What he realized more recently, though, was sometimes, the space wasn’t enough. Sometimes, the body kept the score, even in kids, and stepping into the safe space wasn’t enough for them to fully drop the shield they wore outside. Or the assumptions they had about things, about what they had to do, about what they deserved.
...
It started at practice, a few weeks into their new season, when Rochelle tried to shout a direction at someone across the field and ended up dissolving in a fit of coughing instead. His catcher had never exactly had weak lungs before, so he probably should’ve known it wasn’t nothing, whatever she might’ve said as Taylor pushed a water bottle into her hands and offered they switch.
Or:
A flu makes its rounds through the team. Just when everyone thinks it's blown over, a certain new catcher goes missing at practice, and Dan realizes he has more kids silently holding in pain than he thought.
We don't write enough Taylor angst that's not somehow related to Yuwen or Ira, and I felt like awarding time to a character who's given very little of it. Fic below:
After so many years of coaching, Dan liked to think he’d learned a lot, especially from his players.
More than anything he taught them, each new kid was a new experience for him, a new lesson learned or old one resurfaced. A new appreciation for something he might not have considered before.
One thing he was always keenly aware of was just how much of an impact he was capable of making in these kids’ lives. He knew better than most that having a safe, protected space to come to could be a godsend, especially with the way the world outside their little bubble could be. He worked hard to maintain it, for himself, and everyone else who stepped on to the field.
What he realized more recently, though, was sometimes, the space wasn’t enough. Sometimes, the body kept the score, even in kids, and stepping into the safe space wasn’t enough for them to fully drop the shield they wore outside. Or the assumptions they had about things, about what they had to do, about what they deserved.
…
It started at practice, a few weeks into their new season, when Rochelle tried to shout a direction at someone across the field and ended up dissolving in a fit of coughing instead.
His catcher had never exactly had weak lungs before, so he probably should’ve known it wasn’t nothing, whatever she might’ve said as Taylor pushed a water bottle into her hands and offered they switch.
The next day Laurie was (apparently quite reluctantly) told not to come for their usually scheduled sleepover, and Dan’s attention was tugged at.
They had a game the day after, wherein Taylor filled in as catcher - Dan had to admit having two trained catchers was a very useful model, and she filled the role masterfully - and Luciana sniffled the whole way through. For the first time ever Dan didn’t see her arguing with Borna. According to Laurie, neither of the two best friends were at school on Monday, and Dan realized what they were dealing with.
Junn quietly missed the next practice, along with Rochelle, Luciana, and Borna. Terrance gave everyone a wide berth, apparently afraid of catching whatever it was himself.
Yuwen came but with the hoarsest voice Dan had ever heard from the booming preteen. He acted in an almost drunken manner, an arrangement that ended in Taylor and Kai each taking him under one arm and marching him over to the dugout bench.
The coach watched his pitcher pout and whine at their new catcher in a way he surely wouldn’t dare to anymore if he had his wits about him. Before Dan could call Yuwen’s mother, Kai seemed to take pity on the boy and dragged him away from Taylor by the ear, coaxed him into a piggyback with his head lolling on her shoulder, muttered “it’s a short walk” and left the park with the delirious player.
Dan was glad they didn’t have a game that week, the poor kids.
Rochelle showed up good as new at their next practice, though uncharacteristically a little sheepish, probably down to the fact that Borna, Yuwen, and - bless his heart - Terrance did not.
Kai came all smiles and energy as always. An impressively convincing display considering the girl had then proceeded to practically fall asleep sitting up on the bench with what Dan was fairly sure was the highest fever out of any of the kids yet just based on touch.
“I really thought you knew better by now,” Taylor huffed, pinching the bridge of her nose as she laid an icepack from the cooler against Kai’s forehead. The taller girl seemed oddly comfortable with these acts of caretaking. Dan knew she had a little brother (Ira was currently across the fence, making up a drumbeat on the bleachers) and that her mother was a nurse, but nothing else really.
“’Wen’s fault…” the 13 year old mumbled, sluggishly pushing away the water Dan was trying to coax her to drink.
“He didn’t make you come, or lie about being okay,” Taylor countered. The man hummed gently in agreement.
The older kid just moaned and leaned into Dan’s side from where she sat close to him on the bench. Dan tilted his head in sympathy, obligingly wrapping an arm around her form and rubbing her shoulder in comfort.
Laurie caught it next, probably down to being the one to half support, half carry Kai to James’ car that day. She crawled weakly into Dan’s bed one night while her and Paula were staying with him for the weekend, all shivers and sweating through her shirt twice as fast as usual, his poor Lare-Bear.
The proximity led to Paula catching it too, then Dan himself. He didn’t get hit too bad, though, escaping with just a sore throat, some congestion and an unsettled stomach that thankfully never tipped over into vomiting; Paula wasn’t as lucky on that front, bringing up her breakfast on the first morning, but thankfully not getting any worse than that. The three of them holed up in his new apartment for a few days of rest, and emerged good to go by the end of the next week.
Laurie kept him updated through the kids’ group-chat that Borna was finally feeling better, and it had come and gone through Hannah and Tom too while they’d been dealing with it.
Terrance apparently asked her to personally apologize to Dan for not being able to manage the practice schedule last time and say that he’d be back this week.
He saw Kai and Yuwen running around, back to their usual selves as well by the time Laurie went back to school, and everyone was convinced the flu had run its course.
He tried not to chew himself out too hard for that one later.
…
Their next practice started out the smoothest any of them had gone in weeks. Most of the kids seemed eager to get moving again now that they were actually feeling like themselves, though he warned them all to take it a little easier; he really did not want anyone to relapse.
“Shut up, boy!” Rochelle was shouting across the space between the catcher’s box and pitcher’s mound.
“I’m just sayin,” Yuwen shrugged back lazily, tossing the ball from one hand to the other.
“From what I hear, I’m not the only one who came to practice ‘infected,’” the catcher pointed at him, scowling.
Yuwen shot a suspicious glance at Kai, standing close by, who put her hands up and said, “Just told her you came sick. Nothing else.”
The boy looked relieved. Rochelle smirked and raised an eyebrow, “Was there something else?”
“Okay,” Dan intervened quickly, stepping in the space between the two. He was happy to see the catcher and pitcher back to their usual disparate harmony, but he didn’t see a need for this to go any further. “Let’s take a water break, everyone! Then Taylor can practice catching for a bit, ‘kay Rochelle?”
“‘Kay, she’s not back from the bathroom yet though,” the catcher said as she pulled off her armor.
“Oh?” Dan looked around the field and didn’t see the girl. He saw Kai doing the same, her brow furrowed.
“She’s been gone a minute...” the center-fielder murmured, already moving towards the gate as though going to look, where she nearly collided with Luciana.
They both yelped ‘sorry’s at the same time and Kai backed up quickly, “Hey, hey, Luci, didja see Tay while you were in the restroom?”
“Uh, no?” the pink-haired girl adjusted her ponytail, frowning.
“Did you see… the restroom?” he heard Borna joke, gesturing at the girl’s bangs as he passed her her water bottle. She snorted and they walked into the dugout with the air of a brewing squabble.
Kai turned towards Dan, her face taut with worry now, “Coach, do you think-“
“I’m sure she’s alright,” he said, putting a hand on Kai’s shoulder.
Rochelle was lingering by the dugout, still holding her helmet, listening, and Laurie walked over from her spot by the fence - her favorite place to stand and cheer or take notes during practice ever since she'd quit playing - to stand beside Kai, he looked at all three of them reassuringly.
“How about you go check the girl’s bathroom, just in case. And I’ll check around outside. We’ll find her.”
He spoke it to Kai, though Laurie and Rochelle both followed as she nodded and hurried away.
