your clit and dragging up slowly, and the sound he made when you gasped went straight to your spine.
He moaned into you. Loud. Shameless. Wrecked.
His hands spread your thighs wider as he buried himself deeper, eating you like a man starving, like your pussy was the only thing tethering him to this goddamn earth.
“Fuck…” he breathed, lips brushing your clit as he pulled back to look at you. His chin was slick, his mouth red, voice nearly gone. “You taste like fucking sugar.”
He dove back in before you could say a word, tongue circling, flicking, sucking your clit like he knew exactly how to unravel you.
And he did.
He was groaning into your cunt like every moan was a praise, every lick a prayer. His name spilled from your lips over and over, and the way your thighs trembled just made him hungrier.
“Look at you,” he growled against you. “Dripping all over my fucking face… You hear that? That’s what I want. That messy little sound your pussy makes when she’s desperate for my tongue.”
You whined, hips grinding into his mouth, chasing the friction, and he let you. Let you use him, let you rock against his face while he licked you faster, deeper, practically sucking your soul out through your clit. He was a mess now, his hair tangled in your fingers, breath ragged between licks, and when you tugged his hair hard, he moaned so loud it vibrated through your entire core.
“Fuck, there it is, there she is,” he growled as your body started to shudder, your breath catching in short, broken gasps.
“Come on,” he whispered, tongue relentless now. “Let me feel it. Come on my mouth, now.”
And when you broke? When you came with a cry, thighs squeezing around his head, hips stuttering against his tongue? Suguru groaned like he was coming too, like your orgasm was something he could feel in his bones. He didn’t stop. Not right away. He licked you through every wave, every twitch, every desperate gasp, devouring you like he didn’t care if he ever came up for air. And when he finally did? His mouth was glistening.
His voice was shredded.
And his eyes? Wrecked. Worshipful. Like he’d seen something holy.
He witnessed your spine arching, a cry ripping from your throat, thighs trembling around his head he didn’t stop. He held you through it, eyes fluttering closed as if he were the one falling over the edge. His moan vibrated against you, lips wet with your release, and he whispered.
“That’s it… that’s my girl…”
You collapsed back, breathless, chest heaving, and he just laid there between your legs, forehead resting on your thigh, arms wrapped around you like he needed to stay close. You loosened your grip on his hair, running your fingers gently through the tangled strands now, and he sighed, low and soft, like the storm had finally passed inside him.
The room was still heavy with heat, your heartbeat still echoing in your ears, but the world had slowed.
Suguru hadn’t moved.
He was still draped across your legs, cheek resting on the inside of your thigh, arms lazily looped around your hips like he couldn’t stand the idea of letting go. His breath tickled your skin in slow, warm waves, and every exhale sounded just a little softer than the one before.
You ran your fingers through his hair, gentle now. No more pulling. Just slow strokes through the silk, dark strands, untangling what you’d wrapped around your fingers moments before. He didn’t say anything at first. Just melted into the touch like it was the only thing tethering him to the earth.
“I didn’t mean to…” you started, but your voice was too quiet. You swallowed, tried again. “Did I take it too far?”
His response was immediate. His lips pressed against your skin, soft and reverent.
“No,” he said, voice low and worn, like honey poured over gravel. “You gave me exactly what I needed.”
You traced his temple, watched the way his lashes fluttered under your touch.
“You were shaking.”
“I still am,” he admitted. And when he lifted his head to look at you, his face flushed, lips swollen, hair messy, you felt something ache in your chest. He looked so human. And so beautifully undone.
Pairing: Sorcerer!SuguruGeto x Sorcerer!reader Genre: Smut, slight angst ifyou squint
Content warning ⚠️ : MDNI, Hair pulling, nipple play (piercings), oral (reader receiving), praise kink, degradation kink (verbal, consensual), blurred dominance/submission, mutual obsession, first-time encounter, shared control, body worship, mental health issues (if you squint)
A/N - Trying out some new writing :) it’s my first time writing for Jujutsu Kaisen at all so let me know what yall think!
The water falling from the shower was hot and even as it burned Suguru’s skin he turned the heat up more. His muscles tense after weeks of consuming curses. His throat raw and his stomach-churning day after day. No one should feel this way at 27. Suguru looked down at his body. Lean, built muscle and faded scars, evidence of spending his formative years getting stronger. Looking further, he noticed flaws that only he was acutely aware of. He looked at his hands and sighed. Veins, more pronounced from the heat and palms red from the high temperature of the water.
He noticed other things too. Well, he remembered what you noticed about him. The bulge of his muscles under his lightly tanned skin and how your hands pressed into them. The path they paved down his abdomen. The smattering of soft hair under his navel and the feeling of your soft tongue going lower and lower. Suguru’s hands followed the path of memories down the front of his body. Sometimes when you looked at him, he knows you saw past his physical form. You saw his struggle. The want and the desperation. You saw his mental fight and his losses. His soul.
As he tugged and pulled at the sensitive skin he huffed against the tile. Suguru thought about you still, two years later. He pretended that his large hand was your smaller delicate one running through his locks of raven hair scratching at his scalp and tugging. The locks fell over his shoulders and soaked up the water falling down. The moisture making his hair like ink over white paper. He tried to replicate your grip as he pulled and his head fell back. Lips parting with a gasp and his other hand stroking fast. He came even faster. His abdomen tightening and his length twitching in his hand. He wished he could find you.
[two years earlier]
“The Veil.” Hidden deep in Tokyo’s nightlife district, was a sorcerer, owned, sorcerer, protected, and sorcerer frequented lounge. A haven between battles. Low lighting, deep crimson velvet furniture, and spell work woven through the sound system to keep the atmosphere charged but safe. Rumor had it the music thrummed with cursed energy. just enough to keep things interesting. Suguru didn’t come often. But that night, he needed quiet chaos. Something to distract him. And that’s when he found it.
You.
Dancing in the center of the lounge’s sunken floor, bare skin kissed by red and amber light. You weren’t showing off, but you didn’t have to. The way your hips moved to the slow, dirty rhythm of the bass was devastating. Like you knew exactly how to haunt someone without ever touching them.
Suguru stopped dead, drink still in his hand, dark eyes locked on you like you were a curse he wanted to let consume him. You weren’t dressed to show off, but the way your hips rolled, the way you moved like you belonged to yourself, was magnetic. Addicting. He wasn’t sure when it happened, but his drink had gone untouched for at least ten minutes. And when did you catch him staring?
You didn’t look away.
You just smiled.
He turned his head and swirled the dark liquor in his glass. Sorcerers moved like shadows here, tension shedding from their shoulders in low laughter, the occasional flare of cursed energy tucked beneath smiles and half, drunk drinks. Suguru nursed his glass, eyes still fixed on the dance floor watching all the bodies. He might have been more careful if he was sober but eventually his gaze landed on you again. You caught him watching you again. And this time, you didn’t just smile. You walked toward him.
“Didn’t think you were the lurking type,” you said over the music, voice a little breathless, cheeks flushed from dancing. “You’ve been watching me like you’re waiting for something.”
Suguru smirked, lazy but warm. “Maybe I am.”
You tilted your head, leaning closer. “What is it?”
He hesitated, not from lack of words, but too many of them.
Don’t say something vulnerable. Don’t tell her she moves like something you used to dream about before things got dark. Don’t invite her into your mess.
Don’t come on too strong.
So, he said the easier thing.
“You dance like you want to be followed.” He knew it could have been interpreted wrong as soon as he said it but you surprised him. You laughed. really laughed, and that sound cracked something in his chest.
“I didn’t think anyone here was brave enough.” You say smoothly.
He raised an eyebrow. “I’m not afraid of much.”
“No?” you asked, stepping in closer, bodies just shy of touching. “Then follow me out.”
There was a flicker of something in his eyes. A hesitation that didn’t reach his smile. He could take you to his place, it was quiet, private, safer in some ways. But he didn’t want to see the look in your eyes when you noticed how bare it was. How cold. How nothing in it looked lived, in.
Don’t let her see the wreckage. Let her think you’re just another man who enjoys watching pretty women dance.
So, when you asked, “My place?” voice coy, curious, he just nodded.
“Lead the way.”
You just reached for his hand. No warning, no glance back, just your fingers curling around his, warm and sure, and Suguru let you take it. He lets you lead him without asking where. His hand was big around yours, his grip loose at first, almost surprised. But he didn’t pull away. He followed.
Through the haze of The Veil’s floor, past the velvet, lined bar and the clusters of half-drunk sorcerers hunched over low, lit tables. The music pulsed around you like a heartbeat, but all he could hear was your steps ahead of him, the sound of your heels clicking soft against the floor, and the way your dress moved when you walked.
