I am not going to participate in conversations about joe's love life, like I said I don't care about it. i'm not going to sit & speculate & theorize. I feel very deeply that that is none of my business & that it's kind of invasive. sorry !
My Shane is an enabler. Heās gonna roll his eyes and tell ilya to fuck himself, but he loves that shit. Heās icing Ilya injuries after a fight barely hiding the fact that he found it funny. Heās providing information for chirps. Heās joining in on the fun cause he loves his husband. Idk man I just donāt think Shane, who fell in love with the NHLs biggest asshole is gonna be annoyed when heās being an asshole.
fully believe steve is so cuddly and affectionate that whenever it's time to go to bed and eddie is still up doing things bc his brain can't shut off, steve pouts and wheedles him into getting into bed with him like "guess ill just lay here, alone and cold, by myself with no warm boyfriend to snuggle up to me :(" and eddie finally gives in like "okay, alright! i get it, you need a big warm guy to squeeze you" while crawling into bed and immediately arranging steve the way they both like while steve is all smug and giggling, eddie play grumbles at him for being so smiley, but he can't help letting it melt away into a soft love-sick look when steve tucks his head up on his chest to listen to his heartbeat and nuzzles into him
summary: eddie munson lived through the upside down but he wasnt supposed to. you and dustin just refused to leave him behind. the hard part wasn't getting him to safety or dealing with a town split in 4-- the aftermath of living and being in a coma-- thats the hardest part.
warnings/tags: angst, grief, stranger things level violence, injury, blood, eddie lives, happy ending
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The Upside Down didnāt want to let you go.
It pulled at your boots with every step, vines twitching like they were tasting the air for fresh blood. Red lightning split the sky in jagged veins, and the floating particles stuck to the sweat on your face, your neck, your shaking hands. You and Dustin had been running since the moment you heard the first distant screechātoo long, too far, too late already.
āFaster!ā Dustinās voice cracked as he sprinted beside you, curls plastered to his forehead. His spear was clutched so tight the wood creaked. āHe said heād buy us time, notāheās not supposed to be the one whoāā
āHeās not dying,ā you cut in, the words raw and furious. Your lungs burned. Every breath tasted like copper and rot. āWe get there, we drag his stubborn ass back through the gate, and we get him to a hospital. Thatās the plan now. Say it, Dustin.ā
Dustinās eyes were glassy, wild. āWe get him back. We get him to the hospital. He doesnāt get to be a hero if it kills him. Not this time.ā
The sound hit you before you saw him.
A wet, tearing chorus of wings and teeth. High, chittering screams that made your bones vibrate. And underneath itāEddieās voice, hoarse and defiant, breaking into a ragged shout that turned into a cry of pain so sharp it felt like it split your own chest open.
You crested the hill and the world narrowed to a single, horrific point.
Eddie was on his knees in the middle of the street that was more vine than road, surrounded by a living storm of demobats. Dozens. Their leathery wings beat so fast they blurred. One had latched onto his shoulder, another tore at the side of his neck. Blood sprayed with every vicious pull. His denim vest was shredded. The Hellfire shirt beneath was soaked through, dark and clinging. His spear was snapped in two, the jagged end still clutched in one fist like he refused to let go even as they dragged him down.
āEDDIE!ā
You didnāt remember deciding to move. One second you were frozen, the next you were charging, spear raised, a scream ripping out of your throat that didnāt sound human. Dustin was right beside you, face twisted with something between terror and pure rage.
āGet off him!ā Dustin roared, stabbing upward into the swarm. A bat shrieked and fell, wings twitching. āYou donāt get to take him!ā
The next minutes were nothing but chaos and blood.
You swung until your arms went numb, until your spear was slick and the bats started turning on the new threats. One clipped your arm hard enough to tear skinā you barely felt it. Dustin took a hit to the side of his head that knocked his vision out for a brief moment but he didnāt stop. You fought like the world would end if you didnātābecause it would. If Eddie died here, something in both of you would break and never come back.
Slowly, horribly, the swarm thinned. Some bats dropped. Others wheeled away into the crimson sky like theyād gotten what they came for. Or maybe the music still faintly thumping from the trailer had finally lost its pull. You didnāt care. You were already dropping to your knees beside the crumpled figure on the ground.
āEddieāEddie, look at meāā
He was worse up close. So much worse.
Deep, ragged tears across his chest and arms. A vicious bite on the side of his neck that wouldnāt stop pulsing blood no matter how hard you pressed your hands to it. His face was pale under the grime and red, lips already taking on a bluish tint. But his eyesāthose dark, doe eyesāfluttered open when he heard your voice. They found you first. Then Dustin.
A weak, bloody smile ghosted across his mouth.
āHey, Henderson⦠told you⦠to get the hell outā¦ā His voice was wet, bubbling. āAnd you⦠brought backup? Knew you were⦠smartā¦ā
āShut up,ā Dustin choked, already yanking off his hoodie, pressing it hard against the worst wound on Eddieās side. His hands were shaking so badly the fabric slipped. āDonāt you dare joke right now. Weāre fixing this. You hear me? Weāre fixing it.ā
You tore the bottom of your own shirt into strips with your teeth, tying one tight around Eddieās upper arm where a bite had hit something importantāblood was spurting too fast. Your fingers slipped in the warmth of it. Too much. God, there was too much.
