Severus S.

Severus Snape / Seventh Year / Slytherin Calculated in burning and a considerably good in potions. I've been told I hold on to things.

[punkrocksorcerer]

"-and are you certain no one saw us coming here?"

[mister-morningstar]

punkrocksorcerer:

[punkrocksorcerer]

You’ll forgive if I don’t extend my sympathies? Blatant stupidity doesn’t really tug at my heart strings.

Vanity. Really… Is this how you plan to impress?— You have no social graces to speak of, or tact…mental health is questionable. At best. — Can’t carry a cauldron around with you every where you go.— Tell me Severus, what are you but a little boy desperate for affection? — What makes you truly worthy of our accolade?

"I'm so sorry, again, for your daddy's imprint on you, but I'm certain that I'm just as worthy as any to join our Dark Lord's ranks." Severus stood and straightened himself. "I'm a skilled and remarkable wizard, brilliant with potions and the dark arts. Trust me, Rosier. While you're puttering about, doing little missions here and there I will rise and be seated at the Dark Lord's right hand. Being a purist and knowing how to do a few curses doesn't make you great Rosier. Power, skills and ambition does." He huffed. "Any Slytherin would know that. Or perhaps, you should be stuck in some other house?"

[jamesbamfpotter]

James leaned back against the cool glass and loosened his tie absently. He couldnt help but feel a bit anxious, he didnt know what was going to happen with Sev. He forced himself to keep thinking of Emma. He couldnt let things get out of hand like last time. He still denied that they even kissed to her, even though she knew but that was hardly the point.

James pulled out a fag and lit it quickly. He was a few minutes early, but he hoped he wouldnt be waiting long. He and Sev hadnt been alone since the kiss happened and with the note earlier.. “Stop it.” He muttered to himself. He was freaking out for nothing. He continued to smoke and he kept his eyed on high alert. Soon enough, Severus popped around the corner. James gave a small smile and pushed himself off the wall. “Er, hey sev.” He said lamely.

[punkrocksorcerer]

Okay, so Severus did doll up a bit to see James Potter. He had struggled to find some clothes that weren't too shabby and spent a  good few minutes figuring out how to make himself look less dead in the face. Pushing lank, greasy locks of hair back from his face, he gave his best smile. "Hello James." Severus nodded at the fag in James' mouth. "Can I nick one off of you?"

Severus leaned against the cool glass next to him, trying to figure out if what James what thinking or what even he was thinking. He was so handsome, so annoying handsome. Severus cocked his head, "So?"

[jamesbamfpotter]

Severus inhaled sharply. Was he the only one who remembered things around here? "Oh so you were drunk? And all those things I said to you were just things that came out of my mouth and I can't believe I told you what I told you and you don't even have the courtesy to remember?"

No! not its not like that.. i just..”

James let out a frustrated sigh and furiously started writing. Small ink drops hit the paper.

"I remember. I remember everything, but what about Emma? I already fucked things up and shes finally going to forgive me.. i cant.. i cant fuck up again.”

[punkrocksorcerer]

Severus bowed his head, a tear threatening to splotch his parchment. He looked at James across the room before writing. "You don't have to love just one person. You can love the both of us. At the same time." He wished to re-do it as soon as it was done, but still he sat there, nervously looking at everything but Potter.

[vanity-isasin]

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Emma giggled and carefully took the items from Severus one at a time, grinning widely as she did so. “That’s very sweet of you, but I really don’t need them anymore.” She shimmied the lid off the tub of ice cream as she spoke, eyes focused on the sweet rather than Severus. “James and I already made up.”

Severus stared at her, completely unamused. Sometimes he wondered if Emma ever had a real thought in her head or if she was just a brainless Gryffindor after all. "You're kidding me right? Tell me you're kidding Emma. Tell me he's bashed you in the head and you're just fucking with me."

[punkrocksorcerer]

"I brought ice cream and fire whiskey and this month's Witches Weekly." Severus smiled weakly. "Thought it might cheer you up."

[vanity-isasin]

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[punkrocksorcerer]

Emma squeaked loudly, stunned beyond belief that Severus — for the second time that year — put his hands on her. No. He wasn’t allowed to do that. He had hurt her too many times, and he was not allowed to just win that easy. She fumbled for her wand, drawing it just as he reached the door to the common room, and shrieked, “Locomotor Mortis!" Severus froze, and she could only imagine his face. Emma not-so-carefully tucked her wand away again and stomped up to him, hot tears burning at her eyes. "You think you’re so fucking special, don’t you?” She laughed hysterically and put her hands on her hips, leaning dangerously close to him. “You’re not. You’re just another sad little stain on the history of this school. Just like me, just like James. And that’s all you’ll ever be.” She was trying to hard to be cold, but her emotions would always, always betray her. This time in the form of a solitary tear rolling down her cheek.