He poked his head into the dugout to tell the rest of the team he’d only be gone for a minute, and to please behave, his gaze passed over Luciana and Borna as the boy was unceremoniously shoved.
As he made his way towards the side of the restroom building, his mind flicked automatically through what it should have earlier.
Rosh, Luciana and Borna, Yuwen, Kai and Laurie…
All had gotten sick, all were better now. It kept flicking through names.
…Hannah, Tom, Taylor… Taylor…
Had she? She might have, over the weekend, and just hadn’t notified anyone like the others.
Taylor? Be the one to not share important info like that?
Slim chance. Dan was worried now too.
He had just completed a full circle around the restroom building when he heard a quiet noise, like something thumping down into the grass, not loud, but he followed it towards the equipment shed anyway.
The noise was then followed by a different one, breathing. But not normal sounding, the kind that was heavy and fast, like it was being taken in bursts. Similar to what he sometimes heard from the kids during warmups, when they forgot to breathe through the movements.
This was far from a warmup session, though, as it turned out.
Dan rounded the corner to the back of the shed to see Taylor hunched over on her hands and knees.
He froze for a split second. The girl was facing away, her shoulders rising and falling in fast, uneven breaths. He half registered a slight foul smell in the air as he unfroze and rushed over.
“Taylor! Whoa, hey.”
He crouched hurriedly beside the girl, anxiety now edged with panic.
“…C- Coach?”
The girl’s head turned towards him. She looked awful, her eyes shadowed and watery, her face with a definite grayish tinge in the sunlight.
“Hey, kiddo,” he kept his voice as low and steady as possible, “what’s wrong?”
She opened her mouth, then covered it with a fist and looked away again, “Nugh- mmg- s-sorry…”
Dan realized what was happening a split second before the girl’s shoulders hiked up and she hunched further in on herself as she retched into the grass. By the look of the ground in front of her, not for the first time.
“Oh, kiddo,” he murmured, sympathy flooding through him like cold water. He instinctively reached out to place a hand on her upper back but she flinched and made a strangled noise of protest at the contact and he pulled it away.
It was only a moment later she spat out the last of the wave and sat, groaning and shaky, back on her knees. The sun illuminated her face, shiny with sweat and contorted in pain.
“It’s okay, you’re safe,” he assured, reaching out again but warning her this time, “I’m just gonna touch your forehead, that’s all.”
She still tensed as he did so but didn’t flinch away. He wasn’t surprised to find the skin overheated and clammy. Not the warmest fever-heat he’d felt that month, but not great.
He heard Taylor stifle a burp and prepared for her to double over again. She held out for a moment, though, swaying slightly.
“S… sorry…” she said again, her head turning sideways towards him, “d- didn’t mean to…”
“It’s okay, really, don’t be sorry. We all already caught it, you’re just the last one,” he smiled sadly, pushing one free-hanging lock of braided hair out of her face. She tensed slightly at that too, and he felt guilty for forgetting so quickly.
Her expression shifted briefly to something like confusion at his words, “W- wha… I… d…”
She didn’t get to go on as another wave of nausea rolled through her and she dropped back to all fours.
A small whimper of sympathy escaped Dan before he could stop it.
Every instinct told him to rub the sick kid’s back, to cuff her shoulder, to wrap his arms around her in a gentle hug between waves. But if physical touch was only going to make it worse, he would do his best without it.
“You’re okay. It’ll pass. It’s all alright,” he murmured, as warm and gentle as he could. He saw how little food she was bringing up and winced. The preteen's muscles were tensing and rolling in spasms as her body fought desperately to expel what was ailing her, “I know it hurts. Just let it all out. It’ll go away.”
A small sob forced its way out of her shaking frame, and another sympathetic noise slipped out as he continued to whisper comforts. He’d never seen Taylor look so small, so fragile.
She was normally one of the kids who practically never stopped, though she lacked the bravado of Yuwen, the hustle of Rochelle, the eagerness to prove herself like Kai. Her confidence always felt so… earnest, not looking for any attention. He’d only learned recently that being a catcher was even a personal goal of hers; most of the time she just filled needs that came. Especially recently, Dan admitted. He never asked her to, but now, seeing the state she was in, he wondered if he should’ve done more than just not ask. He’d never tried to stop her either.
Taylor gasped for air and coughed as finally, finally, the retching let up, for now at least. With effort, she weakly pushed herself back on her knees again and wiped her mouth.
“Good job,” he cooed, puffing out a breath, “you did so good.”
The middle-schooler grunted miserably in acknowledgment. Her dizzy swaying was worse than before, Dan noticed.
He offered his hands out and suggested, hoping not to pressure her, “You don’t have to get up yet, but, I can help you sit comfier?”
She hesitated, then reluctantly took them. He gripped her clammy palms gently and helped ease her back to sit fully with her legs splayed out in front of her, leaning back against the wall of the shed.
“Dad!”
Laurie’s fearful voice sounded suddenly behind him, and he turned to see his daughter running up to them, anxiously gripping her hands together as she took in the scene.
“Hey, Laur,” he managed a reassuring smile, “It’s okay. Everything’s gonna be fine. Can you do me a favor and get Taylor’s water bottle for me?”
Laurie nodded worriedly and scurried away towards the field. Dan turned back to Taylor, who gulped thickly and looked down, not meeting his eyes.
He kept his tone as soft and non-accusing as possible as he asked what he’d asked all the under-the-weather kids he’d ever dealt with who had decided training was more important than their own bodies, “Why didn’t you say anything?”
Her foot thumped nervously on the ground in front of her as she mumbled, voice thin and ragged after the bout, “I didn’t think… I mean… I didn’t know I was… sick… I… am… I?”
Dan blinked, momentarily thrown off by bewilderment, “Yes? You… you just got finished throwing up, Taylor.”
“Y- yeah, I mean, ‘course, ‘course I did,” she attempted a forced chuckle, as if trying to play her question off as just her being silly, and coughed a little into her sleeve instead.
“So… how would you think you’re not sick?” he inquired, not letting it go immediately.
She hesitated, her lips tight in a way Dan was fairly sure didn’t have to do with nausea, “I just… sometimes… do that anyway… so…”
“What?” he interrupted, a little alarm slipping into his voice against his will.
“N- not all the time or anything,” she said quickly, “just… when I’m stressed… mostly.”
Mostly?
“And, I kinda… well… Ira started coughing last night…”
Dan hadn’t thought anything of Ira’s absence today. Sometimes the curious young boy came with Taylor to practice, and sometimes he didn’t. He had considered that the girl’s little brother likely wouldn’t be immune to this flu either, and warned him to keep his distance from the team, but also realized that if Taylor had the choice not to bring him along, she likely wouldn’t.
He shook off his thoughts and worries and nodded, encouraging her to continue.
“So, like, I’ve been worried all day… and tired… and I thought… that was enough to make me flare up. I didn’t-“
She was interrupted by hurried footsteps as Lauire came back with the teal, sticker covered bottle. She passed it to him and then stood anxiously, eyeing her ill former-teammate. She was followed a moment later by Rochelle, Kai, and Yuwen, clearly having caught on to the situation.
“Taylor! Are you okay?” Yuwen asked first as they came running up, his usual cockiness gone. That shouldn’t have surprised the coach.
“Clearly no,” Rochelle told him immediately, “and I don’t think she needs obvious questions right now.”
“Oh, Tay…” Kai frowned sympathetically.
Dan looked back at Taylor. She’d brought her knees up to her chest, not meeting any of their eyes as her chin rested on her arms. Her face was contorted with something else now. Shame. Unmistakably. Dan’s heart hurt. Rochelle was right, she very much did not look in the mood for any of her peers’ questions or stares.
“She’ll be okay, you all. Everything’ll be alright. You can head back to the field now.”
“But-“
“Now, please. I’ll be there soon,” he asserted gently.
