it will happen yesterday

but it already happened tomorrow

[plagueyed]

[ the air is foul, there’s rot in this place ]

prophet. eighteen. it / it’s. patron saint of pestilence. bringer of the plague. asexual sadomasochist.

this is my plague, cast upon my head alone. i am the originator; my sin is at the root of all. i have ventured into the town. i have seen the ulcer there. no matter how many houses i bless, my sickness sinks deeper. the rotted limb is the death of the body…

why don’t you go and make yourself a name, infection already flows in your blood, there isn’t much time left.

[plagueyed]

1 and 23 for the ask game?

thank you for the ask.

1. when did you first realize you were into necrophilia/erotophonophilia?

i discovered that i’m a necrophile quite early, i’ve always been morbidly obsessed with horror; with death and the grotesque, since i was a child, i’ve collected roadkill, dead birds, bones and teeth, i still do. i feared nothing as much as i feared death, it drew me in, then fear turned into obsession.

23. why do you think you're into necrophilia/murder kink? what about it is the most appealing to you?

i think i’ve answered this question before in another ask, for me it is about beauty in it, there’s lied undeniable beaty in truth, and what could ever be truer that’s death, than the beauty in dull eyes and pale skin, in suffering, in recognizing the divine, the sacred geometry of our bodies.

[plagueyed]

if you like violent coughs you’d love to watch me bong /silly. thank you for answering ^v^ im always happy to boost an ego, it appears to be well deserved.

i’m not all that clued up on all paraphilias but i searched any of yours i wasnt sure of. ofcourse you dont need to answer but a lot of your paraphilias are blood/injury/harm related,, could i pry and ask what the excitement/pleasure you find in those things are? or how they appeal so much to you? i think theyre very beautiful things, so i’d love to hear your perspective :3 🩶

i shall thank you for the ask.

i think that there is undeniable beauty in suffering, not conventional and not to be confused with prettiness, but beauty at it’s core, (undefinable) truth. it unsettles precisely because it cannot be denied, be it illness, addiction, injury or death, there is something divine about recognizing truth, and suffering, in its starkness, is unbearably true.

i’ve always had the sickening desire to be more than human, so i will comfort myself with divinity for as long as i am able to find beauty in my own suffering.

[plagueyed]

i will tear every last tooth from your rotten mouth.

[plagueyed]

diagnosis & arthroscopy for that ask game u posted :) your blog is very beautiful, i love your posts 🩶

oh, you’re flattering me.

diagnosis — how many paraphilias do you know of having? can you list the ones you know of?

necrophilia, thanatophilia, erotophonophilia, autoassasinophilia, hierophilia, hematolagnia, masochism, sadism, dacryphilia, emetophilia, iatrikóphilia, hoplophilia, asphyxiophilia, hybristophilia, anthropophagy, cheirophilia, piquerism, abasiophilia.

arthroscopy — what do you find attractive, what do you find yourself drawn to?

cynicism, intellect, arrogance, and cruelty. suffering, melancholy, addiction, illness and death. i’m drawn to many different things, often paradox but always of beauty, sometimes morbid.

the way alcoholics hold bottles, seizures, foam at the mouth, pale skin and dark hair, the smell of disinfectant, visible ribs and bony fingers, self inflicted scars, cigarettes, blood, scaphoid fractures, violent coughs.

thank you for the ask.

[plagueyed]

i thought it would be harder, it should be harder, bones shouldn’t break so easily—

[plagueyed]

[plagueyed]

and this pestilence was the more virulent for that, by communication with those who were sick thereof, it gat hold upon the sound, no otherwise than fire upon things dry or greasy, whenas they are brought very near thereunto. nay, the mischief was yet greater…" and why was that, I wonder?"

[fallowveins]

utterly self indulgent misc paraphilia ask game

diagnosis — how many paraphilias do you know of having? can you list the ones you know of?

symptoms — when and how did you find out? what was your first paraphilic attraction?

differential — what are your favorite dynamics? what dynamics do you find yourself fantasizing about?

neurography — what scenarios do you like? what scenarios do you always come back to?

fluoroscopy — are you ashamed of your attractions?

laparoscopy — does any one you know in real life know about your attractions / that you’re a paraphile?

cardiograph — do you prefer being passive or active?

arthroscopy — what do you find attractive, what do you find yourself drawn to?

anesthesia — can you describe your ideal partner?

tracheotomy — do you know what your love language is? and how would you like to be shown love in return?

sclerotomy — how do you view your partner? equal? above? below? how do you want them to view you?

[plagueyed]

you shall choke on the splinters of your rotting teeth.

[plagueyed]

surgeon who’s grown fond of your brittle bones and your weak lungs, of the way you have to lean onto your cane when you walk and how violently you cough when you smoke, who adores your dull eyes and crooked teeth.

[plagueyed]

i will relieve you from this wretched disease, i will ease your pain, i promise, you just have to let me.

[plagueyed]

flies drinking from dead eyes and slit wrists.

[plagueyed]

the diseased, pale faced and thin, dull eyes and hollow cheeks, twitching, shaking with each rattling breath, long bony fingers trembling, reaching for your life.

[plagueyed]

a vain doctor with cold hands and raven black hair, cutting into the warm flesh of your stomach with his pupils blown wide, his fingers trembling with thinly veiled excitement.