These are the things no one saw and most people wonāt know about.
People saw the pictures, and believed the sham I put on. For 3 years, I dealt with the lies, mind games, the backlash. I dealt with it and now I can never understand why.
Itās been about 8 months since I decided I had enough. Itās not like I just randomly walked away one day. I gave you a chance, one last ditch effort for me to see some glimmer that you cared but you let me walk.
You see how happy I am in my new relationship. And yet you still try to reach out when you know I want no parts of you.
No one saw behind closed doors you telling me āIāve gained a fewā. No one saw the time you kept twisting my wrist til you left finger marks for a couple of days and almost broke it. No one saw or heard of all the 3 separate times you cheated on me.
No one saw how I paid for virtually every date we went on. No one saw me bawling my eyes out on our 3 year anniversary when you didnāt send me anything, not even a card or a heartfelt text. How you told me because you were in college you had no money. But then the very next day you were buying $50 tickets to the wizards game.
No one saw how you cut me down relentlessly about my job. How you told me it wasnāt a real job and that I need to see my future differently. (Iām a 911 dispatcher for Godās sake, how in he world is that not a real job?) I chalked it up to āokay maybe he doesnāt realize what I doā, because truthfully many donāt understand. Yet you couldnāt even take 5 hours out of your day to come watch me take calls for a few hour. God forbid you drive 30 minutes to come partially understand what I do.
Rest assured, Iām doing so much better without you. Iāll never understand why I put up with the mind games, why I let you treat me how you did for so long.
My Matthew, is more than half the man youāll ever be and I truly mean that. Heās never made me feel like less than I deserve. I wasnāt even looking for him and then he became everything to me. He listens to me when I have a bad day, and we actually go and do things as a couple instead of sitting on the couch every single time we hangout and watching Netflix. I could never imagine my life without Matt. Heās truly special.
Ladies, just remember your person is out there. It takes time and itāll be when you least expect it. Donāt ever settle for someone who wonāt lift you up and make you a better person.
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