This 30 day reset is meant to transform you slowly and intentionally. Instead of overwhelming you with a full routine on day one, we build habits layer by layer. Each week we add small upgrades that stack together. By the end of the month, you’re not forcing change because you’ve naturally shifted into a more aligned version of yourself
The daily non negotiables stack every week and should be practiced every single day
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🤍 DAILY NON NEGOTIABLES THAT START WEEK 1 (Every single day) These repeat all 30 days
✔ Morning lemon water (or warm water w/ electrolytes)
✔ 10 minutes of sunlight (or red light if cloudy) (text outside for 10 minutes, drink your water, tea, coffee; talk to trees, or walk your pet. But go outside
✔ A 10- 20 minute walk (or pilates / gym workouts)
✔ No phone for the first 15-30 minutes of waking up
✔ One page of journaling
✔ One “future self” choice daily
✨ WEEK 1: REGULATION + RECONNECTION
Day 1
Main task: Slow morning routine with no phone, sunlight, grounding. It doesn’t have to be an expansive routine. If you don’t have one at all now, your goal should be to not rush
Alternatives:
5 minutes of deep breathing
Put your phone in another room overnight
(Daily non negotiables active)
Day 2
Main task: Pick ONE thing you’ll repeat for all 30 days (examples: walks, pilates, red light, skincare)
Alternatives:
10 minute stretch
Daily greens/tea ritual
Day 3
Main task: Clean one of your common used spaces. Like your closet, bed room or bathroom. Move some things around
Day 4
Set your morning atmosphere. Choose one: soft music, a candle, a signature scent
Alternatives:
Open windows for fresh air while you get ready
Create a small morning “station” with your journal + water glass
Day 5
Main task: Create your “non negotiable five” list for the month and place it somewhere visible
Alternatives:
Turn it into a phone wallpaper
Set alarms to remind you of each one
Day 6
Main task: Digital declutter: delete 500 photos/screenshots, old notes & outdated files
Alternatives:
Clear emails
Day 7
Main task: Two sentence reflection every single night.
I released __ / I welcomed __
Alternatives:
5 minute gratitude list
Think about the best part of your day
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🤍 DAILY NON NEGOTIABLES THAT START WEEK 2
✔ Morning lemon water (or warm water w/ electrolytes)
✔ 10 minutes of sunlight (or red light if cloudy)
✔ 10–20 minutes of movement
✔ No phone for the first 15-30 minutes after waking
✔ One page of journaling (or 5 minute reflection)
✔ One “future self” choice daily
✔ Nightly two sentence reflection
✨ WEEK 2: ENVIRONMENT EDIT
Day 8
Task: Organize all of your self care, beauty, skin care etc products. Replace, restock or declutter old products
Day 9
Main task: Upgrade your beauty ritual with one elevated practice: gua sha, red light therapy, hair oiling, or facial massage
Alternatives:
Body exfoliation
Face mask + steam
Day 10
Main task: Remove items you haven’t worn in the last year
Alternatives:
Create three “future self” outfits
Build a mini capsule for the week
Day 11
Main task: Create a signature atmosphere scent for your space. Choose a candle, diffuser, incense, or room spray that sets the tone for your mornings or work block
Alternatives:
Choose one scent for daytime focus and another for evening wind down
Use a natural essential oil blend for clarity or calm
DAY 12
Main task: Elevated Sunday reset. Soft lighting, candles and music while you clean and reorder your space
Alternatives:
Reset your fridge
Change sheets + wash blankets
DAY 13
Main task: organize your pantry. Teas, supplements, snacks, or jars
Alternatives:
Restock wellness essentials
Transfer pantry items into containers for aesthetics
DAY 14
Main task: Create or refresh your cozy/safe corner with a blanket, candle and journal
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✨ ADDITIONAL NON NEGOTIABLES STARTING WEEK 3 ✨
1. A daily stillness moment (2–5 minutes)
This is not meditation. It’s just a pause to sit with yourself and do nothing. If you don’t know how to think of nothing, think of the ocean :)
Examples:
sit with eyes closed
breath reset
5 slow inhales/exhales
2. 1 small action toward a personal goal
Examples:
reading 1 page
sending 1 email
applying to 1 thing
learning one new skill
✨ WEEK 3: MINDSET + IDENTITY SHIFT ✨
DAY 15
Main task: Write your identity statement: “I am becoming a person who…”
Alternatives:
Make it your lock screen
Record it as a voice note
DAY 16
Main task: Relationship audit: think about who expands you and who drains you
Alternatives:
Unfollow/mute draining social accounts
Distance yourself from one misaligned connection
DAY 17
Main task: Write what you refuse to carry into the new year
Alternatives:
Rip it up
Burn it safely as a symbolic ritual
DAY 18
Main task: One hour focus block with no distractions
Alternatives:
Work in a café
Put your phone in a drawer for the hour
DAY 19
Main task: Complete one thing you’ve been avoiding
Alternatives:
Make that appointment
Clear that one area you keep ignoring
DAY 20
Main task: 1% upgrade / improve one tiny thing in your lifestyle or environment
Alternatives:
Upgrade your water or coffee cup
Add a nutrient to your meal
DAY 21
Main task: Device free evening for two hours
Alternatives:
Tea + book
Bath + soft music
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✨ ADDITIONAL NON NEGOTIABLES STARTING WEEK 4 ✨
1. A daily future self alignment check every single day where you ask yourself: “Is what I’m doing right now aligned with who I said I want to be?”
2. Daily beauty/body respect moment. Do something small for yourself that makes you feel cared for physically
Examples:
apply lip mask
posture check
hand cream
stretch hips
fix your hair
apply body oil
✨ WEEK 4: FUTURE SELF EMBODIMENT ✨
DAY 22
Main task: Vision journal 2026 as if it already happened
Alternatives:
Record a voice visualization
Create a mini mood board
DAY 23
Main task: Financial reset, review accounts, cancel subscriptions, clean digital bank clutter
Alternatives:
Set a savings or income goal
Review and rewrite money beliefs
DAY 24
Main task: exfoliate, shave, hair mask, glow shower, body oil
Alternatives:
At home facial
Nail or brow grooming
DAY 25
Main task: Build a five outfit capsule wardrobe for your “future self.”
Alternatives:
Photograph each outfit
Organize clothes by color
DAY 26
Main task: Rewrite your standards: love, friendships, lifestyle and boundaries
Alternatives:
Write a “bare minimum list”
Write a “never again” list
DAY 27
Main task: Social detox, clear your feed of comparison triggers
Alternatives:
Mute 20 accounts
Curate your algorithm intentionally
DAY 28
Main task: One hour of movement,walk, pilates, yoga, dance, or stretch
Alternatives:
30 minute guided class
20 minute “clean your space” movement
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✨ WEEK 5: COMPLETION + ASCENSION ✨
DAY 29
Main task: Create your New Year ritual- playlist, candle, bath, journal prompts
Alternatives:
Make a ritual box
Write a letter to your future self
DAY 30
Main task: Full reset: clean sheets, glow shower, vacuum, clear surfaces, organize your space. Read your identity statements + your 2025 vision
Alternatives:
Do a full home energy cleanse (fresh air, incense, open windows)
You are sexually attracted to people who mirror your childhood wounds (neuroscience + how to rewrite your attraction)
What society loves to call chemistry is rarely compatibility but neurobiology replaying an old emotional pattern. The brain wires its blueprint for love in early childhood, long before you ever date anyone. If you grew up with inconsistency, emotional distance, criticism, unpredictability, or a parent whose moods you had to manage, your nervous system learned to pair survival activation with connection. The amygdala stored that discomfort as familiar, the hippocampus tied it to love and the dopamine–cortisol loop became your baseline for it. So when you meet someone for example who’s hot and cold, avoidant, or emotionally unpredictable, your limbic system fires up with adrenaline, cortisol, and dopamine because that’s what your childhood trained you to crave. Your nervous system misreads this activation as attraction
Healthy, secure people activate the opposite system. The prefrontal cortex and the ventral vagal pathway which in short is the networks of clarity, safety, emotional regulation, and long term bonding. But if your body is wired for chaos, that calmness doesn’t feel right. It feels boring like “something is missing” simply because stability doesn’t trigger your survival chemistry. Your body has never learned how to interpret that silence as desire
Attraction is fully rewritable so when you start regulating your nervous system you lower chronic cortisol and strengthen the prefrontal cortex and your vagus nerve becomes more responsive, your baseline shifts out of hypervigilance, and suddenly you stop bonding with people who destabilize you. The spark you once felt with avoidant or inconsistent partners begins to fade because your body is no longer addicted to the dopamine withdrawal cycle. And the emotionally available person starts to feel genuinely attractive. This applies to everything by the way. Our general interests, likes and dislikes. They are all a reflection of our internal chemistry. So once our chemistry starts to change, so does everything else. How we dress, what colors we likes, our hobbies etc. There are a lot of stereotypical generic examples out there that I see on social media, and while they can sound annoying, there is underlining scientific truth to it. Have you ever heard a therapist or someone in a similar field say that are our interests , actions etc everything even our micro expressions tells a person everything about our internal state. It’s true. Because if a person felt, or was doing x then that would mean that their interests or how they feel about themselves would line up with certain things. And literally that’s how you begin to understand what’s real or not. If the person is telling you the truth about who they are or not etc
I digress
This is what real healing looks like: your attraction slowly moves from the limbic system’s trauma loops into the steadiness of a regulated nervous system. You stop craving the person who activates your wounds, and you begin desiring the person who can actually hold you. It’s the moment your body stops repeating the past and finally chooses a future that supports your peace
So the first step is pausing when you feel that intense pull to someone. As you incorporate habits that lower your baseline cortisol, the people who destabilize you naturally lose their appeal because your body is no longer fueled by chaos. At the same time, you have to break the dopamine–withdrawal cycle that makes avoidant partners feel addictive. Mute them, stop checking their social media and replace that craving with daily dopamine wins like movement, finishing tasks, healthy meals and emotional regulation. Slowly exposing yourself to safe teaches your nervous system that safety can feel good too. You rebuild inner safety by keeping your word, setting boundaries, creating structure, and proving to yourself you’re someone you can trust. Your body will start desiring peace instead of chaos and kindness becomes attractive in a way instability never was. There’s grief in letting go of the old pattern. Yes it’s not easy. Especially if you’re not emotionally grounded. But that grief is what frees your attraction. Eventually you’ll feel your body relax around healthy people and tighten around unhealthy ones. You guys often hear me say “gross” regarding toxic scenarios. That’s because toxic things seriously gross me out. I want it no where near me. I don’t find it the least bit attractive at all. It’s disgusting and not cute or funny to me in anyway. That’s when you know you’ve rewired your attraction. When your heart stops craving the wound and starts wanting the person who can actually hold you, which I know it’s something everyone secretly wants in their search for love. So you can do yourself the favor of rewiring your nervous system or you can choose to continue to be unhappy and unfulfilled. But ultimately the responsibility falls on you. If you really want it. Be honest with yourself
How to get rid of intrusive thoughts—Backed by brain science
Unwanted memories, thoughts you just can’t turn off, thoughts you didn’t ask for are all intrusive thoughts. If you deal with anxiety, OCD, PTSD and even mental burnout, you’ve probably experienced them. But the solution isn’t always about willpower
Your brain runs on chemicals and one of the most important for calm thinking is GABA, which is your brain’s main calming neurotransmitter. It basically tells your mind when to stop firing, settle down and let go of thoughts that aren’t helpful
When GABA levels are low, it becomes much harder to block out intrusive thoughts. Even if your prefrontal cortex is trying its best to stay focused, low GABA can cause your memory system (the hippocampus) to keep looping the same thoughts. It's not that your rational brain is broken it’s that without enough GABA, it doesn’t have the support it needs to do its job
So if you find that you can’t willpower your way out of spiraling thoughts, the issue might be chemistry. And when your GABA levels are balanced, your brain can finally do what it’s designed to do which is filter, release and move on
Natural ways to get rid of intrusive thoughts by boosting GABA levels:
Supplements:
L Theanine– Calms brain, improves focus and boosts GABA
Magnesium Glycinate/Threonate– Helps GABA work better and eases anxiety
Vitamin B6– Needed to create GABA from glutamate
Taurine– A GABA like amino acid that helps quiet your mind
PharmaGABA– A natural form of GABA shown to reduce stress in some people
Ashwagandha– Reduces cortisol and helps regulate GABA
Foods:
Ripe bananas
Spinach, broccoli, kale
Almonds & walnuts
Yogurt, kimchi, miso
Oats, sweet potatoes, quinoa
Training your brain to let go:
10–20 minutes of meditating a day can raise GABA naturally. Box breathing also helps
Cold showers activate parasympathetic nervous system and GABA production
Exercise (even going on walks) boosts GABA and rewires your brain away from rumination.
