so i figured that jasper’s motivation, her entire sense of self-worth, hinges on her purpose: to fight. and well, it sure just became spelled out in canon, huh? so let’s talk about what that means for her.
i think one important thing to make clear is - right now, she does value herself. quite highly, in fact, as she’s still fighting, still smiling, still ready to go up against “rose” whenever she gets the chance.
however, when one’s self-worth hinges on one, singular purpose, it’s very fragile, and deeply unhealthy.
“jaspers don’t give up”… but she hasn’t realized what that means yet.
i think amethyst had a very good point with “having other stuff going on”. one of the reasons jasper’s behavior is so self-destructive (next to being, yknow, destructive in general) is that single-minded obsession, which is what this IS, can really break someone if they fail.
she’s trying to hold on to something - this one, defining purpose - and she thinks she can just keep going. and going. and going, as long as she has that…
but i think i know what her breaking point is, now.
in the past couple of episodes, she’s made it explicitly clear what purpose she’s given herself.
she came for rose. rose’s army. rose’s allies. it’s always been about rose. whatever she needs to do, it’s always justified, because she needs to defeat rose.
but. rose is already gone. that fight is “won”.
and yet, if she finds out… i don’t think she’ll celebrate.
not only will it mean she does NOT get to be the hero who avenges homeworld’s loss (and yes, that is how she imagines herself, that connection of war and glory is what her entire self-value hinges on)… she’ll also realize this fixes nothing.
she’s still stuck on earth. homeworld still lost the war. she still has “no life”, as amethyst put it.
she’s already lived years in a world without rose.
“jaspers don’t give up… until we get what we want”.
with that, her entire internalized sense of “purpose” has no point anymore. she will finally have to face the truth: that everything she worked for, her great enemy defeated… it accomplished nothing.
it’s an incredibly harsh reality, but it might be a point she has to get to. with the unhealthy, deteriorating and destructive state of her mind… she needs to face that truth.
otherwise, she can’t “get a life”.
as long as her “purpose” exists, she can’t be more than what she’s made for.
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