lyrics from random songs i like that remind me of jax
(last updated 5/3/26)
Chemical Girl by Weevildoing - "I know my place in the world, I will accept the role" "my tongue licking up all the plutonium, my words laced with traces of radiation" "my jaw of radium drops and its over" "there's no point in getting close"
ROT FOR CLOUT by JamieP - "It doesn't really matter what I feel, I would rather fake than make the pain real" "I live a life so hollow that I'm not even there"
2D TRAGEDY by jigsawllie - "Characters to torment, horrors breach containment, revel in someone else's pain just for entertainment" "Try not to remember that this is real beyond the screen" "Panic burned into your mind, escape into another life. You can't leave these things behind, existing in the worst timeline"
Splitter Girl by Weevildoing - "Don't be so nice to me, you'll make me wish I wanted help" "why won't you go and kill me? hurry up and get rid of me, before I say 'I'm sorry'" "Born to bring you all misery, and yet you see good in me" "if this really wasn't the end, and I could do it again, do you think that I deserve it? do you think that i'm worth it?"
DEVIANT <3 by Weevildoing - "You make me feel special, you treat me so gentle. As if I deserve it. (As if I'm a person.)"
Tongues & Teeth by The Crane Wives - "And I know that you mean so well, but I am not a vessel for your good intent" "I will only break your pretty things. I will only wring you dry of everything" "I will ruin you" "It's a habit, I can't help it"
Curses by The Crane Wives - "There's a fire in my brain, and I'm burning up" "Keep runnin' for the sink, but the well is dry" "Every word I say is kindling, but smoke clears when you're around" "This house says my name like an elegy" "There's still cobwebs in the corners, and the backyard's full of bones"
Microplastic Girl by Starscape-P - "I think you could get hurt again, if you don't let it go. I made you see the parts of you that you refuse to show." "Use your teeth on those who don't deserve you, use your claws on everything that hurts you" "You can heal, but it won't be easy"
Oneirophobia by Carbon Monoxide - "Block it away, don't talk about it today. My dirty secrets, oh, what would they ever say?" "So clear, yet so dirty, it's not gonna kill me. Ensuring my own demise, I'm a slave to my own lies" "My evil, it knows no excuse" "Enabling me won't make me feel any better" "Blinded by reality, its many brutalities, leaving me so haunted. This isn't what you wanted?" "So muddy and filthy, and it almost killed me" "You shouldn't have had to save me"
Feel Better by Penelope Scott - "I don't wanna feel better. No one's ever gonna love me like that again" "I don't wanna get over you, I wanna sit with you in bed" "Or I'm just really fuckin' selfish and really fuckin' lost, But someone loved me, someone fucking loved me" "and I fuckin' loved them, too. Goddamn it, I was worth something, I fuckin' learned something, I had my cake (I ate it, it ate me too and, God, no) I don't wanna feel better." "But in a hot way, a way I'll fuckin' never have again" "I had a right to die, a right to live, a right to choose, too."
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[ID: An excerpt from a Q&A regarding the crow boy/plastic dress girl book. Question: Is there a love triangle / will someone fight crow powers for my attention? Answer: No love triangle but there is a bromance gone wrong, and emotionally constipated crow boys brooding and being butt heads]
Solaria "Microplastic Girl" SynthV has failed to intrude on their romance 😔
Making a little pinned post for goyim who stumble across this blog. Nothing in your background, none of your experiences with marginalization, nothing at all makes you exempt from having unconsciously incorporated antisemitism into your world view and mindset. The best thing you can do is seek out a wide range of all jewish voices with no preconceived notions, hear how different things affect their lives and oppression, and take that into account about what you say and do.
Next thing to address. Antisemitism from the left DOES exist and it IS in your movements for palestinian liberation, as ugly a truth as that is. I support a free palestine and an end to genocide. So, when I showed up to my first protest and saw a displayed swastika with hundreds of people around, I was extremely dismayed that not a single one was willing to stand up and say a goddamned thing. This is the state of antisemitism on the left. Most people won’t *openly* spout hateful rhetoric, tho those who will are quite loud.
