[LOG IN ENTRY] - 2026.02.21 ( following entry is a summary of my life status, n I think trauma dumping, n complaining, so if you’d like to skip this dialogue then ignore, for those who are interested- carry on)
How’s everyone surviving out there????
Are we?? Hmmmm I’m not sure anymore..
Dispite that, I’ve got some unskipable dialogue if your interested in -
The past two years were horrendous - to put it lightly,
Losing my job, then losing my sanity, and then losing my legs, and I might be losing my sketching arm - so it might be over for me-
For 9yrs at my last job ( I worked with high end makeup ) I’ve had things built up in my body that I didn’t take care in time - because (bless my mom n curse my ‘entity’ of a father, is this trauma dumping? Maybe ) they only cared about money and success n never about my mind or body… so naturally I put those things first- and the second half of last and this year pulled the rug underneath me..
My Current depression - and going to therapy is just really hard for me
My overthinking mind- I just think everyone hates me, that I’m always in trouble, I have to keep everyone happy, I put everyone before me, I’m not good with speaking about my emotions, how I smell..etc
And now .. because of my low iron deficiency.. n like the Blood in my body doesn’t go to every part of my body, especially my legs so they constantly cramp up and swell every day… which doesn’t even make any sense bro..
But those who are to well aware of everything and everyone around them, iykyk, there are some days where I don’t even wanna be here - I have a bad red flag, that if I put energy into something and nothing comes out of it - it’s a waste of time n i see it as just bad and I shouldn’t do it again,
As someone who is constantly tryint to keep the peace and gets walked on all the time, and who lives in an unstable environment… then I hope some ppl will understand what I’m talking about ..
But dispite all that - I’m gonna put my all my energy into drawing and making a name for myself, to be a really good artist ( I feel like I’m yapping at this point,)
Or to be realy well recognized at least.
So if you’ve been here since the literaly beginning, I love you; lemme buy you a matcha n a trinket, n let’s talk about our fave Pokémons together, n for those who are new-
Hiya - My names PeachLily, Now known as PEACHYPOPEXE- I’m on level 3 of my 9 cat lives- and I do reversal (so my rough line art is way better than my final sketch, idk who’s to say) sketch/digital art/ graphic designer as a hobby, but I would love to do it as my full time job, and prove ‘the entity’ wrong that my art is worth my life and not what ‘it’ thinks ‘it’ might be.
I’m also thinking of starting up a YouTube Channel but that might be a stretch- cause like let’s get better at drawing before we do that, ya know??? Lolll
I have a couple of ideas but we’ll see.
Social Media is kinda boring right now with AI n stuff right now so I’ll be on here and Bluesky More :3
Thanks you for coming to my Ted Talk
P.S. down below is my Bluesky account n a self portrait, do you know where the meme is from???
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