He couldn’t stop watching you from behind.
The sway of your hips. The curve of your bare shoulders. The quiet confidence in every movement, like you knew he was watching, and wanted him to.
Of course she does, he thought, lips twitching. She knows exactly what she’s doing.
But there was something more to it than that. It wasn’t just lust, it was curiosity. The kind that made his chest feel too full. The kind that made him want to know everything about you all at once, and not at all.
When you pushed through the club’s back exit into the night, the air hits sharp and cool. You let go of his hand, but only for a second. Then you turned, facing him under the warmth of the streetlights, and raised your eyebrows like Well?
Suguru stepped in close, brushing the small of your back like instinct.
Without saying a word, he pulled out his phone and called the first cab that came up.
You tilted your head. “That quick?”
“I don’t like you standing out here longer than necessary,” he said simply. His voice was calm, but there was something firmer in it now, grounded. Quietly protective.
You didn’t argue.
You just smiled, lips tugging at the corner as you turned back toward the street, his hand still hovering close behind you, like he didn’t want to touch unless he had to.
But if he did?
He’d be ready.
The night air wrapped around you like silk, cool, clean, but thrumming with leftover heat from the club. You stood just beneath the streetlamp, your head tilted back slightly, eyes closed for a moment like you were catching your breath. Suguru watched you from a step away, one hand still in his coat pocket, the other loosely curled at his side like he wasn’t sure if he wanted to pull you in or keep letting you lead. You glanced over your shoulder, catching him watching again.
“What?” you asked, soft but smug.
He smirked. “Didn’t say anything.”
“You didn’t have to.”
You stepped closer, slow, until your bodies were nearly touching again. The toe of your shoe brushed his, and your hand, light, almost playful, ghosted along the hem of his shirt. Just enough to make him feel it. Just enough to make him want more. Suguru’s eyes dropped to your mouth.
“You always this dangerous?”
You shrugged one shoulder, lashes dipping.
“You always this easy to pull out of a corner?”
He chuckled, breath catching slightly when your fingers grazed his waistband. “No,” he said honestly.
“Just tonight.”
You let that settle between you.
Then you lifted your hand, gentle, unhurried, and brushed his hair back behind his ear, your fingertips trailing down the side of his neck. His jaw tensed, but he didn’t move. Didn’t blink.
“You look better like this,” you murmured. “When you’re not pretending to be unbothered.”
Suguru tilted his head, eyes narrowing slightly.
“And you look better when you’re not trying so hard to act like this doesn’t have your heart racing.”
You smiled. Because he was right. He reached for your hand, not to hold it, just to touch, thumb brushing along your knuckles with a softness that betrayed the heat in his eyes. The cab’s headlights cut across the street a moment later, and the sound of tires rolling up to the curb broke the tension just enough to make you both exhale.
But neither of you moved.
Not right away.
“I could kiss you right now,” he murmured. Not cocky. Not demanding. Just real.
You leaned in just slightly, close enough for your lips to brush his. “You could. But I’d rather let you earn it.”
That made his grin tilt just crooked enough to be dangerous. He stepped back, finally, his hand lingering at your waist for one more second before he turned to the cab. Opened the door for you without a word, eyes locked on yours.
“After you,” he said, voice like a promise wrapped in silk and smoke. You stepped past him, your body brushing his, and he didn’t move. He just watched you sink into the seat, lips parted, eyes heavy. And when he got in after you, the door shutting behind him, the night didn’t feel cool anymore. It felt like the start of something dangerous. The cab door shut with a solid thud behind him, sealing you both inside the quiet hum of the city’s dark lull. The driver didn’t say a word, just pulled into the street like he already knew not to disturb whatever this was.
You shifted slightly in your seat, knees brushing his. His thigh was warm against yours, his hands resting on either side of him like he didn’t know what to do with them. Or maybe he did and was just choosing to behave.
For now.
Neither of you spoke. The silence wasn’t awkward, it was thick. Weighty in the best way. Like even your breath didn’t want to come too loud. You glanced over at him from beneath your lashes. He was watching the city slide past the window, one hand coming up to rest lightly against his jaw. His fingers grazed his bottom lip for a moment like he was thinking too hard or trying not to think at all.
“Regretting it yet?” you asked, voice low, teasing.
He turned toward you, and the cab’s passing headlights lit his face in flashes, sharp cheekbones, parted lips, tired eyes made soft by the way he looked at you. His gaze dropped to your mouth before sliding back up.
“No,” he said. “Not even a little.”
You didn’t say anything, just leaned your head back against the seat, letting your fingers drift lazily along your thigh. He followed the movement with his eyes, but didn’t reach for you.
Yet.
You could feel it, though, the way his body angled subtly toward yours, like his restraint was wearing thin.
“You never told me your name,” you murmured after a pause, still not looking directly at him.
He blinked. Then huffed a quiet laugh, like it had genuinely slipped his mind.
“Suguru,” he said, his voice smoother now, softened around the edges.
You repeated it in your head, Suguru. Let it roll around in your mouth like a secret you hadn’t been told until now. You looked over and met his eyes.
“I’m Y/n.”
He studied you for a moment. He remined silent, still, before his lips curved into something quiet.
“I know,” he said. You raised an eyebrow.
“You didn’t know.” I chuckle.
“I do,” he murmured, voice just above a whisper. “You couldn’t be anything else.”
And somehow that landed in your chest like a stone dropped into water, small, soft, but deep. You didn’t press. You didn’t ask what he meant. You just let your thigh stay pressed to his, fingers brushing his briefly in the space between you. And when he curled his pinky around yours like it was nothing? You didn’t move away. The weight of his pinky curled around yours should’ve been harmless.
It was light. Barely a touch. But it felt like a fuse, like he’d lit something just beneath your skin. You turned your head slightly. He was already looking at you.
You hadn’t moved, hadn’t even breathed too deeply, but the weight of that tiny connection buzzed all the way up your arm, settling somewhere low in your stomach. You glanced over at him. He was already watching you. Not shamelessly, but like he couldn’t help it. Like something about you was pulling.
Neither of you said anything. But the silence between you was starting to bend under its own weight. You shifted your hand slightly, just enough for your pinky to slide between two of his fingers, and that small change broke something open.
He moved first. Turned toward you slowly, one hand lifting to brush your jaw. His fingertips were careful, almost unsure, like he didn’t know if he was allowed to be gentle like this.
“C’mere,” he murmured, barely above the rumble of the road beneath you.
It wasn’t a command. It was an invitation. You leaned in, and your lips met his. soft, slow, and warm. Not rushed. Not greedy. Just curious. The kiss tasted like quiet tension, like held breath and city lights and something deeper neither of you had named yet. His lips moved against yours with surprising restraint, like he didn’t want to startle it, didn’t want to ruin the stillness of it.
His thumb brushed your cheek. You sighed into his mouth, tilting your head just enough to let him deepen it slightly, not desperate, just achingly intentional. When you pulled back, barely, your noses still touched. Your breath mingled in the space between. Suguru’s voice was low. Soft. Almost reverent.
“…yeah,” he said. “I needed that.”
You smiled, lips tingling. “So did I.”
for a second, everything was quiet again. But this time, it was full. Heavy with knowing. The space between you didn’t feel like space anymore. It felt like friction. Like if either of you moved even an inch, you’d fall straight into it. His eyes dropped to your lips again, then to your legs, still crossed close against his. the hem of your skirt tugged slightly higher than it had been when you got in. You didn’t shift to fix it. And Suguru, he didn’t fight the hunger in his gaze this time. You licked your lips without thinking. His jaw flexed.
“You’re gonna kill me,” he muttered, voice low and strained.
“Not before I ruin you first,” you whispered back and that was it.
His hand left the seat and slid to your thigh, fingertips brushing up slowly, reverently, like he was still giving you the chance to stop him. You didn’t. You leaned into him instead, lips barely brushing his ear.
“Do it.”
His grip tightened. His other hand slid behind your neck, pulling you in. and then he kissed you again. But this time, it was nothing like the first. This was filthy. Deep and hungry, all tongue and heat and breathless little gasps. His hand was sliding higher under your skirt now, just brushing the inside of your thigh, teasing, never quite reaching where you needed him.
Your fingers tangled in his hair, tugging just hard enough to earn a low groan into your mouth. You felt him twitch in his slacks, felt the way his hips shifted slightly toward you like his restraint was teetering. You were both panting now, mouths barely parting between kisses, your hands under his shirt, nails scraping across his stomach as his lips moved down to your jaw.
Then,
Tap tap.