Grounding reduces overactivity in the part of your brain that loops and obsesses
7–9 hours of quality sleep
Reducing caffeine and alcohol (both mess with GABA)
Taking breaks from constant stimulation and scrolling
Journaling your thoughts
DO NOT:
Do not suppress your emotions. The more you push the thought away the stronger it gets because it is essentially your main focus still. Science shows that when you label your thoughts and feelings they have less control over you. Do not attach any meaning to the thoughts or judge yourself for them instead tell yourself something like " ok well I had this thought and its bad and definitely not something I want, so I will not be doing that" and continue on
Every time you respond to an intrusive thought with calm instead of panic, you’re strengthening your prefrontal cortex (rational thinking, decision making and emotional regulation). Instead of shaming yourself for what your mind throws at you, you’re choosing understanding over judgment, which is what healing really looks
Waiting until you “feel motivated” is one of the biggest traps keeping you stuck. We assume that motivation leads to action. But neuroscience reveals it’s actually the opposite, action creates motivation. And doing things especially when you don’t feel like it rewires your brain in powerful ways that boost your mindset, open doors and lead to lasting success
You’ve probably heard of dopamine, the “motivation molecule” in your brain. It plays a key role in desire, drive and goal pursuit. But you don’t need to feel motivated to get dopamine, you need to take action
When you take action your brain releases dopamine afterward, reinforcing the behavior and making it more likely you’ll do it again
This is called “self generated dopamine.” And it’s how habits are built
So when you push yourself to go for that walk, send that email, or post that content without feeling like it your brain rewards you afterward, not before. You just flipped the script because your brain learns that you are in control, not your feelings. This means fewer spirals of procrastination and more consistent action
The people who achieve more, connect more and grow faster aren’t always more talented they’re just more consistent. And consistency comes from doing the work even when you don’t feel like it
It’s how momentum is built
It’s how visibility is built
Its how opportunities show up
If you want a tough love synopsis then look at it like this, every time you let your feelings win it means you are not in control and don’t have power over your own life. Sounds ugly right? I’m sure you probably don’t want that
Waiting for motivation keeps you invisible. Taking action even imperfectly keeps you moving forward
Motivation is a side effect, not a requirement
When you act without feeling ready, you’re building a growth mindset, a more efficient brain and a life that’s shaped by your choices and not fleeting emotions
And that kind of power changes everything
You don’t need to be motivated to build a great life
You need to act when it’s inconvenient, uncomfortable, and uninspiring because that’s when you’re rewiring your brain. That’s when you’re becoming the version of yourself that gets results. That’s when magic happens
❤︎ . . . 12k. fem!reader, set in 03’, established relationship, pregnant!reader, southern!eren, domesticity, difficult pregnancy / doubts, home birthing, marriage / vasectomy talk, mention of healthcare discrimination, lots of crying, oral ꒰ f. ꒱, gentle sex kinda, lots of kisses! + affirmations, praise, thumb in bootay, unprotected, sensitivity play, choking, lactation ‘n eren tastes it oopsie, nasty talk, creampie, pet names ꒰ sweetie, baby, mama, papa ꒱, spanking, daddy kink. minors aren't allowed! reblogs and comments are greatly appreciated. <3
꒰ 𝑚𝑜𝑐ℎ𝑎’𝑠 𝑛𝑜𝑡𝑒 ꒱ . . . officially obsessed w this couple so i couldn’t help myself by writing a third part teehee. happy belated valentine’s day <3 visual.
baby . . . i’m lonely. think i w’na baby.
a conversation starter like that would only skyrocket the heart rate of any husband. eight years of marriage with just each other, and three with the addition of honeybelle, including the fifteen chickens, four piggies, and two baby goats on the farm alongside two of the cutest tawny cows you named tweedle-dee and tweedle-dum. every moment felt rewarding, so you questioned lately why you felt so . . lonely. for the longest time you didn’t quite understand what you were missing. the life you lived with eren was perfect. it was romantic, soft, relaxing. you couldn’t have asked for anything more.
tending to the animals on a warm sunny day, you hum tunes to yourself as the goats follow and nudge at your toffee cowboy boots, giggling and picking juicy strawberries from their stems, enjoying their company. waffles, the tan goat with blotches of white rolls serenely in the grass while the other, miss daisie, who’s an all black goat with an almost heart-shaped spot on the surface of her skull, screams and sniffs at you, craving your attention. occasionally, you’ll reach down to give affection to satisfy her.
a brown woven basket rests on the dip of your forearm, feet traveling along the iridescent field and dropping the fruit into a sea of fresh vegetables pulled off their roots from the garden, collecting just enough to make a few meals that require them.
that day you had an interesting epiphany. the gravel in your front yard dances along the tires of a red pickup truck that pulls into your home. a sweet friend of yours named bea drops by with her three-year-old toddler, jason. the tiny human dressed in dark washed overalls with a teal shirt underneath, and boots whom she lifts up and rests on her hip before entering the home.
“ ꒰♡꒱, darling. missed you so much. how are you?” instantly, she’s embracing you into a tight hug, pulling away to admire your looks.
whenever she sees you, you’re radiant. cocoa skin, a shade darker than the last time she saw you, courtesy of the suns kisses. in few sections, your raven curls are wrapped in flawless fairy locs, styled half-up into an unruly bun. a silver heart locket containing your infamous black and white wedding day photo where eren dips you low in front of a willow tree around your neck, resting on the heat of your skin radiating a fragrance of vanilla bean. the minimal hairs on your body fuzzing up when the sunlight hits where you stand by the massive bay windows overlooking your landscape.
almond irises and beautiful full lips, slightly taller than bea by a full foot. rustic boots, an ivory flowy skirt that sits well on your curvy hips and cascades down to your ankles, pairing it with a white laced top and a matching bandana atop your head.
“i’m doing good. up to my usual pastime of holding down the fort and cooking,” you beam, scanning her from head to toe. “you look gorgeous, how are you and the family?”
bea’s a gorgeous woman. you notice her face is a bit chubbier, adorable pointed chin, button nose, and curly auburn hair that rests on her shoulders. caramel complexion, light voice and the prettiest hazel eyes. her son is an exact replica of her, catching a glimpse of the angel she made as he giggles and plays with honeybelle, her two inch tail wagging as she chases him around the dining room.
“jason’s doing pretty well, we’re just coming from a doctor’s appointment, actually. just found out today that he’s going deaf in his right ear,” bea builds up the courage to weakly smile, your body pausing its movement from situating dried dishes, needing to get dinner started for eren.
“oh my goodness, i’m sorry to hear that,” frowning, you hold a hand over your heart, the sadness in your eyes unable to shield. “how are you taking that?”
“it’s okay, i’m okay. his overall health is what matters most to me. things like this are just something you have to prepare for being a parent,” she nods, glancing at her son. “he’s still happy as ever.”
“right,” you purse your lips. “that’s good. i’m glad. he’s a sweetheart. and armin?”
“yeah, he’s great. been working a lot more lately, for good reason. gotta cold right now so he’s been restin’.”
“oh no, i can drop a pot of chicken soup tomorrow if you’d like? i know you’ve got that conference with the ladies at church comin’.”
bea takes a seat at one of the wooden chairs you have placed against the kitchen island, resting her chin into her palm as she graciously pouts. “you are the sweetest, ꒰♡꒱. i see why eren’s so smitten of you.”
warmth flows to your cheeks from the mention of him, never changing.
“the man’s a sap,” you roll your eyes, wedding ring shining in the light as you go to retrieve ingredients from the fridge alongside a gift you had for her.
“oh! almost forgot,” pulling out a basket, bea gasps as you place it in front of her.
the basket contains fresh milk from the cows placed into a carafe with a swing top to secure it, decadent, fist sized blueberry muffins you baked yourself, of course, wrapped in beeswax paper decorated with butterflies and leaves. even a few red apples and oranges picked from the garden, bea’s favorites.
“oh, honeybee, bless your soul. thank you!”
you bow your head. “ ‘course, i told you i’d have a lil’ treat for you.”
grabbing a few extra base ingredients; packaged seafood from the farmers market and a bottle of wine, you go to pour yourself a glass. “you w’na glass? i’m makin’ a big pot of seafood gumbo if you w’na stay and have dinner with us. eren’s been craving it.”
“ooh, i’d love to, but armin wants us home before sundown. he gets really fussy about me taking long distance drives without him, especially with jason.”
“awe, he’s protective. eren’s kinda the same. he has a heart attack every time i run out for something. he taught me how to drive ‘bout two months ago, but i’m still kinda rusty. got me that buggy out front.”
“i did see it! that’s the cutest car ever. it’s about time you learnt how to get on the road.”
you shrug. “my anxiety was kickin’ my ass for the longest. i can still be his passenger princess. he knows not to get comfortable,” you grin smugly, the two of you sharing a laugh before you reach for the second glass for bea, only to have her wave her hand to reject.
“no wine for me, thanks. i can’t.”
“mm? how come?” brow raising in curiosity, you push the cork back inside, resting a hand on your hip that you pop out.
the dimple in her right cheek sinks in as she draws her lips inwardly, hands going down to her stomach, rubbing in a circle motion with bright eyes. your eyes dart from her baby bump she hid well underneath her black dress, up to her eyes again in shock. gasping, your hands go over your mouth.
“no fuckin’ way! oh my god, another one?!”
“another one! we’ve been waiting to tell everyone, but i’m ’bout four months out.”
“holy shit, congratulations!”
rushing around the counter, you give her a hug, rocking side by side. “oh wow, that’s such good news. does jason know?”
“not yet, i’m kind of scared to tell him. although he’ll notice when i start blowing up. he likes his own company. a sibling is a big change.”
“i can understand that, i haven’t any siblings so i adapted to that. i wouldn’t mind having a sister or somethin’.”
“what about you?” bea suddenly questioned.
as you begin to chop up veggies, you stare at her confused.
“a baby. you guys been married for a long time. never thought about it?”
that’s the question of all questions, one you’ve avoided your entire marriage. of course, it’s been discussed, the second year of your relationship actually. which is why you were strict on birth control given your equal sexual infatuation. it was too risky, so you took the safe option. for the longest time all you ever wanted was him, your home, and your animals. a baby was never in mind. you found it nauseating to think of, actually.
“it’s been talked about once or twice, but never to a point of coming to an agreement. eren’s okay with how our lives are now, and frankly, so am i. i don’t see a baby for us, or any time soon. i don’t dislike them, but i’m not so sure if i’m fit to be a mother. there’s a lot of sacrifices that come with that.”
bea nods understandingly, deciding to chalk the conversation and talk of other things. as you stir the roux until you get a perfect chocolate color, you chat with her until the sun sets, occasionally glancing at jason who sits on the ground coloring in his book, fluffy blond hair tousled around his small face. you can’t help this odd feeling in your chest as you look at him, even when hearing bea talk about the new baby. you can’t shake that hunch that maybe, just maybe, it could be a possibility. far away from now that is.
seeing your husband walk through the front door to greet your friend and kiss you on the cheek, attired in work clothes and watching him interact with the child with the widest smile on his face made your chest clench. tickling him after washing his hands, giving high fives and engaging in conversation with bea as he sits on the floor with him, right leg propped up while his large body leans down to color with him.
it almost made you tear up, wondering how he’d be with your child. he’s an amazing man, and your positively sure he’d be an even better father. it was a tough decision. the good thing about eren is that he was an attentive listener, action based, willing to understand your feelings and concerns while coming to a conclusion, knowing you have such a bad habit of closing in. so it made it easier to come to him about a lot of things that weighed on you.
sending off bea with a container of gumbo, you both say your goodnights to her, eren watching as she enters her car safely and drives away before shutting the door and pulling you in close for hugs and smooches. after having dinner, cleaning up and showering, in the plushness of your king sized bed, candles lit and law and order on play, that’s when you bring the conversation up while applying shea butter to your legs anxiously.
easing in slowly, you decide to test the waters by saying something that, even though you were unsure of, was technically a true feeling.