The three players hovered reluctantly. Laurie looked at him for a moment, then nodded, understanding filling her gaze as it one more time flicked to Taylor.
“C’mon, guys,” his daughter took a step away and beckoned the others to follow.
The two girls stepped toward her. Yuwen hesitated and Laurie held the pitcher’s gaze, unabashed, for a moment. The boy swallowed and turned to follow as well. Dan knew he could trust none of the other kids would come interrupting as he watched Laurie walk back towards the field.
“Here,” he turned back to Taylor once they’d left, handing her the water, “drink slowly.”
She sipped carefully in silence for a moment, exhaling with relief as the cool water flowed over her ravaged throat. Afterwards her gaze dropped back to the ground. The shame wasn’t gone from her eyes.
“I didn’t know I’d caught it, okay?” she muttered, sounding defeated, though they hadn’t been arguing, “I wouldn’t lie, promise. I was just being dumb.”
“No, no. You’re not dumb, kiddo. Really not. You hear me? I’m just worried that you thought it was normal. Is… is this normal for you?”
He gestured at the puddle of vomit, soaking into the grass.
“Yeah? No? It’s… not usually that bad. Hardly ever that bad. I just wasn’t thinking clear. Of course I’m just sick,” she sighed and rubbed her eyes, sniffling.
“Do you know… I mean…” Dan trailed off, realizing that questions from her coach probably weren’t much fun right now either, “I don’t wanna pry, and I know you don’t feel good but, can I ask why? Why throwing up is normal to you, I mean. This is the first time I’ve ever seen you do it.”
The catcher hugged her shoulders, a small, sickly shiver running through her.
“Acid reflux,” she began, “and IBS that makes it worse sometimes. And some other stuff we’re not sure about. It’s really not that bad. Like I said, mostly I’m fine unless I’m stressed, and practice isn’t stressful. Games are… fine. I mean, they’re all the emotions. It’s overwhelming sometimes but I manage.”
She looked up, then down again embarrassedly, as if she’d said too much. Dan just nodded neutrally, though.
“Okay. That’s all okay, you know. And listen, we can talk more later. But, if you ever feel this way - even a little this way - at practice, or at a game, you can always say something,” he assured, “Nothing’s more important than you guys taking care of yourselves. I guess I really need to remind y’all more.”
A ghost of a smile appeared on the girl’s face for a moment, then she nodded and said, “Okay… uh… are you sure… I mean…” she trailed off and rubbed her face again, as if trying to formulate her words was difficult, then tried again, “I guess I usually think… it’s… there’s not time for… for that…”
“Not time?”
“Yeah- uh- forget it. Never mind,” she waved it off sluggishly, looking awkward.
“Of course there’s time, Taylor,” he assured anyway, “There’ll always be time here for how you feel. Okay?”
The girl blinked at that. Dan smiled sadly seeing that her downcast eyes were glistening a bit. He waited patiently as she blinked a few more times and coughed once, seeming to compose herself, “Okay… th- thanks, I guess I just… don’t like making it a big deal. Or people asking stuff. Or people… laughing.”
He frowned.
This kid…
“I get it. But no one’s gonna laugh. It’s nothing to be embarrassed about.”
Her head turned with exaggerated slowness towards the vomit as she gave the most disbelieving deadpan expression he’d ever seen.
“Really, I’m serious,” he asserted, suppressing a chuckle. He was glad to see her acting a little more like herself, but he needed to make sure she understood, “and it’s not ever gonna be okay if they do laugh. I’ll make sure they know. That’s what I do. Everyone’s got a job, it’s my job to make sure you take care of yourselves while you have fun. So, I’ll always have time for this.”
She gave a small nod, then finally looked up at him, her dulled eyes not quite meeting his, but nonetheless attentive.
“And I’ve seen much worse than a kid throwing up,” he continued good-naturedly.
“Really?” she asked quietly.
“Really.”
He was a dad of two, and he’d been coaching kids of a variety of ages for the better part of his whole life. He was desensitized much more than most to any “grossness” that came with having a body.
The girl fiddled absently with one of her tied-up braids, thinking, “Hmm.”
“Not everyone has to know when something’s going on. It can stay between you and me. Just, try not to go hiding away like this again.”
He gestured around at the space, which had become shaded by the afternoon sun. Taylor looked around too and puffed out a breath, then looked back and nodded in agreement. Her eyes were tired, but sincere.
“Good,” he smiled, “Now, you think you can walk?”
She wiped her brow with the back of her wrist and took another sip of water, then said, “Probably…”
She looked reluctant though. Whether it was because of illness or still not feeling up to facing her teammates, he gave her the choice, “You can also stay here for a little longer, take your time. If you sit tight, I’ll grab you a towel, and maybe some ice, and call your mom.”
She nodded but told him, “She’s probably at the hospital right now.”
“Your dad then,” he amended.
She groaned and pressed the heel of her hand to her face, “He’s gonna make that soup I hate.”
Dan chuckled again, looser now, “Just part of being a dad, kid. You can’t get too mad.”
The girl rubbed her temples to fend back a headache, though she was smiling a little too.
He gestured for her to wait there, got up and started towards the dugout.
He kept his ears open as he came towards the gate, automatically bracing for some kind of squabble or mess. He heard nothing of the sort.
The coach stepped onto the field and scanned the area, spotting his kids making their way in a loose line across the opposite side. They were jogging laps. Laurie was following slowly at the back of the group, calling encouragements.
Dan smiled, surprised. He had no idea how she’d swung that, but as she glanced over and spotted him he clapped his hands and poured all his gratitude and love out into his face. He’d been trying to let the expansive emotions he felt show more lately, especially his care. His daughters deserved it. Laurie smiled back, then turned to her team again.
He stepped into the empty dugout and grabbed an ice pack from the cooler, then the towel that was sitting at the top of Taylor’s open bag.
With the items in hand, he made his way back to the space behind the shed.
He returned to find Taylor leaning back against the wall again, her legs no longer scrunched up. She’d edged further away from the puddle of vomit now. Her eyes were closed. Her brow still betrayed discomfort, but that was all. No panic. No embarrassment. No shame.
He sat down quietly beside her.
Her eyes opened halfway and she glanced toward him slowly.
“May I?” he asked, indicating her and then the ice pack and cloth. She nodded.
First, he gently wiped around her mouth, and then her damp brow with the small towel, then picked up the flexible blue pack again. It was cold enough to have numbed his fingers on the walk over here. He wrapped the clean side of the towel around the outside to take the sharp edge off that cold before laying it across her forehead. She still gasped softly at the initial sensation, then sighed after a moment, relief etched on her exhausted face at the respite from the oppressive heat she’d no doubt felt when she wasn’t shivering.
The 12 year old’s eyes closed again as she inhaled deeply. Her breathing was still a little heavy, and slightly congested now, but it was even and deep, and gradually slowing down as she mumbled a sleepy, “Thanks… coach…”
He smiled.
He would step away soon, call her dad, gently rouse her so she could go home to her brother and some unwanted, probably sorely needed, soup. But, right now, he would just let her have a moment. He would give her the time she hadn’t thought she was allowed to have. A little longer of this peace amidst the safe, quiet space.
It’s Time to Defend Taylor from Win or Lose (2025)
I don’t normally voice my disagreements with how people ingest media in a public manner. Everyone is entitled to their own opinion. HOWEVER…too many people are coming after Taylor from Pixar’s Win or Lose (2025) and ion like that so…
With TV/film suppressing so much Black Girl representation, seeing Taylor, Kai, and Rochelle as a part of the main cast was exciting! This rant will be about how viewers have reacted to just Taylor though, concerning episodes 5 and 6.
Get cozy because there’s a lot to unpack here. Here’s your SPOILER ALERT!
