I’m tired of being the person that everyone thinks that I am

'Cause it's an effed-up world But it's a two-player game! ❝I could disappear from the face of the earth, and the world would go on moving without the slightest twinge. Things were tremendously complicated, to be sure, but one thing was clear: no one needed me. ❞ ― Haruki Murakami Independent, Selective, and Private Adored by Button Jeremy Heere Mobile Links

[playertwosquiped]

Yo if I still have any active followers over here, Jere is gonna be on @cutexasxabutton

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Until now, she’s never had any issue with peers when she just says she’ll do the work. Addy hadn’t expected pushback on it. She finally looks at him, sighing slightly. “If I half assed my school work why would I offer to do more work? I was the literal top of my class at my old school.” A title she’s sure she’ll take over here fast enough. She had a lot more free time after having to drop theatre (even if it still hurts to think about), so really she spent most of her time studying. “Maybe I’m doing it so I don’t have to gamble whether or not your work is up to par.”

She might not come across as friendly, but that’s fine. It doesn’t matter if he likes her. She…probably won’t be finishing high school here, anyway. Besides, the less people she keeps close to her, the less likely the people are to get hurt. It’s fine.

She just has to keep her head down through college. Major in biochemistry, maybe try and come up with a way she can fix herself. Honestly, the hope of being able to get rid of her powers is the only thing pushing her forward. Maybe then she can have a life.

Then he apologizes, however, and she does feel a little bad about being so blunt. “It’s whatever. I really don’t care.” She sighed, looking at the product descriptor for the project, trying to see if there was any way to split it up so they didn’t have to meet outside of school. 

“Okay, how do you want to do this, then? Where would be meeting and when? I’m…I’m free whenever.” She supposed that was the other pro of not being in theatre—she was available a lot more. Which…usually just was time she spent studying or working on music independent, but…at least it was handy with this. Although, she’d really rather just do it herself.

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Jeremy has no idea where he is in class standing; pretty high, he’d assume, given that’s he’s a straight A student in AP classes, but he’s always thought it was ridiculous to try to compete with other students, so he only ever cared about his own grades. As long as he’s doing well enough for college, it doesn’t matter how his classmates are doing.

|🎭| ❝I-I’m a straight A s-student, so I assure you th-that my work i-is up to-to par.❞ He mutters, not... really talking to her, but the implication that his work might not good enough bugs him. |🎮|

Her asking when gives him pause. When is... difficult. He doesn’t have any extracurriculars... but that’s because he doesn’t have time for them. He honestly misses theatre, but frankly... even if he had the time, he doesn’t know if he could handle it right now, if just for the noise of theatre. 

It’s funny how quickly he wanted to go back once he really couldn’t. 

He... can make time though. For school work. He has no clue what he’s really doing with his life yet, but he can’t let his grades slip at all. 

|🎭| ❝... I-I’m free m-most of the t-time.❞ He finally says, quickly glancing at her. ❝S-So just, w-whenever or where ever works for y-you.❞ |🎮|

[mobumi]

BI PANIC™

– requested by malepresentingleg

[lemonteaflower-deactivated20260]

anxiety.

[genocidershodan]

Or, you know, you could just stop saying sorry.

[prettylilraindrop]

I take it you don’t have anxiety.

You can’t “just stop saying sorry”. You do something, something so little, like accidentally bump into someone. You feel horrible about it. Your brain starts panicking and you have trouble trying to breathe. You stutter an apology. They say it’s okay, but you accidentally do it again, and you apologize again. They just say “Aha, you can stop saying sorry.” And you feel horrible that you’ve probably made them angry or upset, so you mutter out an apology for the third stupid time, and they just say to stop saying sorry. Stop saying sorry. 

You can’t just tell someone to stop saying you’re sorry.

[inner--utopia]

…Wow. I’m usually the one that tells people to stop saying sorry. I actually learned something on Tumblr, thanks!

[apologieslogan]

my best friend does this all the time. might I suggest that instead of telling people “stop saying sorry” to tell them something a little softer like “no need to apologize!” or “no worries”? I know the last one sounds a little contradictory for someone with anxiety, but as someone with anxiety, even small reassurances that it’s okay mean everything to me.

