sometimes i wonder if we have forgotten that sharing creative work is, fundamentally, a bid for human connection. like I'm not posting art or fic for 'engagement' i'm posting it looking for other sickos to play with! i'd be making it anyway for my own gratification because there's something wrong with me, i'm sharing it hoping we can have something wrong with us together <3
This ✨️
I’ve been in a bit of a funk related to this subject of human connection in fandom spaces lately (apologies to my sweet fandom friends who have listened and sympathized with some moody DMs from me in the past week or two).
Being an active community participant / builder and fic reader / commenter in a small fandom where everyone who’s here sort of knows each other — which to be clear, is overwhelmingly wonderful! — does, nonetheless, hit a little different when you’re ALSO 1. a small creator with fics that don’t show up in the main AO3 tag everyone’s here for, and 2. relatedly, a voracious fic reader obsessed with a character who rarely shows up as a main/PoV character in fic — so when it happens, it makes your entire year (but most of the time, it doesn’t happen, and you end up talking to yourself about your own stale fic and head-canons to get your character fix).
There is nothing that *needs* changing or correcting, because at the end of day, everyone has limited time and is here for the reasons they are here! I love reading and supporting others’ large and small fanworks, and I’m always going to strive to do that. Having said that, I am trying to be more intentional and open with people — when it comes up in conversation — about what forms of connection would make me feel a little more at home in the fandom, too. Because I’ve realized that a lot of people might not be aware. For me, it’s things like: if you mention to me that you love Aleida or resonate with my take on her, I’d love if you actually dropped by one of my fics sometime; and if you do find it interesting (totally fine if you don’t!), let me know so we can talk about it! And likewise, if you’re working on an Aleida-focused fic or just thinking interpretively about her as a character, I would find it so fun and fulfilling to chat back and forth about that too. Just thought I’d share in case this resonated with anyone ❤️



