I thought Taylor and Yuwen made a very cute couple. I love how they depicted what it’s like falling in love during your awkward years. Yuwen was very sweet with Taylor and it was clear Taylor brought out the best in Yuwen (as confirmed by Kai).
Of course, their relationship comes to a rocky patch when Yuwen becomes jealous and insecure when he sees Taylor and Tom interacting. For these interactions, keep in mind that they are portrayed from Yuwen’s perspective. Taylor eventually calls things off when Yuwen purposely catches Taylor off-guard to pitch the ball, which causes Taylor to miss and the other team to make a run.
On social media I have seen the cutest edits to this imaginary couple. I’ve also seen some sad ones. In almost every sad one, Taylor is casted as the villain. The comments are even worse! Many place the fault on Taylor for hurting Yuwen, or worse, cast her off as “the worst girlfriend AND big sister”. They have massacred my poor Shayla despite her getting just as hurt, if not more.
Let’s break it down:
1. In episode 6, we are introduced to the “real” Yuwen. The Yuwen we see is outwardly very cocky, self-assured and sometimes aloof. Yuwen deals with social anxiety and insecurity by hiding behind a “Class clown” persona. He relies on humor and positive attention to thrive among his peers. We also see his inner child, who is very sweet and portrays Yuwen’s real feelings.
2. Episode 5 and 6 give a more detailed look into Taylor. She is a great softball player and gets along well with her teammates. It’s shown that Tom and Taylor are good friends. Pre-relationship, Taylor and Yuwen can be seen sharing easy banter with each other. I think it’s important to note that Taylor never instigates such banter and only participates at Yuwen’s insistance. Taylor is also held responsible for her younger brother, Ira, during the games (More on this later).
3. Taylor is well aware of this from the jump. On their first date to the movies, she explicitly assures Yuwen to just be himself. And he does — as best as he can, anyhow.
Yuwen eventually opens up to Taylor and reveals his “inner child”. A very touched Taylor reveals her “inner child” in return. In doing so, they both share a personal secret: Yuwen shares he is very insecure, while Taylor shares that she gets nauseous when nervous.
Claim #1: It’s Taylor’s fault for hurting Yuwen, he’s obviously insecure and she knows this!
Aht aht! Wait a min… let’s refute this ridiculous opinion (because it’s important to realize that these comments are JUST OPINIONS)
Obviously they are just kids, but let’s give a little bit of credit here. Kids can go through amazing growth in interpersonality and emotional intelligence. Yuwen is shown to struggle with letting his guard down, but he made an active decision to do so with Taylor. Taylor recognizes this and returns the favor. It’s a hugesign of mutual trust. To keep that trust, you’ve got to work at it.
The first incident that lead to their breakup occurs at school. Tom hands Taylor her dropped cell phone and the two engage in a conversation. While Yuwen is shown to be initially irritated, it quickly turns to crushing insecurity and leads to Taylor pushing him away after he butts into the conversation with an ill-timed joke. If you pay close attention to Taylor’s expression, tone, and what is being said to Tom, it is clear she is concerned for Tom. During the conversation it is revealed that something might be wrong with Tom’s brother and it is somehow related to Tom’s academic troubles (which eventually leads into Rochelle’s storyline).
Now, Taylor doesn’t yell at Yuwen, she doesn’t scream or accuse him of being a jerk. All she asks for is that Yuwen can be serious at times. Which is fair. It’s clear that Tom’s brother is a sensitive topic, and even though Yuwen isn’t aware of the situation, he unfortunately chose to give into his insecurities and push the clown narrative, despite Taylor’s initial warning (the push away).
After a dramatic, emotional montage of inner child Yuwen and inner child Taylor fighting and crying, it jumps to the night of the championships. From Yuwen’s perspective, Taylor angrily brushes past him on the way to the field, leaving Yuwen hurt.
However, in the episode prior, Ira’s perspective shows that Taylor in fact reaches out to Yuwen in an attempt to understand why Yuwen is being aloof and clearly upset. Yuwen, retreating to his humor shield, mockingly repeats Taylor’s request to “use your words”. Taylor tells him he is being rude, and he shoots back that Taylor is being rude, still upset over her reaction at his jokes towards Tom at school. Yuwen is then shown to be the one walking away from Taylor as she confronts her brother. Yuwen is shutting Taylor out.
But before yall come and say it’s because Taylor hurt his feelings, remember that Taylor was just as hurt after their argument. She is literally crying in the car on the way to the game. Leave my poor girl alone, she has feelings too!
Now to the actual game.
Earlier in the episode, Taylor enlists Yuwen’s help in practicing her catches, as she’d like to be catcher one day. Yuwen initially doesn’t take Taylor seriously (out of concern of course), but when Taylor get’s upset and expresses frustration, he finally gets with the program.
While in the pit, the team notice the animosity between the couple and Tom decides to spill the tea Taylor told him and announce that Yuwen’s acting the way he is because he is insecure. Okay a few things to unpack here. First, Taylor is sitting with her headphones on, so she doesn’t know Tom has announced this. Second, remember Taylor and Tom are close (platonically), I assume this was a private conversation (perhaps as a way to apologize to Tom on Yuwen’s behalf) that went down after Taylor and Yuwen’s argument.
Yuwen takes the slight very hard and retaliates by sharing to the whole team that Taylor wants to take Rochelle’s place as catcher, but he voices doubt that Taylor is no where near as good as Rochelle for it to be feasible. Taylor hears (since Yuwen is speaking with an increased volume) and takes off her headphones to fix him a glare (but doesn’t say anything). But before, she is sitting there looking heartbroken.
So, when the coach asks for a temporary fill-in for Rochelle (she is absent atm), Taylor volunteers. The coach decides he wants to be stupid and asks if Taylor thinks she’s a better catcher than Rochelle (despite NOBODY wanting to volunteer for the catcher positon except Taylor). He dismisses the dumb comment at Taylor’s pointed expression. This hits hard since now that is TWO people instilling or voicing disbelief in Taylor’s catching capabilities, despite the hard work and success that’s being put in!
Yuwen’s not done though. In another insecure attack, he picks fun at Taylor and discretely reveals her secret by “encouraging” her not to puke if she gets nervous in front of the whole team. It backfires though and the whole team regard Yuwen coldly. Taylor, always forced into being the bigger person, just tells Yuwen “I’ll see you on the field”. On the field, Yuwen refuses to listen to Taylor’s pitch signs, which leads to the eventual missed catch.
Taylor is through. Rightfully so. She’s visibly upset and frustrated towards Yuwen’s behavior towards her because Yuwen is refusing to communicate and show nothing but animosity (plus, he’s broken her trust by intentionally sharing her secret to the whole team) So, she ends things, and walks off the field.
Claim #2: Taylor is the worst because she treats Ira horribly!
Honestly, it’s giving yall just want an excuse to hate on Black girls. I feel like I didn’t see this opinion until after episode six, soooooooo, the math ain’t mathin if yall are just really defensive of Ira.
Episode 5 is told from Ira’s perspective. Ira is Taylor’s imaginative little brother who accompanies Taylor at softball meets (probably due to her parents just dropping him off with Taylor). Taylor is left to look after him while playing the game. Despite her slight annoyance (which I think is justified), she still cares deeply about her brother (i.e. replying to Ira’s complaints and announcements during the game).
In a move reminiscent to Nico and Bianca Di Angelo (but, you know, without the total abandonment and death), Taylor starts hanging out with Yuwen, which doesn’t bode well with Ira. In Ira’s eyes, Taylor is the only one who gets him. So he decided to roll with the “Bleacher Creatures” after they show interest in him.