āPressure,ā you said, voice cracking but steady enough. āKeep pressure. We have to move him. The gates not farāif we cut through the edge of the woodsāā
āWoods?ā Dustinās laugh was half a sob. āThere arenāt woods anymore, thereās justāJesus, heās losing too much blood. What if we move him and it gets worse? What if we canāt stop it and heāā
āThen he dies here,ā you snapped, sharper than you meant to. The fear made your voice shake. āHe dies in this shithole because we were too scared to try. Thatās not happening. Help me get him up. Now.ā
Eddie groaned when you and Dustin hauled him between you, one arm over each of your shoulders. His weight nearly buckled your knees. His boots dragged, leaving dark smears on the ash-gray ground. Every step jarred a fresh sound out of himāhalf gasp, half whimperāand it carved something hollow into your chest.
āEasy,ā you murmured, close to his ear, trying to keep your voice from breaking. āWeāve got you. Just stay awake. Yell at us if you have to. Call us idiots. Anything.ā
āāM⦠not⦠an idiot,ā Eddie slurred, head lolling against your shoulder. His blood was soaking through your clothes now, warm and sticky and terrifying. āJust⦠really⦠bad at running away. Told you⦠I didnāt run this timeā¦ā
"Yeah, well, youāre gonna run with us now,ā Dustin said fiercely, tears cutting clean tracks down his dirty face. āAll the way back to the real world. Then youāre gonna let doctors poke you and youāre gonna complain about the food and youāre gonna live, Munson. You got that?ā
Eddie tried to laugh. It came out as a wet cough that flecked more blood across his lips. āBossy⦠little shitā¦ā
āDamn right I am.ā Dustinās voice cracked again. He adjusted his grip, nearly stumbling over a twitching vine that reached for the blood trail they were leaving. āYou think Iām letting you check out after everything? After you made Hellfire feel like home? After you let me be your friend even when I was just some kid? No. Not happening.ā
You swallowed hard, the lump in your throat threatening to choke you. The gate was visible nowāa jagged, pulsing wound in the ground ahead, the membrane between worlds thin and wrong and the only way out. Every step toward it felt like the Upside Down was trying to drag you back, to keep its prize.
āHeās fading,ā you said quietly, just loud enough for Dustin to hear. Your arm under Eddieās was screaming from the strain. āHis pulse is⦠Dustin, we have to go faster.ā
āI know.ā Dustinās face was set, terrified, determined. āEddieāheyāremember that campaign you said you were gonna do after Vecna? The last hurrah before graduation? We can't do that without our dungeon master. So you better pull through this shit and maks it happen.ā
Eddieās fingers twitched against your shoulder, weak but there. āYou⦠do it⦠Henderson. Youāre⦠gonna be⦠better than meā¦ā
āBullshit,ā you whispered fiercely. āYouāre not allowed to say goodbye like that. Weāre not doing goodbye. Weāre doing āsee you in the hospital, asshole.ā Got it?ā
The gate loomed closer. Ten yards. Five. The air around it hummed like a live wire, smelling of ozone and something metallic and wrong.
āOn three,ā you said. āWe go through together. Donāt you let go of him, Dustin.ā
āNever,ā Dustin answered, voice thick.
Eddie was barely conscious now, mumbling something about Wayne and Corroded Coffin and how he was sorry he was such a freak. You and Dustin answered at the same time, overlapping, desperate.
āYouāre our freak.ā
āYouāre the best one weāve got.ā
āOn three. One⦠two⦠threeāā
You pushed through the gate as one.
The sensation was like being dragged through freezing, burning jelly that clung and tore and finallyāfinallyālet go. Normal air hit your lungs like a slap. The sky above was dark velvet scattered with real stars. Distant sirens wailed somewhere in Hawkins. The ground under your feet was solid, ordinary asphalt instead of ash and rot.
You and Dustin lowered Eddie carefully to the ground just on the other side of the gate, both of you breathing like youād run miles. His eyes were closed now, but his chest still roseāshallow, stuttering, but there.
āWe did it,ā Dustin whispered, staring at the blood on his hands like he couldnāt believe it was real. āWe got him out. We actuallyāā
āHeās not safe yet.ā You were already pressing fresh pressure to the neck wound, your own hands trembling now that the adrenaline had somewhere to go. āHospital. We need a car, a phone, anything. Flag someone down orāā
Headlights cut through the dark at the end of the street. Maybe one of the others had circled back, or maybe it was pure luck. You didnāt care. You just started yelling, voice raw and cracking.
āHelp! We need help! Heās hurtāheās dyingāplease!ā
Dustin stayed crouched beside Eddie, one hand gripping his friendās bloody fingers like an anchor.
āYou hear that, Munson?ā he said, tears dripping onto Eddieās torn vest. āHelpās coming. You made it. You didnāt run⦠and we didnāt let you go. So you better fight now. You hear me? You fight.ā
Eddieās eyes didnāt open, but his fingers twitched once against Dustināsāweak, but there.
