SISTER

~JUST A WITCH TRYING TO FIND HER GROUNDING~

[teachagainstfascism]

i just have this persistent feeling of “i’m not doing enough” combined with “i don’t have the energy to do anything” and it just really fucking sucks

[toxicbgirl-blog]

Lovely ! 

[poppunkpos-blog]

I'm not sure who the original artists are so if anyone knows them please give them credit!!!! I just thought this was absolutely hilarious. @therealjacksepticeye #DadofBOY #whereismimir #bringontheproPAIN #God of propain

[thewinchesterdaily]

[classichorrorblog]

Stephen King’s IT Directed by Tommy Lee Wallace (1990)

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Stephen King’s IT Directed by Tommy Lee Wallace (1990)

[poppunkpos-blog]

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My mind is so full of poison it's making me physically ill again.

[faded-and-dreaming]

[kikiscauldron]

The Blue Moon is often referred to as “The Goal Moon,” and is a time charged with the opportunity to contemplate goals you wish to reach. It is a is the time to consider which goals and projects you would like to pursue in your life. Here is my Blue Moon Manifestation Spread for January’s and March’s full Blue Moons. Enjoy!

[grievng-deactivated20201229]

[xxxblackreaperxxx]

[cryingcuts]

This isn’t a fight I can win anymore

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I wish I was okay enough for you

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I can feel the light leave your eyes more and more when you look at me.

You kiss me less.

Saying I love you almost comes off robotic.

Loving me has now become a chore as I knew it would. It always ends up this way.

I become too much to handle.

I'm selfish to think that I deserved the love you gave me

I'm selfish and stupid to think I could actually have it forever. But it's real to me now.

That eventually everyone leaves. It's just sad that I hoped it'd never be you, but who can blame you.

You say you'll never leave. But I know in my heart you feel obligated to stay because I am nothing without you. You stay because you pity me. And I don't know what hurts worse, seeing that you don't light up at the thought of me anymore or the fact you're guilted into loving me.

I'm sorry I've done this to you. I'm sorry I've made you feel so trapped in my own downward spiral of self destruction.

I'm sorry I've tainted your very existence with mine. I'm just waiting on the day you finally have had enough of me even though I try so hard to change for you. Even if you don't see it. I try so hard everyday to be the person I feel like you deserve.

I'm sorry that I've become a burden.

Loving me is just an empty routine to you. I see that now and I don't blame you, I blame myself.

I'm so sorry.

[poppunkpos-blog]

Two years.

I've been reading over and over again the way I felt almost a year ago now.

It's funny how I still think of you every day, but think of him less. I like to believe you replace every negative thought with three positive ones so I don't even notice.

I miss you like crazy liv, we all do. I've been seeing the posts start and your birthday wasnt that long ago. There are so many people you've touched. I see little things that remind me of you and I often cry. Especially around this time.

I say this too much I think, I miss you.

I miss you being alive.

I miss your laughter.

I miss your goofyness.

I miss your wild hair.

I miss your music taste.

I miss seeing how you interacted with so many people and loved everyone.

I think I miss that the most. Your ability to love.

Everyone who met you left with a lesson on how to love better, deeper. Even in death you teach people everyday.

I talk about you a lot.

I find myself without even trying telling people about your light.

I'm 33 weeks pregnant liv, with my son.

Isn't that crazy but oddly hilarious?

Me, a mother.

I can't wait till my son is old enough to know about you.

I talk to him about you now but I can't wait for him to actually LEARN about you.

I miss you so much. My life has changed in so many ways.

I love you liv.

[poppunkpos-blog]

one year

one year since you’ve been gone. how does one cope with the passing of someone? people always say you’re in a better place and you’re always around and with us all but that makes me even more sad. i want you here i want you alive. Not killed by some fuck stick that gets to continue to live after his sentence is over. he gets to have a family, experience the world, and live. he gets to fucking LIVE while you are gone. The girl with the wild curly hair and the weird voices and contagious laugh, is gone. The girl who helped me when I starved myself, the girl who never hesitated to help me when my thoughts got so dark i feared the sunlight. The girl, who loved everybody; no matter how others felt about them. I miss you so much and so much has happened over the past year that i wish could tell you. or tell you thank you. i never got to say goodbye but if i did i don’t know if it’d be any easier, knowing you were going to die. what would i say? would i talk about old childhood memories with us and friends? would i talk about secret memories only you and i shared? would i whisper words like i love you and please don’t leave? The man who killed you will never understand the hurt he has caused me, and hundreds of others. he will never understand what he made this world lose. you were going to do great things and i know you would. you had to much light in your heart and soul to not. he will never understand how his lies about you effected all of us. he will never understand why our heart bleed black now. I will miss you so fucking much and i wish i wasn’t pouring my heart out on some dumb social media engine but its all i have at this point. i wish you were here to help me through all the shit I’m going through. you always helped me stay level headed. i feel like I’ve said this 1000x in this post but i fucking.miss.you. 

rest easy my meine schöne Seele 

[poppunkpos-blog]

still hurts more than ever. i miss you olie. 

[dying-human]