Idk who needs to hear this, but thereâs nothing wrong with you
And I donât say this to encourage you to stay in a state thatâs killing you up from the inside. Self-improvement is always a win when itâs born from self-love and self-respect, not a panicked scramble to fix yourself like a broken machine.
You donât need to change anything about yourself to shift. Or to manifest. Not your depression, not your doubts, not your neurodivergence, nothing. All you need is to recognize your power. But you love to be told youâre wrong. That itâs your fault.
âYou check the 3D too much,â so you crave someone to tell you, thatâs why youâre not shifting, you did this to yourself.
You want someone to point a finger and say, âYouâre not shifting because you keep doubting.â
âYouâre not shifting because you donât believe enough.â
âYouâre not shifting because youâre wavering.â
âYouâre not shifting because youâre too attached to the outcome.â
âYouâre not shifting because youâre not disciplined enough with your methods.â
âYouâre not shifting because you think youâre shifting wrong, so now you are.â
âYouâre not shifting because you havenât let go yet.â
âYouâre not shifting because you havenât decided to yet.â
âYouâre not shifting because youâre doing too many methods, or not enough, or the wrong ones, or the right ones in the wrong way.â
âYouâre not shifting because youâre not applying XYZ law.â
âYouâre not shifting because youâre not trying hard enough.â
âYouâre not shifting because youâre trying too hard.â
You want someone to tell you itâs your fault, because if itâs your fault, it means you can fix it. That if you just contort yourself enough, if you just get the formula perfect enough, if you just align perfectly enough, then reality will crack open and give you what you want.
And so you stay trapped in the punishment. You stay in the loop of âI must be wrong, I must be broken, I must be flawed,â because it feels safer than accepting that shifting is your natural state, that your awareness is the engine, that youâve never failed to shift, that youâve never been separate from your DR, that you never needed fixing in the first place.
Because if thatâs true, then thereâs no excuse left. If thatâs true, then you have to admit that the only thing between you and what you want is you realizing you already have it.
And thatâs terrifying. Because if youâre not broken, if youâre not wrong, if youâre not waiting for someone to save you with the ârightâ method, then you are free.
And itâs in that freedom that you end up making peace with yourself, right here, right now. You donât have to. No oneâs holding you to it. Peace is never necessary to get your desires. But it will happen naturally at some point
Because you are awareness, and you will have this awareness forever. But you hate yourself. You think youâre powerless when you arenât.
You let methods, laws, bloggers, desires, all of itâbe powerful for you. You let them decide your worth, your readiness, your ability, your timing.
You are the constant here, and yet you keep kneeling to the ever-changing. You let a shifting method tell you if youâre worthy of your DR. You let a Tumblr post decide if youâre âdoing it right.â You let your desires become your gods, and your gods become your jailers.
The door was always unlocked, but youâd rather argue about the lock than touch the handle. Because if you open it, itâs just you.
You, the awareness thatâs been here since the beginning, forever capable, forever deciding, forever free. And thatâs terrifying, isnât it?
In my opinion (me) (mine) (Clover) (my own opinion), sometimes the blockages you think are stopping you from shifting are actually your key to shifting and manifesting.
Youâve lived your entire life with the way your mind naturally focuses, wanders, resists, obsesses. And then you find shifting spaces telling you:
âYou have to ignore your CR.â But maybe the way you see past the illusion is to stare directly at your CR, acknowledge it as a mirage, and claim your power as a master shifter here. Maybe for you, seeing the illusion is how you step into your DR.
âDonât daydream too much.â But maybe the way your mind drifts and creates entire realities in your head, is exactly how you focus.
âDonât waver.â But maybe your doubts, your spirals, your racing thoughts are not chains but fuel. Maybe the reason you spiral is because your mind is so powerful, itâs already showing you exactly what to clear out on your way through worlds.
âDonât overcomplicate it.â But maybe you need your charts, your logic maps, your wordy breakdowns, your layers of understanding before you can let go. Overthinking is only a curse if you believe it is; otherwise, itâs your tool for piercing illusion.
âDonât script too much.â But maybe scripting is your ritual. Maybe your endless pages of stories, your color-coded Notion spreadsheets, your carefully chosen fonts are your gateway.
âStop checking for results.â But maybe checking for results and not seeing them is the first step to you realizing how impossible it is that you âdonât have them yet.â
âJust act as if itâs already yours.â But maybe you canât do that yet, and itâs okay. Because you can still observe that you are the kind of person who gets what they want, who shifts, who manifests, who always figures it out, even if you donât âhave it yet.â And that is, in itself, not acting but realizing that itâs already yours.
âDonât use methods, just decide.â But maybe you like methods. They help you focus, give you a sense of ritual, make it fun, and the fun is the key.
âYou need to fully believe.â But maybe youâre allowed to not fully believe. Maybe belief grows in the soil of testing it out, letting your actions prove your mind wrong, again and again.
âDonât try too hard.â But maybe youâre a try-hard by nature. Maybe your fire, your desperation, your want is what cracks reality open, not what holds it shut.
You get told your mind is the problemâtoo loud, too soft, too imaginative, too skeptical. You get told your blockages are the reason youâre stuck. But what if theyâre not?
What if your âblockagesâ are breadcrumbs your awareness leaves for you to follow, back to the door youâve been searching for?
What if your wayâthe way you naturally areâis the map youâve been seeking?
Shifting is not about crushing yourself into someone elseâs mold, playing by someone elseâs rules, or suffocating your instincts in the name of âdiscipline.â
Itâs about becoming more yourself than youâve ever been. So maybe donât change yourself, but change the way you view that person. Because youâre powerful. You always have been.
I donât guarantee my words or methods will make you shift. I donât guarantee theyâll resonate with you. But this is what I wish someone told me way back when I started manifesting, not even shifting yet.
So, as a firm believer in âone manâs trash is another manâs gold,â someone out there needs to hear this.
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