The hospital became your whole world.
The fluorescent lights in the ICU hummed like a living thing, too bright, too steady, nothing like the flickering red lightning youād left behind in the Upside Down. Eddie had made it through surgeryābarely. The doctors used words like āmassive blood loss,ā āhypovolemic shock,ā āhe coded twice on the table.ā You heard them through a fog, still wearing Dustinās blood-stiff hoodie over your own torn shirt, your hands and forearms crusted dark red-brown no matter how many times you scrubbed them in the hospital sink.
You didnāt leave. You couldn't.
They tried, at first. A nurse with kind eyes told you visiting hours were over, that family only could stay overnight. Dustin had backed you up with a voice that cracked but didnāt waverāāSheās the reason heās still breathing. Sheās not going anywhere.ā After that they stopped asking. A cot was wheeled in. You ignored it. The chair beside Eddieās bed became yours. You sat with your knees pulled up, one hand wrapped around his where it lay pale and IV-taped against the white sheet, the other resting lightly over the thick bandages on his chest so you could feel the rise and fall, however shallow.
The first night bled into the second. Then the third. The beeping monitors became your heartbeat. Every time his oxygen dipped or the pressure alarm went off, your whole body went rigid until the numbers climbed again. You talked to him when the nurses werenāt in the room. Stupid things, at firstāDustinās latest Hellfire campaign notes, the way the Party had started leaving little gifts on the windowsill, how the town was rebuilding. Then quieter things. The way his voice had sounded when he told Dustin to run. The way his blood had felt hot and slick between your fingers. The way youād screamed his name like it could anchor him to the world.
āYou donāt get to be the hero who dies,ā you whispered one night, forehead pressed to the back of his hand. āNot after everything. Not after you fought. You can't die for this stupid fucking town.ā
Lucas found you on the fourth day.
Youād stepped out for the first time in hoursājust long enough to pace the hallway and try to remember what air tasted like when it wasnāt filtered through antiseptic and fear. Maxās room was two doors down. Lucas was in the chair beside her bed the same way you were with Eddieā shoulders hunched, one hand holding hers, eyes red-rimmed but dry. He looked up when you passed. Something in your face must have cracked something in his, because he stood, walked out into the hall, and pulled you into a hug that smelled like hospital soap and the faint metallic ghost of the blood you both felt was permanently etched in your skin.
After that, the meetings overlapped.
You and Lucas took turns fetching coffee that tasted too burnt and was always too hot. You sat together in the unnervingly bright family lounge at 3 a.m., trading stories in low voices so you wouldnāt wake the ghosts. He confided in you about the attic, about the way Max had floated and then fallen, the sound her body made hitting the ground. You told him about the demobats, about Eddie on his knees in the street surrounding him like a tornado of destruction, about the way Dustinās spear had trembled in his hands and how youād both decided, without speaking, that dying there together was better than coming back without him.
āYou're here,ā Lucas said one night, staring at the vending machine like it held answers. āWith Eddie. Even when it's bad. Even when they said he might notā¦ā
You didnāt answer with words. Just reached over and squeezed his shoulder. He squeezed back. That was the bond. Two people holding the line while the people they loved fought their way back from places that didnāt want to give them up.
The rest of the Party rotated through like clockwork.
Dustin was there every day after school, reading Eddie the new campaign he was working on. Mike brought comics and tried to make jokes that fell flat but made you smile anyway. Will sat quietly and sketched Eddieās sleeping face, capturing the sharp line of his jaw and the way his hair fanned across the pillow like he was still on stage. Eleven stood at the foot of the bed for long stretches, eyes closed, like she was listening for something only she could hear. Steve and Robin brought food you mostly didnāt eat and sat on either side of you like bookends, Robin rambling about nothing until the silence stopped feeling like it was going to swallow you whole. Nancy came when she couldā she didnāt say much, but her hand on your arm was steady.
Hopper showed up on the sixth day.
He filled the doorway like he always hadābroad, gruff, eyes that had seen too much and still kept looking. Joyce was with him, carrying a thermos of actual decent coffee. He waited until Lucas had stepped out to check on Max, until the nurses had done their checks and left you alone with the steady beep of Eddieās heart monitor.
āKid,ā he said, voice low. āI need you to hear this.ā
You turned, still holding Eddieās hand.
Hopper rubbed a hand over his face. āItās done. The feds, the local PD, the whole goddamn mess. I called in every contact I had left from⦠before. Evidence got lost. Witnesses changed their stories. The official line is that Eddie Munson was a victim of the same shit that took Chrissy and the othersāsome kind of freak storm or gas leak or whatever the hell theyāre spinning this week. His nameās clear. When he wakes up, he walks out of here a free man. No cuffs, no questions.ā
Joyce stepped forward and pressed the thermos into your free hand. Her eyes were wet. āHeās going to wake up,ā she said softly. āThey both are. We donāt lose our people. Not this time.ā
You nodded because your throat had closed. Hopper squeezed your shoulder onceārough, groundingāthen left you with the coffee and the news and the man in the bed who still hadnāt opened his eyes.