The cab pulled up to the curb. You both froze, still tangled together, his hand under your skirt, your fingers in his hair, breathing like you’d just run through a storm. Suguru laughed under his breath, voice hoarse as he leaned his forehead against yours.
“Saved by the bell.”
You smirked, brushing your nose against his. “Don’t think we’re done.”
He opened the door, eyes still on you, and said with a soft, wicked grin,
“Not even close.”
Then he stepped out, offered his hand, and helped you out like he hadn’t just been ready to fuck you in the backseat. Gentle. Composed. But his fingers didn’t let go of yours. Not until you were both inside. And the door closed behind you.
The air in your apartment was thick with anticipation. Actually, that might have just been him. The anxiety of not knowing what was next ate at his mind as the desperation for touch pushed him towards you. Neither of you had said much since the cab ride over, just traded glances, fingertips brushing occasionally, both of you simmering in something unspoken. Something hot and a little dangerous. You kicked off your shoes with a quiet laugh, glancing over your shoulder as you dropped your keys onto the counter.
“You always this quiet after following a woman home?”
Suguru leaned against the wall just inside, gaze sweeping the space. It smelled like warmth. Lived in. A little candle wax. A hint of vanilla. You.
“I’m just trying to figure you out,” he said. “You’re not what I expected.”
“Disappointed?” you teased, walking back toward him.
He shook his head slowly. “The opposite.”
You stopped in front of him, just a breath of space between you. He looked even taller up close. Colder, maybe. But not in a cruel way, more like he carried something heavy and didn’t want to put it down yet.
“You’re hard to read,” you murmured.
“I like keeping it that way.”
You stepped closer to him. your fingers brushing against his shirt. “I bet you do.”
You wanted him to relax, to let go of whatever he was holding onto. To unpack it. He didn’t move when you touched him, but you felt the way his muscles tensed, the way his breath slowed as your fingers ghosted along his collarbone. You tilted your head slightly, eyes flicking up to meet his. He was beautiful, actually. Suguru stood in the soft lamplight by the entryway, his black coat hanging open, hair half-up and half-loose, strands falling around his face in a way that looked too effortless to be fair. He wasn’t looking at her, just taking in the space quietly, his fingers flexing slightly like he didn’t quite know where to put them.
She looked at him. Really looked. He was beautiful, sharper than he had any right to be. All angles and contrasts. The dark sweep of his lashes against lightly tanned skin, the faint line of a scar at his jaw, the way his mouth stayed soft even when his eyes didn’t. But there was something else, too. Something simmering just beneath the stillness of him. Like a shadow curled up behind his ribs. Like the moment he let his shoulders drop, whatever he was holding back would spill out. hot, sharp, too much.
She could feel it.
It pulsed in the air between them. Not dangerous, not yet but weighty. Familiar in a way she didn’t want to name. He turned then, just slightly and caught her looking. His eyes held hers for a beat too long. And instead of pulling away, she stepped closer. Not asking. Not prying. Just letting him be here, in the quiet, in her space, in her gaze. And for the first time all night, Suguru breathed like it was okay to let the edges of him tremble.
“I want to know what you sound like when you’re not trying to be mysterious.” I say softly.
“You’re trouble,” he murmured, voice deep and dark, eyes roaming your mouth. Suguru chuckled, low and rich.
You smirked, tugging at the front of his shirt. “You stared at me like you wanted it.”
“I still do.”
Then he kissed you. Hard. Deep. Like he was trying to figure you out with his tongue. You kissed him back just as fiercely, one hand tangling in the back of his hair, the other sliding under his shirt, dragging your nails lightly across the lean muscle of his stomach. He groaned against your mouth like he hadn’t been touched like that in years. Well, he hadn’t been touched like that ever.
You moaned softly into it, fingers sliding up the back of his neck, tangling in the thick strands of his hair.
That was his undoing.
He groaned, a real one, deep in his chest and pressed you back against the nearest wall, body flush with yours now, his knee sliding between your thighs.
“You don’t know what that does to me,” he whispered into your mouth.
“I don’t,” you breathed. “But I’m dying to find out.”
The sound he made was sinful.
“Bedroom?” He asked, voice raspy, mouth still hot against your breast.
“Down the hall,” you said, already tugging him toward it.
And the whole way there, he thought:
Don’t ask questions. Don’t ask to stay. Just let her ruin you for a night and don’t pretend you don’t want more.
You barely made it through the bedroom doorway before Suguru caught your wrist, spun you, and pressed you back against the door with a thud. His eyes were darker now, stormy with lust and something heavier. Not dangerous. Not quite. But close.
“You like being in charge?” he murmured, one hand sliding up your thigh, pressing his body flush to yours.
“Sometimes,” you breathed. “But I like being wanted more.”
He chuckled, low and wrecked. “Then you’re in luck.”
His mouth was on yours again, hot, urgent, more tongue this time. Less polite. He licked into you like he was trying to memorize your taste, groaning when your teeth scraped his bottom lip. You pushed his jacket off his shoulders, and he let it fall to the floor. You tugged his shirt free from his pants and dragged your nails along his bare stomach, and the way his abdominal muscles twitched under your touch made you smile into the kiss.
Suguru pulled back, just enough to look down at you. His hand curled around the hem of your top. He kissed you again, slower this time. But firmer. Hands slipping under your shirt, brushing against bare skin. You arched into his touch, and his palms slid up, finding the curve of your ribs. Your hips bumped into the bed frame and you laughed breathlessly, just before he backed you onto the mattress and hovered over you.
“You’re fucking stunning,” he said, voice a little rough now, pupils blown. His hands reached for your top, paused, asking without words. You pulled it off yourself and there they were. Nipple piercings, gleaming under the low light. Suguru stopped. Just stared.
His breath caught in his throat like you’d just punched it out of him. “Holy shit,” he whispered, the reverence in his tone making your skin burn. He ran his thumbs gently over them, eyes locked to your face, watching your reaction. The metal was cool against his skin, the flesh beneath already heating.
“Sensitive?” he asked, teasing now. You could hear the smirk curling into his voice.
You nodded, just a little too eager.
His grin widened.
Then he ducked down, slow, and took one into his mouth.
You gasped.
His tongue flicked against the barbell with perfect pressure, alternating between light sucks and hot, open, mouthed kisses across your chest. One hand cupped the other breast, his thumb circling lazily over the second piercing while he devoured the first.
You fisted your hand in his hair.
He groaned, loud, desperate, against your skin, grinding his hips down against your thigh. You could feel how hard he was through his slacks.
You tugged his hair harder. “Feel good?” you murmured.
His breath hitched. “More than I want to admit.”
There was a pause. Tension so thick it made your toes curl.
“You’re going to ruin me,” he muttered, cupping one breast, running his thumb gently over the barbell. “I already feel it.”
You tilted your head. “So dramatic.”
“I’m a little unhinged,” he said with a slow grin. “You’ll get used to it.”
He ducked down, took one nipple into his mouth, and sucked hard, before swirling his tongue across the sensitive peak. He walked you to the end of your bed. A popping sound was heard before kissed up your chest. He paused and looked at you for a moment. You kissed again, this time slower, deeper, bodies tangled at the edge of the bed. You climbed up first, sitting back against the pillows like an invitation.
He followed, not even bothering to take off his shirt. You tugged at the hem.
“Let me see.”
He hesitated. Not because he didn’t want you to. But because part of him, buried deep under the ego, the flirtation, the performance, was scared of being seen. He lifted it anyway. And when your eyes dragged over the scars and sharp planes of his torso, you didn’t ask. Didn’t say what happened here or who did this or what are you running from. You just pulled him in and kissed the edge of his jaw, one hand sliding down to cup him through his pants.
He hissed. “You don’t play fair.”
“You don’t play soft,” you countered.
He smiled, just barely. But it faltered just as fast. Because this wasn’t just about sex for him, not entirely. It wasn’t just about the way you looked or how you smelled or how your body felt under his hands. It was about needing to forget. Needing someone to give him a place to land. Even just for a night.
She doesn’t know you. Don’t ruin this. Don’t let her see what’s underneath it all. You don’t get to be saved.
Then you pulled off your top fully and when he saw the metal glint of your nipple piercings, his breath caught. Not because he hadn’t seen it before. But because the way you looked, back arched, proud, eyes locked on his, like you knew you were beautiful, it gutted him. He swallowed hard.
“You’re something else,” he muttered, reaching to cup one breast. His thumb grazed the barbell, and you shivered beneath him.
“Am I intimidating you?”
“No,” he said, but his voice cracked a little. “You just make me forget I’m not supposed to want anything good.”