“baby . . . i’m lonely. think i w’na baby.”
maybe you weren’t fit to be a mother.
maybe this was punishment. that sinking fear you had for the entirety of your marriage about having children was right all along. you were scared. maybe this baby hated you, knew you weren’t the right person to bring them into this world. that’s why it’s been giving you the worst pregnancy known to man. or maybe your body just wasn’t built to carry a child.
countless of doctors, a therapist even, and no one fixed that insecurity within the chromosomes of your brain. morning sickness should never start with ‘morning’, because it’s all day, every day damn near. you can’t indulge in your favorite foods anymore, walking is painful because your feet are blown up and you can no longer fit half of your closet. you cry almost every single day, and you feel bad because eren constantly worries about you. it’s just as upsetting for him.
the incessant fatigue, headaches, backaches, occasional pelvic pain, heartburn, and multiple obgyn appointments of them telling you that all of your symptoms were normal, that there was nothing to worry about. neither of you were fond of the idea of taking tons of medications, and it became not only exhausting, but you felt embarrassed by how many times you had eren rushing you to your primary doctor.
the first trimester seemed to be the most difficult period to which you experienced the most discomfort. you figured it was natural given your body has never been in this state before, it’s slowly transitioning. this wasn’t just a period with regular cramps, you were creating a child inside of you. that itself was terrifying, yet exciting. because in the end you know it’ll be worth it. to see both of your faces morphed into one angelic being crafted out of love. this was your first baby, so of course you were preparing for possible difficulty. you just didn’t think it’d be this bad.
you’d spend days on end researching and finding other women whose experiences were the same. it eased you to some degree to discover you weren’t alone. then came the third trimester, and the horrible symptoms you faced from the start reappeared. you believe it’s because you were getting closer to birth.
hating the way your mind conjured up the worst thoughts, you found yourself falling into depression. eren did his best to make sure you had everything you needed. taking time off from work to tend to you. he wasn’t the best in the kitchen, and sometimes you’d have to come help him, much better on the grill. even the extravagant ones he tried to surprise you with. though most of the time you could only eat half before you started to get nauseous.
he took care of the farm, carried you up and down the stairs, stayed up half the night at times to study healthy exercises to practice together, and continued therapy with you. he made the process so much better. always kissing you, telling you how beautiful you were even if you didn’t feel it, gave you massages and ran you baths. even if all of it was sweet, you felt like a weakling. like he was your caretaker and you were an old ass lady.
only he’d reassure you after you weep and sniffle in your hands by saying, “mama, i’m your husband. i’m deeply in love with you, ‘n will always be. the very least i can do, especially when you’re doing the hardest fuckin’ part which is carrying our child, is take care of you. so stop all that cryin’ and come cuddle.”
times when check ups were happy days, and you could see your baby on the monitor as the nurse rubs the transducer over your overgrown belly, that vertical dark streak on the middle the cutest thing eren’s ever seen, often kissing it as he placed his ear to your belly to feel the baby kick — turned bad. the baby was healthy, that was the great thing. sitting low in your belly just ready to be out the womb. it’s when the pain pummels harsher that causes concern.
one day they’re telling you that your fine, then the next you’re having trouble breathing, sleeping, horrible tailbone pain and even worse pelvic pain. you think the worst part of it all is seeing the repeated stress on your husbands face. the dark circles under his eyes from lack of sleep, forehead creases, brittle hair, it broke your fucking heart. to see him sitting beside you as he irritably bounces his right leg while clasping his hands together and leaning forward in an almost scolding manner. listening to the nurse reexplain shit you’ve heard too many damn times.
their methods weren’t working, and no matter how many times you expressed how you felt, it feels like it went through one ear and out the other. taking notice of it mostly when you came by yourself, and instantly you knew something was off. so you started coming with eren. you’ve lived in this town for more than eleven years, on the outskirts of georgia at that. at times you forget that not everyone’s empathetic, or open to the idea of you as a black woman. a pregnant one at that. you refused to take any more medicine. if an emergency labor needed to happen, you were willing to do whatever it takes.
then, eren finally snaps, because he knows it’s deeper than surface level shit.
“there have been too many occurrences where my wife has informed y’all multiple times about the pain she’s experiencing, and y’all brush it off ‘n tell her to go home, sleep it off, take this medication, rest. at this point, i’m startin’ to realize y’all aren’t listenin’ to her pain. you’re blatantly ignoring what the fuck she’s saying, and i don’t mean to get disrespectful, so excuse me for my mouth, but i’m fed the fuck up.”
“i’m sorry, mister yeager. there’s not much else we can do but see how her body responds to —”
eren hastily stands to his feet, and your eyes bulge in slight fear, reaching to grab his bicep as he keeps his focus on the perinatologist, surprise in his eyes from eren’s defense.
“i couldn’t give less of a shit ‘bout any of that. the only, and i mean only time y'all show her some form of care for her health is when i’m here. every time when i’m not, i’m hearing stories ‘bout how y'all sending her home tellin’ her she’s fuckin’ fine when she’s not fuckin’ fine. i have to see this shit firsthand, not you. i know exactly what the fuck this is, do not play with me.”
what makes this out of the ordinary is that you’ve never heard eren raise his voice in your life. whenever he was upset, he usually spoke in a stern, collected manner. this made you uncomfortable, the bellow of his tone and even the shock in the nurse’s features. swallowing, you pick yourself up to outstretch your hand over your heavy belly and slowly slid off the geri, eren’s head cautiously knocking in your direction regardless of the tension in the room to help you.
his hand goes around your waist, giving you a look to ask if you were good before you nod in response, too embarrassed to eye the nurse and apologize out of uneasiness. that would only drive eren mad, knowing he’d tell you not to apologize for shit because he didn’t deserve it. he could see it written on your face. you were too damn kind to those who weren’t worthy.
“let’s go, baby. you are never comin’ back here. y'all better be damn lucky i ain’t suin’ y'all.”
the day was so vague you could remember him holding your hand as you waddled to the car, rubbing your belly and staring at the back of his head in silence. knowing he needed it for a minute. he secures you in before sitting in the drivers seat and sinking back to meditate, eyes shut and chest carefully rising and falling. nibbling at your lip, you rub his arm to transfer your soothing energy. your touch makes him crack a weak smile, turning his head as he lays back to stare at your pretty face.
eren rubs his thumb over your hand, bringing it up to kiss the back of it. “i’m sorry you had to see me raise my voice. i don’t like gettin’ outta character in front of you. you know that.”
“it wasn’t uncalled for, your emotions are valid. i appreciate you for protecting me. i think i’ve long accepted that not many people care too much about specific women’s health. it’s a sad realization, but i know i’ll be okay,” you speak softly, bringing your face closer to his to rest with him. “we’ll be okay. the baby is healthy, and pain is temporary.”
what comes next is almost scarier than this whole ordeal. eren takes a deep inhale, grabbing your face to press his forehead to yours before releasing a trembling breath, tears beginning to stream down his face as he cries. finally. locking it away to stay strong for you. the thump in your chest hurts, really fucking bad. witnessing your husband weep as he holds you, clenching his jaw, sniffling, and choking out a small cough. kissing your lips to tell you he’s okay was sentimental. he just wants the best for the both of you. the pain of a father and a husband.
you’ve seen him cry, only one other time when his father passed away. the grief, hatred, and acceptance encased all into one as you held him in your arms by the fireplace on the living room floor, funeral clothing on you both, letting him take the time he needed. wiping his face, you kiss all over it, rubbing his broad back before giving him a warm embrace.
“it’s g’na be okay, sweetie,” a hand smooths down the back of his head, cringing at the greasiness of his scalp. “you need a wash day.”
both of you laugh in unison, eren sniffling and releasing a guttural ‘ugh’ as he clears himself up. “sorry, papa hasn’t been givin’ sexy, blue collar country boy lately.”
“shush, boy,” you giggle, sitting fully into your seat. you stroke his face, staring intensely into his moss and smoky toned eyes. his lashes are long, hair disheveled into a manbun with tendrils on either side of his bushy eyebrows. the faint line of hair he has directly above his lip always an attractive feature. “you’re always sexy, daddy. even on rough days.”
“mm, i love you, baby. so much,” eren leans in to kiss the bridge of your nose before interlocking your lips, one hand on the wheel as he arches over the center console.
your hand crinkles his white tee, whimpering into his touch when his other hand goes to touch your lower back side, arching you into him, moving your lips with his. “eren?”
“mm,” he groans, mouth getting rougher. “miss you so fuckin’ much. you been lookin’ so good lately, mama.”
pouting, you pull yourself away. “don’t get me riled up, mister yeager. i can’t do what i w’na do to you.”
eren sits back, chuckling as he scratches the small stubble he has on his chin with his thumb, grinning, smile lines deep and teeth bright and perfectly aligned outside of the pointy canines he possesses.
“you right.”
“mhm.”
“all shit aside, pretty. your health is my biggest fuckin’ priority. when we get home, ima order some chinese and we can look more into that midwife bea talked about. huh? that sound good?”
“sounds perfect,” you rub at your stomach with both hands, eren placing his hand there as well as he starts up the truck. “oh, don’t forget that head gettin’ washed. grease bandit.”
“yeah, yeah.”
after a deep, foamy scalp cleanse infused with lavender, eren sits on the fluffy rug on your bedroom floor with a baby pink spa towel wrapped around his head as he types and scrolls on his dell laptop. next to him in a butterfly position, digging into your lo-mein with wooden chopsticks inside the traditional takeout box with a red pagoda imprinted on the front. matcha green jelly eyepatches covering your dark circles, eren wearing some as well.
you’re dressed in a black polka dot camisole with lace trimmings and matching shorts that your body eats up and shrinks. the two of you stay up until one in the morning, taking notes and searching for reliable sources. eren found out that he could get you someone called a doula, who will provide you with medical guidance and emotional support during your final stages of pregnancy. booking a few consultations for midwives as well. indefinitely, you felt very optimistic about this. you’d even find yourselves making little image boards for your baby, whom you soon discovered a beautiful surprise from.
you received the envelope a while back, but the two of you chose to wait for the right moment considering the events happening. hand in hand at the bakery a few days later, eren requested a gender reveal cake where he drove an hour out of town back where your father resided to find the willow tree the two of you got married under. laying out a picnic blanket, there showcased the plain oval cake reading ‘it’s a . .’ with half plain for eren and half supreme pizza for you. chocolate covered strawberries to feast on after, and cranberry juice since it was the closest taste you could get to wine.
it wasn’t a big deal to you whether it was a girl or boy, you’d love them endlessly. it would be no greater feeling than to have any baby laying in either of your arms, or the perfect beige nursery you and eren decorated together. you’ll admit you got emotional as both of you held a glass, tears running ferociously down your face, preparing to scoop either side of the cake, awaiting the reveal.
“oh my god, oh my god. i’m scared. this is scary.”
“eight months of pregnancy, and this what you scared ‘bout?” eren lifts a brow, your mouth curving up as you pop his shoulder. “꒰♡꒱! c’mon. i w’na see, girl.”
“okay, okay. whew, i’m sorry. i’m ready.”
pushing your glasses into the cake with eyes shut tight, you slowly pop open one eye to see the color, gasping and bouncing in your spot at the pink inside, weeping and wrapping your arms around eren’s neck as he rocks you side to side in happiness.
“it’s a girl, it’s a girl!”
screeching in his face as you plop back down, you see the tinge of sadness on his face, furrowing your brows as he blinks away his tears that were coming too fast for his liking.
“sweetie, what’s wrong?”
eren sniffles, clenching his jaw and turning his head out of view. “i’m g’na need another gun.”
sucking your teeth, you nudge his shoulder. “oh, boy!”
burying his face in his hand and wiping his eyes, eren chortles. “i’m serious, two precious things to protect, oh my fuckin’ days i’m g’na have a heart attack. the fear. gimme sum water.”
“erennn, stop! asshole,” the laugh coaxes out of you, seriously watching his features as you pick at the hem of your dress. you know he’s dead serious, but you want to make sure he’s happy about it. “is a girl not what you wanted?”
eren almost malfunctions. “are you kidding? a baby is what i want. i could give a damn ‘bout the gender. fuck, she’s g’na look just like you. the prettiest face.”
that makes you cry again, mushing your lips with his passionately and squealing excitedly.
after your picnic, eren took you to speak to your mother at her gravesite, awakening her tombstone by adding daises and sunflowers. you update her on the past few months, apologizing for not speaking to her for a while since you’ve been occupied, and mentioning how much you adored eren who currently spoke to his mother at her stone. it was refreshing, a mental cleanse.
inquiring a midwife and doula was the best decision for not only your pregnancy, but your marriage. strictly requesting a top holistic woman of color for obvious reasons, their methods made you more comfortable in your body, and even anticipated to push out your little bun. the past few weeks have really been a breeze, and you felt so much healthier, and light even though little girl kicked like a motherfucker and sat low as hell.
with each consultation, eren sat by your side to observe every interaction, coming to an agreement after two interviews. whoever you felt the safest to handle you, he was up for it. luckily for you, the doula and midwife were associated under the same company. when they arrived for the first time, rose being the doula, and valeria being the midwife, observed your home and discussed plans on pursuing a home birth.
due to uncertain circumstances, you felt more at peace having your baby in the home where her future will begin. unmedicated and with your husband and people you trusted. they ordered an inflatable tub for you since the moment they stepped into your bathroom and saw the clawfoot tub, immediately shook their heads in disapproval. they even made you get inside to prove why it’d be bad. there wouldn’t have been enough room for you to move when you had to.
the days were flying by, due approximately in three weeks. today was a friday, which also happened to be valentine’s day. it was warm outside, usher’s new album confessions playing soundly from your silver jensen stereo. all of the windows in the home were open, letting in the breeze as you exhale deeply. currently, you were up to another session of stretches and workouts.