Taylor voices her concern with that fact and pulls their mom into it when Ira shows disinterest in her warnings. Taylor is justifiably worried about her brother hanging around the kids that obviously cause some trouble. She even tells Yuwen about it, and he agrees to talk to Ira. The timing is a bit unclear, but I assume that the movie date had happened just before that (with Ira spilling about Taylor’s boyfriend happening before that — whew, work with me here!). So the next morning on the school bus, Yuwen’s attempt to fist bump Ira (Ira chooses to lick Yuwen’s fist instead ) was also Yuwen’s attempt at bonding with Ira at Taylor’s request.
But before yall come with the: “but she yelled at Ira before the game!”
She is upset with Yuwen and Ira chose to interrupt… what did yall think was gonna happen?
Taylor is frustrated. She has been put in the position of having to read between the lines and make decisions for people and she’s tired.
Ira was able to come to terms that what he did with the Bleacher Creatures was wrong by himself. When you have an older sis calling all the shots, it can be difficult to decide on your own. It’s a moment of growth for Ira.
I’m not dismissing that Ira’s feelings got hurt about his sister distancing from him, but Taylor is her own person as well.
In conclusion, Taylor’s actions are justified and she is also a victim in this scenario, not just Yuwen. Insecurity should not be an excuse to hurt your partner. I hope Yuwen talks to Taylor and they make up, but yall better recognize that Yuwen hurt Taylor too.
Taylor was so sweet and mature throughout both episodes and it sucks that she had to deal with all that. I love the comparison to Nico and Bianca, they are just like them. It painful to watch Yuwen constantly shut Taylor down due to his own fears because he was hurting her and himself in the process. I also have siblings and it can be hard to find an identity outside of them but when you do you’re all the better for it because you each get to grow as people.
I think it’s also important to point out that Taylor can’t be older than 13. She’s still a little girl. She handled things to the best of ability but she’s still young and nobody is perfect. I’m proud of her anyway and she deserves some kindness.
Yuwen needs to see how his actions affect others and himself. Ira needs to learn how to make his own decisions and learn from his mistakes. Taylor should be allowed to make choices that are good for her and she’s not just there to make others feel better about themselves when they mess up. They are each essential in facilitating this growth in each of their characters.
Kept thinking abt my small headcannon abt Yuwen being clueless to Kai being trans and just needed to write a small thing to go with it so here
(no warnings)
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"Okay, so, big news?" Yuwen asks Kai, hopping out of the back of his mother's food truck. He plops himself down right next to her, stretching his feet out in front of him. He looks at his best friend, expectantly. "You've got me on the edge of my seat!"
"Don't over hype it," Kai smiles, giving the boy a light shove. "You're making me nervous."
"Bro!" Yuwen groans, dragging out the vowel. "Just tell me. C'mon. Tell me right now or I'm gonna scream—"
"Alright, alright. Geeze." She breathes, looking to Yuwen then to her hands. She twists them together, attempting an air of faux casualty. "I'm getting my name changed," she does little jazz hands. "Like officially."
Yuwen blinks at her. Then starts clapping.
"Whoo!" He cheers, a smile spreading across his face. "Changing your name! Heck yeah! That's so cool!" He tells her, clappinga hand on her shoulder. She takes the praise, her smile threatening to burst from her mouth.
"Yeah," she shrugs looking away. "It is kinda cool. I can finally stop worrying about it. So...it's cool."
Really? It was way way way more than cool. She hadn't stopped feeling like she was floating since her dad gave her the news this morning.
"No that's so cool!" Yuwen agrees, nodding warmly. "Quick question though?"
"Shoot."
"Why are you changing your name?"
She blinks, completely thrown off by the question. "So... I don't have to worry about my deadname anymore?" She explains, mouth down turned at the corners. Yuwen nods, though he clearly doesn't understand.
"Deadname?" He asks, also attempting something faux casual.
"Yeah." Kai starts to shuffle back and forth in her board. Yuwen just stares. "The name I was given at birth?"
"It wasn't Kai?"
"No?" She laughs a little. "Kai's a nickname of my dead name."
"Okay." Yuwen nods again. He still doesn't understand but his face is flat, attempting something serious. "You keep saying deadname. Like it's really bad. Is your birth name that bad? That you have to change it?"
"Well...no?" Kai shrugs. "It's not necessarily a bad name. It's just... not my name. And, y'know, most people change their name from their dead name during their transition?"
"What does your transition have to do with changing your name?" Yuwen asks. He sounds so utterly genuine it makes Kai do a complete factory reset.
"Yuwen..." Kai trails off, leveling her friend with a suspicious look. Her hands give his shoulders a gentle squeeze but he winces despite it. He looks nervous. "You do know I'm trans, right?"
He blinks at her. Once. Twice.
"What?"
His mouth opens and closes, his eyes almost bugging out of his head.
"I'm transgender, Yuwen." She says, slower. Her words are perfectly pronounced, with emphasis on each syllable. "I was assigned male at birth. Yuwen."
"No..." He whispers, his mouth hanging open. Kai nods slowly.
He blinks and shakes his head. She drops her hands, her shoulders slumping and her brows furrowing.
"Yes. I'm transgender. You know this. Right, Yuwen?"
"You didn't know?"
"No clue. Deadass."
"But..." Kai trails off, blinking around at her surroundings as she attempted to wrap her head around this new information.
"Wait, so what did you think I meant when I told Rochelle I didn't have any pads that one time?" Kai asks, incredulous. Yuwen gives her a helpless shrug.
"I don't know. I thought you were just a late bloomer or something!" His face goes red at the look Kai gives him. "Well I wasn't going to ask."
"Okay." Kai breathes out, leveling her friend with another serious look. She's still not completely sure he's not making some stupid joke. "What about when I talk to you about going on estrogen in the future?"
"Not gonna lie," Yuwen looks away, sheepishly rubbing his neck. "I didn't know what that meant. I was just waiting for you to explain it."
"I—I was literally on a baseball team before I came here!" She splutters, throwing her hands out in genuine bewilderment. A smile threatens to break out across her face from genuine shock. She wills it down though, not wanting Yuwen to get even more confused.
"Were on a co-ed softball team!" Yuwen immediately defends. "It's not crazy to think there'd be co-ed baseball teams too!"
"You mean when you grew your hair out?"
"Holy—" Kai let's out an exasperated sigh, throwing her head back. Yuwen groans or whines or something. Kai doesn't really know, she's too busy being disappointed. "All the times I mention my transition? What did you think that meant?"
Kai barks out a laugh. A sharp shocked laughter that nearly throws her whole body into the food truck. Yuwen huffs, moving to shove her off her skateboard. She dodged, completely on accident. She was just too absorbed in her laughter.
She finally manages to calm herself down a few moments later, righting herself.
"You literally met me pre-transition! I hadn't even told my dad yet when we met!"
"What?" Yuwen breathes out, sounding the most shocked out of this entire conversation. "No. You....you introduced yourself as Kai."
"Yeah." Kai says, nodding along to Yuwens genuinely shocked face. "That was the first time anyone outside of my family had ever called me Kai without it being a nickname."
Yuwen doesn't say anything. When Kai turns to him she's met with the sight of Yuwen, folded up, with his head in his knees. His face, completely and utterly distraught as he processes the information.
Kai giggles some more to herself, pulling out her phone to text Laurie about the realization. Yuwen, always in tune to the sound of texting, snaps his head to her with a quickness.
"Who are you texting?" He rushes, panicked as he begins to lean into her space. Kai expertly dodges it, holding her phone away from the boy while she waits for Laurie's response.
"Just Laurie. She needs to know about this."
"No!" Yuwen panics, reaching for her phone. "You can't! She's hanging with Rochelle right now!"
"And that's bad why?" Kai hums, laughing when Laurie sends back an entire brick of text. Most of it just laughing.
Yuwen is cut off by the sound of his phone buzzing. One glance at the screen tells both pre-teens that Taylor is the one calling. Kai glances back at the text Laurie sent while Yuwen dives for his phone shoved into the side of his backpack.