The crash came on the afternoon of the eighth day.
It had been quiet. Too quiet. Lucas had taken Maxās mom to the cafeteria. The Party was at school or work or pretending to have normal lives for a few hours. The nurses had just left after changing Eddieās dressingsā youād seen the raw, stitched edges of the worst bite on his neck, the way the skin around it was still angry and purple. Youād helped, holding the basin, murmuring nonsense to him the whole time like he could hear you.
Now the room was empty except for the two of you and the machines.
You sat in the chair, his hand in both of yours, and the weight of everything youād been holding back for eight daysāeight days of blood and screaming and not sleeping and pretending you were fine because Dustin and Lucas and all the kids needed you to be fineālanded on your chest like a demobat latching on.
Your shoulders started shaking first. Then the tears came hot and silent, then not silent at all. You pressed your forehead to the back of his hand, to the calluses still there from years of guitar strings, and the sobs tore out of you like something had finally ripped open.
āEddie,ā you choked, voice wrecked. āEddie, please. I canātāI keep seeing it. The way they were tearing at you. The blood on my hands, on Dustinās face, the way you smiled at us like you were already trying to say goodbye. You werenāt supposed to fucking stay. You were supposed to run and you didnāt and Iām so fucking proud of you and so fucking angry and I canāt lose you now. Not after we dragged you through that gate. Not after Hopper fixed everything. Youāre free, you asshole. You get to be free. So wake up. Yell at me. Call me pathetic. Anything. Justāplease. Please come back.ā
Your tears soaked into the bandages on his wrist. The monitors kept their steady rhythm. The light through the blinds striped the floor in gold and shadow. You cried until your ribs hurt, until your voice gave out, until there was nothing left but the raw, animal sound of someone who had run out of ways to be strong.
And thenā
A twitch.
Fingers, weak but deliberate, curling around yours.
You froze.
Another twitch. A shift in the bed. The heart monitor picked up, just a little. You lifted your head, vision blurred, and watched his eyelids flutter like they were fighting through concrete.
āEddie?ā
A low, raspy soundāhalf groan, half breath. His head turned a fraction on the pillow. Those dark eyes, the ones that had always found you first, cracked open. They were glassy, unfocused, but they found your face. A tiny, exhausted smile ghosted across his cracked lips.
āHeyā¦ā The word was barely air, but it was his voice. Rough. Alive. āTold you⦠I wasn't goingā¦anywhere.ā
Your breath hitched so hard it hurt. Fresh tearsādifferent onesāspilled over as you leaned in, one hand coming up to cradle the side of his face so gently it was like touching something holy.
āYouāre here,ā you whispered, voice cracking on every syllable. āYouāreāyou came back.ā
His thumb brushed weakly over your knuckles. āHeard you⦠crying. Couldnāt⦠let you do that alone.ā His eyes drifted shut for a second, then fought back open. āDustinā¦?ā
āSafe. Everyoneās safe. Hopperāhe cleared your name. Youāre free, Eddie. You made it.ā
The smile got a little stronger, even through the pain and the drugs and the exhaustion carved into every line of his face. āKnew youād⦠drag my stubborn ass back.ā
You laughed through the tears, the sound wet and broken and the most beautiful thing youād heard in eight days. āDamn right I did.ā
His fingers tightenedājust a fraction, just enoughāand you felt it all the way down to the marrow. The machines kept beeping. The light kept falling in stripes across the bed. Somewhere down the hall, Lucas was probably sitting with Max, and the Party was probably arguing about who got to bring the next round of terrible hospital food, and the Upside Down was still out there, still hungry.
But here, in this room, Eddie Munson was awake.
And you were still holding his hand.
The healing was slow, brutal, and beautiful in the way only survival could be.
The first week after Eddie woke was the hardest. He was weak, voice wrecked from unuse, body a map of stitched-together ruin. The demobat bites had torn deepājagged across his chest, one vicious tear along his ribs that had nicked something important, another high on his neck that still pulsed dangerously close to the artery. The doctors kept saying āmiracle.ā You kept saying his name like a prayer every time the pain meds wore off and his hand found yours in the dark.
You stayed.
Every night. Every sponge bath the nurses let you help with. Every time they changed the dressings and you saw the raw edges, the way his blood still sometimes welled fresh if he moved wrong. You didnāt flinch. You traced the skin around the wounds with careful fingers while he watched you through half-lidded eyes, something dark and wondering in his gaze.
āYouāre still here,ā he rasped one night, after a bad dream had him gasping and reaching for a spear that wasnāt there. Youād climbed into the narrow hospital bed without asking, curling carefully against his good side so he could feel your heartbeat. āEven after⦠everything.ā
āI told you,ā you whispered against his collarbone, right above a healing bite. āWe donāt do goodbye. We do see-you-in-the-hospital-asshole. And now we do see-you-at-home.ā
He didnāt answer with words. Just turned his face into your hair and breathed you in like you were the only clean thing left in the world.
The Party became a rotating army of support.