“doing good, baby girl! make sure you keep your back straight. twirl those hips for me, we gotta target that girdle pain. work that pelvic area!”
“i’m hungryy,” you manage to weep, hands leveraging your hips as you motion your lower halve in circles atop of the baby pink birth ball.
“it’s ’cause your husband out there havin’ a whole cookout,” rose laughs,
“he always cooks for all the women in the neighborhood on valentine’s day,” your cheek rests on your shoulder from adornment, watching him through the window that faces the backyard where smoke fills the air along with the thick smell of barbecue.
eren’s wearing his favorite fitted black cap with a white embroidered nba logo placed on the nape, shifted backwards on his head, chestnut hair leveled to his jaw in wavy ringlets after giving him a cut. a plain white t-shirt, and dark 501 levi jeans that fit his thighs almost snugly, still giving him enough room to appear loose. the watch you’d gotten him for your fifth anniversary on his dominant wrist as he brushed the ribs with his special sauce while his other hand, paired with a slim silver cuban link, sipped on a budweiser.
it didn’t help that you were practically riding this ball right now while you look at him as he does nothing but grill, drink, and stare at the lake while occasionally checking on you through the window. or, perhaps, the huge belly in your way. zoning out and daydreaming the most disgusting things briefly before you knock yourself out of it, forgetting you have company. he looked irresistible. it’s been driving you off edge for a long time, forgetting the last time you’ve had sex. it had to have been about three months, take away last month when he ate you out on the recliner.
it was so annoying how raging your hormones were ever since you got pregnant. might you add, four months after the ‘i w’na have a baby’ conversation. you were almost sure you’d have sex every time he came home from work. it wasn’t intentional, although you did hold back on your birth control, and condoms weren’t neither of your things. finding out was just a non-panicked ‘uh oh’ when you showed him the test as he sat on the toilet handling business and you brushed your teeth while staring at it the entire time. eren was ecstatic overall.
you wanted him so bad, missed him so bad. he’s been so respectful of your healing process that it makes you hornier at the thought. also, he makes fun of you for being his ‘stalker’ as if you haven’t been married forever, constantly watching him every day. you’ll be reading a book, watching tv, or cooking something you’re craving and there he is mowing the lawn, feeding the chickens, cleaning his truck, on the grill — too many things he does turns you on naturally.
“ ꒰♡꒱?”
“wha—huh?”
“up, chile. we’re g’na do these last stretches so we can have you rest for the day,” valeria chirps, gently clapping her hands together and holding out her palms to help you stand.
“oh, okay!”
“you alright?” rose checks in, ordering a few things you needed for the upcoming labor visit. she noticed you checked out for a while.
clearing your throat, you nod like a bobble head, curving your lips in tight doing an awkward smile. “yeah! i just . . have an . . inappropriate question.”
valeria stands behind you as she lowers you to sit on the yoga mat by your underarms. “i doubt it can be inappropriate. we are nurses, heard everything under the sun. okay. . . starting with happy baby!”
groaning, you steady your breath before raising your legs, making sure they were spread far apart and lowering your knees to your side. being thirty-four weeks and thirty-six centimeters had you feeling like a whale. at least you were a cute whale. you also had an endearing fascination with your belly, often spending time with your daughter by massaging shea butter delicately over her home or having full conversations. it was your soft moments of bonding. so, she was well moisturized all the time, rarely any stretch-marks.
you were fond of your overall growth to be honest. your appearance didn’t change much other than the obvious. your feet were a little chubbier, and your boobs only grew one bra size. skin care was a priority since you were paranoid of a bunch of insecurities, so you glowed and got hundreds of compliments. eren surely had an infatuation with you being pregnant. if the man couldn’t keep his hands off you before, it certainly became an addiction now.
“okay, this is a bit personal. but, me and eren haven’t had sex in like three months. he’s done . . things, even helped me wax her. so i don’t think i’m insecure about how she looks per-say. i was just wondering if it’d be safe to do in the third trimester. my hormones make me feel horny, but i’m kinda scared.”
rose and valeria manage to cackle in unison, a pout on your lips as you raise to do your deep side to side squats, valeria making sure to stay close by for balance. “seriously y’all, i w’na have sex. y’know how much okra water he’s been having me drink? she’s slippery!”
“my god,” rose shakes her head.
“well, the answer is yes, you can certainly have sex. it’s perfectly healthy. just remember to take it slow since you are due in three weeks. little angel could fly out any minute.”
“fly?!” you shrieked.
“jokesss, oh my goodness. don’t scare her, valeria. this is her first baby!”
“sorry, sorry! sex is good! nothing bad will happen. so, have plenty of it. well, not too much though, just enough. you see where these poses got you in the first place,” valeria says, laughing as you groan knowingly. “move into the child pose and we’re all done!”
lowering yourself down to your knees, you get into a doggy position and stretch your arms straight ahead of you, stomach hanging. “i was just thinking ‘bout how much i missed him, and we haven’t fully connected like that in a while. i hold it very spiritually in my mind. i think it will be good for both of us, especially before lil’ mamas gets here.”
“it is valentine’s day. let’s hope he gives you a good ass time. he’s showing off right now, and he’s been staring at your ass.”
that makes you laugh hard, really hard. though instantly after, you feel a sharp pain stab at the side of your hip, wincing and hissing out loud, dropping your head and whimpering from the ache. both women rush by your side quicker than you could blink.
“꒰♡꒱, what is it?” rose asks, crouching to be eye level.
“it’s just that stupid random pinch i get, probably just pulled it a little,” scrunching your face up, you sit on the balls of your feet as your midwife observes. applying pressure to the spot your holding. “she’s a heavy girl.”
“alright, honey. let’s finish for today. you’re probably overexerting yourself. i’m g’na heat up some essential oils and give you a massage before we wrap up, okay darlin’?”
smiling graciously, you nod. “thank you both. a massage would be lovely.”
“who’s givin’ my wife a massage?”
suddenly, your husband walks in, holding up a tinfoil pan of ribs, chicken wings, and burgers. shirt riding up showcasing his dark happy trail, devilishly sharp v-line and the navy blue boxers tight on his skin. he’s watching you the whole time, noticing your upturned face and removing the toothpick from his molars. “mama, what’s wrong?”
“i’m okay, sweetie. i just have some tension in my hip. she might’ve been moving as i was.”
eren approaches you in three long strides, the carabiner with numerous keys among other trinkets hooked to his belt loop hitting against his thigh, soon crouching before you to hold out his hands he’s wiped clean.
“c’mon, lemme help you up. you sure you good?”
“mhm,” he’s lifting you as if you’re still the lightest thing in the world, staring at his body, sniffing his nautica cologne discreetly as he turns to look towards the other women.
“what‘s goin’ on?”
“i’m g’na give her a deep tissue massage before we wrap it up for the day. she’s doing good, just might’ve hurt herself while laughing and stretching.”
blushing from his amused tone, you answer, “just girl stuff. it made me laugh.”
“baby, you gotta be careful.”
“i am,” you huff irritably, rolling your eyes. he stares, your mood flipping within two seconds.
“i think one more stretch could help before that. eren, would you mind helping her out?” rose asks.
“sure thing,” he’s pulling you in by your waist. “doin’ the tummy lift?”
“yes sir. just be super gentle as usual. while you hold the baby up, i’ll put some pressure on her hip.”
eren listens to their instructions, standing behind you and pressing your back to his chest. both of his calloused palms lay on either side of your tummy underneath, keeping his focus on your face to stay alert of any discomfort. he practices the breathing exercises he was taught with you, delicately lifting your stomach to give relief to your pelvis.
“mmm,” moaning peacefully, your eyes falter shut as you rest your head back on eren’s chest. he kisses your forehead, valeria crouching underneath, sliding your periwinkle yoga pants down your waist just enough to lather and knead the oil into your flesh.
“is that lavender?”
“yup! lemongrass and chamomile, too.”
“it’s soo good,” you whined, her technique making you want to drool.
“it’ll help with the pain a lot. i’ll make sure to leave some here, eren. you can do this a few more times for her until it’s gone.”
“anything she needs.”
“he’s so sweet and cute, i love him,” you smile widely, reaching up to cup his jaw, eren humming and mushing his cheek to yours.
“the sweetest,” rose agrees. “are you passing out platters to the whole neighborhood, eren?”
“yeah, i usually give it to all the ladies who ꒰♡꒱ is close to, or buy her goodies. i’m g’na make y'all a plate to go. ꒰♡꒱ made some candied yams, and i did the potato salad.”
“it better not be no raisins in that salad,” valeria squints her eyes playfully up at him. opening your eyes, you get what she was hinting at, trying not to burst out laughing.
“nah,” eren chuckles, understanding as well.
“it’s my ma’s recipe. promise, it’s real good.”
“it is, i promise,” you vouch.
“i trust your judgment then.”
a couple of hours had passed until the sun died down. this was your favorite time of the day to unwind. a vinyl on spin, room 112 to be exact. candles lit, the low muffle of the television streaming sex and the city, and the softness of your cloud duvet. as you sip on your cranberry juice poured into a wine glass, cheating your brain into thinking it’s red wine — you rest up against the ten’s of pillows decorated along the headboard to support you. the air conditioning kept the room icy cold like you adored, your hair was tossed up into a messy bun, and a silk pearl robe adorned your skin.
hearing the sound of the shower stop as you write in your journal, you twinkle your toes and gaze up at the ceiling where fifty, yes fifty, heart shaped red and pink balloons floated. just this morning, eren woke you up with the prettiest surprise of breakfast in bed, a pregnant friendly mimosa, strawberries that were cut into hearts, and fluffy belgian waffles with turkey bacon. the room was filled with light, roses spread along the entire bedroom and bedding alongside a giant blooming bouquet of red roses and calla lilies.
the strings sway around the room still from the air conditioner, smiling sweetly as you daydream of the morning, stuffing your face with the breakfast he made and watching him open the walk-in closet to show you the new vintage vanity he’d built for you. the way he showed his love for you could move mountains.
closing your journal, you can’t help but pout as you feel yourself beginning to tear up. you couldn’t stand when all of your emotions would hit you at once. thinking of your baby, your marriage, how difficult this pregnancy started off, and even how much you wished your mother were here to witness and guide you through it all.
“fuckin’ hell,” you set your book on the nightstand where the floral beige lamp illuminated the entire room with light.
whimpering and wiping your face, the small sound causes your husband to whoosh his head out of the bathroom door in fear, toothpaste covering his lips as he stops brushing his teeth, towel draped around his waist and hair sleek down his structure.
“unh uh, what’s wrong, baby?” quickly, he rinses his mouth before coming toward you, your lips curving inward as he leans over your frame with his fists on either side of you.
all you can do is stare down at his towel lewdly showing the imprint of his dick sitting on his thigh.
“huh? talk to me.”
“i’m okay. i’m just thinking about a lot.”
“don’t short yourself. y’know i don’t like that shit,” his jaw clenched, waiting for a real answer.
sighing, you sniffle and sit yourself up higher. eren reaches for your feet to rub on, smoothing his hands up and down your calves. the touch makes you swallow, trying to calm yourself down. he smelt really good, always did but he bought a new body wash that held bergamot undertones. hair appearing darker since it was still somewhat damp. arms full of veins leading to his big hands that grope you. biceps hard at touch. he watches you like a hawk, and to this day eye contact with him makes you anxious.
“um, i just wanted to tell you that i love you. i was expressing myself in my journal about a few things i felt like i needed to say to you.”
“mhm, go on, baby.”
splaying your hands over your belly, your face sets into happiness. “jus’ w’na say i know this hasn’t been the easiest time for either of us, and i wanted to let you know that i put your emotions on the same level as mine. seeing me like that couldn’t have been easy. it weighs heavy on me to this day. i am happy, however, that we found two special women that have made this such a beautiful ending no matter how it started.”
“they’re amazing women, definitely. i’m immensely grateful for them. havin’ you smile again was such a blessing,” eren takes your hand to smooth his thumb over, kissing the back of it.
of course, you’re crying again. “i want you to know that i’ve always, always cherished this baby. i hated those thoughts that doubted me becoming a mother. it haunted me on nights i couldn’t sleep. i . . i l-love our baby, eren. i swear. i love her.”
eren’s heart clenches as you sob, sitting closer to you so he could wrap his arm under your thighs, holding your legs to his hip and leveling his face with yours while still giving you enough space.