"Because then Rochelle will tell Tom and Tom will tell Taylor and then she'll think I'm a total idiot and—"
"Oh..." Kai winces, turning to Yuwen. "Turns out Taylor was with Rochelle and Laurie already."
"She's gonna think I'm stupid." He whines, sinking down."
"You are stupid." Kai shrugs, returning back to her original position, before she'd had her space so rudely invaded.
With one final sigh and a small prayer, Yuwen answers the phone.
Their third teammate was curled on her side under a light blanket, protesting weakly at the cold of the cloth.
What had started as unrelenting but manageable chills had given way to a fever so high that even Grian, who naturally ran higher than most as an avian, could feel it if he brushed against her.
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Sorta an alternate take on Gem being sick the first session of Past Life, basically just Gem getting pretty ill and Pearl and Grian worrying + some found family Villies fluff
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The first night in the lighthouse was peaceful. Despite Gem, Pearl and Grian’s enthusiasm about the idea of being the chaotic villains of the server this season, once the beds were made in their humble sandstone tower-base, all three were out like a light, thoroughly worn out from the first session. Especially Gem, whose body seemed to be having a rougher time adjusting to the new, less-polished beta world. She’d been pale and shivery the whole time, her voice raspy as if the fog of the out-dated landscapes burned her throat. Pearl and Grian hadn’t worried much, especially at Gem’s insistence that she was fine and simply needed a good night’s sleep in a proper base to get accustomed to the environment.
Grian woke slowly, sunlight from the window hitting the avian hybrid’s face as he opened his eyes groggily.
He sat up and stretched his wings out behind him until they touched the wall. They were brown and white this season, plus a little grey; he’d been unsure what species he was mixed with (he was always some sort of bird, but never the same type between life cycles) until Etho had shown him pictures of something called a “pootoo”, and apparently he’d “unhinged his jaw in a very similar way while laughing”, and that was good enough for him. Not quite as fabulous as his peacock features last season, but it was what it was.
He looked over at the other two beds along the wall near his. Pearl’s was empty; he guessed the moth hybrid had chosen to get an early start on the farm (it seemed the crops were somehow more sensitive in this less polished world), but Gem’s still held a Villie-shaped lump hidden entirely under the blankets. He squinted and realized with mild alarm that the lump was quivering violently. He could hear Gem’s uneven, almost rattling breaths from where he sat.
“…Gem?” he muttered uncertainly. Was she actually ill? Should they have been more concerned last night about how quiet she’d been last night?
“Mmmg…” a hoarse grumble came from the lump as his new teammate burrowed further into the blankets.
“Gem?” he said again, louder.
The lump shifted and Gem’s head popped out and turned towards him blearily.
“What…? Wutisit?” the reindeer rasped, then promptly dissolved into a fit of coughing.
“Whoa. So you look awful. And sound awful. Why didn’t you wake us?” he asked, sitting up straighter as Gem fought to regain her breath.
“M’fine…” she muttered, sniffling.
The redhead looked very far from ‘fine’ in Grian’s opinion. Her freckled face was pale, save for a dull flush spread across her cheeks. Her doe ears drooped dejectedly against the sides of her head, fluttering slightly whenever a shiver seized her frame. Even her antlers looked duller, though Grian wasn’t sure if that was a thing.
“No, you’re not. I wonder what’s going on, none of us have ever had this hard a time with a season change before,” he said thoughtfully.
“Lucky me…” she grumbled, pulling the blanket in tighter around her shoulders.
“Uh…” the bird shifted his shoulders, growing awkward, “do want… water? Some bread? Jacket potato? Steak?”
“What are you? A waiter?” Gem grunted, wrinkling her nose at him.
“I don’t know! I’ve never had to deal with a sick teammate before,” he flailed his wings defensively. Out of all the injuries he’d seen in the past, none of his previous teammates had ever gotten truly ill on his watch, and now one had not even a few days in.
“I don’t need…” she didn’t get to finish before being taken over by another spasm of coughing.
“Okay- okay- I am not responsible enough for this, I’m getting Pearl,” he decided quickly, getting to his feet.
“Grian…” Gem grumbled in between coughs, though she didn’t try to stop him as he moved towards the door.
…
By the time Grian got back with Pearl in tow Gem was standing up, seemingly attempting to cook something in the furnace but leaning heavily against the wall and still shivering profusely. Pearl, with the air of someone who’d had to do this exact thing before, gently guided the pale-faced deer to sit back down on her bed.
“Wow, you’re burning up, G. Did you lick any doorknobs yesterday?” Pearl asked lightly, brushing sweat damp curls out of Gem’s face.
“What’s it matter? I’m fineeee,” the redhead drawled shakily.
“You need to find a dictionary and look up ‘fine’, I think,” Grian teased from where he stood near the crafting table.
Gem stuck her tongue out at him, then sniffled and hugged her shoulders as more chills ran through her.
“I’m freezing,” she muttered, seemingly too embarrassed to pull the blanket up around herself.
“You’re definitely staying in bed today,” Pearl said decidedly, draping the blanket over the doe for her.
“But we have a lighthouse to build! And chaos to spread! We’re the villains! Villains don’t take sick days,” Gem protested, pushing the blanket off and then wincing as she shivered harder.
“You can’t exactly spread chaos if you can’t stand up straight,” Grian pointed out as Pearl pulled the blanket up again and then began redoing Gem’s braid where it’d started coming loose.
“I think I’m with Grian this time,” the moth hybrid offered.
“Haha see! I’ve got a Pearl! And they always say whoever’s got Pearl’s got the argument,” Grian declared triumphantly as Gem sheepishly clutched the blanket around herself, “now, you want some beetroot soup? No, wait, does that exist yet? Mushroom soup? Yeah, I’m pretty sure that exists. Hold on, I’ll get some mushrooms.”
“I’m not eating your shroom stew,” Gem called after him as he started towards the door.
“Yes you are! And you’ll like it!” he responded cheerily.
Pearl came outside a moment after him to fill a bottle with water for Gem.
“Do you think we should worry? I know Gem’s tough but I’ve never really had a team member be ill before,” he asked as he pulled a bowl out of a chest.
“I have, with Scott, all the way back in Last. He had a couple of bad migraines around the start. I don’t think we need to worry. Gem always gets a little grumpy when she’s hurt but you’re right she’s tough,” Pearl reassured, “she’ll be alright after some food and rest.”
…
Grian could see the moon, half full, shining behind some clouds outside the lighthouse window.
“Grian, could you pass me the bowl?” Pearl ordered, and the bird obeyed, carrying a bowl of cool water over to where the moth sat on the edge of Gem’s bed. She dipped a piece of fabric in, wrung it out and pressed it to the reindeer’s forehead.
Their third teammate was curled on her side under a light blanket, protesting weakly at the cold of the cloth.
What had started as unrelenting but manageable chills had given way to a fever so high that even Grian, who naturally ran higher than most as an avian, could feel it if he brushed against her.
“Do you think she’s any better?” he asked, feeling rather stupid and useless as he watched Gem whimper slightly in pain.
“I- I don’t know…” Pearl muttered, not looking up from the deer’s face as it contorted, “I… don’t think… shit…” she cursed as she brushed her fingers against Gem’s no doubt burning cheek again. His teammate turned toward him with frightened eyes, “I don’t know what to do, Grian! I’ve never seen anything like this. She keeps getting worse, I- I…”
She trailed off helplessly. Grian stared back at her, then, “Etho!” he blurted, “m- maybe Etho will know something. He knows this version of the world best of anyone. If anybody’ll know what to do…”
Pearl got to her feet, “It’s worth a try.” She hesitated, glancing at Gem, then moved towards the door, “I’ll go get him. You stay here with her.”