[heir-of-the-founders]

I usually say something like “its okay, you didnt do anything wrong” if the apology seems like it comes out of nowhere. I’ll also ask what they think they did wrong and reassure them about that.

[marithlizard]

This!  If you get angry at someone for apologies and other forms of self-deprecation, you’re not only making them feel worse but sending a strong signal of rejection.  “I’m not responsible for your obvious mental problems and don’t want to have to see them, if you can’t behave acceptably don’t be around me.”  It’s an effective way to make someone avoid you whenever possible and cringe inside when they can’t, if that’s what you’re after. 

If you actually want to support the person,  reassure them instead.  It can be a simple rote thing like “it’s okay” or “no worries”, as other people have suggested; you’re not responsible for ‘fixing’ them or discussing the behavior. Make a reassuring noise and move the conversation on.   

The  more I practice social conversation with strangers, the more I settle in to thinking that much of our verbal communication is like bird calls - the word content doesn’t matter, we’re pinging signals back and forth, and repetition is common.  Are you there?  I’m here.  Are you friendly? I’m friendly.  I’m scared? It’s  okay.  

[wingsonghalo]

“I’m not responsible for your obvious mental problems and don’t want to have to see them, if you can’t behave acceptably don’t be around me.”

YES. THIS IS IT, THIS IS WHAT I HEAR WHEN PEOPLE TELL ME TO STOP SAYING SORRY. Also if they tell me to “just drop it” or “stop putting yourself down.”

[the-therapist-is-ace]

This children is something you have to absolutely stop doing. It make indeed the other person feels even worse.

[playertwosquiped]

🎭 Starter Call 🎮

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do I try to reply to old threads months and months later or do I just post a starter call

[justmorerpmemes]

Potential Panic Starters

“First off, nothing is on fire. Yet.”

“Put it back, put it back, PUT IT BACK!”

“Nope! Nope nope nope.”

“This is not as bad as it looks, but it’s as horrible as it sounds.”

“Get me down! Please!”

“In the time it will take to explain this, the situation will get twice as bad.”

“Did you forget the… oh no. Oh no…”

“How are you so calm?!”

“No! You lead off with everything is fine, and then tell me the bad news!”

“Don’t. Panic.”

“Just don’t move, and don’t scream, but there’s a… thing on you.”

“I followed the sounds of increasingly loud screaming, what’s happening?”

“Don’t. Just don’t. I know what you’re gonna say!”

“Help. Help, help help help.“

“The problem is right THERE. Can we get along for five minutes please!?”

“Are you help? Please tell me you’re help.”

“How did I let this get so bad? I’m so dead!”

“There is no calm! Don’t tell me to be calm!”

“Everything is fine, it’s fine- nope I retract that statement.”

“I left for exactly two minutes and this escalated how!?”

“Help first, shame lecture later.”

“There was a gross misunderstanding when I said “I got this”, just so you’re aware.”

“Are you the void? Because I need to scream.”

“OW! No, stop, don’t do that!”

“Will you stop? You’re going to make it worse!”

[hubnert]

magnus archives sentence starters.    from MAG 036-040. feel free to change gender specific words, pronouns, whatever you like to make it fit your muse better!

❝ Fear is a strange thing, isn’t it? ❞

❝ Simply put, I have found that I do not believe in any sort of afterlife. ❞

❝ It feels odd to consider the fact that you will no longer exist some day, but you didn’t exist for billions of years before your birth, so, it doesn’t seem unreasonable to conclude that you will not exist afterwards in much the same way. ❞

❝ I try to see life as a pleasant holiday from non-existence. ❞

❝ They’re dead, so they can’t be diseased in the normal sense, can they? ❞

❝ Something about the mutual loneliness seemed to create a real sense of community. ❞

❝ Maybe hindsight is colouring my memories. ❞

❝ I… couldn’t let it go, though. It just kept playing in my mind. ❞

❝ Knowledge makes for a good defence, but leaving quickly is a better one. ❞

❝ Now, if you’ll excuse me, I need to go wash my hands. ❞

❝ If I’m scared I’m going to lose [name] like I lost everything else, then I’ll curl into a ball and never get up. I won’t be able to do anything to stop it. ❞