You stilled. Just for a second. Lips parted like you were going to disagree. But you didn’t say anything. You didn’t say you deserve good things. Because you didn’t know. You reached for him. Fingers threaded into his hair, tugging gently, grounding him in the now. Suguru moaned actually moaned and pressed his face against your chest, kissing between your breasts like he was hiding there.
“Fuck,” he breathed. “Let me take care of you. Let me have you.”
“Then have me.” Your voice lilted.
Suguru took his time. He wanted to collect you. Pick you up and keep you on a shelf to admire. He started with your lips, kissed you slow and deep, savoring the way you melted into him like you wanted to be undone. Then his mouth drifted down, tracing the line of your jaw, then lower, pressing warm, open, mouthed kisses to your neck, your collarbone, the swell of your chest. His tongue flicked one of your piercings again, and the breath you let out sent heat straight to his gut.
“Fuck, you’re…” He pulled back just enough to look at you, really look. Your chest rising and falling under him, your mouth parted, eyes dark with want. “…you’re ridiculous,” he murmured.
You arched a brow. “That your way of calling me beautiful?”
“No,” he said quietly. “It’s my way of telling you I think you’re ruinous.”
And you were.
The kind of beauty that made his ribs hurt. The kind that made him forget why he’d spent so long pretending not to want things. You didn’t know how dangerous that made you. His mouth continued down your body, lips brushing the soft skin beneath your ribs, the dip of your waist, the curve of your hip. You reached down, pushed a lock of his hair behind his ear, and whispered.
“You’re beautiful too, you know.”
He paused, eyes flicking up at you like he didn’t know what to do with that. But he didn’t speak. He just kissed the inside of your thigh, slow, reverent, and let his breath spill warm over your skin.
Then another kiss.
Then another.
As if worshiping his way toward your core was the only thing in the world that made sense anymore.
Suguru kissed a path down your stomach, tongue tracing the lines of heat he left behind. When he reached the waistband of your skirt, he slowed, exhaled, and rested his hands on your hips, just holding. Still.
“Can I?” he asked, voice quieter than before. A little rougher. Like he wasn’t used to asking for things he wanted.
You nodded, breath soft. “Yeah.”
His fingers slipped beneath the waistband and slowly, so slowly, peeled the fabric down your hips. His knuckles brushed your skin, his lips followed the trail, and his eyes never left you. You lifted your hips to help him, and he dragged the skirt down first, then your underwear, inch by inch. Not like he was teasing. Like he was memorizing. And when he finally had you bare before him, legs still gently closed, thighs pressed together under his gaze, he paused.
Not out of hesitation.
Out of awe.
His hands returned to your knees, thumbs stroking slow, deliberate circles as he looked at you like he wasn’t sure he deserved to see you like this.
“Y/n…”
The way he said your name, like it hurt and healed him all at once, sent a flutter through your stomach.
You could feel your heart pounding against your ribs. You could see it in his chest, how his breath stuttered, how the heat in his eyes had deepened into something deeper than just lust. He gently coaxed your legs apart, spreading your thighs with care, like unwrapping something delicate, sacred.
And when he saw all of you?
His lips parted. Barely. And he breathed out the quietest, filthiest sound of admiration.
“Fuck me,” he whispered, voice hoarse. “You’re… unreal.”
His breath caught low in his chest, eyes glued to the wet, glistening heat between your thighs. You were soaked. Slick and swollen. So goddamn ready for him.
Suguru blinked, his throat bobbing around a hard swallow. “Jesus fucking Christ…” he muttered, barely above a breath. His voice was reverent, but wrecked, like the sight of you had sucker punched the composure right out of him. He hadn’t expected to lose it this fast. Your pussy was flushed and dripping, the lips parted just slightly like your body was already begging to be devoured. And gods, he wanted to. He needed to. He ran his tongue along his bottom lip and dragged his fingers up the inside of your thigh. They stopped just shy of touching your slick heat, trembling slightly.
“Fuck, baby… you’re messy already?”
His voice dropped an octave, hunger tightening it to something primal. You watched him, cheeks flushed, thighs twitching under the weight of his stare. But you didn’t hide. Didn’t close up. Because he was beautiful, too. Crouched between your legs, shirt long gone, dark hair falling over his shoulders like silk. Hands steady, gaze starved. Like he didn’t know whether he was about to worship you or beg for you to ruin him.
“Fucking hell… You’re glistening.”
Then his eyes met yours, dark, hungry, and completely undone.
“You look like you’re about to pray,” you said softly, fingers brushing his jaw.
“I might,” he murmured, pressing a kiss to the inside of your thigh. “If you let me.”
You smiled, your breath catching as his lips moved higher.
“Then pray.”
And with that, he lowered his mouth toward you, like this was a sin he’d never ask forgiveness for. He looked up at you, eyes darker than before, not cold. Just lost.
“Can I kiss you?” He asked as he was face deep between your legs. Purple eyes peering up at you. You took in a deep breath as the sight. In your mind as hazy as it was there was no other answer.
“Stop asking.” The words came out airy as you took in a deep breath. You nodded as he dove forward. His tongue finding your clit and licking softly to tease you. Soft moans left your lips as you drag your palms down your body. Fingers touching soft locks and you gripped hard. your hands found his hair. Thick black hair surrounded your fingers as he dipped his tongue further to really taste you. Delicate moans left his plush lips only getting louder as you tugged harder.
The skin between your thighs was damp. The skin was sticky and Suguru couldn’t leave if he tried. Your legs were pressed to his ears as you moaned out in pleasure.
“Oh Fuck.” You barely spoke above a whisper as Suguru sucked hard in your nerves. Swiping his tongue back and forth. Over, and over, and over. Your breath stuck in your throat causing you to groan and pull at his hair. Shaky groans and curses leave him as he dives deeper. The tension on his scalp from your pretty manicured nails was sending him into a blizzard of pleasure.
“Oh, you like that, huh baby?” You breathed out just barely loud enough for him to hear over the squelching of your juices and his saliva. Both of which coat his lips. You take a fistful of his hair and pull back. His eyebrows furrow at the sting but a loud moan betrays him. He licks his lips and his eyes lift to you despite feeling heavy. He nodded slowly and hummed in response. His lips and tongue moving in perfect, sinful rhythm.
“I love it,” he gasped against you. Deep voice cracked open, honest.
“Use me, Y/n. Let me drown in you.”
You tugged again, and he shuddered his entire body trembling beneath the force of it. His voice was nothing but broken murmurs now, praise tangled with pleasure:
“So, fucking sweet…You taste like heaven. Let me make you come. Please, please let me…”
Suguru Geto didn’t beg. But here he was, falling apart between your thighs, mouth wet and desperate, eyes wild with the need to please you. And gods, he did. Every flick of his tongue, every stroke of his lips, was perfectly tuned to you. His name fell from your mouth like a litany, each gasp punctuated by the sharp tug of his hair as you clung to him, grounding yourself in his desperation.
“Suguru, don’t stop, don’t…”
He didn’t. If anything, your words made him more feral. He gripped your thighs, held you open. His tongue explored and discovered new parts of you. Soft velvety and tender. He moaned into you and kissed at your thighs. locked eyes with you through the strands of hair you hadn’t pulled away and devoured you. Like you were sacred. Like you were his temple.
Your thigh muscles twitched and he took that as an invitation to pull you closer. His large hands spread and wrapped around your legs. His biceps flexed and he pulled. Your body easily slid in his direction and he settled again between your thighs.
You flexed your fingers as you looked down. He kissed your pink clit and sucked it into his mouth. The next drag and dip of his tongue against you was deliberate. He moaned low against your skin, the sound deep and shaken, and you felt it travel through you. It made your skin buzz like an electrical current. He didn’t rush learning a long time ago that patience was very valuable. He licked you like he was starving, but not desperate, devoted. Like this was a ritual. A prayer. An escape.
His hair fell over his face as he lowered his head, and you reached for it on instinct, twisting your fingers through the dark strands, tugging them back so you could see all of him. That beautiful, flushed expression. Those half, lidded, reverent eyes. The way his lips parted just before he,
“Fuck, Suguru.” The whine was ripped from your chest and he dragged it out of you with a harsh suck. You pulled his hair harder, and he groaned into you, hips twitching against the bed.
“You really do like that.” you whispered, voice breathless.
When you finally came it snuck up on you. At first it was a dull ache behind the pleasure. A small reminder that there was a limit on all good things. Suguru could sense it before you even started reacting. He gripped your thighs tighter and pressed against you. You whimpered as his tongue licked and pushed into you. Your thighs fell further apart and your abdominal muscles tightened.
He pushed you so fucking close to the edge you didn’t remember how you got there for a second. A high, pitched sound left your lips and your chest filled with air as your muscles tightened even more. He licked upwards and peered at you through thick lashes and inky tendrils that fell out of your grasp.