The real problem is that there is no collective willingness to go after the open antisemites in these movements. It’s deemed acceptable because it’s for a good cause. And let me tell you, this shit is quite typical. We jews see it constantly. Just because you aren’t seeing antisemitism, doesn’t mean it’s not there. Of course you aren’t seeing it. You’re not jewish. You don’t have the background to notice shit that you’ve been taught is normal and fine. Yet, your silence in the face of these things or even your engagement in them still hurts us. And. You know what they say. If nazi joins 4 people at a table and they do nothing about it you have 5 nazis.
So. What can you do? Seek out jewish voices and LEARN!! Don’t tokenize us. Don’t choose ones you already agree with. The first resource I recommend for dealing w antisemitism in leftist spaces is called “The Past Didn’t Go Anywhere” by April Rosenblum. This is a jew with a long history of palestinian advocacy and she has done a great job at breaking down where antisemitism happens and its effects on the global jewish community. Link for it at the bottom. It was written in 2007 and remains depressingly relevant today. This pamphlet is 24 pages, a bit long, but very thorough.
It should he noted, however, that this pamphlet is the barebones details of what’s antisemitic btw. The things listed in there are basic, “Nearly every jew in the world would agree this is antisemitic,” type of things. There is far more to antisemitism than just what’s contained in that zine. Your best resource for further learning about what we jews face is to make an effort to actually listen to jewish voices. No tokenizing. No dismissing. Just listening and seeing what makes sense.
That said, this zine is essential reading, because it gives you the tools to start making your spaces safe for jews to be in. And, if you do that, hopefully you’ll find more jews who trust you enough to tell you when things are antisemitic. If that’s something you don’t care to do, well, you probably don’t belong on this blog anyways.
EDIT: In an ideal world, I would like a binational one-state solution with a right of return for jews and palestinians as well as massive reparations for palestinians. I do NOT identify as a zionist. And. I also know jews who identify as zionists who want the exact same things I do. If your rhetoric is calling for violence against those people you can fuck right off.
Zionist is a jewish word that has been appropriated and twisted by non-jews for over 50 years. Sometimes this is done by christian “zionists,” who have taken that word because it convinces others that they care about us. They do not and we jews know they do not. Sometimes others who lie about what it means to jews and use it to discredit jews who want to live peacefully with palestinians in our shared homeland.
Zionism is an extremely pluralistic political philosophy, and you have likely been lied to about the scope of what it means. While there are some zionists who have taken that ideology to the extreme of ethnic cleansing, apartheid, and genocide of palestinians, that is not the majority usage. The term for the subset of zionists who DO subscribe to that is “kahanist” or “racist piece of shit”. Most jews who use the term zionist to describe themselves are fighting for a peaceful and equitable solution to this conflict in which we live side by side with palestinians in some form or another.
So. Why do I bring this up? To ask you to stop misusing our fucking word. This word has been used to disguise calls for violence against our community. The reason you see right-wingers who are “Anti-zionist” is not because they care about palestinians, but because they hate jews and understand that fear-mongering about zionism is a powerful way to stoke antisemitisc sentiment and stochastic terrorism against our communities. If you repeat their rhetoric, even with good intensions, even in leftist spaces, you still spread these ideas. And your spreading of these ideas, regardless of intent, actively endangers diaspora jews.
Yes. Israel has committed so many fucking war crimes and is currently committing genocide. I am firmly against it, and will not stop fighting until the palestinian people are free. All of what I’ve said above is as a jew who is deeply critical of zionism as an ideology and who believes there are irreparable flaws in the worldview which zionism is based on. And, still, with all I said above, I want you to know that there ARE ways as a non-jew that you can be antizionist and not antisemitic. BUT!!!! If ANYTHING of what I’ve said above is news to you, you do not presently know enough to do this successfully.
Jewish zionism, whether you agree with it or not, is a proposed answer to jewish oppression. To disagree with this answer, you need to subscribe to a different one. That means engaging with jewish political theory in a meaningful way, and actually working with our communities to fight for their safety in the diaspora. Otherwise it is clear that your issue isn’t a disagreement with this proposed answer for jewish safety, but instead an issue with jews being safe. You can fight for palestinians without being antisemitic. In fact, YOU SHOULD BE FIGHTING FOR PALESTINIANS PERIOD! I’m just asking you to be mindful to avoid putting jewish lives endanger as you do so. And if that’s not motivation enough, consider that this mindfulness helps your advocacy for palestinians as well, because you’ll help to insulate the movement against accusations of antisemitism. Those accusations will exist regardless, as we all know, but making them actually false will help strengthen our cause to those who would follow us, but are wary because of the hate they’ve seen. Those people are greater in number than you realize.
