deadflagblues.mp3

[heraldic-thunderbolt]

The car is on fire ^_^

And there's no driver at the wheel ^_^

[plaguedeathcult]

Taking my grandma back to the hospital in the morning (wish she would let me do it tonight but last time they said the home oxygen people aren't there on the weekend and she doesn't want to stay overnight). Acting like everything is otherwise normal even though I'm crumbling with dread inside. Checklist of what to pack in her tote in case of extended stay. We wrote her will tonight and have a witness lined up to sign hopefully at the same time we can get a doctor at the hospital to sign her living will etc

[plaguedeathcult]

Miss you guys but I don't miss doomscrolling <3

[plaguedeathcult]

There's one pharmacy tech that I find particularly unpleasant to talk to at the Walgreens we use and I thought she was just like that but I just saw her being nice to someone else. What did I do

[plaguedeathcult]

Apparently there are land parcels in the process of being sold on Cumberland Island which will allow building structures "up to 15000 square feet" and I am thoroughly disgusted. The parasite class will not stop until every inch of natural beauty is tamed into their personal theme park or exploited for resources and everyone else is enslaved or dead

[plaguedeathcult]

An update for anyone who's interested: my grandma has been a lot more lucid today and was able to make herself a small breakfast. Still concerned about her oxygen levels and getting an MRI so we made an appointment this week with another office in her PCP's practice just to have a quicker follow up. We talked about having all her papers in order for the inevitable just to make everything easier and my support network has been really great throughout this situation. Thank you to everyone who has expressed support I love you guys ❤️

[plaguedeathcult]

Bro is limited in his range of expression due to low literacy and excessive meme consumption

[plaguedeathcult]

Trying very hard to find things to anchor myself right now. More structure to my day due to having to care for my grandma is probably good for me and will help me be more productive in my downtime. I am blessed to have so many people who care about me and are checking in on us. It will be difficult but everything will be ok and I am strong enough to do this

[plaguedeathcult]

I'm really scared and I don't know what to do. My grandma has never had major cognitive issues but she's been really disoriented and sometimes slurring her words. She's having trouble coordinating enough to eat and take her medications, food just falls out of her mouth and she acts like she's choking even with tiny bites. They ruled out a stroke at the ER and I don't understand. I don't have any other family besides my mom and she isn't here. I know she's going to die but I don't want her to be like this.

[plaguedeathcult]

Anyway I just took a valium and I'm gonna try to pretend I'm normal for a bit

[plaguedeathcult]

My grandma went against medical advice and said she wanted to come home. To be blunt, i think she's dying soon. If anyone has any experience with this I would appreciate some guidance. We are hopefully going to get a living will and medical power of attorney notarized tomorrow. Her bank account is a joint account with my name on it and I'm trying to gather her life insurance papers tonight. She doesn't have any assets to speak of, her brother is deceased, and my mom and I are only children so I don't foresee any arguing over small property. Please let me know if I'm missing anything and keep us in your prayers.

[plaguedeathcult]

At the hospital with my grandma. Please pray for her

[plaguedeathcult]

If you aren't using wool dryer balls you're missing out

[ilovepreservationists-deactivat]

Come Outside In The Evening Lets Play Again I Miss You A Lot.

[plaguedeathcult]

Kind of appalling how easy it was for me to get a valium prescription tbqh

[plaguedeathcult]

Dude why am I still awake

[plaguedeathcult]

5 hours of sleep got me acting like Dennis Reynolds in morning traffic