Dustin showed up after school with homework he pretended was his but was really updates on Hellfire and the latest campaign. He and Eddie would argue softly about the story until Eddieās voice gave out, then Dustin would just sit there, hand on Eddieās arm like he was still anchoring him through the gate. Mike brought more comics and bad jokes. Ones that Eddie could hear and roast him for even saying. Will would come in with Eleven while she sat quietly and sometimes just⦠looked at Eddie like she was checking the shape of his soul was still intact. Steve and Robin brought food and conversation and the kind of normal that made the hospital feel less like a tomb. Nancy came with practical thingsāclothes that werenāt hospital gowns, a new leather jacket the whole party pitched in to buy because the old one was āevidenceā now.
Lucas was there too, between shifts with Max. Your bond had deepened into something wordless and necessary. Late nights in the lounge, youād trade storiesāhis about when he first met Max, how he owes her a movie date. Yours about Eddie before he joined the party. Sometimes you cried together. Sometimes you just sat in silence until one of you could breathe again. When Max had a good day, Lucas would smile like the sun coming out. When she didnāt, you brought him coffee and didnāt ask him to talk.
Wayne visited twice in those first weeks. The second time, Eddie watched his uncleās hands shake while pouring water and made a decision he didnāt voice yet. After Wayne left, Eddie stared at the ceiling for a long time before saying, quiet, āHeās already carried enough for me. I canāt put this on him too.ā
You didnāt push. You just squeezed his hand and let him come to it in his own time.
The government men came on week three.
Two suits, polite, with nondisclosure papers and a settlement offer that made your eyes widen. Hush money. For the āearthquake.ā For the ātragic accidentā that had nearly killed all of you. For everything youād seen and done and bled through. You signed because what else was there to do? The money was obscene. Enough for a fresh start. Enough for the brand-new house on the edge of town youād bought two weeks laterāempty, echoing, with big windows that let in real sunlight and a bedroom big enough for two people whoād almost died in the dark.
You told Eddie about it on a good day, when he was sitting up and the physical therapist had just left him sweating and grinning because heād walked the length of the hallway without the cane for the first time.
āGovernment paid out,ā you said, casual like you were talking about the weather. āBig settlement. I bought a house. Itās⦠empty. Brand new. Haven't really had time to decorate.ā
Heād looked at you for a long moment, something shifting behind his eyes. Then heād reached out, thumb brushing the scar on your forearm from where a demobat had clipped you during the rescue.
āYou understand,ā he said. Not a question.
You nodded. āYeah. I understand.ā
He didnāt say anything else that day. But after that, his touches lingered longer. His eyes never seem to have left you.
Two months in, the scars were pink and raised, permanent. The worst of the pain had faded to a dull ache he only noticed when it rained. He could play guitar again, softly, and the first time he managed a full verse of āMaster of Puppetsā without his hands shaking, the entire Party had cheered so loud a nurse threatened to kick them all out.
The doctor cleared him on a Monday afternoon.
āRest. Physical therapy three times a week. No lifting anything heavier than a guitar for another month. And if anything feels offāanythingāyou come back immediately.ā
Eddie sat on the edge of the hospital bed in the clothes youād brought himāsoft black jeans, your faded Hellfire shirt, his new leather jacket draped over his shoulders. He looked at you, really looked, and the whole room seemed to narrow to just the two of you.
āIām not going to Wayneās,ā he said quietly.
You blinked. āEddieāā
āHeās good. Heās the best. But heās old, and heās already buried too many people. If I show up like this heāll worry himself into an early grave. I wonāt do that to him.ā He reached for your hand, lacing your fingers together. āBut you... You saw the worst of it. You get it. The blood. The dark. The way it still feels like itās under my skin sometimes. You're my best friend.ā
He swallowed, eyes bright and fierce and so full of everything heād been holding back.
āAnd that house you bought? Itās empty. Waiting. I want to fill it. With us. With music and bad cooking and the Party crashing in and you yelling at me when I push too hard in PT. I want to wake up every morning and know the person next to me understands what it felt like to almost die in that hellhole and still chose to stay. I want⦠I want to go home with you. If youāll have me.ā
Your throat closed. The tears came fast and hot, but they were good ones this time. You stepped between his knees, hands gentle on his face, careful of the healing bite on his neck. The space between you feeling too intimate for "just friends" but you don't care.
āYes,ā you whispered. āGod, yes. Come home with me.ā
The Party helped pack his few belongings from the hospital room. Dustin cried a little and tried to hide it. Lucas hugged you both and said Max would want to hear all about the new house when she woke up. Steve drove youāEddie in the passenger seat, you in the back with your hand on his shoulder the whole way because neither of you could stand the distance yet.
The house was exactly as youād left itā too big, echoing, sunlight pouring through windows that had never seen monsters. Empty rooms waiting for life. A big kitchen. A living room with space for a couch and amps. A bedroom with a king bed youād bought on impulse because it felt like enough room for two codependant people whoād survived the end of the world.
Eddie stood in the middle of the living room, leather jacket still on, looking around like he couldnāt quite believe it was real. Then he turned to you. The sunlight caught the pink edges of the scars on his neck and chest where his shirt dipped low. He looked tired. He looked alive. He looked beautiful.