Jewish Theory and Antisemitism Education Resources Post
Okay. It’s no secret about how disappointed I’ve been about the unwillingness others seem to have to learn about jewish issues and fight for jewish liberation. So, I’m compiling a list of valuable resources on the topic. I won’t personally agree with everything every resource says, but I will be including various conflicting opinions which I think are valuable to hear from and learn. Things which can give better understanding to outsiders about what we face and can tell them how to better advocate on our behalf. As this grows I may add sections and categories for types resources but for now it’s just a list. Will edit to add more over time. Those interested can submit resources they feel will be helpful in my asks, and I’ll read and consider them when I get time. List under the cut.
(You can find my old pinned post about the antisemitism within the pro-palestine movement here, if anyone is looking for it.)
I used to have the second resource as the first one, because I think it is a vital introductory resource, but I’m now putting this one ahead of it. “The Epistemic Dimension of Antisemitism” by David Schraub. This paper discusses the devaluing of Jewish experience and perspective and examines why our voices are systemically discounted. It is dense, and it may refer to some aspects of antisemitism to which you are unfamiliar if this is your first time engaging with the subject. However, I still recommend reading it first because it gives you context and motivation to check your biases at the door when moving forward. If there are parts which do not make sense without context, read the next resource and come back to this one to revisit what you did not understand.
Next up is “The Past Didn’t Go Anywhere” by April Rosenblum. This pamphlet on antisemitism in leftist spaces goes over the bare minimum you need to know and do to be an effective ally to the jewish community and the jewish people in your lives. This is essential reading to begin to understand antisemitism and your role in fighting it as a goy (non-jew). Originally listed first to its exceptional usefulness as a introductory resource, I moved it one down the list in the hopes that the paper above will prime readers to be more receptive to Jewish thought on Jewish issues.
Now, I’d like to introduce people to “Skin the Game: How Antisemitism Animates White Nationalism” by Eric K. Ward. In this article Eric Ward discusses his experiences as a Black man who’s spent his life studying white nationalism and the lens this has given him on antisemitism as a load bearing element of the white nationalist ideological framework. It was written less than 6 months into the first trump presidency and so it is very much reflective of that time, but it contains invaluable insights. Last year (2024) he wrote a follow up to the original which reflects the many meaningful escalations which have occurred since the original. However, as they cover different content and experiences, I highly recommend reading both pieces.
Now, the article which inspired me to make this post. “White Jews: An Intersectional Approach” by David Schruab discusses how an intersectional approach between Whiteness and Jewishness is needed to properly understand the dynamics by which White Jews experience marginalization. It’s long, but well worth the read. For intracommunity reasons I recommend my fellow Jews give this a read too.
Additionally, in “The Baggage of Whiteness,” Schraub goes over how the strange intersection that White Jews experience affects the way Israel and Zionism are discussed. One of the most useful analyses I found from that article is a solid explanation for the interest white non-Jews have in clinging so fervently to their antisemitism on this subject. I group this together with the previous article as it provides important context for this one. While the second is comprehensible without the first, you will need at least a passable understanding of the weird ways in which White Jews experience race. If this is not a familiar subject for you then you probably won’t understand this piece, and I would recommend reading the other one first.
There will be others to add, but this is what I have for now. This post will be pinned for easy finding.
Saw something about people getting frustrated when they’re criticizing Israel but keep finding themselves around nazis so lemme give some pointers as an anti-zionist Jew. If the language you are using to address Israel sounds so much like white nationalist rhetoric that you keep finding yourself in company with or shown content from white nationalists, the issue is that you’re already talking like them. The issue is that you are cool w their language. It’s not hard to criticize Israel’s genocide without sounding like a white nationalist, I do it all the damn time. If this keeps happening to you it’s a skill issue and you need to address your unconscious anti-Jewish bias and educate yourself on anti-Jewish dogwhistles. The reason this keeps happening to you is your own internalized bigoted ideas about the place of Jews in the world affecting your perspectives and speech. It’s quite easy to avoid, actually, if you just engage even slightly with resources to educate yourself on Jewish oppression. If this keeps happening to you it’s because of the language you choose, the people you follow, and the company you choose to keep. If you wanna learn more you can start here.
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