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[pastelrune]

Finally getting around to posting my preview for the Broads and Broadswords III zine! @broadsandbroadswords

Zines are on sale now, be sure to get yours!

BBZ3 on sale here!

[dambiex]

the problem with parents is that they are undiagnosed

[redstonedust]

for the record im not technially 100% anti-AI, in the sense that its a broad category of tech being lumped under one umbrella term so it feels over-zealous to say i hate all of it all the time forever. but i also think trying to discuss what it actually IS good for is difficult right now when i cant take one step without something trying to convince me to use chatgpt to summarize my life and speed up my hobbies and turn my friends into chatbots and optimize my life into oblivion. i am certain there is nuance to the topic but can we stop cramming the square peg into the round hole before you start trying to sell me on the legitimate benefits of the square peg. please.

[ralfmaximus]

Neural Nets have existed for decades and are genuinely useful. It's a form of AI that recognizes patterns, and can do stuff like identify cancer cells, tell whether an egg is fertilized or not, detect fraud, and optimize routes.

Those are Expert Systems, tuned to do exactly one thing. If you (say) ask a medical expert system a question about financial law, it's useless. The autopilot that flies a 787 has no idea how to drive a truck on the freeway. A Coulter Counter is excellent at identifying lymphocytes in a blood sample but can't predict the next card in a blackjack game.

And so on.

The problem with so-called generalized AI (AGI) is that we don't have that yet. It doesn't exist. It MIGHT some day, but AGI has been "10 years away" since the 1980s. The goals keep moving as we learn more about how people and machines process data.

But the current crop of AI techbros have been selling generative Large Language Model AI (LLM) as AGI because generative systems do a good job of faking it. There's no actual thought going on, merely the illusion of thought via predicting the next word in a sentence accurately.

If you let a human toddler listen to 800 hours of YouTube car influencer videos, that toddler might end up sounding like a car influencer. They'd parrot horsepower numbers and 0 to 60 times, mention EV range and MSRP numbers.

But they wouldn't understand any of it.

That's ChatGPT.

And yeah, it's worse than useless because it doesn't even know when it's lying or hallucinating. It just babbles convincingly until you stop it.

But for techbros to make money selling that as "AI"? It's the perfect scam, especially if you don't understand how it works.

I fucking hate it.

[bloodstainedgauntlet]

my knight you have to live you have to get up you have to put your hand over your wound and hold it there. you have to keep walking and walking and walking because you cannot lay down yet, it’s not time. wipe the blood off your breastplate and look up into the sun. lean on your sword if you need to. lift one foot after another. get up. get up. this would be a pitiful grave.

[safety-data-sheet]

“This would be a pitiful grave” is now my new go-to when I’m sad or upset. God that’s fire

[potedo]

I love my mom and I know she’s just worried about me… but sometimes I wish she’d just let me sink without making me feel bad about it too

[potedo]

completely unrelated but I think I’m going to go insane if I have to come into this bathroom with literal shit on the floor all the time

[potedo]

I love my mom and I know she’s just worried about me… but sometimes I wish she’d just let me sink without making me feel bad about it too

[pansy2025]

goo goo dolls if they were in dune: and i don’t want the worm to see me

[mezzodical]

[potedo]

I made a little black cat incense holder

[potedo]

My cat Spider, if u even care

[onmyshippingbullshitagain]

[poupon]

Just found out “sard” was a medieval term for coitus. Big brained and real of me.

[potedo]

sometimes I like to insane-text my brother as punishment for giving me yet another trauma on top of everything I’ve been through

[potedo]

weaned myself off most my medications bc I don’t have insurance or money in general rn and I tell you my dreams lately have been filled with such rage

[thememedaddy]

[lymphonodge]

scrappy doo has been found dead in miami

[snootgaze-deactivated20170620]

is he okay

[lymphonodge]

hes alright but he died

[rottingjam]

has anyone done this yet

[potedo]

so I guess for anyone wondering who happens across this blog - no we aren’t doing okay, I hit my mental limit some time ago and subsequently quit my full time decent paying job. An yes! I feel horrible about it, but my fatigue finally outweighed my motivation to stay the financial pillar for our family, which I didn’t really sign up for.

I was already financially struggling before that even with the good pay bc I am supporting myself and three other adult human beings. Now of course, we are struggling harder and potentially going to lose our house bc I can’t pay the mortgage. I got a part time freelance job for the same company I quit but it doesn’t pay enough.

No I can’t just apply for disability for my audhd - that would take years and we don’t have years to wait- and even if we did magically get disability for me, it wouldn’t change the financial shithole we’re in because I’d make less money and not be allowed to make/keep too much at any given moment without losing disability assistance.

My MIL is STILL pending disability assistance after 2 years since applying, and being rejected once (lol) and it might even be that she dies before we ever get any help for any of this! Because that’s probably what the government wants anyways, so they can use all their tax money for bombing other countries.

My options are really just

1. try to roll with all of this until my MIL dies and we can disperse this household and hope we don’t get foreclosed on first

2. Win the lottery

3. Suddenly have enough energy to write one of the comics or books I’ve had floating around and make a bajillion dollars upon my success bc that’s how putting your creative work out there functions in the real world!!!

[potedo]

so many ppl have not gone through the true grit of watching someone die and caregiving them to the end of their life and it shows…

[potedo]

when I first started doing freelance for the job I quit last November-

Coworker: how’s your wife doing?

Me: Oh… good! Just taking care of her mother mostly

Coworker: oh…! Is she okay?

Me: (ok so u never paid attention to any of the times i mentioned she has dementia from a brain injury) Oh- uh I mean- like, she has dementia, so…

Coworker: ohhhh, okay (clearly does not know that it means my MIL is dying)

Me: —but like overall - besides the dementia - she’s pretty healthy so yeah (: ;;;;

[potedo]

like I wouldn’t necessarily sugar coat it normally but fuck dude you can’t just insert bleak shit like this into casual conversation without being somewhat of an asshole

half the reason I fucking hate small talk is because it feels so disingenuous to be like “I’m great how are you!!!” every Monday morning while I’m fucking drowning every single day of my life right now. The autist in me haaaaaates small talk I don’t care about trivial social games even if they’re totally innocent I just caaaan’t o|-<