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💌 In need of money for your mom’s medical bills, you and your best friend come up with a plan to infiltrate one of Seoul’s richest families, the Kim family. The plan was simple: dig for secrets, blackmail, get your money, and disappear, but of course things don’t always go as planned. Especially not with someone like Kim Taehyung.
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💌 once you were on that stage you were someone completely different, the manifestation of someone’s secret desire. some days you were the innocent girl next door, while on others you'd be the good girl gone wild. but on the days he'd come, you become what you've been for the past six months ... the other woman.
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💌 on new year’s eve, you and jungkook reflect on each other’s entire year together.
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💌 12 stories all based on a song from Ariana Grande’s album “thank u, next”. Stories will be based off either certain lyrics or overall song idea(s), and will have a variety of different AU’s.
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Note: I don't normally write meta posts, so apologies if this seems all over the place. For that reason, I would consider this to be more of a ramble of ideas. Also, if you are not caught up with Jujutsu Kaisen's latest chapter, I must advise you that there will be major spoilers ahead!
The Aftermath of the Zenin Massacre
To say I was surprised to see Maki so soon would be an understatement. I honestly though we wouldn't see her for quite some time, but I think what surprised me was the attitude she still carried. For someone who claims not to have a heart, her playful/snide comments towards Noritoshi's hair and continuously protecting him speaks otherwise.
The one thing that didn't surprise me with her reemergence was that she seemed to be going on a rampage of killing after tracking down the remaining clan members, and by the look on her face, she seems to be enjoying every bit of her newfound abilities. I also think it's safe to assume that this includes both curses and culling game players.
Either way, she still seems to be working along side her former classmates, using her ability to pass through barriers to help aid them. I think a part of me thought she'd become a lone wolf, cutting any and all ties to her past self. Perhaps that's the problem.
2. Daido, Maki, & Experience.
Chapter 155 has introduced a new character by the name of Daido, a regular human being who has superhuman abilities, and is clearly a master at swordsmanship. At the end of the chapter, Maki watches in awe as he slices through Naoya with ease using her sword. From there, she thinks about the time she saw Toji when he was reincarnated as a puppet of carnage.
This brings me to my first and most obvious prediction as to what could happen, and what many others are thinking as well. This is that Daido will serve as a sensei to Maki, teaching her how to properly wield her sword, thus giving her the experience she both needs and lacks.
❝ What is the difference between me and him? ❞
That seems to be the million dollar question. While it's still being speculated and debated by many, it seems that physically, Maki and Toji are now up to par with each other. Thus, one difference that falls between them is the amount of experience one holds over the other.
Whereas Maki was born with a low presence of cursed energy, Toji was born with none at all. This means that since birth, Toji has had to train his senses in order to "see" curses. Maki, on the other hand, has only been free from her cursed energy for a couple of days.
Not only that, but we don't know much about Toji's past prior to Megumi and his mother. All we know is that he was ostracized by the clan, and didn't end up leaving until he was much older.
We don't know who trained him, or if he trained himself when it came to using weaponry. We also don't know his initial reasons for leaving, nor what unleashed his full awakening. My theory is the death of Fushiguro's biological mother, but since we don't have a solid timeline of things yet, it can only be considered an assumption. I'll come back to this idea later.
Point is, Maki is a sixteen year old girl whose only experience in sword combat comes from exorcising curses and planned school events. Prior to the massacre, when she did fight someone with better abilities (Geto) she was easily beat. This means that she needs someone to train her and help her utilize her sword to its fullest potential. What better person than Daido?
Of course, this is the most obvious outcome to all of this. It's where things seem to pointing towards meaning I wouldn't be surprised if this ends up being the answer to Maki's question. But perhaps there's a different answer, one that requires a deeper look into things.
3. Toji, The One Who Left it All Behind.
Toji, Toji, Toji. Oh what an interesting character you are. While some believe the difference between Maki and Toji falls on experience, others (including me) believe that it also has to do a lot with the psyche of both characters.
Toji, as we know, was born as an anomaly in a hierarchy that values tradition and order, over raw strength and power. Ostracized and berated since he was a kid, Toji Zenin had grown up to despise those he considered to be "gifted".
While living with the Zenin clan, Toji had become unstable. Whether this means he had become to the Sorcerer Killer by then or not, it was clear that the damage had been done...
That is until he met Megumi's mother.
Now, many are still unsure about whose who when it comes to Megumi's biological mother and his step-mother (Tsumiki's biological mother) and where the last name Fushiguro comes from.
I believe that throughout Toji relationship with Megumi's mother, he was always "Toji Zenin." Once she passed, he went through a spiral for a couple of years. Realizing he wasn't fit to be a single parent, he got hitched off with Tsumiki's mother who carried the last name "Fushiguro."
I say this because by the time Shiu Kong (the man who contracted Toji for the Star Plasma Assassination) comes into the story, he's surprised to hear that Toji doesn't go by Zenin anymore. Later on, he goes on to ask about Megumi and his wellbeing. To add onto this, in the fan book it's stated that Shiu Kong had gone to visit Toji when Megumi was very young, and that it was clear he did not know how to take care of a child.
This means that even when Megumi was an infant Toji was still known as "Toji Zenin," and didn't get hitched off with Tsumiki's mother until Megumi was around 3-4 years old, as Megumi is 6 when he meets Gojo (two years after star plasma arc).
The reason I'm emphasizing all this is because the version of Toji that Maki sees isn't "Toji Fushiguro" but "Toji Zenin," the one who set himself free from the Zenin curse. This is Toji's strongest form.
