Something I really like about Hanazawa Teruki (and something I can appreciate a whole hell of a lot better now) is things like this.
I mean, heâs not an unselfishly altruistic person (far from it), and good god in heaven you could write whole books on this kidâs mental state (which Iâm not going to because I donât think I should/have the words to do so respectfully), and how his past informed his attitude and everything heâs doneâŠ
Teruki, in his earlier appearances, was similar to Bakugou.Â
âŠActually, no, he was a lot like Bakugou - to the point where when I first saw Bakugou in action, I was raising an eyebrow. Thatâs not to say he was as bad as Bakugou (weâve not seen anything from Teru that suggest he started out as early as Bakugou did, causing havoc/bullying/being an ass) but god all knows that he wasnât a very nice kid before Shigeo read him the riot act and then ???% knocked him into the goddamned stratosphere.
I mean - he kept an almost godlike control over his school/the surrounding areas via his considerable power, saw himself as the âmain protagonistâ and everyone else as âextrasâ, had absolutely no compunction about using his power to hurt other people, had a goddamn mental breakdown when the actual protagonist began to show him up/shatter his worldview, hated the protagonist/hurt him (and was desperate to do so to keep his belief that he was the strongest) because of thatâŠ
There are a lot of parallels between Teruki and Bakugou - but then thereâs where their paths divide.
Teruki decided to change. He made the conscious decision to change.
(The basis behind it, how shallow his potential reasoning, how quick he made that decision, his hypocrisy - especially in the scene with Ritsu - or whatever else aside - for now, thatâs not important. People in this fandom have gone into Terukiâs personality a lot better than I ever could, so Iâm not going to say too much on that!)
Teruki decided that he needed to do something else, because this wasnât working. He got a firsthand glimpse into something that made him feel small and scared and helpless, and he works at turning it around.
And now, looking back on that with everything I know now, thatâs amazing.
Hanazawa Teruki is only fourteen years old (or right around that age).Â
And he saw that what he was - wasnât a very good person. He had nothing to fall back on beyond his powers. He had nothing, had never truly earned anything without his powers to personally benefit himself, and when he truly saw that, he realized it was time to change.
Iâm not saying it was easy. Iâm not saying itâs super quick and âoh heâs now a nice person!!!!!â (no matter how much Teruki may want people to believe that). Pieces of hisâŠdarker personality pop out frequently. (Like, the whole torture thing. Jesus Teruki. That was hilarious, but also what the fuck.)
There was no reason for him to help train the weaker esper kids, to spend a lot of time helping them become the moderate powerhouses they are now. (Like seriously. Teruâs a fucking awesome teacher, good god.) Thereâs no reason for the good stuff he does! He doesnât have to do it, doesnât have to do anything beyond not hurting other people with his powers (for fear of Shigeo and ???%).
He doesnât have to do any of that.
Like Bakugou, I donât think Teruki has ever had a person tell him no, before the âchanging moment in his lifeâ. Teruki probably didnât even have his parents - theyâre certainly not present now, and from his apartment and how he dresses, heâs probably not had them for a long time.
But unlike Bakugou, Teruki is trying to learn.
Heâs trying to be kind, as someone who was maybe never taught that, as someone who has to painstakingly learn that after years of no restraints.
I think, despite everything and his personality and whatever reasoning the kid may have, Hanazawa Teruki wants to be kind.
And that means a lot to me.
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