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[psychingmyselfouteveryday]

Is it just me or is there no conversation among 3 people?

Anytime I’m with more than one I am not apart of the conversation.

No mean like I just don’t know how to join in I suppose.

[huariqueje]

Forget-me-nots and Euphorbia Griffithii - Louise Bradley , 2023.

British , b. 1965s

Acrylic on radled gesso panel , 31 x 41 cm.

[psychingmyselfouteveryday]

What a beautiful flower

I wonder how many poems they are in? I wonder if I’ll add to this list

[psychingmyselfouteveryday]

It’s raining again

Like it was last year

It’s weird how the years add together yet stay so apart. I wonder if they will ever blend? Maybe I don’t want them to tho, maybe that’s boring.

[psychingmyselfouteveryday]

Spring is so nice honestly.

All is well again.

[psychingmyselfouteveryday]

A pain in my stomach,

A head threatening with aches

A body tired

Exhausted

On the verge of fainting

My head falls down

My feet drag

My hands scribble

I am not in control

[psychingmyselfouteveryday]

Quiet down my thoughts are running wild

[psychingmyselfouteveryday]

I carry so many with me, so many phrases, motions, habits.

Some make me laugh, some smile, and some make me want to cry still.

For I cared and loved all those people that I had to keep some for myself. Maybe a coworker who I barely spoke to, to a long time best friend and we’ve gone out separate ways, to short lived close friends.

I hope you are all well… I do hope some return one day, that you’ll make an appearance again in my book.

Thank you for all teaching me something about the world and myself.

[surqrised]

“I don’t trust words anymore. I only trust actions. People can pretend to do a lot without beeing serious about it.”

— Moritz Fer

[psychingmyselfouteveryday]

Actions matter so much more, it’s why I never trust promises unless they prove they have kept unspoken ones before…

Never trust people and their words until I see how they act and react in situations

[psychingmyselfouteveryday]

To many things on my to do list.. send help 😭

[psychingmyselfouteveryday]

Wracked my week, I set myself up for failure… but it’s others who need to not rely on me with their life. Especially when they talk talk talk about the others who should be.

I love you I do but I have a life outside of you and you tell me that’s good that’s okay but oh my you do not reflect that when I actually do.

I’m the bad guy even tho I do so much. It’s never convenient and that’s okay but realize that.

Wouldn’t you miss me? Wouldn’t you feel my absence?

Is my time and space and effort noticeable?

[remanence-of-love]

[psychingmyselfouteveryday]

Thank you, going to keep going now:)

[psychingmyselfouteveryday]

Hard week, too much expectation. Not enough time and no idea how to prioritize.

I want to walk away and start over.

[psychingmyselfouteveryday]

Today was not great, my mind continues to be consumed by to much.

But I had some of my favorite food and took care of my favorite humans.

I just miss so much sometimes.

[psychingmyselfouteveryday]

Like a good parent, State Farm is there!

… things that just come to me with no rhyme or reason

[mournfulroses]

Makenzie Campbell, from a poem featured in "2 a.m. Thoughts," originally published in 2017

[psychingmyselfouteveryday]

My phantom, won’t you leave me to rest?

[wordx]

“Forgive me for my love, for ruining you with my love.”

— Fyodor Dostoevsky

[psychingmyselfouteveryday]

So raw, so pure, to much yet feels so unloved.

My rare love scares them away, yet do they still think of my loyal love to them and how they threw it away?

[wholeheartedsuggestions]

*tucks you in* there’s always tomorrow

[psychingmyselfouteveryday]

To another 24 hours🥂