He crossed the space in three steps and pulled you into him. His face buried in your neck, arms wrapping around your waist like he was anchoring himself to the only solid thing left.
āHome,ā he murmured, voice rough with everything he wasnāt saying out loud. āOur home.ā
You held him back just as tight, one hand sliding up under his jacket to rest over the worst of the scars on his back. The ones youād pressed your hands to in the Upside Down. The ones that had almost taken him from you.
āWelcome home, Eddie,ā you whispered.
He pulled back just enough to look at you, dark eyes shining with something that had nothing to do with pain and everything to do with the future stretching out in this empty houseāscarred, alive, and finally, finally theirs.
And for the first time since the demobats, the world felt like it might actually let you both keep breathing.
The new house didnāt feel like home right away. It felt like a stage someone had built for people who were supposed to be normal. The walls were too clean. You couldn't hear any of your neighbors fighting. Sunlight poured through the big windows like it was trying too hard, and every room echoed until you started filling themāblankets on the couch, amps in the corner, Eddieās guitar case propped against the bedroom wall like it had always lived there.
Life was an adjustment.
Eddie still moved like his body was a borrowed thing. Some days the scars pulled tight when he reached for a glass or bent to tie his boots. You helped without making it a thingāsteady hands on his ribs when he changed the dressings, thumbs brushing the raised pink lines of the worst bites while he watched you with that dark, unreadable look. Physical therapy at home was brutal some mornings. You counted reps with him, called him a stubborn asshole when he pushed too hard, and wiped the sweat off his temple when he finally let himself rest against you on the living room floor.
The government called it āquarantine protocol.ā The military moved into your once quiet town. Walls went up, the fissures in the ground covered up by crude sheet metal to keep the world from learning the truth. The people who stayed in Hawkins officially trapped by a truth no one would believe in.
The kids were a constant.
They showed up in Steveās car or on bikes, sometimes with Nancy riding shotgun. Dustin was there almost every other day, bringing updates from the rebuilding of the town and working on campaigns here and there. Lucas came when he could, eyes tired from Maxās room but lighter every time he saw Eddie upright and breathing. Mike, Will and Eleven always came together as a trio, the three of them experienced something we'll never understand out in California. Robin and Steve brought weed and any new vinyls they could sneak out of their new jobs at WSQK.
They all tried to keep it light. But one afternoon, a week into the new house, Dustin asked the question everyone had been dancing around.
āSo⦠the coma. Was it like⦠dreams? Or just black? Did you see anything?ā
Eddie went still on the couch, guitar balanced across his lap. His fingers paused on the strings. For a second the only sound was the low hum of the amp. Then he gave that crooked, deflecting smileāthe one that used to get him out of detention and never quite reached his eyes anymore.
āMostly just dark, Henderson. Like someone turned the lights off and forgot to pay the bill. Nothing worth writing songs about.ā He ruffled Dustinās curls and changed the subject to a new campaign idea so fast the kid didnāt have time to push.
You caught the way Eddieās hand shook later when he reached for his water glass. You didnāt say anything. Just slid onto the couch beside him after everyone left and let him pull you into his side without asking.
That night the nightmare hit like the demobats had never left.
It started with him jerking awake around 2 a.m., a raw, broken sound tearing out of his throat. You were already movingāsleeping at his hospital bed had trained your body to wake the second his breathing changed. He was sitting up, sheets tangled around his legs, hands clawing at his own chest like he was trying to rip the bites off. Tears were already streaking down his face, silent at first, then not silent at all.
āEddieāhey, hey, Iām hereāā You climbed into his lap without hesitation, straddling his thighs so you could frame his face with both hands. His skin was clammy. His eyes were wide and unseeing, still trapped in whatever hell the dream had dragged him back to. āYouāre home. Youāre with me. The bats are gone. We got you out.ā
He folded forward into you with a choked sob, face pressed to your chest, arms locking around your waist like you were the only thing keeping him from falling back through the rift. You held him through the worst of itārocked him, whispered the same grounding words over and over until his breathing started to hitch less violently. Your fingers carded through his tangled curls, your other hand rubbing slow circles between his shoulder blades, careful of the scars but not avoiding them.
When the shaking eased enough for him to speak, you reached for the nightstand without letting go of him. The familiar ritual of rolling a joint calmed something in both of you. The crisp sound of the paper, the flick of the lighter, the first slow inhale he took like it was oxygen. You stayed tangledālegs wrapped around each other, his back against the headboard, your body curled into his chest so he could feel your heartbeat against the worst of the scars. The joint passed between you in the dark.
He was quiet for a long time, just smoking and letting you hold him. Then, voice hoarse and small in a way youād never heard from him before, he started talking.
āThe nightmare was the Upside Down again,ā he said, staring at the glowing tip of the joint like it held answers. āBats. Blood. You and Dustin too far away. Same shit as always.ā He swallowed hard. āBut the coma⦠it wasnāt just that. I saw my mom a lot.ā
Your hand stilled in his hair, but you didnāt interrupt. You just held him tighter.