Granny Ogami makes sure to summon "Toji Zenin" as this was peak of power. I guess this makes it even all more surprising that a "rusty" version of himself could defeat an unawakened Gojo and Geto with ease.
Anyways, Toji was obviously his strongest when he was still living with the Zenin clan, and I can only imagine the spiral he went on after the death of Megumi's mother. To have the one person you love most, the person who has made you feel accepted after a life of rejection, be taken away from you is a grief like no other.
This is why I believe Toji, like Maki, had his final "awakening" after her death.
This is also where we enter the grounds of theories and speculation. While one could say that maybe Toji let the Zenin clan live on a whim prior to meeting Megumi's mother, I think it'd be more tragic had it been after her death. I think that after her death he had gone back to the clan compound with the idea of finally fulfilling the massacre, allowing his rage and grief to overcome him....
And yet, unlike Maki, he let them live.
That's what makes them so different.
Even after the years of abuse, at the end of the day, Toji still yearned to be accepted by the very same family who rejected him. He still wanted there to be a place for his son to thrive and live a better life than he ever did, even if it meant selling him off to the very same people who traumatized him.
This brings me to my next point. I believe that the biggest difference between Maki and Toji isn't bloodshed, but .... restraint.
Toji, before and after the death of Megumi's mother, had every reason to want the Zenin clan dead, and yet he never went through with it . Maki, on the other hand, couldn't bear the thought of letting her sister's biggest tormenters go unscathed, finally fulfilling one of her darkest desires. And now she's paying the price with the emergence of Naoya and his cursed form.
Either way, Maki no longer has anything to live for. She's a monster without a goal, not living herself but also not for others. There is no fire in her, no selfish need to want more, she's just there. It's almost as if she's floating in air.
While there is no denying that she's strong, her mental will is all over the place, and it's acting as her downfall.
When Naoya mentions that her mother was the one who killed him, there's a visible reaction from Maki.
Though Maki claims to be heartless, it seems that she still holds a number of complex feelings for her family, ranging from anger to sadness. She hasn't "left it all behind", meaning she'll never truly be free.
What makes Toji so complex is that he was able to do exactly that. He left his pride and resentment for the Zenin family behind. He left his past behind, marrying into a different name and starting a new life. And most importantly, he left his his love for his son, the product of he and his soulmate, go, forcing himself not to care until his death.
❝ I wanted to deny it, to go against it. Against the Zenin family that denied me, against the apex of the Jujutsu World.❞
Prior to this statement, Toji talks about his selfishness and that most of the time he wouldn't exert energy unless required. He even states that he doesn't work for free. meaning he only does things for his own benefit.
It seems that after the death of Megumi's mother, Toji had let go of any and all feelings for others, choosing a life of gambling, womanizing, and selfishness.
Of course, in the end, we see that it's all a farce. Toji's cared from the very beginning, but for years he forced himself to leave such feelings behind, thus making him "free." It isn't until his fight with Gojo Satoru that these feelings reemerge, both his love for his son and his desire to prove himself worthy to his family.
It's the one time he doesn't show restraint.
It's the one time he listened to that little voice in his ear.
And it's the first and final time he loses.
In order to truly be free, one must be willing to detach themselves from any and all emotions, both the good and bad ones. One must be willing to leave behind memories and attachments. Especially if you're going to a commit a clan massacre.
Of course, that's not to say the Zenin clan didn't have it coming, but at the end of day, no mass killing can ever truly be justified. The fact that Maki still holds onto such feelings after the event means she should've never done it in the first place. In the end, it was nothing more than temporary relief.
This is also why I was surprised to see Maki working along side Noritoshi. Honestly, I expected her to be closed off to the world, perhaps even adapting Toji's own mentality towards life.
All in all, Maki's biggest problem psychologically is that she isn't letting go. Instead, she's holding onto her feelings of resentment and its bringing her down. Not only that, but she continues to compare herself to Toji. I mean, remember what Sukuna said to Jogo during their fight.
❝ Humans flocking together. Curses flocking together. Comparing themselves to those around them leads to weakness and stunts their growth. You should have burnt everything you desired to a cinder without thinking. To reach the height of Satoru Gojo and not worry about the future or identity. But you lacked the hunger to take hold of your desires.❞
I'm definitely excited to see the aftermath of this fight with Naoya and where Maki goes from here. Will she continue to help her Jujutsu High kids or will she realize that perhaps she's better off alone...
4. Yuta and Maki
I'll probably write a whole separate post for this one day, but to say that Yuta and Maki's stories are weaved with each other would be an understatement.
Maki is the girl who sparked Yuta's will to live, so I wouldn't be surprised if Yuta finds himself wanting to return the favor. The only problem is that it's no coincidence that Yuta and Maki parallel Toji and Gojo, meaning I could see them clashing heads.
Of course, unlike Toji and Gojo, I could see them resolving their conflict, especially given that the two already have history with one another. Yuta is one of the very few people who accepts Maki for who she is, even offering his own words of support. He's also the first person to believe in her and look up to her, not finding her dream to be foolish in any way.
Ship wars aside, I'm excited to see this pair's reunion. Same goes for Maki and Nobara (crossing my fingers she's alive) as she's also someone who looks up to Maki.
To conclude, I think Maki has yet to process what she's done and is purposely repressing any feelings of regret with anger and violence. Until she acknowledges that what she did was wrong, and that maybe she should've gone things a different way, she will never truly be free, and the curse of the Zenin family will always follow her wherever she goes.
And just like Toji, if she's not careful, it'll ultimately lead to her death.