Then he brought you back down. The pressure lessened and your body simmered under his touch. Sharp whines left your lips hot, slow licks teased you open, kisses that lingered too long, like he was savoring each inch of you, committing your taste to memory. He nuzzled closer, tongue flattening against your clit and dragging up slowly, and the sound he made when you gasped went straight to your spine.
He moaned into you. Loud. Shameless. Wrecked.
His hands spread your thighs wider as he buried himself deeper, eating you like a man starving, like your pussy was the only thing tethering him to this goddamn earth.
“Fuck…” he breathed, lips brushing your clit as he pulled back to look at you. His chin was slick, his mouth red, voice nearly gone. “You taste like fucking sugar.”
He dove back in before you could say a word, tongue circling, flicking, sucking your clit like he knew exactly how to unravel you.
And he did.
He was groaning into your cunt like every moan was a praise, every lick a prayer. His name spilled from your lips over and over, and the way your thighs trembled just made him hungrier.
“Look at you,” he growled against you. “Dripping all over my fucking face… You hear that? That’s what I want. That messy little sound your pussy makes when she’s desperate for my tongue.”
You whined, hips grinding into his mouth, chasing the friction, and he let you. Let you use him, let you rock against his face while he licked you faster, deeper, practically sucking your soul out through your clit. He was a mess now, his hair tangled in your fingers, breath ragged between licks, and when you tugged his hair hard, he moaned so loud it vibrated through your entire core.
“Fuck, there it is, there she is,” he growled as your body started to shudder, your breath catching in short, broken gasps.
“Come on,” he whispered, tongue relentless now. “Let me feel it. Come on my mouth, now.”
And when you broke? When you came with a cry, thighs squeezing around his head, hips stuttering against his tongue? Suguru groaned like he was coming too, like your orgasm was something he could feel in his bones. He didn’t stop. Not right away. He licked you through every wave, every twitch, every desperate gasp, devouring you like he didn’t care if he ever came up for air. And when he finally did? His mouth was glistening.
His voice was shredded.
And his eyes? Wrecked. Worshipful. Like he’d seen something holy.
He witnessed your spine arching, a cry ripping from your throat, thighs trembling around his head he didn’t stop. He held you through it, eyes fluttering closed as if he were the one falling over the edge. His moan vibrated against you, lips wet with your release, and he whispered.
“That’s it… that’s my girl…”
You collapsed back, breathless, chest heaving, and he just laid there between your legs, forehead resting on your thigh, arms wrapped around you like he needed to stay close. You loosened your grip on his hair, running your fingers gently through the tangled strands now, and he sighed, low and soft, like the storm had finally passed inside him.
The room was still heavy with heat, your heartbeat still echoing in your ears, but the world had slowed.
Suguru hadn’t moved.
He was still draped across your legs, cheek resting on the inside of your thigh, arms lazily looped around your hips like he couldn’t stand the idea of letting go. His breath tickled your skin in slow, warm waves, and every exhale sounded just a little softer than the one before.
You ran your fingers through his hair, gentle now. No more pulling. Just slow strokes through the silk, dark strands, untangling what you’d wrapped around your fingers moments before. He didn’t say anything at first. Just melted into the touch like it was the only thing tethering him to the earth.
“I didn’t mean to…” you started, but your voice was too quiet. You swallowed, tried again. “Did I take it too far?”
His response was immediate. His lips pressed against your skin, soft and reverent.
“No,” he said, voice low and worn, like honey poured over gravel. “You gave me exactly what I needed.”
You traced his temple, watched the way his lashes fluttered under your touch.
“You were shaking.”
“I still am,” he admitted. And when he lifted his head to look at you, his face flushed, lips swollen, hair messy, you felt something ache in your chest. He looked so human. And so beautifully undone.
“M’Harry and I'm 28 years old.” Harry laughed at himself as he continued to answer the interview questions.
“M’jus here for some fun in the villa. Nothing wrong with a little vacation getaway from the everyday life. Life on tour can be a bit much sometimes.” Taking a pause to think for a second harry exhales and continues.
“…and I’ll be making a matched donation to charity whether I win the money or not and if I make a few new friends along the way then that’s even better.”
{cut from camera 1 to camera 2}
“I have not been single for too long actually. It’s been less than a year. I’m looking for someone who can listen to me gripe about touring despite my love for it. A friend first.” Harry smiled as the interview continued on.
“My last relationship was about a year long. We had some…differences let’s say and I’m looking for something more relaxed.”
{cut back to camera 2}
“Everyone, let's thank Harry for being a big contributor to charity this summer.” The host stood next to him and prompted the guests to clap and thank him. Harry stood awkwardly off to the side as a few girls whistled for him.
“Thanks babe.” Genevieve remarked with a small wink in Harry's direction. You let out a deep breath. You guessed this was the beginning. The competition has really started. It felt like you were the only one who hadn't realized the heat was on, Harry caught your eye and the two of you shared a look across the outside deck. A soft blush covered his face as he looked away and your face did the same.
“So first let's see how the men are feeling about our steamy selection.”
All the girls stood up straighter and turned their attention to the host. The men flexed as they stood in line ready to be scrutinized by the ladies watching back at home.
“How many of you guys’ fancy Genevieve?”
Two of the guys step forward. Elias and Daniel are standing attention in front of their marks. Genevieve smiles and giggles to herself.
“How many of you fancy Leila?”
At first two guys step forward for Leila. Elias and Daniel again. Pleased she shouts and fans her face playfully. Taking the islanders by surprise, Rivier steps forward for her last minute.
“Any lads fancy Chloe?” River steps forward and so does Elias. Chloe looks displeased but still smiles as she glances at Harry.
“And how about Y/n?
One by one the guys step forward for you. Each one except for Harry. Honey leans forward to look at him. Noticing that you were looking at him, Harry reluctantly stepped forward.
“Since Y/n Has all the lads thirsting over her she will have first pick right after this commercial break.”
[“Remember islanders the choices you make affect how the story ends. Choose wisely”]
Do you couple up with Harry? or Do you choose someone else?
This is a choose your own adventure and every choice counts toward prize! Have fun but keep track of where you are for the best experience in the game.
Welcome back to love island. We were just about to find out who the beautiful y/n was about to pick in our first coupling up ceremony.
“Okay Y/n who of all these hotties do you want to start off strong with.” Honey looked at you in anticipation. Sweat began to form on your brow as you felt nervous. All eyes were on you from the judgmentally green ones of the girls or the enticingly warm ones of the guys who were ready to know who you picked.
You felt the weight of everyone’s gaze on you. Sweat began to form on your brow as you felt nervous, the judgmental eyes of the girls and the enticingly warm ones of the guys were all focused on you.
"I pick…" you thought about it for a second. What guy would be best? Your heart twisted in another direction. Elias had been warm, welcoming, even in just a few conversations, there was a quiet strength in him that made you feel… seen. You took a deep breath, scanning the group one last time, then made your decision.
"I pick Elias."
Elias stepped forward, smiling broadly, clearly happy with your choice. You felt a wave of relief as you walked over to him, and he wrapped an arm around you, giving you a reassuring squeeze.
"Great choice, Y/N! Next up, Chloe." Honey looked over and smiled as the two of you greeted each other.
Chloe stepped forward confidently, her eyes already locked on her target.
"I pick Harry."
Harry walked over to Chloe, but there was a noticeable lack of enthusiasm in his steps. As he walked towards her, he glanced over at you. Making eye contact Harry gave a weird look to you and Elias. He smiled politely as Chloe beamed at him, but anyone watching closely could see the distance in his eyes.
Harry hadn’t moved. His smile was practiced—polite. But there was something colder now behind his eyes, like shutters had been drawn down.
As the ceremony wrapped, the group began to disperse, choosing beds and forming early alliances. Elias walked with you, still buzzing from the excitement, but your mind was spinning. When you entered the bedroom, Chloe had already flung her things across a center bed. She threw a glance at you and Elias, her smirk a little too sharp.
“Guess we’re neighbors,” she chirped, glancing at Harry, who had quietly taken a bed at the far end of the room. Alone.
You turned to Elias. “Corner bed okay with you?”
He smiled. “As long as it’s with you, I’m good.”
You nodded, but your eyes wandered again. Harry was settling in, expression unreadable, casually fluffing a pillow. You couldn’t stop noticing how alone he looked… and how you hated that you noticed at all.
Later, by the pool, everyone was mingling over drinks. Elias had taken a seat next to you, laughing at River’s stories, but your attention kept drifting across the space—back to Harry, who sat with a drink in hand, Chloe beside him. She leaned in close when she talked, laughing too loud. And still… even mid-sentence, Harry’s eyes flicked toward you.