āShe was happy,ā he whispered, and his voice cracked on the word. Fresh tears welled up and spilled over before he could stop them. āReally happy. Sometimes she looked olderālike if sheād gotten to live longer, you know? Gray in her hair but still smiling that same smile she has in the old pictures. And sometimes⦠sometimes Iād see us. You and me. Happy. In love. Like weād been together for years. Youād be laughing at something stupid I said and Iād have my arms around you and it felt so fucking real I could smell your shampoo.ā
He let out a shaky breath, the joint forgotten between his fingers. You took it gently and set it aside, then cupped his face again, thumbs brushing away the tears as they kept coming.
āAnd then there were the family ones,ā he said, voice breaking completely now. āYou, me, my mom, and Wayne. All together at some family functionāpicnic or something in a backyard that looked like it couldāve been ours. And there were these little kids running around. Curly hair. Loud as hell. Laughing. Calling her Grandma and Wayne Grandpa and you⦠Mom.ā A sob tore out of him so hard it shook his whole frame. āThey had my hair. Your eyes. I donāt know. But they were ours. And everyone was happy. No running. No monsters. Just⦠a real family. The kind I never got to have with her when I was little. The kind I never thought Iād get at all.ā
He was crying in earnest nowāshoulders shaking, face buried in your neck, hot tears soaking into your skin. You wrapped yourself around him completely, one hand in his hair, the other stroking slow lines down his back over the scars that had almost taken him from this future.
āI thought it was just the dark at first,ā he choked out. āBut it kept showing me that. Over and over. Like the Upside Down was trying to drag me under and something else was showing me what Iād lose if I let it. And now Iām here and youāre real and the house is real and I want it so fucking bad it hurts. I want that with you. The happy. The loud kids. The love that doesnāt have to hide from the world. But Iām scared as hell Iām gonna wake up and itāll be gone again.ā
You didnāt rush to fix it with words. You just held himātight and steadyāwhile he cried out the grief and the hope and the terrifying, beautiful weight of wanting a future heād only ever seen in the dark. When the tears finally slowed, you pressed your forehead to his, noses brushing, and whispered against his mouth.
āItās not gone. Itās right here. Weāre building it. One day at a time. You and me. Your mom wouldāve loved it. Wayne already does. And Iām not going anywhere.ā
He pulled you closer until there was no space left between you, legs tangled, arms locked around each other like the world might still try to take this away. The joint burned low in the ashtray. The new house was quiet around you. But he was still cryingānot the sharp, panicked sobs from the nightmare, but the quieter, deeper kind that came from somewhere older and more fragile. His face stayed buried in your neck, arms locked around your waist so tight it almost hurt. His whole body trembled against yours like he was terrified that if he loosened his grip even a fraction, youād disappear back into the Upside Down with the rest of the dream.
āI keep thinking Iām gonna wake up,ā he whispered, voice wrecked and small against your skin. His fingers fisted in the back of your shirt, knuckles white. āBack in that hospital bed. Or worseāstill in the street with the bats and the blood and you and Dustin screaming. But then I feel you. Right here. Breathing. And it scares the shit out of me how much I want this to be real.ā
You held him just as fiercely, one hand cradling the back of his head, the other stroking slow, steady lines down his spine over the raised scars. āIt is real, Eddie. Every single part of it. You made it out of that hellscape. You fought to stay with us. You didn't run away and you're a god damn hero for that. You are so loved Eddie Munson. You have no idea how loved you are. This is real. It's real and its safe and I'm here and I'm not going anywhere.ā
A fresh wave of tears hit him. He made a broken sound and pulled you even closerāif that was possibleā legs tangled so completely you couldnāt tell where yours ended and his began. His face stayed hidden against your throat like he couldnāt bear to look at you while the words kept spilling out.
āI saw her so clearly,ā he choked. āMy mom. Happy. Older. Like the universe was giving me back the years we never got. And then it showed me you. Us. Youād look at me like you always do when I was being a dramatic asshole and youād just⦠laugh and pull me in anyway. And the kidsāthose little curly-haired tornadoes calling you Mom and running to Wayne and latching onto his legs like how I used to do. My mom there with all of us like she never had to leave too soon. And I wanted it so fucking bad it hurt worse than the bats ever did.ā
Every breath he took shuddered through both of you.
āI almost died without ever telling you,ā he rasped. āWithout ever saying that Iāve been in love with you since before all of this. Since the day we met. Since I was lucky enough that you decided that I was your person. And now weāre here in this house that feels like itās waiting for exactly that future and Iām so scared Iām gonna fuck it up or wake up or lose you. I can't lose you.ā
He pulled back just enough to look at you. His eyes were red-rimmed, lashes wet, face open and raw in a way youād never seen from him before. Vulnerable. Terrified. Hopeful. All at once.
His hands came up to cradle your face, thumbs brushing your cheeks like he was memorizing the shape of you in case it vanished.
āSo I need to know,ā he whispered, voice breaking on every word. āI need to hear you say it again. That this is real. That Iām not still dreaming in that fucking hospital bed. That youāre not gonna disappear when the sun comes up.ā
A shaky breath. His forehead dropped to yours, noses brushing, tears mixing between you.
