My Not So secret Obsessions

This is a blog filled with all the things I basically talk, think, write and fangirl about on a daily basis. Check out my Hollanov blog: tearsrunningdownilyascheeks

[pureloveandspite]

Been OBSESSED with this FIGHTMASTER song and immediately thought of Shane and Ilya 👏

[pureloveandspite]

I can’t get over the star center repeatedly telling her “you centered me” 🥺

[tearsrunningdownilyascheeks]

Credit idea to tbrameliasarchive on TikTok who always has the most god tier visions for these edits ✨

I don’t know I’ll ever get sick of making Heated Rivalry edits

[tearsrunningdownilyascheeks]

The second I heard Hudson’s speech it reminded me of Scott Hunter’s.

Even though it’s not the same kind of love, as Hudson and Connor have said, they’re soulmates.

It was very touching for Hudson to say this about Connor 🥹 You see the love felt by this cast in this show, and I truly believe that’s why we all love it so much💛

[pureloveandspite]

Since the timeline shift makes it feels like we’re back in the 2000’s again, I’ve been in my teenage emo kid music era.

Heated Rivalry x Sleeping With Sirens has been something I’ve wanted to do for a while now ✨

[tearsrunningdownilyascheeks]

I Wish It Could Be Different

Sneak peek of Chapter 4: What's in a Name? on ao3

Summary: It's always the same thing: eat, workout, practice, read, sleep, just to start it all over again tomorrow. Shane Hollander finds an escape from the responsibilities being thrown at him by his family, his town, himself by retreating into video games.

Who else would he find online but Ilya Rozanov? The boy across the world retreating into the same games but maybe for different reasons.

The beauty of gamertags is you never know who might be behind them…

Notes: This story is set to begin when Shane and Ilya are both 17 years old, and will attempt to follow the same timeline as the book series and show. Disclaimer: there will be backstory and additional scenes added that are not canon and are strictly my own interpretation.

There were some scenes throughout the book and show that I wish we got detailed descriptions for, and that was the inspiration for my creation for this fic.

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"This weekend made me realize how much my life is gonna change within the next few months, and honestly, even the next year. And I like you, alot. It's just..." Shane paused for what felt like an eternity to Ilya.

"Where do you see this going?" Shane finally asked, his voice shaking.

Ilya paused as he tried to think of the words in English. He wanted to tell Shane that he wanted to be more than friends. He wanted to admit to Shane that he had saved his life, that he was on the verge of ending it all before they met in that COD lobby all those months ago. He wanted to tell Shane that they were more compatible than he knew and explain just how perfect they are for each other...but he can't. Not right now.

"What do you mean?"

He heard Shane sigh into the mic. "I mean... is this just an online sex thing as friends, or...?"

Ilya knew what Shane was implying, and he was trying to hide how grateful he was feeling that Shane brought this up first. He's been thinking about it. He's been thinking about them...together.

Ilya chose his words carefully. He didn't want to come on too strong and scare Shane away, but he didn't want to be dishonest and come off as someone who is just using him either.

"I think...or," Ilya stated in a playful but nervous tone, praying that his assessment of Shane's feelings was right. "I like the sex. But I like you too."

Shane let out a nervous, breathy chuckle. "That's a relief to hear."

Ilya laughed quietly along with him.

"We're both graduating soon. Probably going different places. Do you feel like we should....meet? Like for real?" Shane asked.

Ilya chuckled to himself and shook his head. If only you knew.

"Let's spend time together. See where it goes. And talk about more later. Near graduation. Sound good?" Ilya wanted to spend as much time together as possible. He wasn't sure how he would get through the next six months with Shane...Redb1rd's...company, and he knew telling him before they met organically at the draft could risk that.

"Okay. Yeah, that sounds good."

"Can I ask something?"

"Always."

"What is favorite bird?" Ilya had been curious about this for a while. He had never gotten the courage to ask more about Shane's gamertag, but it always stayed at the forefront of his mind.

"What?" Shane responded in a confused tone.

"What is favorite bird? You are Redb1rd. You like bird, no?"

[pureloveandspite]

tbrameliasarchive over on TikTok said this song would be on Ilya’s playlist, and she inspired me to make an edit for it✨

Song: Sweat by ZAYN

[pureloveandspite]

I’m obsessed with this game yall 😂

I’m using it to play out alllllll the multiships: Roselana, Hollanov, Skip, Troy/Harris, Cliff/Hayden….the possibilities are endless ✨

[pureloveandspite]

The Haiden Henderson x Heated Rivalry obsession doesn’t seem to be going anywhere any time soon 🫣

[tearsrunningdownilyascheeks]

My HR thought of the day:

I had a revelation in my early 30’s that I get super angry&irritable certain times of year. Turns out it’s usually on Mothers/Fathers Days because I have always spent those days alone having to see everyone post lovely times with their not terrible parents.

And I realize this is the part of Ilya I relate to so hard. Wishing things could be different, wishing I was able to spend happy holidays with family, wishing I had traditions… wishing I could show love the way I desperately want to but not having a recipient to give it to who I know won’t take advantage…

I’m glad he found Yuna and David🥺

[flowerbleedme]

fanfic is extremely hard

[tearsrunningdownilyascheeks]

Bruh all this talk about Hanta virus and a potential second pandemic and shutdown

And all I’m thinking is if I die before season 2 of Heated Rivalry comes out, someone’s getting haunted

[mythmagicetc]

ilya as captain of an all-star team still doing his “i love you i love you i love you” thing and everyone’s like “last week you told me i wasn’t ensouled because my mother didn’t orgasm when i was conceived but okay man”

[tearsrunningdownilyascheeks]

Can you imagine how enamored Ilya had to have been with Shane to pursue him the way he did?

Like his dad was ON HIS NECK about never losing a game, and truly the realest biggest threat to that was Shane, who was objectively as good if not better at the game than him.

It would have been so so easy for Ilya to feel resentment for Shane, but he don’t allow his fathers anger, disappointment, or hatred seep into the loveliness and light he immediately saw in Shane.

It could have gone so differently if Ilya allowed his father to impact his self-esteem on a deeper level.

I think it really speaks to the kind of person Ilya was desperate to be and the kind of person he was only able to become after escaping the suffocating grasp of his abusive father….

[lucydacusgirl]

i wish swimming was something you could do alone in your bedroom.

[airinyourtires]

If you’re pining you need to stop and pick a different tree. You know, spruce it up a little

[airinyourtires]

I’m still proud of this post. It’s evergreen

[dont-hate-me-because-i]

Hey, no need to be a Birch about it

[tearsrunningdownilyascheeks]

Too much, too good 🤤