He was watching you. Just like you’d been watching him.
Leila slid onto the lounger beside you, nudging you lightly. “You alright?”
“Yeah,” you replied, too quickly. “Just tired.”
“Is that what we’re calling it?” she teased under her breath, her gaze following yours toward Harry. “You two look like you’ve got your own gravitational field.”
“I’m coupled with Elias,” you said, maybe to her or maybe to yourself.
Leila sipped her drink. “Doesn’t mean Harry isn’t still orbiting.”
You laughed softly but didn’t respond.
The soft whir of the villa’s air conditioning was the only sound as night slipped in through the sheer curtains. The bedroom was still, bathed in hazy light. Elias snored quietly beside you, one hand tucked under his pillow, chest rising and falling in steady rhythm. But your eyes were on Harry.
He lay on his back, across the room, one arm flung over his head, brow faintly furrowed even in sleep. His blanket had slipped down to his hips, exposing a stretch of inked skin and toned stomach. You stared longer than you meant to, blinking yourself out of it when he shifted slightly.
Why are you looking at him like this? You were the one who made the choice. You chose Elias. Elias, who’d been nothing but sweet. Elias, who made it easy. So why didn’t it feel… right?
You rolled onto your side and squeezed your eyes shut. It was just nerves. First-day jitters. You weren’t going to spiral over a guy who wasn’t yours. Especially not someone like Harry. Still, the weight in your chest didn’t budge.
The next morning You woke again to the smell of coffee and Elias’ voice drifting through the bedroom.
“Good morning, ladies,” he said cheerfully, balancing a tray with four mugs. “Black, cream, sugar, dealer’s choice.” He set one down on your bedside table with a wink. “Thought I’d earn a few points early today.”
You smiled, still groggy. “Thank you.”
Leila clutched her fake pearls dramatically. “A man who delivers caffeine? Be still my heart.”
He laughed, moving to hand out the rest. It was a cute gesture, and it didn’t go unnoticed by the girls. Still, as Elias made his way out to the kitchen, your eyes once again found Harry. He was awake now, legs over the side of the bed, elbows resting on his knees. His curls were messy, eyes still heavy with sleep. But as he caught you looking, something unreadable passed between you. He didn’t smile. Neither did you.
Later that morning, after breakfast and a few casual chats by the pool, you sat alone on a lounge chair, soaking in the stillness. The sky was clear, and for a moment, it almost felt like a normal holiday.
Harry’s voice cut through the quiet. “Fancy a walk?”
You turned. He stood barefoot on the hot stone patio, thumbs hooked in his waistband, gaze soft but direct.
Your heart thumped once. “Shouldn’t you be asking your partner?”
He blinked, then gave a slow smile, like he wasn’t surprised by the deflection. “Right,” he said simply, nodding before walking off toward the pool.
You exhaled slowly and turned your face back to the sun, pretending the heat on your cheeks was from the weather.
The next morning in the villa was unusually loud, more energy, more movement, more eyes darting across the garden like everyone felt something was coming. You were seated at the kitchen counter with Leila, nibbling on toast, when the phones buzzed.
Elias read the message aloud in a dramatic voice. “Islanders, it’s time to pucker up and put your knowledge and your lips to the test in today’s Kissing Challenge! #liplocked #testyourtype”
Screams and groans echoed throughout the villa.
“Oh my god,” you muttered, pressing your palms to your face.
Leila just smirked. “Better hope Elias flossed.”
The Islanders lined up beside the pool in their swimsuits, energy thick and nervous. One by one, blindfolded contestants were kissed by their fellow Islanders, then rated each kiss without knowing who delivered it.
Chloe strutted forward in heels like it was a runway.
When her turn came, she kissed Harry.
It wasn’t subtle. Her hand curled around his neck, and her kiss lingered long enough to make your stomach twist. He didn’t pull back. He didn’t deepen it either. But his stillness—his letting it happen—was worse somehow.
“I give it a solid 9.5.” he said smirking
Your jaw clenched.
You tried not to look, but you did.
“Damn,” Leila whispered from beside you, glancing at your face. “You okay?”
You nodded quickly. “Yeah. It’s whatever.”
But it wasn’t.
After the game, most of the group split off to decompress. You found yourself sitting under one of the umbrellas with a bottle of water, your towel still damp from the post-challenge splash. Geniveve plopped down beside you, legs crossed.
“So,” she said, casual but sharp-eyed. “You and Elias… solid?”
You blinked at her, caught off guard. “I mean…We’re getting there.”
She gave a small shrug. “That’s cute. Just thought you should know, Harry said last night that he fancies you.”
You stared at her.
“What?”
“Yeah,” she said, like it was no big deal. “He said you’re not like the others. That he finds you interesting. Thought maybe you were into him too.”
Your heart pounded.
“He said that?” you asked, trying to keep your voice even.
She nodded, picking at her nail. “So, you know. If you wanted to kiss him during the challenge… I don’t think he’d have stopped you.”
You didn’t respond. Not immediately.
Because your mind was already rewinding, to the look in Harry’s eyes when he asked you to walk with him yesterday. To the shift in the air every time your eyes met. To the kiss Chloe had claimed today.
And suddenly, you weren’t sure if you were still playing the game… or if you’d just been played.
That Night
The villa was quiet, but not peaceful. There was too much left unsaid.
Most of the Islanders had drifted to bed after dinner—some with laughter, some with loaded glances. Elias kissed your cheek before turning in, not noticing how distracted you were as you nodded and gave him a tight smile.
You weren’t ready to lie down. Not yet.
The pool glowed under the moonlight. You sat at the edge, your legs dangling in the water, staring at the ripples without really seeing them. The words Sienna said earlier kept echoing: “Harry said he fancies you.”
So why did he let Chloe kiss him like that?
“You’re quiet tonight.”
You didn’t need to look up to know who it was. His voice was calm, but not casual.
You turned slowly to see Harry standing behind you, hands in the pockets of his joggers, his T-shirt a little rumpled. His curls were still damp from his post-shower rinse, and he looked impossibly calm for someone you were trying so hard not to think about.
“Didn’t feel like talking,” you replied, facing forward again.
He stepped closer, then sat next to you, keeping space between you both. You didn’t move.
“I heard what Geniveve said,” he said plainly.
You tensed. “She wasn’t lying, was she?”
There was a pause.
“No.”
You looked at him now. Really looked. You stood abruptly. “I’m not playing this game, Harry. Not like them.”
“I know you’re not,” he said, standing too. “That’s why I like you.”
You laughed once, bitter and breathless. “Then why does it feel like you’re doing everything to push me away?”
“me?, what about you?” he said back firmly.
“But you confessed to someone else that you wanted me and then after Chloe kissed you.”
He was quiet for a long second. The wind stirred through the palm trees behind you.
“I thought if I kept it to myself, I could move on. Be civil. Let you do your thing with him. But watching you try to force a connection with someone who isn’t me?” He shook his head, jaw tightening. “It’s driving me insane.”
You swallowed hard.
“I didn’t think you actually… felt anything,” you said, voice low. “You barely looked at me all day. You sat through Chloe’s kiss like it didn’t mean anything.”
“It didn’t mean anything,” he snapped. “That’s the problem. None of it does.”
You stared at him, heart racing. The silence between you cracked and pulsed with something you didn’t have the words for.
After a beat, you whispered, “So what are we supposed to do now?”
Harry stepped in, voice softer now. “I don’t know. But I know I’m tired of pretending you’re just another Islander to me.”
You didn’t kiss him. Not yet.
But you didn’t walk away either.
Catch you next time in the villa to see what happens next on loveisland! -LI team
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The bright sun kissed the surface of the villa as the host stepped forward, her excitement bubbling over. “Alright, Islanders! It’s time to start this summer of love the right way—with our first coupling ceremony!”
As the girls stood in line, the weight of the moment began to settle in. For some, it was an exciting opportunity; for others, the pressure felt immense. You could feel the air shift around you, the buzz of anticipation palpable. Chloe exuded confidence; her arms crossed casually as if the entire ceremony was a formality for her. You, on the other hand, felt like the new girl on the first day of school, trying not to overthink every move. The host’s voice broke through your thoughts.
“Okay, Y/N, who of all these hotties do you want to start off strong with?”
Your gaze swept over the line of guys. Each one stood confidently, some trying to catch your eye while others leaned back with practiced ease. But your focus kept drifting to Harry. His warm brown eyes, a touch of curiosity in his expression, locked onto yours for a moment longer than necessary. It was enough to make your stomach twist. He’s Harry Styles. An actual global icon. What am I even doing?