"You want to know why you don’t have friends?" she continued, voice rising to a manic tone, "Because you push people away. Because you think you’re this great special thing and everyone should either bow down to you or-or turn heel and run at the sight of you. I’m sorry about how much of a dick your father is. I really am. But you don’t have to be like him, and you don’t have to hate everyone like him. You have so much anger, Sev.” Her resolve was weakening more and more by the second. “Just stop. Please.”

She had no idea what she was saying anymore. Everything that was coming out of her mouth was complete and utter nonsense. She just wanted to fix him, to take him in her arms and hold him and tell him everything would be alright. But he wanted her to be something that she never could be, and she hated herself for it. “I love you, okay? I know it’s not in the way you want, but it has to mean something.” The tears were flowing freely by now. ”We need to stop hurting each other.”

He fell with a thump and then she was over him, speaking and saying things that so many had tried to say. It was probably right there, lying on the floor that he decided that he didn't need Emma as a lover. He didn't want her kisses or her warm breath against his cheek in the morning. He wanted her like this. Angry and screaming at him, binge drinking and eating stolen ice cream. He wanted her to hold his hand and do his homework and be there. 

"Let me go you dumb broad." He said, voice truly shaking now. He couldn't see for all the tears that ran down his cheeks. "Let me go so i can hug you." It was all true. Every single word, every single dagger she used against him. Maybe that was the intrigue. She knew him, inside and out so he wanted her. He wanted her because she so very wanted someone and he so very wanted someone. 

"We're just mistakes aren't we Em? Just blind animals are parents forgot to kill and now we're brushing through life with the urge to kill ourselves and the urge to die." He tried to smile. "At least we're brushing b-by together. Best friends that are very cruel and very loving."

[mister-morningstar]

punkrocksorcerer:

[punkrocksorcerer]

How does it feel to be marginally relevant?— You are quite done making a spectacle of yourself aren’t you?

"Oh no, I was thinking about pitching myself off the tower next. Us marginally relevant people must remain active."

[lenavanity]

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[punkrocksorcerer]

"I think the only one who didn’t see it was my sister."

"I'm sorry. That she's going through all of this." Severus shook his head. "She could just avoid this if she listens to her friends instead of her hormones."

[mister-morningstar]

punkrocksorcerer:

[punkrocksorcerer]

Careful with those extreme emotions of yours Severus.—We wouldn’t want you to succeed this time would we?

"How funny-haha! We're becoming quite the comedian aren't we Rosier?"

[vanity-isasin]

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With one fluid motion, Emma brought her hand hard across the side of Severus’ face. “For your information, we broke up because we were talking about marriage and I got scared. Not the other way around. Just who the fuck do you think you are, Severus? Or perhaps you prefer Snivellus?”

He didn't think. He didn't think at all before he pushed her and then slapped her as hard as he could manage. Severus was shaking, actually shaking, with the rage the flowed through him. She wasn't allowed to say that. Not Emma, not his rock and his support. "You-you bitch." His voice wavered, tears stinging at his eyes. "You fucking worthless slut. And here i had thought I had made a friend. Here I had thought I had one fucking person in my corner. One, just one, that wouldn't call me that name. That wouldn't draw back in fear. Just fucking one." He laughed, voice shaking with a bitter kind of joy. "I hope you're happy. Alone with mummy and daddy's money. I hope you know you've just lost me. Fuck off Emma. Don't bother owling me any more." Severus huffed before grabbing his things and storming out of the common room. Tears blurred his vision. 

[jamesbamfpotter]

punkrocksorcerer:

[punkrocksorcerer]

I wouldve thought that you would be throwing a party. After all your precious Emma finally came to her senses…

"Or perhaps...", Severus looked away from the dark-haired boy. "my precious James. Or was that just a fluke?"

[vanity-isasin]

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[punkrocksorcerer]

"Fuck you."

"Don't snap at me Emma. It's not like you didn't know what kind of man he was." Severus said, cruel smirk playing at his lips. "You should know by now. Don't let a lion play in your knickers or you'll confuse it for something else." Softening just a bit, he said, "He was only looking for a quick fuck. You couldn't have been expecting something...permanent."

[thestylishblack-deactivated2014]

[Grumbles:] Fucking detention… Slughorn… Bullshit… Not even my fault— Oh, sweet!

[punkrocksorcerer]

"Oh Merlin save us, the idiot's found something sharp."

[punkrocksorcerer]

"It's not like we didn't see this whole Emma and James break-up thing coming. You can't expect a snake not to bite and a lion not to roar."

[insanitycomesfromwithin-deactiv]

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“Are you really asking me to wheel you to the hospital and not get caught?” Eyebrows arching in amusement, a smirk crept onto Alecto’s face. “I think that can be arranged.”

"Nothing says improvement and healing like some good old fashioned mischief." Severus sat back in his wheelchair and yawned. "Poppy won't miss me. She's seen enough of me in the last few years"

[punkrocksorcerer]

001. Love

Due to his upbringing and the lack of parental care he received, Severus feels a very deep need to be loved and cared for. He'd break himself and change himself completely if it meant somebody would touch him, love him, hold him. Severus has noticed, of course, that he gives more of himself than anyone ever gives to him.