We made it! One day is completely down. Not sure if that’s the easiest or not. But, it was an emotional day for me. Work really sucked which made me want to cry because it’s just so stressful. I didn’t sleep well because the stress stayed. You made me feel better by telling me to vent though. I miss you so very much my boy. I love you.
I’m just sitting in bed with my cat right next to my laptop thinking that I have a bunch to write tonight. But, it’s probably not going to look like that, because then all my emotions will be out on the board when really I highly doubt anyone cares. So, I’ll just let you know a bit of the bullet points of my day today. First off, I woke up at 5:30 in the morning to text Scott. That was a success. He texted me, and I was ready to wish him a good mornings. So on and so forth. Then, I went back to bed because I couldn’t sleep well last night. My own problems, because I am far from an expert at erasing thoughts that go through my head. So I stayed up practically all night thinking. Anyways, I finally got sleep after he had to go. So I slept the most amazing two hours. Woke up. Did my thing which included eating a poptart and wishing that I could sleep more, and that it was warm. Then that’s when it all let loose. I saw Scott on Facebook. And at this point he hasn’t texted me or anything. In my mind, the first thing I do when I can use my phone is text Scott. Not get on Facebook. So I of course was a little upset, but I got to be honest that it didn’t shock me in the least bit. Later on a bit. I get a text saying that he doesn’t want to text me 24’7. Which I completely understand. Because I don’t want to text 24’7 either. But the fact is I woke up for your good morning. To try and make it a good morning. I did that. And I didn’t my good morning. Which wouldn’t have been a big deal if I didn’t see that he was on Facebook, but I did. Maybe I should just stray away from facebook.
So next thing I know I’m taking the towel off my head, and I look down the hall then at myself. And I start balling. Just like that. And there comes a point to where you can no longer keep standing and crying. I carried on crying closer to the floor. And I know this is really weird, but whenever I cry I automatically want my grandma. Because she is the strongest woman I know. And I needed her to be there and tell me that everything will be alright, and that I shouldn’t build up anger and sadness like I do. So I took her imaginary advice and started brushing my teeth. Still sobbing and trying not to look at myself because i knew that was going to be a horrific view. But I managed a peak. And I was correct. It was disturbing. I soon left. Still a little bit of tears trying to dry on my eye lash. Luckily enough a long car ride to work is my way.
Didn’t log on the phones for a long time at work. Because I knew I was on the edge, and frankly just one rude person would off set me.
Finally got on the phone. Really nice foreign lady does my survey. The whole entire time I was thinking that she was a mother, and mothers know when something is wrong.
Got throughout the entire day. Almost cried at the end because I got insulted by someone dearly to me.
Hasn’t texted Scott for an hour. But, I will text him goodnight. Because when you’re in a relationship you don’t go to bed without saying goodnight and that you love them. I find it rude, and I find it strange that people can sleep without even doing so. It might be my old soul that lives inside of me…
Oh, and I also made an appointment earlier today to get my boob checked out. And when the lady asked me what I was coming to get checked out, I said, “My nipples have discharge. And she takes this really long pause. And mumbles a bit and says, ‘Okay. Earliest I can get you in is Thursday at 8am’ Like seriously I don’t want you guys all up in my boobs in the morning. Like, just no. It won’t be happening. Oh well.
Good night tumblr. Good night Scotty James. I love you bunches. And miss you lots.
Oh my goodness I’m so much better. i feel loved in all the ways I can from a distance from Scott. My morning felt amazing, my afternoon was good, and my night happened with absolutely no hiccups. I even had puffy cheetos- which is the only way you should eat cheetos.
Scott got tased today. Frankly he deserved it. ;) Just kidding. But it was quite hilarious the text he sent me before he got tasered. I don’t know, I really want to see the results on his skin from being tasered.
I want to just wrestle with Scott, that or lay down the back of my car, take pillows in it, and lay in the back as it rains. That’s so romantic to me. And then you know that’ll lead to something else. Even though I’ll be freaked out to even do it in the back of my car in a public place.
Anyways, I’m better and happy about that. By the way, Scott comes home an entire day earlier. Because the class only really took a day. (: One happy girlfriend right here.
I love you Scotty James. One day you’ll be my husband and my baby daddy. Lol. Just thought you’d like to know. I miss you lots.
By the way, I think I’m the only chick who enjoys the time away to recollect my thoughts, and realize what it’s like to not have you. But, too long is too much. This is the perfect amount. Don’t think you can now leave for months and years. Please. Thanks. (Even though it’ll probably happen one day. ): But we will cross that bridge when we get there)
Last night of Scotty being away!:::
It’s the last night I go to worry about him being super far away! That’s super exciting considering it’s one day completely earlier than expected. He spent his last day there at a mall. And that’s all I know of. I spent my day at the doctors, and work. At the doctors I figured out that I’m pretty much normal, and we’re just waiting for one more test to come. Which I’m pretty darn positive it’ll come back completely normal. So that’s pretty good. I actually told the doctor what it was because I googled it. Lol. She came up with the exact same answer. Go Google.
My cat now sometimes lets me pet her belly.
I cannot wait until Scott gets back. I want to ride my bike. I want him to fix my bike. I want to have a fantastic day with him tomorrow. Because I worked my booty off to see him tomorrow. And I will not let the day go to waste. We are going to party it up, or something of that nature. Haha. Who knows maybe we can camp! Ohhhhh! Maybe we could!
But seriously, even though we get on each other’s nerves and stuff. I still love him to pieces. I couldn’t even imagine being with anyone else. Even if there was the worlds most perfect guy that did every single thing I ask him to do, it wouldn’t be worth it to me. At all. I love my boy too much to let him go. He’s the one for me. I can’t wait to have him in my arms.
(Watch I’ll be asleep in his bed when he rolls up to his house!)