“What? Sh- shouldn’t I go and you stay?” Grian stammered, looking between his two fellow Villies.
“I’m the only one who can fly at night. I’ll be faster.”
That was true, despite pootoo birds apparently being nocturnal, he was still an utterly useless flier in the dark, while Pearl could flit through it like just another part of the night sky.
“Just… keep her comfortable. Keep the cloth on her head. Please,” the moth looked close to desperate.
Grian hesitated, then nodded. A moment later she was winging away into the night.
The bird padded over to the edge of the doe’s bed. He stared at the limp form of his teammate. He hadn’t been imagining it. Gem’s antler’s were definitely different; right where they met her head, a small patch of paleness had appeared on each, contrasting with the brown and ginger. Not big, not very noticeable, but certainly there. He’d never seen that before. He wondered if it was a clue to what she had, but if it was, he wouldn’t know what to do with it.
Gem had started to shiver again, her limbs twitching as she sniffled, coughed and whimpered in her sleep. He wondered if he should remove the cold rag, but Pearl had said to keep it there.
“I should probably applaud you, actually. Cuz this is really dramatic, and that’s what being a good villain’s all about,” he said quietly, walking around to the other side of her bed.
He could see her shoulders trembling from where he stood. He hesitated.
“Villains are also good at getting people to do things for them, yeah? That’s working here too.”
He sat down on the bed beside the deer, and slowly spread one wing over her, letting her burrow into his feathers and soak up their warmth. Even through his wing he could feel the immense heat pulsing from her as her body fought against whatever it was that had threatened it so much. How dare this thing threaten one of his teammates. He’d make it pay, somehow. He shifted closer so Gem could curl around him, exchanging body heat.
They stayed like that a long time. Gem slowly stopped shivering, and didn’t resume whimpering either. Grian didn’t dare move. He heard the wind whistling past the window outside.
The avian had half dozed off against the headboard with Gem still huddled close when he heard the door burst open.
His bleary eyes focused onto the shapes of Etho and Pearl hurrying in.
Etho bent over the bed and Grian shifted his wing enough for him to see the sleeping doe.
“Aw, Gem…” Etho murmured sympathetically, gently resting a hand on the second Villie’s head.
“Do you know what’s wrong?” Grian asked urgently, “I thought it was just the world transition getting to her at first, but this seems really bad for just that.”
“Well, you were half right,” the white wolf hybrid said softly, “you said she’d never been in a world this old before?”
Grian nodded.
“Yeah, newer worlds have defenses against these, but in the older lands back in my day, creatures were much more prone to getting viruses.”
“Did you seriously just say ‘back in my day’, Etho?” the bird hybrid teased despite himself. He saw Pearl actually huff the tiniest chuckle, however worried she may look.
Etho had the grace to look abashed before continuing, “It used to be pretty common. Even if you never got sick, just being in the worlds would give you some level of tolerance. I can imagine how much of a shock it would be on someone’s body if they never experienced it before. I’m more surprised she’s the only one having issues.”
“So, will she be okay?” Pearl asked, moving closer to the bed.
Etho stroked the hair out of the younger lifer’s face and adjusted the cloth on her forehead, “She should be fine. It’s only a matter of time before her body fully adjusts, it won’t kill her, and it seems like she’s out of the worst. Just make sure she gets good food and water when she next wakes up. And try to keep her from exerting too much for a little while.”
The older man stood up, looking satisfied with his advice. Grian had to ask, before the wolf left.
“What about her antlers?” he said quickly.
“What about them?” Etho looked back down at him and the deer.
“They’re all pale around here, and- and it kinda confused me,” he explained, a little lamely.
Etho studied the paler patches at the base of the antlers, looking puzzled. He saw Pearl shift to look down at them as well.
“Huh. I don’t know what that’s about,” Etho admitted, “The virus shouldn’t affect how she looks. Our appearances can change as the series goes on, though, remember?”
“I guess. I’ve never seen it change this soon though. I think it happened over the night of the world update,” Grian said quietly, figuring he might as well air his confusion anyway. Etho looked just as confused as him though.
“That is unusual. But, if our appearances can change between lives, maybe they can change between versions too? Like, a more gradual shift?”
“So, we shouldn’t worry about it?” Pearl asked, and Grian realized she’d sat down on the bed as well, one of her wings brushing the one of his that wasn’t over Gem.
Etho shrugged, “Probably not? Sorry, I wish I knew more. I’m not exactly well-versed in skins changing. But, I wouldn’t worry about it right now.”
He flicked his tail as if to ease their worries.
“I should get back to Cabin Core. I can’t leave Bdubs alone for too long. Good luck, you two, I promise Gem will be alright now.”
And with that he was gone, leaving the three Villies alone in the lighthouse.
“Do you think he’s right?” Pearl murmured.
Grian looked at Gem. Her face was peaceful now, there was a slightly healthier amount of color in it than before. He could see sweat glistening above her brow like her body was finally pushing out the attack.
“Yeah, I think so,” he said eventually, “I mean, don’t listen to me over Etho here. I thought I was smarter than him once and it didn’t go well.”
He’d gone through that whole confusing process with Gem, he remembered. Pearl chuckled slightly, then stifled a yawn.
“We should probably all sleep now,” she said reluctantly.
Grian made to stand and Gem immediately grumbled incoherently and pulled his wing back over herself.
“I don’t think she’s gonna let you get up,” Pearl giggled more heartily, her antenna twitching.
“Save yourself,” the bird whispered dramatically, extending an arm towards her in mock sorrow.
“Villains go down together,” the moth declared, and moved to curl up on Gem’s other side, “g’night, Grian.”
Grian sighed and laid back with his wing still over Gem.
“G’night, Pearl.”
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A few days later, Grian awoke with his throat sore and hoarse, a small price to pay.
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"Villains go down together..."
Anyway I like the idea of Gem slowly changing from an innocent looking deer to a wendigo in the series where she decides to be a villain, I couldn’t help including it.
First of all, no, she isn't dead, no, it wasn't a fight, she just moved away, it's just-
She ghosted us. All of us. Like, a month before summer ended. I wasn’t super close to her, but obviously I was worried because it was like she disappeared off the face of the earth.
We had to find out through the coach, like a month later. She didn’t say goodbye or anything. I think that’s what hurt them the most.
I tried to be a good friend, talk to them and all that, but… well, things didn’t really work out. We’re fine now, obviously, but yeah… things get weird if I bring up Laurie around them.
That’s mostly because we just… haven’t really talked about her. I don’t have a problem answering, though, I’d just appreciate it if people didn’t ask when they’re around.
Ah! Anyway, my mom’s here, uh, subscribe, comment, and all that stuff. Bye, chat.
Hi Yuwen! Question if you don’t mind, who do you think your best friend is?
Yuwen: oof, that’s a hard one, I’ve never really thought about it, hmm.
Yuwen: they say your girlfriend is your best friend, but if we’re talking outside of that then I guess it’d be Kai. I spend way too much time around girls-
Yuwen: okay, never mind. My best guy friend is Sam, he’s on the basketball team. We met through Tom, he’s one of the bros.
My nose bled when I slept. Blood got on my pillow case. I need to take care of that. I have to take care of the dishes today first. I’ve been putting them off for what feels like years now.
I took care of the dishes. Blood is still on the pillow case. I need to take care of that. I have a paper due at midnight, though, that I haven’t started. I should get on that instead.
I go to bed with a bloody pillow case. It can be taken care of when I have more energy.
In the morning, I wake up to a reminder of a project I have due soon. I feel so stressed so suddenly I feel like I’m having a cardiac event. I wonder if I should call my doctor. Maybe that has to do with the nosebleed.
I go to bed with a bloody pillow case. Tomorrow, I have an interview.
