Hi Tumblr friends. Itâs been a while. I know we donât talk much!
A lot has happened. I went to London and started my PhD and wasnât having a lot of fun, despite accomplishing something Iâd dreamed about for years. It was a weird feeling. I still feel weird about it.
Then I got really sick and was rushed back to Canada and hospitalized. Most of October was spent dealing with that. I had a couple of procedures including getting my gallbladder out. Iâm still recovering and under doctorâs orders to rest. I wonât be going back to London anytime soon.
Or at all, at least for my PhD. I missed a big funding deadline while in hospital that means I canât really afford to continue - it was already a gamble. Coupled with my feelings of uncertainty and homesickness, itâs time for a change of plan. I love Classics and Academia but Iâm also completely burnt out on them.Â
I donât know whatâs next, aside from follow-up appointments and maybe some long-needed therapy for my anxiety and depression. Itâs nice being home with my dog and my family and my things again, but Iâm also battling the irrational feeling of being a failure that comes with changing your life path. Itâs an uphill battle right now, but I know good things are on the other side.Â
I hope youâre having a good day. I mean it.


