“hey, hey, i know that, baby. i never doubted that. you couldn’t control what was happening to you. thoughts like that are normal. this is a big step for you, this is your first baby. everything that you’ve experienced has been normal. rose and valeria even said that those doctors were fuckin’ liars and managed what they couldn’t. it’s so much better now. you’re so much better. i know you love her, and she loves you too.”
nodding, you squeeze your eyes tight, tears pouring down your sweet face. “thank you. i love you so much. i’ve loved every moment of our marriage. i appreciate that we’ve been there for each other for a lot of shit. you make me so happy.”
“and it will continue to be that way. i love you so fuckin’ much, ꒰♡꒱. you make me the happiest man alive. i love our daughter, i cannot wait to see her, and hold her.”
“i know right,” you giggle softly, swiping the back of your hands under your eyes. “she’s g’na be so tiny and smell like baby lotion. i’m sticking with the speculation that she has your eyes.”
“my eyes and your precious face,” he pinches your cheek between two knuckles. “i’ll admit i am scared of being a father. not sure how i’ll be in exact, i’ll try my hardest of course. it’s when she gets older that i worry about. but, i know i’ll be a damn good one. though, only the child can judge whether or not that’s true.”
“i think you’ll be a great father, she’ll love you. as for when she’s older, luckily we’ll have plenty of time until that begins. i just wish our mom’s could see her,” you frown, the distant pain not so distant in meaningful moments.
eren weakly curves up his lip, the look in his eyes mimicking yours; heartbreak. “yeah, i wish they were. good thing is she’ll have her grandfather.”
the thought of your father makes you warm, your relationship with him so much better than it was before. even eren gets along with him.
“he’ll drive her crazy, that’s for sure.”
“i see it now,” eren groans.
“also,” you start, keeping his attention. “i feel like this would be a good time to talk about how i’m never doing this shit again,” the stare on your face is dead serious, scanning his features to find anything negative. “i mean fucking never.”
eren snorts, shaking his head as he chuckles, patting your bare thigh. “baby, i knew that. i’m genuinely okay with one child.”
“you will get a vasectomy,” you speak sternly, squinting.
“i heard you. i’m with whatever my wife wants.”
beaming, you let out a thankful squeak. “yup, thank you papa. you’re so understanding, and so sexyy.”
leaning in to kiss him, you eye the way he dangerously stares at you, licking his lips after and pulling himself back to dig his fists into the bed and spread his thighs wide, knocking his head backwards and scoffing.
“anything else you w’na talk about?”
it dwells on you that you haven’t had that talk in a while, mentioning it earlier to chat about it and see how you felt mentally and physically. eren surveys your mind, how quiet you get as you chew at your bottom lip and study the bumpy path of his abs, thin pubic hair leading down to the towel hiding what you really wanted to talk about if being technical.
olive irises swirling with stormy gray dilating as they scan the silky robe draped around your naked frame. because your legs are sitting halfway up, he lowers his eyes to catch your pussy playing peek-a-boo, tightening your thighs while he clenches his.
“what you w’na do, mama. i can see it in your face,” eren rasps, just waiting for you to say it. he’s hard as fuck right now. can’t help it.
you look radiant, skin well moisturized, lips soft and eyes low. coils of hair flowing around the structure of your face. you smell even better, in fact, he wanted to smell you right now, every where.
lifting himself up, he scoots closer once again, your body instinctively arching into him the moment his hands glide down the top of your thighs, mingling breaths momentarily before his mouth comes to your neck which prompts your legs to spread apart. sucking on the flesh and indenting his fingers into your plush thighs.
“eren,” whimpering, you bring your hands to hold his face, face scrunching up with pleasure as he trails his mouth on either side of your neck, leaving tender bites and heavy licks of his tongue.
“thought you forgot how to speak?” grunting, his mouth falls down to the valley of your breasts, untying your robe and pushing it off your shoulders.
“mm, taste me.”
with desperation, eren runs his tongue between your breastbone, leaving kisses here and there, drawing the side of your tits into his mouth until he reaches one of your nipples. you’re laying back into the pillows, letting him slot himself in between your legs and moaning as you tug on his hair and he guzzles your nipple into his mouth. he’s delicate at first, aware of how sensitive they were to touch.
“fuuck,” eren hisses, slamming his hand on the side of your ass, feeling himself sink into the depths of his attraction for you. how much he’s been needing to fuck you.
twirling his tongue around your areola repeatedly, he heaves over your flesh and tweaks at them with the pads of his fingers, your whines the sexiest thing he’s ever heard. eren could hear the neediness in your voice. the churn of your expressions heated yanks at his scalp making you equally grind your hips, the material of the towel drawing precum from the head.
he’s pulling at your chest with his lips, occasionally nipping the hard buds with teeth, and it makes you blush. what comes next is unexpected. when eren unlinks his mouth, he stares down at your chest to see that you’ve lactated, feeling his face go red at the sight and his dick jump without his control.
“ooo, shit, baby. look,” his brows connect from the arousal he feels, cupping either of your breast and pressing them together, the dribble of white pooling down to his knuckles from them both. it’s a small droplet, but it makes him wanna suck it up so bad.
“oh my god, no!” gasping, you go to cover them in bewilderment, only to have him stop you almost aggressively.
“don’t you fuckin’ dare,” he clenches his jaw, stopping you from the stringent tone of his voice.
“eren.”
“hold still, i won’t say it again.”
soon, his thick tongue is sticking out to do exactly what he planned, to suck you up. moaning from the intense stare he gives your chest, he’s lapping it up hungrily, like he’s been craving it. did he just discover a new kink he had? for sure. and maybe you had it too because he looked so fucking good slurping you up, applying pressure with his lips to potentially draw out more he could swallow. the warm liquid pours onto his tongue little by little.
“ugh, fuck,” eren goes to smack the side of your tit reflexively hard, grunting.
“a-ah, baby,” the palms of your hands shove at his shoulders and he pulls away without a fight.
“it’s sweet,” eren smirks, showing you his tongue before licking his lips and grinning at the shock on your face. “too freaky?”
“n-no,” you bury your face into your forearm. “i’ve just . . i dunno. i’m just sensitive.”
“they sensitive?” he taunts, moving his face to your neck again, peppering kisses and slamming his hand on your ass again. your lower body shifts, clamping your thighs together to squeeze and relieve the throbbing.
“yes,” you respond, reaching for his towel to pull off, making a noise as you stare at his dick standing heavy and angry. needing you in the worst way.
“show me all the places you're sensitive.”
this is a game you loved to play, the excitement brewing in your chest.
“right here,” you motion to your hips by dancing your fingers delicately over them, eren already guessing you were going to say that. you loved having your hips kissed and licked at, it made you so wet.
discarding his towel and your robe off the bed, eren situated himself fully on the mattress, grabbing you by your ankles to pull you down so you're on your back, making sure your head is leveraged on the pillow. his hair covers his face when he lowers himself to your aching hips you raise up with caution, trying not to smack him in the face with your stomach. eren’s mouth starts at the area under your breast, sloppily mouthing and licking until he finds his way to your twitching hips, shuddering loudly when he goes to bite there, a guttural noise emerging from his throat before he’s using the thickness of his tongue to drag at your hips and inner thighs.
“yess, baby. ooo, keep going, please,” your mouth falls open, vision blurring and skin prickling with heat. every touch he gives you sets you ablaze, not realizing you’ve been waiting to feel this for so long.
eren moves his mouth to the other side of your waist to repeat his actions, rushing his tongue over the mound of your pussy before he got there. the simple crusade makes you whine, bucking your hips. his fingers part your legs further apart, almost putting you back into that happy baby position you were in earlier. he takes the pads of four fingers and rubs at your clit in the slowest motions, palm on your hot mound, sinking your teeth into your lip and drenching his fingers with your slickness.
“i can’t, i need that pussy in my mouth,” eren’s grunting, hiking himself up so he can help you sit on your knees.
mindlessly, you let him pick you up, gawking at him as your arms clutch around his neck while he moves some pillows around to make you comfortable, literally clinging to him like a koala.
“stretch forward.”
blinking within a daze, he spreads you on top of the pillows, opening your knees so you’re bent over and arching yourself downwards, stretching your arms in front of yourself, belly cushioned in.
“fuckin’ god, baby. look at you,” his throat is burning, ready to say everything under the sun about you.
the prettiest fucking thing to ever bless his life. your skin looked incredibly smooth, ass up in the air and belly hanging low, painted toes curling anxiously from being seen. those adorable lines etched into your skin under the curve of your ass, and your pussy, bubblegum inside, labia spread open like a butterfly's wings, opening clenching for invitation. shiny with your cum begging to be slurped up. he wanted it so bad his fingers were thrumming to grab you up.
hugging a pillow to your face, you shut your eyes nervously, swaying your ass side to side like a cat because the silence was killing you. if he looked too long he could point out an insecurity. he had to act quick.
“put it in your mouth, eren.”
“i fuckin’ will,” he says with certainty, stroking his hands over the globes of your ass, cuffing his thumbs under the curve of it where it sits on your thighs to spread you open a little more, shaking your flesh and watching your entrance open wider. “fuck, so damn pretty. missed her. she need me? huh?”
when he spanks you again, you whimper feebly, grinding yourself back into his grasp. “missed you, daddy. need you.”
he’s bringing four of his fingers to rub circles on your clit again, an audible ‘shlick shlick’ noise bouncing off the walls from your drenched pussy, eren bending his head to kiss your tailbone, leading his mouth all around you once more. bright teeth resting on your flesh until his tongue and lips follow suit, guiding his face to finally drag his tongue from your clit to your puckering, forbidden star. he never misses a spot, meant it whenever he ate you out that he ate everywhere. the saliva trickling from the toughness of his tongue on your hole which glides down to your folds.
while switching his arm to still rub at your clit, he rushes his heavy tongue along your folds, rocking his head with your ass you move in want, fisting the sheets and dropping your mouth open. “baby . . ooh, god. daddy, want your tongue in me. pleaseplease.”
“unh huh,” he grunts against you, spanking you hard before manuvering his tongue to sink into your pussy, wriggling it to your liking and yanking you back on his face to fuck you on it.
“ungh, y-yess. s-show me how much you love me, daddy,” you moan weakly, voice cracking the further his tongue goes.
“mm-hmm,” with every dip of your ass he follows by stuffing his tongue into you, rubbing his hand up and back towards your stomach until you’re creaming on his hand and in his mouth.
going to reach behind yourself, your fingers tangle into the tresses of his hair to guide properly, throwing your ass back on his face. with every thrash of the heavy anatomy, his hand is iterating harsh hits to your skin. positioning your arms in a plank position, you dip your hips while eren grips there to help you move, a few fingers sprawled over your belly. his lips enclosed on the rest of you with every passing thrust. that familiar warmth begins to swim in your lower stomach, knowing you were going to cum. too quickly.
“noo,” you cry out, tears brimming your eyes. “cummin’ too . . fast.”
eren pulls his face away, sloppy kissing at your inner thighs. “s’okay, baby. cum in my mouth. i’ll get you to cum again.”
there’s frustrated tears pouring from you, sniffling and shaking your head in denial. you felt extremely vulnerable, eren immediately tending to you by massaging your lower back and hovering his body over you. “what is it?”
“i w’na cum with you inside me, please. i just need it that way.”
eren understood without further explanation. frankly, he never needed you to explain yourself when it came to your pleasure. expressing it was all he wanted. you craved for that moment of connection and intimacy. it was the only way you had to have it right now. you’d edge yourself if it meant you could have that.
“anything you want, baby,” licking his lips, he wiped his mouth with his hand before spreading it over your pussy to collect your juices and covering his dick with it. “jus’ one more thing. do it for me.”
eren could almost hear your gulp, his thumb sinking downwards into your pussy while his fingers strum your clit, eren’s face straining from the ring of cream coating his knuckle. dips it in and out a few more times before pressing the pad of it to your anus. “it’s been a min’, so breathe.”
sloshing the head of his dick against your folds, he pushes past that tight ring with his thumb the moment you steady your breath at the same speed he sinks his dick into you. you’re pulsating on both ends, gasping and moaning from the delicious stretch.
“s’good, sweetheart?” eren checks in, halting his movements to wait for your say-so.
while taking a minute, releasing a shaky breath, eren raises himself behind you in a crouching position, balancing on his feet and grabbing the headboard, balls smushed to your clit like a comforting blanket. exhaling, you answer with a soft ‘uh huh, good’ to make him feel at ease. eren’s dick twitches inside of you, halfway in but allowing you to adjust.
“fuck, ꒰♡꒱, lemme stretch you open. need you t’ take it allll in, baby,” he’s persuading you through gritted teeth, eyes scrolling white, trying to control how badly he wanted to drill into your shit right now.