I wake up, get dressed, and prepare myself for my interview. It should only take an hour. It takes up the whole day. I can’t think of anything else. After it’s done, I don’t have the energy to fix my pillow case.
For the third night in a row, I go to bed with a bloody pillow case.
The next morning, I wake up feeling more tired than when I went to bed. I decide that, since I have nothing going on today, I should spend the day relaxing.
My mother disagrees. She calls, asking what I’m doing today. She makes suggestions of all the productive things I could do on my rest day.
I feel my heart beating out of my chest. I can’t breathe.
She suggests I get a planner.
I go to bed, for the fourth night in a row, with a bloody pillow case.
I wake up. I get out of bed. I do a small task. I feel so burnt out I can’t do anything else. I wish I was different.
I have things I must do. I can’t do them. God knows why. I certainly don’t. I wish I did.
I go to bed, for the fifth night in a row, with a bloody pillow case. It’s probably stained the fibers themselves now. I waited too long to clean it.
I wish I could have cleaned it when the nose bleed first happened.
One time I was leaving a friend's place and an older lady with basically no English came up to me and communicated that she was very cold and needed a ride. She pointed to tell me where to go.
I got there and her daughter or granddaughter came out and was like omg her phone died we were worried
And then the older lady said something and the younger lady translated.
"She knew she could trust you because you have pink hair"
I thought it was funny at the time. But when I think back on it I think she was basically saying "you had a visible sign of not vibing with the system I was afraid of"
i CANNOT express how much more lovable my friends are to me at their most annoying. i'd rather hear the same story 3 times than not at all. i'd rather read a 22 message text rant about something totally inconsequential than not hear from you all day. i'd rather you tag me in the stupidest post i've ever seen than not know that it made you think of a conversation we had a month ago. BE ANNOYING AT ME. I LOVE YOU
inspired by this incredible prompt from @ive-got-whumperflies
“Target has been captured and is en route.”
Villain couldn’t help the smile that crept into their cheeks. Finally, finally, they’d be another step closer to taking down Hero. Get to their beloved Sidekick, rough them up a bit, and get all the intel they needed. They might even be able to lure Hero to their headquarters for a futile rescue attempt - oh, it was just too much to hope for.
“Target has arrived,” the muffled voice said over the comms system.
“Bring them up. I want to say a few words before sending them down.” Over the years, Villain had realized that there was nothing quite as wonderful as holding all the cards and seeing someone's face when they realized it.
The door buzzed, and a body was roughly shoved through the door and fell to the ground. Villain stood from their desk and came to where Sidekick lay on the ground. They had their speech all planned out: a hint at the torture that awaited them, a couple threatening jabs designed to really break their spirit, and then a last chance to turn on Hero and divulge their plans before–
But Villain's plans were shattered when Sidekick shot up from their prone position on the floor, wrapped their arms tightly around Villain's legs, and began weeping inconsolably. Villain could barely make out the words, but when they did, their jaw dropped.
thank you, thank you, oh god thank you –
This blubbering went on for a minute or so, and Villain marinated in the sheer awkwardness of...whatever this was, which was most certainly not what they'd planned for.
"Alright. Sidekick. Calm down." Villain patted their head stiffly and pried Sidekick's grateful arms off of their legs, now sore from how tightly Sidekick was clinging to them. They deposited their captive on a nearby chair, and there, Villain could size up who they were up against and what they could inflict.
But from the looks of things, Villain had - quite literally - been beaten to the punch.
Sidekick's face sported a black eye, a split lip, and several nasty-looking scrapes and gashes. Their usually spotless outfit was torn and dirty, and Villain could see bruises on their exposed skin. Sidekick clutched their left wrist to their chest and shook uncontrollably - whether from fear or the over-air conditioned room, Villain couldn’t tell.
"Did my associates do this to you?” Probably from the struggle of the capture - they made a mental note to berate their lackeys for disobeying them yet again. “I told them not to touch you before you had a chance to turn–"
Sidekick shook their head earnestly. Well. Not Henchman, then.
And there was more to this scene that unsettled Villain. The uniform hung loosely on Sidekick's thin frame, and Villain could see the hollowness in their drawn, pale face. And there was something about their demeanor – cowering in a chair, not quite meeting Villain's eyes, that was so different from the defiant fireball they'd met in their previous clashes with Hero. Villain frowned. Something wasn’t right.
"Then who did this to you?" Sidekick seemed frozen. They opened their mouth, but no words came out. "Is there another Villain I need to watch out for?"
Sidekick nodded - yes. Their eyes filled with fear, and Villain felt something in their heart clench. They were no saint, but they'd never seen someone so afraid. The truth was, they really only loved to torment the defiant ones, the arrogant ones who refused to admit that they could break like anyone else. But this one – this one was already broken. And there was just no joy to be found in that.
Villain knelt before Sidekick, whose tears began slipping from their eyes in earnest.
"Sidekick. Who did this?"
Sidekick released a shuddering sigh. "Hero," they whispered. voice cracking.
Villain's head spun. No....it couldn’t be.
Couldn't it?
Hero. The one who'd mocked them endlessly when they were children, making fun of their clothes, their hair, their unconventional ideas.
Hero. The one who cheated them out of the coveted top spot at the local training school all those years ago .
Hero. The bright, shining example that the city worshipped while Villain slunk in the shadows and did their business in a less...conventional manner.
Hero. The one that everyone trusted, loved, revered, when only Villain knew the truth.
“Hero did this to you?”
Sidekick nodded, and the tears came freely. They told their tale - how they’d accidentally come across some of Hero's shady dealings and thought it was a mistake. But when they’d confronted Hero, Hero had turned on them - told Sidekick they were being irrational, unfair, judgmental, that they didn’t understand what it took to have the weight of the city on their shoulders, all but confirming that it wasn’t a mistake at all. Sidekick had been heartbroken, and set out to redeem the mentor they idolized.
For months, they'd tried to help hide what Hero was doing. Siphoning money from dark places, putting their friends in power and defaming good, honest people who stood in their way. Hiding behind a perfect smile while manipulating everyone around them into perfect submission. Sidekick fought every day to try and redeem the good person they though they knew, but it was no use - that person didn't exist.
But the worst came when Sidekick tried to leave - and Hero wouldn't let them. Villain swallowed hard as Sidekick described what happened - nights, starving, alone, and locked in a cold cell. Dangerous missions where Hero forced Sidekick into danger, only to rescue them at the last possible moment. “Trainings” that lasted for hours and left them bloody and bruised. All from the person Sidekick had looked up to. And if they said a word, it was Sidekick's family who would pay the price.
Until Villain came, swooped in, and stole them from a situation that they couldn’t see any other way out of.
“So...now I’m here.” Sidekick met Villain’s eyes warily, cheeks slightly reddening with embarrassment. “And I guess...you’re gonna hurt me too. But I never would have gotten out of there without you. And at least now, my family's safe. So...thank you.”
Villain had never felt this before - the quiet gratitude of someone who’s life they’d accidentally made better. The ache of sympathy for the thin, shaky waif in front of him, who had nowhere else to turn. No, this was very new. And terrifying. And it felt...good.
"No."
Sidekick’s eyes clouded with confusion at Villain's sudden outburst. “What...what do you mean?”
“I’m not gonna hurt you.” Villain met Sidekick’s eyes, feeling like a fire was being stoked in their gut. "I'm gonna take Hero down. Once and for all. Will you help me?"
Sidekick met their eyes and nodded, a new understanding filling them with a light Villain never thought would return.
Villain buzzed their comms system, and Henchman answered with a grunt. “You want me to come in and get started?”
Villain cleared their throat. “There’s been a change in plans. I have some...new intel. Bring up some soup, a couple blankets, and a first aid kit. Sidekick and I have a few things to talk about.”
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