“I pick… Harry,” you said, your voice louder than you expected.
A few gasps rippled through the group, and Chloe muttered something sharp under her breath. Harry’s lips curved into a smirk as he stepped forward, his movements unhurried but purposeful. The tension between you seemed to thicken as he approached. It wasn’t just the celebrity aura; there was something magnetic about him that left you feeling off-balance.
When he hugged you, it wasn’t the polite, distant embrace you’d braced yourself for. His arms were strong and sure, and the scent of his cologne lingered long after he pulled away. “Solid choice, darling,” he said softly, his voice rich and smooth. The words hung between you, making your cheeks warm.
You gave him a small smile, unsure how to respond. In truth, you were trying not to combust. This wasn’t how you imagined your first day—standing next to Harry Styles, who was now your partner. Meanwhile, Harry himself felt oddly intrigued. He hadn’t come to the villa expecting much. If anything, he thought he’d hate it. But there was something about the way you carried yourself—unsure but genuine—that caught him off guard. She’s interesting, he thought. Might not be the worst thing to be paired with her.
The villa was an architectural masterpiece, the kind of place you only ever saw on TV. The sparkling pool, sun-drenched lounges, and sprawling views of the ocean made it feel like a dream. As everyone scattered to claim beds, you found yourself standing next to Harry in the main bedroom.
“Any preference, love?” he asked, his voice soft. You scanned the room, noting how quickly the others were pairing off. Chloe and Elias had already staked out a bed in the center, with Chloe tossing her bag down like she owned the place.
“How about that one?” you suggested, motioning toward a quieter corner. Harry nodded, smiling slightly.
“Good choice.” He followed you over and helped you settle in. This’ll do, he thought. “At least she’s not high maintenance like some of the others.”
As you started unpacking, Chloe’s voice rang out from across the room.
“Don’t touch me, Elias. I like my space when I sleep.” Her tone was sharp, but Elias just laughed, brushing it off. Chloe seemed determined to establish dominance, her every move calculated to make her presence known. It didn’t take long for her gaze to land on you and Harry, her jaw tightening for a fraction of a second before she looked away. Harry glanced at you as he perched on the edge of the bed.
“So, what’s the plan, then? Are you actually going to share the bed with me, or should I grab a blanket and take the floor?” You hesitated, caught off guard by the question.
“Uh… I figured we’d sort that out when it’s time to sleep,” you replied, trying to sound casual. In reality, you were still trying to process the fact that you’d be sharing a bed with him at all. Harry chuckled, his smirk returning.
“How very diplomatic of you.” He leaned back slightly, watching you with a mixture of amusement and curiosity. She’s nervous, he thought. But it’s kind of cute.
By the time the sun began to set, everyone had gathered by the pool for drinks. The atmosphere was lively, the air filled with laughter and chatter as the islanders got to know each other. You found yourself seated next to Harry, who seemed more relaxed now than he had earlier.
“So, why Love Island?” he asked, his arm draped casually over the back of the lounge chair. You shrugged, sipping your drink.
“I guess, I wanted to try something new. Step out of my comfort zone, meet new people.”
Harry nodded thoughtfully, swirling his glass.
“Yeah, I get that.” He paused, then added with a slight smirk, “Honestly, I thought I’d hate it here. But… I’ve been pleasantly surprised so far.”
You smiled, feeling a flicker of warmth at his words. “Was that a compliment? Or am I overthinking this?” Before you could respond, Chloe sauntered over, her perfectly manicured nails tapping against her glass.
“Mind if I borrow Harry for a second?” she asked, not waiting for an answer before pulling him aside. She threw a glance your way, one that was half-smirk, half-challenge. Leila leaned over, whispering.
“She’s playing a dangerous game.”
You forced a laugh at the girls’ observation.
“Let her. If Harry’s interested in her, there’s nothing I can do about it.” The words felt hollow, but you weren’t about to show it. Across the pool, Harry stood listening to Chloe’s chatter, though his gaze drifted back to you more than once.
When the day wound down, everyone returned to the bedroom. Harry stood at the foot of your shared bed, watching as you began arranging the pillows.
“What are you doing?” he asked, his brow furrowing.
“Building a pillow wall,” you replied, your tone light but firm. It felt ridiculous, but it was the only way to make sharing a bed feel less… intimate. Harry raised an eyebrow, his lips quirking into a grin.
“A pillow wall? What are we, twelve?”
You rolled your eyes.
“Look, I just think it’s better to have some boundaries. We just met.” The words seemed to come out fast. His grin softened into something more genuine.
“Fair enough. But, for the record, I wouldn’t have tried anything.” There was no teasing in his tone this time, just honesty. The lights dimmed as the villa settled into silence. Harry lay on his side, staring at the ceiling.
“She’s different.” He thought. “I didn’t expect this. But maybe that’s not a bad thing.”
Across the room, Chloe sat up in her bed, her gaze fixed on the two of you. Her fingers toyed with the edge of her blanket as her lips pressed into a thin line.
The sun rose over the villa in the morning casting a warm glow on the start of a new day. You slipped out of bed quietly, careful not to wake Harry. He was still sprawled out, his arm thrown over his face, his chest rising and falling with steady breaths. He looked peaceful, completely at ease. He doesn’t seem like someone who’s stressing over a dating show, you thought, brushing the thought aside as you made your way to the kitchen. In the early morning calm, you found Leila already up, humming softly as she poured coffee into two mugs.
“Couldn’t sleep?” she asked, handing you one of the steaming cups.
“Not really,” you admitted, wrapping your hands around the warm mug. “It’s been… a lot to process.”
Leila raised an eyebrow. “Let me guess, Harry?”
You laughed softly, though her comment struck a nerve. “It’s not just him. It’s everything. The competition, the cameras, the dynamics. It’s not exactly what I expected.” The two of you worked together to prepare breakfast, the clatter of dishes and the smell of bacon filling the villa.
“Do you think they’ll appreciate this?” Leila asked, flipping pancakes with ease.
“Of course they will,” you replied, though your mind wandered to Harry. Would he even notice? Or was he still as checked out as he seemed yesterday? Part of you worried he regretted being paired with you, especially with Chloe clearly vying for his attention.
As the Islanders trickled into the kitchen, the morning mood was lighthearted. River cracked a joke about being allergic to mornings, while Genevieve and Daniel bickered playfully over who got the last pancake. Chloe, as usual, found her way to the center of the action, her laughter just loud enough to dominate the room.
Harry was the last to arrive. His hair was tousled, and his expression was groggy, but there was something different about him this morning. He caught your eye as he poured himself a cup of coffee, offering a small smile before sitting across from you rather than next to you. Was it intentional? you wondered. He seemed so comfortable yesterday. What changed?
“Morning, darling,” he said, his voice low and smooth. But there was a trace of detachment in his tone, like he wasn’t fully present.
“Morning,” you replied, studying him for a moment. He sipped his coffee quietly, his gaze occasionally flicking around the room but never settling on anyone in particular. He seemed deep in thought, almost as if he didn’t want to be here.
“Still thinking about your charity work, Mr. Rockstar?” Chloe teased from a few seats away, her voice light but pointed. The mention of charity seemed to snap Harry out of his haze. He glanced at her, his lips curving into a faint smirk.
“Always, Chloe,” he replied, though there was an edge of sarcasm to his tone. Still, the brief exchange lingered in your mind. Harry wasn’t one to give away much, but he’d responded to Chloe more readily than anyone else at the table.
Leila leaned in, her voice low. “What’s that about?”
You shrugged, pretending to focus on your plate. “No idea.”
Just as breakfast wound down, everyone’s phones buzzed simultaneously. The familiar ding sent a ripple of excitement through the group. Leila read the message aloud, her voice laced with anticipation.
“Welcome to your first full day in the villa. There is something here for everyone, whether you want to relax in the hot tub, tan in the sand, or even keep up with your six-pack. The Love Island team hopes you experience summer to the fullest, and to help with that, we want to play a game with you. #getreadytobesplashed #whereisthepool?” The table erupted with laughter. River grinned, his chair leaning precariously back on two legs.
“Finally, something to wake us up.”
“Or embarrass us,” Leila quipped, earning a round of chuckles.
Chloe, of course, was unfazed. “Games are where the real fun starts,” she said, her eyes flicking toward Harry for a brief moment. It was subtle, but you caught it and so did he. He didn’t react, but the tension was enough to leave your stomach twisting. What’s her angle? And why does it feel like Harry’s… humoring her?