“mmgh, it’s too tight,” you whimper, toes curling.
eren scoffs amusingly. “yeah, i feel that shit. relax yourself, baby. you’re clenching up.”
he runs by the fact that you’re probably not fully broken down, too in your head for a reason he’s unsure about. eren is careful when he takes his hand off the headboard, bringing it to take the back of your neck into his possession. he’s maintaining his balance, lowering his gorgeous face into yours that has your cheek squished into your forearm, the other digging its fingers into the pillow under your stomach.
“don’t feel pretty or sum, baby? is that what it is? you in your head?” eren skids his pink, plush lips over yours, kneading your neck gently and interlocking your mouth with his.
as much as you hated to admit it, he was right. you wanna hide your face, shield it from him and not have to admit that. didn’t want him to make you say it because it felt bothersome. you never had a problem with how you looked, you admired your body shape, even adored your pregnancy belly. it was hard for yourself to grasp what was wrong. it wasn’t him, it wasn’t you, then what was it?
“need me to make you feel pretty?” eren’s jaw tightens, gently biting at your neck to get a reaction out of you, anything to keep you from thinking.
“it’s not that,” you half lie.
eren hums, thinking a little harder before something clicks. he blinks. “she’s okay, baby. stop worrying so much. now repeat what i said.”
your cunt pulsates the instant he rushes his tongue along your neck to the back of your ear, expressions easing into elation, nibbling at your lip and swirling your eyes back as he grumbles into your skin.
“s-she’s okay.”
“that’s right.”
leisurely, he pushes in and retracts back, the french kisses allowing you to relax and take all of him to the hilt. one of your legs vibrates from the fullness, stifling a gasp and clasping your hand around your own throat to restrict your airways, eren laying his over yours to amplify the constraint.
“good girl, baby. good fuckin’ girl,” his voice in your ear makes you shudder, whining into his face as he angles his hips back to slip out just a bit before plunging back inside, that ring of white coating the base of his dick. “yes, take it. . ugnh.”
eren is careful about it, grinding his hips forward to mold the shape of his dick inside of you, making you remember, the back of your thighs clapping with his incredulously. the warmth of your pussy engulfs him, eren puffing out air strenuously, sinking his thumb further into you so he could get a good hook, sprawling his finger over your backside and yanking you back on his dick while giving you steady pounds, cunt squelching over it.
“ooh, love it. love it, love it. fuck,” the hiccups and whines are his favorite parts when you submerge into ecstasy. wailing from every thrust he gives you, eren removing his hand to set it back where it was originally on the headboard, doing his best to keep most of his weight off you.
“what you love, baby?” eren grits, fucking you a tad bit harder so he’s nudging on that sweet spot of yours, a high pitched squeal falling from you.
“mmgh . . a-ah,” the rupture of your tiny voice ensues, each pound harder than the last, absorbing it all. “ . . ungh, shittt.”
“you fuckin’ hear me, ꒰♡꒱. tell me what you love.”
the messiness of your pussy trickles down your inner thighs, coming out like water. every wet splat! resounding the area and it drives eren nuts. you’re slippery as fuck, he’s drowning in it, and he can’t help but whimper from how good you fucking feel, unable to help himself by fucking into you harder. the squeaks and gasps come out of you more, body shaking abnormally as he digs his dick into you, making you take every filthy inch.
“daddy youuu, fuck — it’s you. i love your dick.”
“yeahh, it loves you too, mama,” every sound that comes from him is carnal, prolonging guttural grunts and pistoning his defined pelvis against your ass that thunders back on him.
eren goes to rest his forehead against the headboard, sliding his hands to hold either side of your belly before he begins to drill his dick harder, balls slapping at your sticky clit. lifting your head, you lay it back on his abdomen, sloping your mouth along with his as the two of you silently listen in, unable to breathe. the derisive squelch from you glazing over his dick and messing up the sheets, some of it trickling down your stomach.
“ . . awe, shhit . . aunh, aunh! fuck yes—m’goddd, f-fuck, eren. right there, right there!” it comes out in the whiniest pitch he’s ever heard, surpassing a few octaves, kicking your feet and scrolling your eyes back as you slap and fist at the bedding.
“uh, uh,” his noises mimic yours, smushing his nose up against the headboard creating a pot of condensation, lips grazing it as he slows his movements, too close to cumming, grinding and spanking you. “fuuck, she’s grippin’ me so goddamn good. g’na make me tap out already.”
a dry heave submerses, pawing at the sheets in a haze to military crawl forward and relieve yourself for a mini break. “mmm, w’na lay down. gotta breathe.”
eren removes every part of himself from you, your cackles like a tender hug on his heart. swatting your ass again, he bends down to give the spot he hit a kiss before lying beside you, bringing your back to his chest.
with your thighs pressed together, eren wraps his forearm behind your neck to bring your mouth to his, the other smoothing over your overgrown belly up to your breast, molding them in his palms while passionately gliding his tongue over yours in a nasty kiss.
both of your eyes were closed, eren’s dick sitting on your back, the fixation he has with touching you only makes you absurdly wetter.
“put it back in,” you mumble against his lips, shifting your ass back, eren’s eyes low and locked on to you as he guides his dick down to your opening and slides back in with little to no hassle.
“i love you,” eren says softly, kissing behind your ear and on your collarbone, cupping your left tit to suck back into his mouth.
you cry, again. it seems to be never ending the amount of emotions you felt in this moment. “i love you.”
hooking his forearm under your neck, eren’s ample hand spreads your ass cheek apart as he thrusts harder. his grunts by your ear, even an occasional nibble, the compression of your thighs together as you arch your back all feels too good, enough to make you cum actually. in fear, you whine his name, eren trying his hardest to keep his focus, also close to his climax.
“i feel it, ‘ren. cum with me, cum in me please. i want it so bad. i need it.”
eren moans, whistling as he blew out air, laying you flat on your back so he could lift your left leg up to your chest, locking his forearm under the bend of it while removing the arm he had underneath your neck to hook under your belly, fingers touching the thigh he held up and beating his dick rougher into you. your head falls back, watching him as he watches you, tossing his head back and giving you all of him.
“f-fuck, baby. cum on it right now, please. be a good girl. know you got it,” his voice is shattering, balls thwacking on your clit, the head of his dick squishing deep on that spot that makes you gush out and coat his dick in your juices from every stroke.
“cu—mmin’, oooh, fuck yes. eren!”
sobs break out in waves, adoring the feeling of his cum streaking your inner walls as you cum as one. it’s emotional for you, crying in his face as he kisses you and swallows all the air from you. thanking him in whispers while eren rubs all over your body, unable to break apart from you. clutching your neck and deepening the kiss, his waist jumping as he gasps and shares this moment with you.
a week later you find yourself going into labor.
the entire process was unhurried, and extremely beautiful. eren held you the entire time, letting you dig your fingers into his arms and connecting your forehead with his, breathing you through it as rose rubbed your back. squatting into him comfortably as the warm water your body was submerged into along with the smell of herbs sprinkled around the floor and vanilla candles alleviated you. six contractions within an hour was how it started, your water breaking the moment you went to start your morning shower and yelling eren’s name in fright, staring at the water pooling around your feet.
he never moved so fast in his life. lifting you up and bringing you downstairs where he sat you on the couch with a towel and instructed you to breathe as he dialed the doula and midwife. they rushed here within fifteen minutes, and in that process eren blew up the birthing tub and filled it up so he could get you in as soon as possible. remembering to remind you to melt into the contractions instead of tensing since it’ll make them worse.
you told him you wanted to give birth while listening to destiny’s child, playing it on vinyl and humming along to the music currently. cater 2 u being your mental anthem. the room is dark, only candles lighting the area. eren makes sure to talk you through it, always good for that, ironically. speaking affirmations and praising you, until finally, your precious baby girl is born. with trembles and cries, rose and valeria gasp in excitement as your baby erupted in croaks and shrill cries, tears streaming down eren’s face as they place the baby on your chest so she could instantly hear your heartbeat.
weighing at six pounds and four ounces, she’s the perfect, tiny baby. caressing her fragile body as you weep and lay your cheek atop her head. eren’s sitting back on his feet, stun overcoming him as he sees the small human, coming to realize that the two of you could create such a magnificent thing. rose makes sure to give him some water, his eyes unable to leave the two of you. making eye contact, you gawk in astonishment, holding her miniature wrist between two of your fingers and waving at him.
“that’s daddy, he’s speechless right now. i promise he’s cool, and funny. you’re g’na have lots of laughs,” you speak softly, smiling wide.
Content: no use of y/n, working out, dry humping, praise, unprotected sex (p in v), multiple positions, creampie
Personal Trainer!Choso whose hand brushes against yours when you reach for the last container of chocolate protein powder in the grocery store. He notices your shy smile as you quickly retract your hand, assuring him he can have it.
Personal Trainer!Choso who insists you buy it, practically shoving the protein powder into your own cart as you object. As much as he prefers the chocolate flavor over the vanilla option, he would gladly sacrifice his preference if it made someone as beautiful as you smile again.
Personal Trainer!Choso who can’t stop himself from gushing about his passions when you compliment his shirt, the tight black fabric sporting the red arrow logo of his in-home gym. He can feel the heat rising to his cheeks as you give him your undivided attention, wide eyes glittering with interest.
Personal Trainer!Choso who offers to train you when you explain your New Year’s resolution is to build more muscle. He asks for your phone number so he can send you his website, wanting to prove to you he is legit and credentialed, not some creep trying to lure you into his basement.
Personal Trainer!Choso who wants to sweeten the deal, assuring you the first session was free. He just wanted an excuse to get to know you better. He practically chokes when you accept without hesitation, planning to be at his house tomorrow evening.
Personal Trainer!Choso whose mouth goes dry at the sight of you standing in his house, your curves concealed in a tight matching work-out set, leaving nothing to the imagination.
Personal Trainer!Choso who preaches the importance of stretching before beginning the workout. He models a few exercises aimed at your quads and hamstrings, examining your form with an appreciative gaze.
Personal Trainer!Choso who stands closely behind to spot you during your squat routine, whispering words of motivation as you adjust the barbell on your shoulders, it’s heavier than you’re used to. "You can handle it," his gruff voice assures you.
Personal Trainer!Choso who scolds you immediately when your ass brushes against the front of his shorts, sending a shiver racing through him, he educates you on dangers of your improper technique. He doesn’t hesitate to put his hands on you as he adjusts your form. One strong hand grasping your inner thigh to widen your stance, the other firmly pressed to your back to prevent you from bending your spine.
Personal Trainer!Choso who doesn’t realize how dirty it sounds when he said, “you can take it deeper than that,” while challenging you to squat lower.
Personal Trainer!Choso who can’t force himself to look away when you take a sip of water, your shaky hands spilling it down the front of you. The fabric of your shirt clinging to your breasts and soaking through to the skin underneath.
Personal Trainer!Choso who couldn’t believe his ears when you asked if he would be uncomfortable if you continued the workout without your shirt, his eyes widening in surprise as he finds out the sports bra underneath also matched your outfit perfectly.
Personal Trainer!Choso who watches the way your glutes twitch and shake with each rep of your hip thrusts, your out of breath gasps music to his ears.
Personal Trainer!Choso who is feeling cocky, claiming he could hip thrust your weight easily, a smirk crossing your face as you take him up on that challenge. His shoulder blades pressed to the sideways bench and feet planted firmly on the floor as he invites you to sit on his lap, arms crossed behind his head in an arrogant display.
Personal Trainer!Choso who, to no one's surprise, effortlessly dips you up and down as if you weighed nothing on top of him. "Told ya so," he boasts but doesn't stop.
Personal Trainer!Choso who can feel your heat radiating onto his hard bulge with each thrust up. The spandex of your leggings does little to shield the shape of your cunt from him. He guarantees you can feel him too, judging by the way your teeth dig into your bottom lip and your nails grip his shirt.
Personal Trainer!Choso who can’t stop the involuntary groan that comes rolling off his tongue, trying to play it off as a typical grunt you would hear from other weightlifters.
Personal Trainer!Choso who starts to get a little too confident, thrusting faster and faster as he watches your face twist in enjoyment. Your own hips grinding against him as you seek more friction. Both becoming so lost in the sensation that he almost drops you. His hands flying to grip your ass, fingertips digging into the pliable flesh as he holds you against him.
Personal Trainer!Choso who can’t believe his ears when you are the one to suggest an idea for a "better workout".
Personal Trainer!Choso whose mind can't comprehend how he got into this situation. His shorts and boxers discarded and back still pressed against the bench as you lower yourself back onto his lap, his swollen tip easily slipping inside your entrance.
Personal Trainer!Choso who resumes his repetitions, his nails biting into the skin at your hips as he holds you down on him, frantically burying himself deep inside your heat. He wishes he could rip that sports bra off your breasts, wanting to watch how they bounce on each messy thrust instead of being held hostage by the tight material.
