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I freaking love alaysia ok? ok

[pinkwallflowerr]

Welcome to my blog!

~ (creds to lustfulvanilla for the idea 🌀) ♡ There's not much to my blog except I can't shut up

DONT TAKE ANYTHING I SAY SERIOUSLY I HAVE EPISODES AND DON'T MEAN ANYTHING IN MY POST

Feel free to moot Last updated jun~ 27

I really enjoy blood and medicalcore both of which are my biggest interest; It's one of the main reasons I'm interested in becoming a forensic scientist~ I'm also interested in a ton of other things.

I struggle with minor depression and am a very avoidant person so I'm sorry if I push you away ♡ I don't hate you I promise! I'm a bit crazy and a little bipolar, I say terrible things I don't really mean.. ༎ຶ⁠‿⁠༎ຶ

I also self harm and some posts may be about it~ it's not an addiction I can stop whenever I want. Totally..

My biggest inspo besides Lana is Harley Quinn! I have been obsessed with her since I was 5, mostly because she reminds me of my mommy but also because I relate to her a lot ♡

anyway more of the things I like or do or uhh just find kewt are unicorns, bunnies, blood, being babied, dominant people, bites, scars, hospitals. I like being sick and getting hurt even if it makes me sad. I write poetry in my free time. I'm also a pervert but it's okay because I'm a girl.

Anywho if you find this weird GO AWAY. 🌀

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I realized I'm a chronically online loser incel but not too much of an incel cus I do have common sense believe it or not 🥲🌀

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I'm trying so hard to stay clean rn but omg

[strawbewiebaby]

[blondewithissues]

Sometimes a girl just needs her bathroom floor time

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Long Rant 🌀 (ignore, if u know me no u don't)

Is this a safe space to say I'm lwk not a real person, in the sense that my personality isn't who I really am. 😢 I just take the way other people act and try to be like them and in the end I hate them for it when it's actually my fault. I do all these terrible things to them when I don't mean it and I ruin everything.

Idk maybe I need to actually learn how to truly be myself instead of this persona i do. People think I'm this really happy person all the time and I love everyone but in reality I do have problems but I'm too scared to show it ?

Idk if it makes sense, but what I'm trying to get at is that with different people I'm a different person completely just for them, and I hate them for it but it's my fault because I'm a people pleasing evil btch.

I don't hate anyone I js know that they hate me for what I did and I'm too scared to apologize so I just pretend like I do.

I pretend to be like all the other girls my age where they are normal and do all these things, hate men or don't care about others feelings but I'm literally just an incel loser who cares about everything more than I like to admit.

[littlemisshelena]

maybe i was just crazy

maybe it was the 60s

or maybe i was just a girl

interrupted.

[pinkwallflowerr]

I feel like this scene every time my dad drives me to therapy

Anyways I was finally diagnosed with major depression disorder, frequent episodes and I'm on a severe suicide safety plan I'm not allowed near anything anymore oh hell naw 🌀

(it may change tho once I see my other doctor later this month)

[lotusflowerprincess]

hahahahaha

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⋆.ೃ࿔🌸*:･

[pinkwallflowerr]

"if I'm not hurting myself I'm hurting everyone else" ouu shi ik that oen

Ok I'll shut up and sleep now

[sincereleedoll]

i can romanticise whatever the fuck i want thank you

[pinkwallflowerr]

How do I sleep when everything I've ever done wrong haunts me

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I don't know what to do not even apologizing is enough

[pinkwallflowerr]

"I wanna make sure I see you tomorrow" don't make me cry 😂😂😂