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[professor-beaker]

Im aroace so my interpretation of the old hear me out trend are things that are so ridiculously Aesthetic™️ that i get a huge dopamine spike whenever i see them. These include:

V2 from ultrakill

That one mantis alien from attack of the clones

The neptunic flag

The batmobile (but specifically the one from the 2022 movie)

The soul dice from a game called random dice

Darkiplier

Black and white. Just anything black and white

Mace windu's lightsaber

Idk what this says about me but hey, the brains a weird thing

[professor-beaker]

I may be connecting next to nothing here but i think my aromanticity is directly related to my love of the soulmate trope. Like youre telling me people have an indicator that theyve met the one true person for them, someone who balances them out completely? And it can be PLATONIC? Sign me up

[professor-beaker]

If you say asexuality is a mental illness and still label yourself as an "ally", then you are even more of a hypocrite than most christians.

If you say asexual people arent oppressed and then pontificate about attention, then youre one of the oppressors.

If you say ace/aro people can still date and then use it as an excuse to mischaracterize or completely erase representation in fictional characters, youre literally acting less mature than if you just outright said you ship them.

If your motto is that love always wins and then you completely erase familial or platonic love, then youre just furthering the opposite narrative.

Please. Please just take the identities as they are. Please educate yourself before making an "offhanded" comment. Please stop gatekeeping the pride flag.

[professor-beaker]

My roommate has kinda introduced me to anime recently (specifically, one science anime that i actually really like) and its kinda put into perspective for me just how sexualized not just women, but everyone is in media. Like, once i started seeing it in anime suddenly its EVERYWHERE. Nowhere is safe, especially not ads or mainstream tv or social media, and i absolutely HATE it. I wish i could go another day without realizing just how much an artists choice is meant to turn people on

[professor-beaker]

Me: *finds out something else about my identity*

My bank account:

Me:

Bank account: Dont.

Me: *looks at pride merch*

Bank account: Dont you dare.

Me: *add to cart*

Bank account: YOU LITTLE-

[professor-beaker]

Digging this back up because i figured out im pangender and was only able to physically restrain myself from buying pins and earrings because there were so few options 🫠

[professor-beaker]

Idk man ive run out of interesting things to say about being aroace.

HAH JUST KIDDING did yall know it took me SEVENTEEN WHOLE YEARS to figure out people werent kidding when they described love with the symptoms of a panic attack? I thought everyone was joking because there was no way that would be desirable to anyone!!!

(Seriously tho, are allos okay???)

[professor-beaker]

Screw everything i just remembered when i was in chamber rehearsal and we were playing a piece that was written for lgbt+ youth and my conservative, religious mentor in my conservative, religious college deadass said "do yall know what that is?"

I just sat there with my aroace pins on my bag and my very short hair and was like "no ma'am, i have absolutely no idea"

[professor-beaker]

Its almost valentines day which means its time for my least favorite holiday: allonormativity in pink

[professor-beaker]

How are we supposed to react to flirting? Cuz all my aroace brain can come up with is nervous laughter and "thanks, you too"

[professor-beaker]

If a happy relationship is so important in society, why are queerplatonic relationships so looked down upon? Legitimate question

[professor-beaker]

Ive never been big on caring much about my appearance, might have something to do with me only looking great for myself and not for others. But i cut my hair today, shorter than ive ever done, and let me tell you, ive gotten four responses:

-Its too short, good thing itll grow out, i dont like it, etc (my conservative, religious mother and brother)

-Just. Silence (my CONSERVATIVE sister)

-It fits you so well!! Looks amazing!!! (The majority of my friends and one or two family members)

-You look like a masc chappell roan (one of my best friends and arguable the one that made me happiest with that response)

I have never had so much happiness over a haircut and it may just be the conflicting responses ive created over it. Anyway this post doesnt have a point except suck it, conservative, religious family

[professor-beaker]

Hey quick question. Why do people care so much about whether or not youre in a relationship? Like last i checked mom, you shouldnt be interested in your childs love life (or lack of it). Its a little creepy, dont you think?

[professor-beaker]

I get that im antisocial, but its NOT because im aroace

Okay maybe it is a little bit, but the two traits should not be lumped together constantly

[professor-beaker]

So im in church today and my bishop starts talking about "finding that special someone" (which first, ew) and he states, "i hope you find someone who places you second, who loves jesus christ/heavenly father more than you"

Now, im no expert in anything romantic, but im pretty sure putting you second is a key trait shared by all horrible partners?? Some religious members seriously need to rethink their philosophies when it comes to relationships

In other news, feeling extra aroace today

[professor-beaker]

I think its so funny that romance is portrayed as like sickening sweet, lovey-dovey head-over-heals soulmate stuff ("love is blind" lolll) and meanwhile the aroaces are the "naïve" ones

[professor-beaker]

Id like to apologize for being so done with the aphobia recently that ive actually started arguing with the same fervor aphobes do

Actually i wouldnt. Go ahead and light the fire, im fanning the flames directly onto your aphobic dollar tree flip-flops

[professor-beaker]

I just was reminded of the trope where soulmates can meet and converse in dreams and was like "oh lol, that would be weird for me since i dont remember my dreams"

And then like a solid minute later i remembered that im aroace