Personal Trainer!Choso whose legs are about to give out, unable to hold his position any longer. He grasps your waist and presses your back to the foam tiles covering the gym floor. Gripping your legs and pushing your knees up to your chest. Pulling himself out just to drive back in even harder, tip bullying your cervix on every mean shove.
Personal Trainer!Choso whose calloused thumb was rubbing rough circles on your clit while he continued to slam into you, your loud moans filling the air alongside the sound of skin slapping skin. He can feel the way you were clenching around him, practically sucking him in. You were just as close as he was.
Personal Trainer!Choso who fucked you through your orgasm, refusing to let up pace as he whispered praises. “Such a good girl for me, you take me so well,” all while he nears his own climax. He can’t bring himself to pull away from your wet heat, painting the inside of you with hot ropes of cum.
Personal Trainer!Choso who collapses onto the foam tile next to you, chest heaving and drenched in sweat after the intense workout routine you both shared, a small chuckle escaping his lips as he says, “good thing we stretched first”.
Personal Trainer!Choso who can't stop the smile forming on his lips when you ask when your next ‘training session’ will be.
request꒰ᐢ. .ᐢ꒱ rapper!reader x ony, they’ve broken up and he tries to make her jealous with another girl (doesn’t work) with some smut pls?
the carnival was a sensory overload, a dazzling display of sights, sounds, and smells that captivated everyone who stepped through its gates. the air filled with the sweet aroma of caramel apples and the savory scent of freshly popped popcorn, mingling with the sugary perfume of cotton candy. brightly colored food stalls lined the paths, each one offering a tempting array of treats, from deep-fried oreos to giant pretzels sprinkled with coarse salt.
the lights were a spectacle in themselves, twinkling and flashing in a myriad of colors. strings of bulbs crisscrossed overhead, creating a canopy of light that bathed the entire carnival in a warm, inviting glow. the ferris wheel stood tall at the center, its neon lights casting a rainbow of hues across the night sky as it turned slowly, offering riders a breathtaking view of the entire fairground.
ony knew it was unequivocally wrong. wrong to have his arm nonchalantly draped around his girlfriend as he meticulously scanned the crowd for you. he was acutely aware of your penchant for carnivals; the two of you had spent innumerable nights in similar settings. his pace faltered when he finally discerned that familiar cascade of curls, the front half elegantly pulled into two ponytails secured with delicate ribbons while the rest cascaded over your shoulders.
a yellow tube top adorned with roses clung to your chest, complemented by a mini skirt that mirrored your top. he had always adored your voluptuousness, the way your thighs kissed each other with every step, the way when he hugged you he always had a handful of ass. the carnival lights cast an ethereal glow upon your brown skin, you looked perfect. you are perfect, still effervescently giggling in line with your friends as you waited for your overpriced funnel cake.
his girlfriend, leah, tugged insistently at his arm, urging him towards the next amusement, but his gaze lingered on you for a moment longer. he reminisced about the times you both stood in that very line, your fingers intertwined, sharing clandestine secrets and aspirations over a plate of powdered sugar-dusted funnel cake. the memories were a poignant reminder of what he once cherished and now missed.
he was petty. that pettiness being part of the reason you broke up with him in the first place. that same pettiness was determined to make you jealous. he led leah to the game booths, winning a giant stuffed bear and presenting it to her with a flourish. you glanced over briefly, but your expression remained neutral. you were genuinely enjoying herself, and it stung more than he wanted to admit.
as the night wore on, his frustration grew. every attempt to catch your attention, to make you feel something, fell flat. his girlfriend noticed his distraction and asked if everything was alright. ony forced a smile, assuring her that everything was fine, but inside, he was a mess.
near the end of the night, he found himself standing alone by the ferris wheel. his girlfriend had gone to get some snacks, leaving him with his thoughts. he watched you from a distance, your laughter and joy piercing his heart. it was then that he realized he still loved you, and no amount of pretending could change that.
just as he was about to leave, you approached him. the two of you stood in silence for a moment, the carnival lights casting a warm glow around. "trying to make me jealous?" you asked with a knowing smile. he sighed, rolling his tongue across plump pink and brown lips. "maybe. did it work?" you shook your head, but your eyes softened. "no, but i applaud your efforts.”
the loc'd man huffed and shoved his nike dunk into the dirt, finding it hard to fight off the disappointment.
"i heard your album. it was good.” he finally speaks up. he'd been expecting you to be angry, not understanding. but then again, you were always so patient with him.
"thanks, ony." you're suddenly feeling scrutinized under his gaze. "why? why did you come talk to me? you've avoided every call, every text. so why now?" he can't help as the words come out harsh, but you know he means no harm.
"i just..." you trailed off, unsure of what to say. "i wanted to see if you were okay." things between you two didn’t exactly end well. a blur that you wished you could forget, ony blamed himself. you were just rapping, doing what you were passionate about, and he’d taken it away. the memory of that night still haunted you both. the argument had escalated quickly, words sharper than knives being thrown back and forth. he couldn't stand the thought of losing you to your music, feeling like it was pulling you away from him. in his attempt to protect what you had, he ended up pushing you away.
now, standing in front of him, you could see the regret etched in his eyes. "i know i messed up," he admitted, his voice barely above a whisper. "i just couldn't handle the thought of you slipping away from me. but i realize now that i was wrong. your passion is a part of who you are, and i had no right to take that from you." you felt a mix of emotions swirling inside you. anger, sadness.
“the past is in the past, i’ve healed.” your words hang thick in the air, the awkwardness suffocating. “well, i guess i’ll see you around, then." you turned to go, but he stopped you with a stinging grip. he couldn't resist himself as his lips pressed against yours. the kiss was soft, tender, and everything he'd been longing for. "w-we can't," you groaned between the now sloppy kiss, but he couldn't fucking stop.
he could taste the familiar sweetness of your lip gloss, could feel the softness of your lips against his own.
"please."
ony begging? oh, you'd done it this time.
your ex fucking you against a small bathroom stall was not how you imagined your evening. your head sits in the crook of his neck, soft wails escaping as the loc'd man pounded into you. the music and laughter from the carnival could still be heard through the closed door, creating a strange, dissonant backdrop to the sounds of your moans.
the dark skinned man held onto you tightly, spreading your cheeks apart pulling you down to meet his every thrust. you bit down on his shoulder, trying to muffle the sounds of your cries. "shittt, missed fat ma." he's finding it hard to keep his composure as your walls flutter around his aching cock, pretty brown pussy lips welcoming the stretch.
you whimper, trying to form words but failing miserably. his cock is splitting you open, stretching you to your limit. "oh my god," stars. that's all that blots your vision as his leaking tip presses into your gummy spot, toes curling. arousal slides down his balls, a soft lewd squelch each time he rocks his thick girth into you. “kills me to imagine y-you with anyone else.” he’s admitting pussy drunkenly, eyes rolling back.
he can feel you trembling beneath him, walls squeezing tight around him. "she’s tryna milk me shittt.” his grip on you tightens, his rhythm faltering as his cock twitches and throbs deep inside you. “all yours.” his voice raising an octave, you can feel him filling you up, can feel the hot, sticky warmth of his cum spilling into you. your body jerks and trembles, your own orgasm hitting you like a tidal wave. the world falls away, your vision narrowing down to just the two of you. there is nothing but pleasure, pure, unadulterated bliss.
the world is spinning and you can't breathe and your heart is racing and all you can do is hold onto him, holding on for dear life as your body is rocked with aftershocks.
you cling to him, fingers digging into the tattooed skin of his shoulders, leaving behind little crescent-shaped marks. ony holds you close, burying his face in the crook of your neck and breathing in the sweet scent of your sweat and arousal. finally you catch your breath, slowly coming down from the high of your orgasm. the man's lips are on yours, soft and gentle and oh-so-perfect. you kiss back, letting him taste every inch of you. his tongue explores your mouth, sliding over yours and teasing the roof of your mouth.
and as he kissed down your body, dropping to his knees. one hand swiftly parting your legs. all you could think was, this is so wrong.
𝒮𝒴𝒩𝒪𝒫𝒮𝐼𝒮: toji’s bulking and you’re ovulating! how can you keep your hands to yourself when all you want to do is touch? 𝒞𝒪𝒩𝒯𝐸𝒩𝒯 𝒲𝒜𝑅𝒩𝐼𝒩𝒢: size difference (toji has a monster cock ૮ ․ ․ ྀིა), blowjob, female oral, choking, pussy slapping, unprotected sex, cream-pie, explicit language, mirror sex, toji fucks you in a headlock ݁𖥔 ݁˖
BULKING!TOJI who always seems to be wearing the sluttiest clothing. muscle tees that grip his meaty arms enticingly, showing off every curve and bulge of his well-defined biceps. his sweats always seem to hang too low on his hips, revealing a dark happy trail that leads down to his waistband. the fabric clinging to his thick thighs.
BULKING!TOJI who religiously carries a protein shaker with him, even on date nights, because he's serious about his bulking diet. he’s got a variety of protein powders, from chocolate to vanilla, and he loves mixing them with different fruits and oats to keep things interesting.
BULKING!TOJI who loves trying out new high-calorie recipes and often ropes you into cooking massive meals with him. you two have fun experimenting in the kitchen, making everything from giant stacks of protein pancakes to hearty chicken and rice dishes, always ensuring they meet his caloric needs. he’s genuinely grateful. often, hugging you from behind while you cook, placing the sloppiest kisses behind your ears, his tattooed arms coiled around your frame. his gratitude is evident in the way he nuzzles into your neck, whispering sweet nothings about how much he appreciates your efforts. “i love you, y’know that. . .right?”
BULKING!TOJI who despite his intense workouts, always makes time to cuddle and watch movies, using you as his favorite "recovery" time. he loves resting his head on your lap while you binge-watch your favorite series, feeling your fingers run through his hair as he relaxes. “i hate this scene.”
BULKING!TOJI who gets annoyed and sleeps on the couch when you won’t stop playing with his tits. “you’re so damn annoying.”
BULKING!TOJI who you make sure has a secret stash of snacks in his gym bag for when he needs extra calories on the go. protein bars, nuts, and dried fruits are his go-to, and he always has a little something to munch on between sets or during quick breaks.
have a good workout<3 - signed your amazing beautiful girlfriend
BULKING!TOJI who becomes an expert at meal prepping, and his mini fridge is always stocked with containers of chicken, rice, and veggies. each container meticulously measured to ensure he gets the right amount of protein, carbs, and fats, and he takes pride in his perfectly organized fridge.
BULKING!TOJI who likes wearing your crop tops, flexing in front of the mirror. “take it off! you’re stretching my shit toji.” “no.”
BULKING!TOJI who can’t resist squeezing your face in his bicep, laughing as your chubby cheeks push together. “haha!”
BULKING!TOJI who just throws you over his shoulder during arguments. “i’ll put you down when you’re done being a brat.”
BULKINGTOJI! who thinks it’s dumb as you tie a pink ribbon around his wrist, demanding he stay still. he thinks it’s even dumber when you record it, the video boasting one-million likes on tiktok. “they loveeeeee you!”
BULKING!TOJI who’s entire hand covers your face. jeez, your poor cunt, he thinks.
BULKING!TOJI who can’t help but admire the way your swollen sticky lips suckle at his thick cock, pulling him back in greedily. usually, it’d take some time for him to ease into your tiny hole. but, you were ovulating today and after seeing your boyfriend walking around shirtless with nothing but boxers on, you practically jumped his bones.
BULKING!TOJI who presses all his weight onto you as he fucks your soppy pussy, the pressure in your back dull as he prods into that sweet spot from behind. pale veiny hands pull your cheeks apart, spreading you, revealing your puckering hole. a glob of warm spit followed by his thumb lubricating your asshole has you arching your back in anticipation. “papaaaa,” glossy eyes squeeze shut as he gently sinks his thumb into your asshole, pelvis relentlessly slapping into your sore ass. the sight has his dick twitching, “humph, look so pretty with both holes filled.”
BULKING!TOJI who doesn’t care that you’re overstimulated, rocking his dick into your tight velvety walls at a mean pace. you don’t know how many orgasms the man has yanked from you. “i know baby, doing so good. takin’ all of me like a big girl, fuckkkk.” glazed eyes watching the way you glisten on him as he folds you against the wooden headboard, your legs flush to your chest. “tojiiii,” you whine, he could get drunk off the way you whimper his name. “am i deep baby?” he groans, thick cream building on his base. “mhm!”
BULKING!TOJI who has you in the nastiest chokehold, one hand wrapped around your throat, the other forcing you to look into the mirror. you’re a mess, disheveled hair, tear-stained cheeks, swollen lips. the man’s so fucking huge he covers your entire body. “unt, unt. eyes open beautiful.” he sends a particularly deep thrust that has you shivering. slick, slick, slick, a repetitive noise that has him grunting deeply into your ear.