❝ There’s no-one to blame but my own stupid self. Blundering in where I had no right to go. ❞

❝ Everyone gets so caught up on how small Scotland is compared to other countries, but it’s still huge compared to a single idiot wandering through the forests. ❞

❝ God knows I should have just left; it’s not like there weren’t plenty of warning signs. ❞

❝ Now there’s only one thing I have left that I value. That I love. And I cannot lose him. ❞

❝ I’ve been in the antiques business for a long time. It’s not what it used to be. ❞

❝ I love that one; I think it’s clever, but in my whole life it’s only ever gotten a laugh once. ❞

❝ I do not remember having that thing, which means it belongs to you. ❞

❝ I wasn’t worried. Not like I should have been. ❞

❝ My perceptions are the only ones I can trust. Maybe. I don’t know. ❞

❝ I know these things were real. I know they existed. Why won’t anyone just believe me? ❞

❝ I want to smash that thing. I want to dash its maddening patterns to the ground and stomp on it until there is nothing left but powder. ❞

❝ Guys? Is everyth - OH CHRIST! ❞

❝ I don’t want to become a mystery. ❞

❝ I refuse to become another goddamn mystery. ❞

❝ Whoever takes over from me is going to know exactly what happened. ❞

❝ Only an idiot would stay in this job. ❞

❝ I mean, it made sense at first, but now? After everything we’ve seen, after everything you’ve read! ❞

❝ Of course, I believe. Of course I do. ❞

❝ Because I’m scared, [name]! ❞

❝ It’s like… like if I admit there may be any truth to it, whatever’s watching will… know somehow. ❞

❝ The skepticism, feigning ignorance. It just felt safer. ❞

❝ We’re clearly doing a whole heart-to-heart thing and, truth be told, the question’s been bothering me. ❞

❝ I can’t… move on and the more I struggle, the more I’m stuck. ❞

❝ Er, I’m not a doctor, but I know dumping a lot of CO2 on people isn’t generally considered a good idea. ❞

❝ Funny story really. I ran into the office, worms everywhere, horrible death and everything, tripped and fell in some boxes and there were like 20 cans of gas in there. ❞

❝ Gas… bit light-headed. Not a lot of ventilation in the tunnels. Come on! ❞

❝ I never understood why they keep this stuff secret. ❞

❝[Name] , I think there’s someone here. Hello? I see you. Show yourself. ❞

❝ I see you. ❞

❝ [Name]… as your boss, I’m telling you to go home. ❞

❝ It’s the last thing I remember before blacking out. ❞

❝ Tens of thousands of… things without mouths screaming as one. ❞

❝ I’m fine, though. Except for the holes. And the pain. And the blood and the nightmares. ❞

❝ After that… my memory gets a bit fuzzy. I think the paramedic called it ‘respiratory acidosis’… from breathing in all the carbon dioxide, rather than your more traditional oxygen. ❞

❝ It’s important to me. ❞

❝ I’m sorry I left you. ❞

❝ I thought you were right behind me. But when I turned round you were gone. You were both gone. ❞

❝ I’m going to figure this out, and I’m not going to stop. They’ll have to kill me first. ❞

[playertwosquiped]

NEW LAPTOP YES

[playertwosquiped]

borrowing my roomate’s computer to apologize for my absence. This year has been bullshit and my computer stopped fucking charging a while ago. I’m replacing it soon but goddamn that sucked.

also FUCKING FINALLY we’ll be rid of the orange fuckface in the white house

[bob-belcher]

To All the Boys: P.S. I Still Love You (2020) Dir. Michael Fimognari

[chordoverstret-deactivated20240]

[gentlemanlyrics]

We’ll make pretend that you and me, Lived ever after happily.

house of gold, twenty one pilots

[we-love-gaming]

*sad villager noises*

[lilac-rph]

   Every time I 𝑐𝑙𝑜𝑠𝑒 𝑚𝑦 𝑒𝑦𝑒𝑠,                I feel like I could disappear.

[cammiegoodes]

[love-personal]