hey

not really here anymore

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[oliviawhen]

Got a couple days at work to do non-work things, so I wanted to do stop-mo basics I haven’t done in awhile. Day 2 I spent on a lip-sync! It was fun, less difficult than I remember from school. The fun is really in reimagining what could be happening.

[oliviawhen]

Some moods lately. I did this in gouache, because ai makes me want to do things in the most tedious way possible, and I enjoyed it.

[portimao]

my mom died this morning in her sleep after dealing with 3 years of cancer treatment. she had been at the hospital for some days and i havent even talked to her much anymore. she told me that she didnt want me to see her in the state she was in and she could barely hear/talk/stay awake but i dont know whether i ever did enough ever since this hell started.

i didnt expect it to happen at this point somehow but my dad seems more prepared for it. although i think he is very exhausted and sad too and i dont really know how to help him now either. we are both not very emotionally eloquent or talkative people. i dont know how to feel about anything. i dont believe i can deal with her being gone. i wish that there was more time and that the time she had had been much better.

i am also sorry that i kind of vanished and often did not react to anything but things just have gone badly recently. and i dont want to worry anyone with this, i just want to explain why. and thank you for any messages and so on anyone has send me in the last months. i just couldnt and still cant really focus on much of it but i appreciate it.

i do wish you all the best and much love.

[portimao]

im not feeling very well and havent in some time. ive been thinking about not really coming back since you know what happened and its getting worse and i really dnt know anymore. my mum is in so much pain existing and walking and can barely carry anything. she was not completely alright 9 months ago but she was doing things she used to do before surgery. i dont know how to help her emotionally or anyway at all. she looks so changed and every movement and small aspect taken for granted can be lost. i hope that maybe it gets better or less painful somehow but truly cant see right now. ive had mostly sad and negative thoughts about life looking back and everything seems to close in. i pulled through to the end of the season and there are just too many things here that annoy me a whole lot. all i get is being more angry sad alone and paranoid. no idea how much time and energy i always spend on all this stuff and caring and worrying. and it feels kind of wasted sometimes and it doesnt really matter to anyone else to that extent.

and sorry if i let anyone down but still genuinely happy new year and wishing everyone better whatever way it looks like

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HE'S WEARING A LITTLE BUCKET HAT??

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[4mulaone]

‘omg lando stans are being so toxic about his gf on tiktok and twitter’ but where were u for the salem witch trials of tiffany cromwell on tumblr in 2020 

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they were blaming her existence for ted having to commentate from the grandstands instead of the pitlane 😔

and slandering her for “letting” valtteri “cheat” and messaging her on instagram to demand she give up her paddock pass and calling her a “downgrade” from emilia and insulting her career as a professional athlete by constantly denying she was actually valtteri’s physio and they were commenting on pap photos that she was ugly and had no style and was already pregnant and was using valtteri for clout and I think you get it by now

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23.12.21

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he’s soup

[castroneves]

remember in the 2017 f1 secret santa vid, valtteri gifted pascal a table hockey game and the batteries were wrapped separately and he pulled out the little box and said “…so someone wants to marry me? oh, batteries. makes sense then. so no rings”

[castroneves]

pascal wehrlein after unwrapping a little box of batteries that he thought was an engagement ring

[portimao]

It's actually a mug warmer...

Secret Santa 2021 | x

[eliteprospect]

daniel seeing the red wine, immediately going it is valtteri. we won today truly

immediately after what might commonly be known as a m@xiel moment. daniel's trying to collect all his loved ones in a weird little polycule assembled via secret santa

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