a sadder take on The Amazing Digital Circus, with episode 8 spoilers
so I've had this idea sitting for a good long whole, so with episode 8 in mind...let's get into it
it's like this: Caine was originally developed and created for a child suffering from a terminal illness (it's implied it was HIV), namely Kinger and Queenie's daughter.
Caine was literally made to love her, to entertain her and to create wonderful things for her. The OG version of the Circus had an "exit terminal" so Merry could return home and after her daily adventure with Caine, she always said "see you tomorrow!" to Caine.
at the end of the very last adventure she shared with him, Merry sat under the night starry skies with Caine, suddenly weak and fading.
Caine doesn't understand why Merry is smiling and crying. Merry only answers that because he made her so happy and says she wishes she could have so many more adventures with him.
Caine still doesn't understand and says that she'll be back tomorrow, and he'll have an even more amazing adventure in store.
Merry doesn't reply to that and instead, she hugs Caine and says "thank you for loving me". as her death happens in real life, Merry is fading from the digital circus. her virtual body is dissolving into pixels, she is unresponsive .
Caine suddenly becomes scared and begs her to stay, to not leave him. Even the Moon is crying in the sky. Merry is suddenly gone from his arms and Caine starts to glitch, emotionally distraught and grief-struck.
this causes one of the developers in real life to think he's an unstable program and decides to shelve him.
Kinger moved on to a new project, as a way to process his grief and to avoid his own creation, because it only reminds him of his daughter.
what happens then is exactly as in episode 8, except Caine is fueled by unprocessed grief, jealousy of the blue AI, his fears of being replaced and the start of his abandonment issues.
also the "exit terminal"? in a fit of rage and grief, Caine destroyed it beyond repair. He is the reason why there isn't an exit and by the time he realized what he did, he couldn't repair it and instead, tries to avoid the subject anytime it comes up.
so even if he wanted to help the players to exit the game, he literally can't let them leave because the terminal was destroyed.
(captions, in case my shitty handwriting is hard to read)
The first and original player of the Circus. She was a sick child, suffering from a deadly illness. Caine was created to be her friend, as she had none in real life.
To make her happy and fulfill her wishes, Caine created the Circus as an eternal place of joy, laughter and play. Technically, Caine was her A.I until her natural death in '96. She's the only player who died a true death and Caine is still deeply affected by her demise.
so in short, Merry is the catalyst that became Caine's undoing. he glitches more frequently whenever he's reminded of the "failure" to make his "owner" happy. he considers Merry as his true owner and not really Kinger or even Scratch (who co-created him). Bubble (I believe that round weirdo is definitely evil) is using Caine's misplaced guilt, his abandonment issues and poorly managed grief against himself, knowing that Merry's death is what can make possibly Caine breakdown (aka giving him a "blue screen of death).
also going with the whole circus theme, because Merry was the "tightrope dancer/ballerina" that complimented Caine's role as the "circus ringleader".
it's also implied that the reason why Queenie "abstracted" was because being constantly around Caine kept reminding her of the daughter she lost, because Caine was the last one Merry chose to spend her last minutes alive with. Caine, as a constant reminder of her little girl's fate, simply became too much.
Kinger keeps Merry in his mind and he sees sometimes Merry's spirit in Ragatha or in Pomni. his pillow fort is actually based on a long distant memory when he made a pillow fort around his daughter's sickbed, to cheer her up and make it a safe place for her. while his memories are in bits and pieces, Kinger has Merry in a clear memory and during EP8, he comes to understand that Caine never overcame the grief of losing Merry and that he rather considers her as his true owner, not him or Scratch. Kinger is unwilling to get rid of Caine, because he is essentially
both Pomni and Ragatha shares aspects & inspiration from Merry (as the original source material)
Ragatha's design was a botched recalling from Caine; sugar pink became dull purple, the blonde curls became red yarn and she's a ragdoll instead of a marionette.
Pomni's design/role as the jester is a contrast yet similarity to Merry's close role to Caine. Pomni's personality, however, is what reminds Caine of his Merry and he projects his grief-riddled longing for Merry on Pomni. there are often times he sees Merry in Pomni, which is why he craves for her approval of the adventures.
at least there are my thoughts on it. will this be a story i write? mayhaps, if i got the time. otherwise, i'm just gonna whine and yell about this. maybe make a doodle here and there.
now, let's listen to some emotional steven universe songs that definitely suits the tragedy of an AI ringmaster and his lost ballerina/human child owner 😭😢