The Islanders gathered by the pool, buzzing with energy as the host stepped forward. “Alright, Islanders! Today’s game is all about testing how well you’ve paid attention to each other so far. We’re calling it ‘Splash and Spill.’ You’ll each be asked a question about one of your fellow Islanders. If you get it wrong, you’re taking a dip in the pool!”
The rules were simple, but the stakes felt high. No one wanted to look clueless on day two. As the host scanned the group, her eyes landed on you.
“Y/N, you’re up first! Here’s your question: Who is Harry’s celebrity crush?”
Your heart sank. Why didn’t I ask more questions yesterday? Everyone’s eyes were on you, and even Harry looked curious about your answer. He raised an eyebrow, his smirk faint but noticeable. You hesitated before blurting out the first name that came to mind.
“Emily Ratajkowski?”
The host laughed, and so did the rest of the group. Harry tilted his head, his expression amused.
“Close, darling, but not quite.”
Before you could process his teasing tone, a cascade of water hit you from behind, sending you splashing into the pool. Laughter erupted as you surfaced, wiping water from your face. Harry’s voice cut through the noise. “Points for effort, though.” His smirk lingered, but there was something distant in his tone that you couldn’t quite place.
When it was Chloe’s turn, her confidence was palpable. The question directed at her was about Harry’s favorite drink. She answered without hesitation.
“Whiskey on the rocks.”
“Well done, Chloe!” the host exclaimed. “Looks like someone’s been paying attention.”
Chloe threw a satisfied glance your way, and you felt your stomach twist. It wasn’t just that she got the answer right, it was the way Harry’s expression softened slightly when she did. He didn’t look thrilled, but he didn’t look entirely disinterested either.
The game wrapped up, and the group scattered for some downtime. You found yourself in the kitchen, cleaning up with Harry. It was quieter now, and the usual ease of your earlier interactions felt harder to find.
“Need any help with that?” he asked, nodding toward the dishes.
“Sure, you can dry.” You handed him a towel, watching as he worked.
“You alright after the game?” he asked, his tone polite but distant. You nodded, though your mind was spinning.
“It’s all in good fun. Chloe’s just… competitive.”
He glanced toward the lounge, where Chloe sat laughing with Elias. “She’s… interesting,” he said after a moment, his tone measured. “I don’t know what it is, but she’s not as obvious as she seems.”
The words lingered. What does that even mean? What’s she said to him? You didn’t push, but the thought gnawed at you for the rest of the day. Later in the day, Chloe cornered you in the lounge.
“Can I ask you something?” she began, her tone deceptively sweet. You nodded, bracing yourself.
“Sure.”
“What’s going on with you and Harry?”
The question caught you off guard. You hesitated, a dozen thoughts racing through your mind. If I tell her we’re just friends, she’ll go after him. But if she couples up with him, we’ll lose our edge, and the charity money. What do I say?
“We’re just getting to know each other,” you said finally. “There’s nothing serious.”
Her smile didn’t reach her eyes.
“Good to know. Because I think he’s starting to see things my way.”
As the sun dipped below the horizon, the villa settled into a quieter rhythm. Dinner had been lively, but as the day’s drama wore on, everyone retreated to their corners. By the time the bedroom lights dimmed, signaling that filming for the day was officially done, you felt the weight of it all hit you.
You lay on your side of the bed, staring at the soft glow of the fairy lights strung around the room. The tension from the day hadn’t left you. Chloe’s smirks, her words, her calculated charm, all of it replayed in your mind like an unwelcome highlight reel. And Harry… Harry had seemed different today. More distant, harder to read.
The sounds of quiet murmurs and occasional laughter filled the bedroom. The cameras weren’t rolling, at least not officially but the producers often turned them back on for a few minutes of candid footage to close out the episode.
Sure enough, the faint red light on the corner camera blinked to life. You felt exposed, even in the low light. The blanket was pulled tightly around you as you stared up at the ceiling, trying not to let the day’s events get to you. I can’t let this bother me. It’s just a game. It’s just Chloe. It doesn’t matter.
But it did. You hated how much it did.
Harry’s voice broke through your thoughts, quiet but deliberate. “You alright, love?”
You turned your head to find him watching you, his head propped up on one hand. He looked calm, but there was a flicker of something in his expression—curiosity, maybe? Concern?
“I’m fine,” you said, though your voice was softer than you intended.
He didn’t look convinced. “You don’t look fine.”
You hesitated, debating whether to brush him off or be honest. But the way his eyes stayed on you, steady and patient, made it hard to lie. “It’s just… Chloe,” you admitted finally. “She’s… a lot.”
Harry chuckled softly, the sound low and warm. “That’s one way to put it.”
You rolled onto your back, staring at the ceiling again. “I just feel like I’m… losing already. Like I’m not playing this right.”
Harry didn’t answer right away. When he finally spoke, his voice was thoughtful. “You know, it’s funny. Most people come on these shows knowing exactly what they want to do. They’ve got a plan, a strategy. And here you are, just… being yourself.”
You frowned, turning your head to look at him again. “Is that a good thing or a bad thing?”
He smiled faintly, his eyes softening. “It’s rare. That’s all I’m saying.”
His words hung in the air, and for a moment, you thought the conversation was over. But then Harry shifted, lying back on his pillow and staring at the ceiling. “You want to know the truth?” he asked, his voice quieter now.
You nodded, curious despite yourself. “Always.”
“I wasn’t supposed to be here.” He let out a soft laugh, almost to himself. “The producers practically begged me. Said it’d be good for my image, good for the charity… all that. And at first, I thought, ‘Sure. Why not?’ It’s a laugh, isn’t it?”
You stayed quiet, sensing there was more.
“But then I got here, and I realized… it’s not just a laugh. It’s people. Real people, with real lives, and real… feelings.” He paused, exhaling slowly. “That’s not something I’m used to.”
You tilted your head, confused. “What do you mean?”
He turned his head slightly to look at you, his eyes unreadable. “Fans are one thing. They love you from a distance. They think they know you, but they don’t really. And that’s safe, you know? You can keep the walls up.”
You nodded slowly, unsure where he was going with this.
“But here…” He gestured vaguely around the room. “There are no walls. You’re stuck in this place with people you barely know, and suddenly, you’re supposed to… what? Be vulnerable? Fall for someone? It’s not exactly my scene.”
You didn’t respond right away, letting his words sink in. It hadn’t occurred to you how much more complicated this experience might be for someone like him, someone who lived his life under a microscope.
“So why did you stay?” you asked finally. The seconds seemed to pass by more slowly here. You noticed it when there was an abundance of silence.
His gaze lingered on you for a moment before he answered. “Because I thought I could handle it. I thought I could keep it… distant. But now…” He trailed off, his expression flickering with something you couldn’t quite place.
“Now what?” you pressed gently.
He hesitated, then gave a small shake of his head. “Now I’m not so sure.” His eyes met yours, and for a moment, the world outside the villa seemed to fall away. “It’s not as easy as I thought it’d be.”
You felt your heart skip a beat, though you weren’t entirely sure why. There was something raw in his voice, something vulnerable that you hadn’t expected. You opened your mouth to respond, but before you could, the faint clicks of the cameras shutting off broke the spell.
The villa fell into true darkness, the hum of the day’s drama fading into the night. But as you lay there, staring at the ceiling, you couldn’t shake the feeling that Harry’s walls, however high they might be, had just cracked, even if only for a moment.
The afternoon sun shone brightly the next day, signaling the start of the day’s main event: the kissing challenge. Everyone gathered around, eager to see how this would play out.
“Islanders don’t forget to apply some ChapStick for today’s challenge along with your sunscreen. #puckerup #looselipssinkships.” Geniveve read aloud during breakfast that morning.
The challenge was simple: each girl would kiss a boy, and if she guessed something specific about him correctly, she would earn a point.
Leila went first, confidently kissing River and getting the answer right. The game continued, each kiss stirring a mix of emotions.
Then it was Chloe’s turn. She strutted over to Harry, planting a kiss on his lips. She guessed wrong and immediately admitted, “I did it on purpose, just so you’d notice me.” Her bold move left the group in a mix of laughter and surprise.
You couldn’t help but feel a twinge of jealousy watching Harry kiss other girls. The narrator, sensing the tension, flashed back to the heart to heart you and Harry had shared on day two, highlighting the connection you had started to build.
As the challenge wrapped up, the group dispersed, leaving you and Harry with a moment alone. He gave you a reassuring smile, as if to say that despite the day’s events, the bond you were forming was still there, strong, and unwavering.
Meanwhile, Chloe watched from a distance, her jaw clenched. “Unbelievable,” she muttered under her breath, her eyes dark with lingering resentment. The villa was buzzing with drama, and it was clear that tensions were only beginning to rise.
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