— ˀ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤethel cain — willoughby tucker, i'll always love you ask prompts.
to be known the way you should is to put yourself through hell.
i warned you, for me, it's not that hard.
don't ask me why i hate myself.
i've heard it before from someone who leaves.
i'll hurt myself if i want.
i can wait if i want but it'll never be good enough like i want to believe it is.
all of alabama laid out in front of your eyes but all you could see was me.
she's got her makeup done and her high heels on.
you'll keep changing, i will stay the same.
if you're not scared of jesus, fuck around and come find out.
time passes slower in the flicker of a hospital light.
she's a bad motherfucker.
lay me down where the trees bend low.
time may forgive me, but i won't.
love is not enough in this world.
do you swing from your neck with the hope someone cares?
i want to bleed, i want to hurt the way that boys do.
her daddy keeps her in a box but it's no good.
will it be like this forever?
she's just trying to feel good right now.
now i'll wear these scars for life.
my baby acts cool, but they all know something ain't right.
you know i'd do anything for you.
please leave open your most quiet door.
i bled till i cried, till i felt i might die.
i still shake just by nature.
what you do with all that mouth?
i'm still scared of that knock on the door.
the air in your room never moves.
she really gets around town in her old cadillac.
maybe you're right and we should stop watching the news.
think of all the time that i'll have with you.
it wasn't pretty like the movies, it was ugly like what they all did to me.
i keep the pictures hanging where the world can see 'em.
i can lead you to bed, but i can't make you sleep.
they say she looks just like her mama before the drugs.
you come around here just to watch me writhe.
i wanna die in this room.
when you said that you're in love, i never wondered if you're sure.
still, i waited and tried.
you're not scared of no knock on the door.
i still dream of violence.
i loved you when it hurt inside to.
i liked him 'cause his rule was "do whatever you like," and i tried alright.
i'll never live it down if i never get around it.
easy to hate, easy to blame.
i still play pretend like i don't watch you leaving.
the doctors gave you until the end of the night.
we were in a race to grow up.
i've never seen brown eyes look so blue.
she's no good at raising children, but she's good at raising hell.
shoot me down, come on, hurt me.
that picture on the wall you're scared of looks just like you.
please don't leave me, i'll always need more.
death, it takes too long.
everything i've loved i've loved it straight to death.
i've been picking names for our children.
i can't hold you anymore.
made a fool of myself down on tennessee street.
she's gonna get what she wants.
i'd rather die than be anything but your girl.
you tried to wade in 'cause you wanted just to tell me who you were.
am i what you think about all late at night?
yeah, you've changed, but did i ever know you?
to love me is to suffer me.
i can see the end in the beginning of everything and in it, you don't want me.
they did to me what i wouldn't do to anyone.
i know you by your footsteps on the floor.
i don't know what i need.
you were there looking for me, but i was gone.
i'm wide open and deserving.
i know she's your girl now, but she was my girl first.
i know, she really taught me well.
i swore i'd be good to you.
i won't wake up on my own.
think of us inside after the wedding.
put me down where the greenery stings.
you'll go fight a war, i'll go missing.
if you could, you'd leave it all.
they all wanna take her out, but no one ever wants to take her home.
all the boys wanna love her when she bats her fuck-me eyes.
i'll never be kind enough to me.
goddammit, i did it to myself in hindsight.
please, just go easy on me.
i'd reach into your body and fix you if i could.
how much of a cruel year can you call my fault?
she goes to church straight from the clubs.
smoking that shit your daddy smoked in vietnam.
the boys can't get enough of her.
i'll never be that kind of angel.
when this is over, maybe then, we'll get some sleep.
i knew it was love when i rode home crying thinking of you fucking other girls.
you know it's true 'cause i've said it to you.
grew up hard, fell off harder.
i never meant to hurt you.
it's not looking good, but did it ever?