āWill you be my girlfriend?ā The words came out small and desperate, like theyād been trapped in his chest. āPlease. Officially. I want to call you mine. I want to wake up every morning in this house knowing you chose thisāchose meāafter everything. After the highschool bullshit. All the times I've made a fool of myself to make you laugh. I can't just go back to being your best friend. I want to live life with you. The family. The fighting. The growing old together. All of it. But I need you to say yes first. I need to know itās real.ā
You didnāt make him wait. Your hands slid into his hair, gentle but sure, and you kissed him onceāsoft, salt-tasting, full of every promise youād kept since the moment you dragged him through the gate.
āItās real,ā you said against his mouth, voice steady even as your own eyes burned. āEvery scar on your body. Every damn breath in your lungs. This house. Itās all real, Eddie. And Iām yours. Iāve been yours since the day I met you. Yes. God, yes. Iāll be your girlfriend. Iāll be your future. Iāll be anything you want. Itās real. Weāre real. And Iām not going anywhere. I love you Eddie. I'll always love you.ā
A sound tore out of himāhalf sob, half reliefāand he crushed you to him again, face buried in your neck, arms locked so tight you could feel his heartbeat hammering against your own. He didnāt let go for a long time. Just held you like the world might still try to take this away, breathing you in, whispering broken little thank-yous and I love yous into your skin between the tears that kept falling.
You stayed tangled like that for the rest of the nightāhis body wrapped around yours, your hands never stopping their slow, grounding strokes through his hair. The dark settled soft around the new house. And somewhere in the quiet, between the whispered promises and the way he kept checking that you were still there, Eddie Munson finally let himself believe that the future heād seen in the dark wasnāt a trick.
After getting out of the hospital, Eddie and Steve somehow fell into a whirlwind romance and now they have an apartment together! Eddie is still riding the high of it all one day when he has someone from his new job over and they say āAre you sure Steve lives here?ā
āHuh?ā
āItās just, this apartment is extremely you but Iām not seeing anything that says āSteve.ā Granted I donāt know the guy too well, butā¦ā
Eddie looks around. Sees a lot of metal and fantasy shit, a lot of dark colors. He knows if he went into the bedroom he would find Steveās colorful wardrobe and the kitchen is stocked with dishes and utensils that Steve picked out himself but thatās it. Theres not a single sports thing to be found and not a single poster or tape related to anything other than metal.
Heās not sure what to make of it. Brings it up to Steve later, asks why thereās nothing that Steve likes around the apartment. And Steve says something devastating.
shane effortlessly defying ilya's internal self deprecation with the most blunt, heartstopping, to the point sincerity is such an important part of their dynamic to me
"but you know me, i'm lazy, so." "i don't know that side of you at all."
"is that what we are going to do? relax?" "i hope so. i would like to relax with you. for once."
"because you like to be bad." "hey, that's not what this is. you and me. maybe it was at first but, not now, and not for a long time."
to the point where it even usurps other peoples interpretations of ilya before he gets the chance to internalize them -
"but, you hate him." "no. i mean, i get that. but no. i love him."
and ilya has that exact same subtly gobsmacked expression every time he does it
the way rr/tierney introduce ilya is so funny to me because when you first see him you're just like jeez this guy is such an asshole why is he like this. and then seconds later it's just like um it's because he has a 1) dead mom 2) who killed herself 3) an abusive dad 4) with alzheimers 5) a brother 6) who verbally abuses him on the phone 7) when ilya refuses to wire him 50 bands all at once 8) all while he spends new years eve all alone in the grossest motel you've ever seen 9) and he's bisexual.
and you're just like. well shit. that will do it i guess.
Steve is curled up in the center of his bed, pillow clutched tightly to his chest. Today all of the six and seventh graders gathered to watch the eighth grade talent show. Most of the acts sucked, but one stuck out to Steve.
There was a boy playing with his band, Steve doesnāt remember their name, but he remembers watching this kid play his guitar. It was like he was the only person in the entire universe. He kept whipping and shaking his head. Steve is sure that if his hair wasnāt buzzed, itād be wild and big.
He knows the kid gets picked on, itās because he stands out. But he doesnāt seem sorry for standing out, he wears it like a badge of honor. It makes Steveās cheeks burn with jealousy.
Theyāre burning now just thinking about it, so he pushes his face into the pillow heās holding. Steve has never felt like this about anyone in his life. He knows itās not possible though, because the kid on stage was a boy, and Steve is a boy. Heās supposed to like girls.
But as he lays awake in his room, late in the night, he thinks about holding that boys hand. He thinks about touching his buzzed hair. He thinks about standing in the boys space.
Even worse, he thinks about taking up space. He thinks about meeting the boys family, he wonders if he has any siblings. He thinks about meeting his friends. He thinks about going to the movies, and secretly holding his hand in the dark.
But, of course, none of this happens. Steve canāt like boys.
Instead, he loses his virginity as a freshman at an upperclassmanās party. He gets popular. He gets a reputation. He gets girls.
He doesnāt get Eddie āThe Freakā Munson because heās King Steve āThe Hairā Harrington.
(That is, until they save the world together and Steve has to breathe life back into Eddies lungs)
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