BULKING!TOJI who eats your pussy while you suck his dick. it’s a struggle taking the man, drool seeping down your chin as you slurp at the veiny masterpiece. it’s also a struggle to concentrate as he eats you out like a starved man, spitting, slapping, fingering. god, you’re gonna cum again. “cummin!”
BULKING!TOJI who watches as his cum trickles out of your pulsing hole, huffing and pushing it back inside. “stay.”
thinking about choso and the succubus that just won’t leave him alone :((
“p-please i can’t take any—hah! a-anymore,” choso sobbed, his fingernails digging roughly into the fat of your hips. you’ve been riding him for the past hour and a half and he was sure by this point he was shooting blanks. you’ve pulled four orgasms out of him and frighteningly enough you were showing no signs of stopping.
“i’m not done yet though cho,” you giggled, leaning down to press your lips against his. choso whimpered when your tongue, that was slightly longer than the average humans, slipped into his mouth. you could tell help but smile into the kiss when you felt him get harder inside of you.
choso’s eyes rolled into the back of his head when your tongue swirled around his, his mouth opening wider to give you more access. ‘what a slut’ he heard your voice echo in his head, arousal building up in his tummy. you abruptly pulled away from the kiss, a line of spit connecting your mouths.
“o-oh!” choso’s abs clenched when you lifted off of his cock, a loud squelching sound following. “pretty…y-you’re so pretty,” his voice was shaky as he praised you, tears of awe and overstimulation brimming his eyes. you didn’t say anything, instead you kissed your way down his chest, stopping when you reached his pelvic area.
choso heard your voice in his head once more, nodding at your question. ‘you want it?’ you had asked, the seduction in your voice as tempting as ever. choso’s back arched off the bed when he felt your tongue slither around the base of his dick. now this was new for him.
your tongue was able to wrap around almost every inch of him, massaging his most sensitive parts. you the felt the veins on the underside throb rapidly against your tongue, he was already so so close.
“s-stop—wait, w-wait no keep going, no n-no wait stoppp,” choso sobbed, tears now steaming down his reddened cheeks. he gasped finally at the loss of contact, his chest heaving rapidly. “w-why’d you stop?” he whimpered, his bottom lip pushing into a pout as if he wasn’t just begging and crying you to stop :((
choso jumped slightly when your wings expanded, shielding both of you from the light of his bedside lamp. “from this point forward i wan’ you to keep those pretty lips shut, got it?” he heard your honey smooth voice say firmly. choso nodded quickly, “yes, y-yes i’m sorry. no more talking i promise.” such an obedient lil thing.
choso’s mouth dropped open, a loud, pornographic moan belting from his chest. you focused your attention on his weeping tip, moaning at the sweet yet salty taste that was him. you toyed with his balls in your hand, giving them a hearty squeeze—
“o-oh f-fuckkk!”
you pulled off his tip with an obscene slurping sound, “cmon cho gimme all your cum. be a good boy and give it to me.” choso mewled, his thighs now trembling rather violently.
“i-i can’t it’s too much i don’t think i—”
“nonsense. i know you got one more in you for me pretty boy,” you cooed, sloppily kissing the inside of his thigh before sinking you teeth into the soft, sweaty flesh. choso let out a loud cry, the whites of his eyes showing before he came. hard.
“f-fuck!”
choso jolted away, a thin sheen of sweat covering his chest and face. his palms were sweaty and his heart was beating a million miles a second—the fuck happened to him?
he turned on his bedside lamp and looked around the entire room, although he wasn’t entirely sure what he had been looking for. his lips turned into a frown when he noticed his boxers had felt sticky. “again?” he sighed in defeat once his eyes landed on his messy boxers and very hard dick.
he lightly touched his cock over his boxers, immediately whimpering at how sensitive he was. “i’ll be quick, r-real quick,” he let out a sigh of relief when his hand began to palm at his boxers, he internally cringed when he felt how wet and sticky they were. his nostrils flared once he finally reached his hand in his boxers, gripping his throbbing cock with need.
his eyes trailed from his dick to his thigh, his brows furrowing when he noticed a bite mark???
while still stroking his cock he lightly touched the bite mark, his breath hitching when it actually felt good? why did it feel so good?
“hah! o-oh wow,” choso breathlessly chuckled, his hips bucking up when he pressed down on the mark once more. oh how he desperately wished he had something to fuck right now. his eyes fluttered shut, his mind trying remember the very lewd dream that had him so worked up.
as choso fucked his fist desperately you hid in the darkest corner of his room, watching him with lustful eyes. choso was always such a needy lil thing, if he had even a semi hard on he couldn’t contain the urge to relieve himself—that’s why you liked him so much and ventured into his dreams every night.
your lips lifted into a smirk when you heard him cum with a needy whine, white ropes on cum shooting onto his toned chest. he didn’t stop there though no no, he kept going, milking his dick until he was writhing in overstimulation. what a slutty man he was.
“m’still hard,” choso mumbled, poking the tip of his leaking cock. his lip caught between his teeth, his nose scrunching when he wrapped his hand around the base, squeezing softly. “one more s-should—mmph! do it,” he sighed, now slowly stroking his dick, a wet shlicking noise echoing throughout the room.
i made this post because i've got so many friends that think saying something wrong in a conversation is the end of the world. it isn't. you'll be okay. you don't have to be embarrassed about every little thing. you are alive and doing things and speaking to people. you will make mistakes and you will live.
you’re ovulating, and the last thing toji expected is a sweet lil thing like you to be so needy.
— genre . . . EXPLICIT CONTENT // MDNI
— contents . . . college au, breeding kink, unprotected s//x, use of the word [pussy, cunt], voyeurism, size kink, daddy kink, petnames (doll, dollie, baby)
— song suggestion . . . "juno" by sabrina carpenter
— notes . . . toji wants ur touch for life!! — not proofread !!
credit to @kirib4by for the initial idea <3
✦ more below the cut ! MDNI
When Toji gets home from a long practice for hockey, the only thing he wants to do is pop open a cold ginger ale from your side of the fridge and conk out on the couch you guys bought for dirt cheap on Facebook Marketplace.
Sometimes, only sometimes, will he jack off—he’s considerate enough to at least make sure you’re asleep, of course, but it seems like you don’t necessarily have the same ideas when he hears the loudest, most talkative pussy in his goddamn life, practically beggin’ for him to give it a kiss from his position at the front door of your shared apartment.
You might be wondering: “How the fuck can he tell?”
It’s Toji-fuckin’-Zenin.
Of course, he knows.
Kicking his shoes off seems like the hardest thing in the universe after his dick, of course as he tries to quietly sneak down the hall to get a better ear on your door, his socks allowing to slightly glide across the wooden floorboards of your comfortably little apartment.
You are so fuckin’ loud.
Yes, you. Not Toji.
You.
His curiosity gets the best of him when he sees that your door is wide open you silly lil thing, giving him a perfect view of your sweet, noisy, lil cunt as you shove your face into your bedsheets and wiggle that tight ass in the air like a bitch in heat.
Toji has to bite back an audible moan as he swallows dryly at the sight of you, arched up and whimpering like a some kicked puppy as you pathetically pump a translucent purple dildo in and out of your glistening cunt—in, out, in, out…
Plap-! Plap-! Plap-!
Fuck- it’s so cute watchin’ you slap your pretty pussy with a shaky palm, having to extend your arm awkwardly beneath you as to even try as your fingers smack against your throbbing clit, swollen with need and from rubbing it far too much.
“Nngh- mmnnnhhh…”
Lord, if your pussy wasn’t loud enough…
“M-more~”
Y’don’t gotta tell Toji twice. He can’t help himself as he palms himself through the fabric of his sweats, leaning against the threshold of your door as he somehow remains unnoticed by you. The ravenette supposes he can’t blame you—he get’s kinda stupid when he’s pumping his cock to some random piece of Twitter porn in the middle of a Thursday night, dreamin’ that it’s you calling him da-
“Ha- ffuck…!”
Oh, fuck.
You look like one of those Greek statues from his godforsaken art history class, so soft ‘n pretty as you try to bring yourself to the edge, pussy all gushy and oh-so-sloppy as you fuck yourself open with that pathetic, tiny dildo. The lil pudge of your tummy, the curves and valley of your body, so teeny tiny compared to him…
“Please- please, m’so close-“ you babble out, and Toji swears up and down that you’re droolin’ as he watches you squirm. His sweats were definitely getting a wet-patch by now the more he squeezes his thick shaft over the fabric, not even bothering to be sneaky at this point as he keeps watching you.
It’s cute—he’s kinda close, he won’t lie, but you reach your peak faster than he does, your sloppy cunt crying for him as it spasms around the stupid dildo, just like how you, yourself, cries for him.
“To-Tojiii~! ♡”
“Yeah, that’s right, doll— cum for Toj-“
Oh shit.
Remember how he said that he can’t blame you for bein’ stupid? How he gets stupid when he’s strokin’ one out?
Well, he can’t be angry at himself when a purple dildo the size of his palm comes launching at his face full speed, smacking him square on the forehead.
“Agh- fuck!”
“Toji, what the fuck!”
He can’t defend himself—knows he can’t, knows he won’t. Toji’s a big boy, and big boys know when they’re bein’ weird and wrong. A pang of shame and guilt pierces his heart as he realizes you’ve curled up in your blankets, eyes wide as your chest heaves up and down and sweat clings to your forehead as a result of your orgasm.
In his stupor, he bubbles out an apology, averting his gaze to his feet as the unfamiliar feeling of embarrassment fills his stomach.
“Fuck- m’sorry, doll, I jus’-!” Toji coughs awkwardly, running a hand through his hair. Normally, he’d keep it cool and just meander off to his own room and act like he was all chill, but something was different when it came to you. “Heard ya ‘n I was wonderin’ what the hell y’were doin’ and-“
“How much did you see?!” you interject, and his eyes glue shut, no longer able to focus on the hole in his left sock.
“…enough?”
The silence is killing him.
“Look, doll, s’okay that you were just rubbin’ one out. We all got needs—jus’ surprised y’had it in ya, and honestly it was pretty cute that you said my name ‘n all and I’on mind at all cuz I’ve been wantin’ to-“
“Toji.”
“You’re just really sweet and I wan’ ya to be with a guy y’actually like ‘n-“
“Zenin!”
“Listen, I’m jus’ sayin’ that-!”
“Toji Zenin, come here and fuck me before I rip your sweats off and turn you into a dildo myself!”
Oh.
Oh…!
Shit, well ya should have started with that!
“…Yes, ma’am,” with a smirk, Toji bounds toward you as he throws his shirt over his head, letting it fly somewhere to the floor of your room before crawling on top of you on your queen-sized mattress, lips immediately finding yours as his warm hands find the curve of your hips.
“You’re so-“ you rasp against his lips, so warm and so little beneath him as he hovers over you. “Stupid…”
“Lil bit, doll,” Toji chuffs, lapping at your bottom lip as he tugs the sheets away from your figure, revealing the expanse of flesh.
“I blame your teammates for smacking you so much with those damn hockey sticks.”
“S’all part of the job, baby.”
“Like how not telling me you’re coming home early is part of that too?”
“Would you have stopped touchin’ yourself if I did?”
“Yeah…”
“Liar,” he kisses you again, tongue delving into your mouth as he squeezes at your chest. “You looked like y’needed an orgasm.”
“Did not.”
“Did too. Always so fuckin’ mean to me.”
“Maybe if you did your dishes-“
“Sshhh, shut up, baby.”
“You dingbat-!”
“Mm, dorky lil thing. Jus’ lemme take care of ya, doll.”
Toji wastes no time, his right hand finding the back of your head to guide you back to his lips as he grinds his stiff cock against your messy lil cunt, staining the grey cotton of his sweatpants as he messily makes out with you. The whimpers you let out are swallowed up as he kisses you, large hands pawing at your tits as he ruts against you like some kind of animal.
“What even got y’in the mood, hm?” he queries, kissing down the expanse of your neck.
“M’ovulating,” you shiver as he nibbles on you.
“That so? Y’wun me to knock y’up, doll?”
“T-Toji-!”
“C’mon, baby—tell me. Tell me y’wun me to make you all round with a cute lil brat.”
“Toji, we’re still in college!”
“We can act, no? Y’er on the pill, right?”
“I mean, I guess-“
“Then tell me y’wanna get knocked up, baby,” Toji murmurs lowly into your ear, nibbling at the lobe before tugging down the waistband of his sweatpants.
Plap-! Plap-!
“Ouh- Toji-!” you jolt as he slaps the uncut tip of his cock against your slick folds. “Y-you’re so warm-“
“I’ll be warmer inside ya, so tell me how bad y’wun it, dollie,” the ravenette chuckles darkly, teasing your puffy clit with his cockhead. “Beg for it, baby.”
“Toji, p-please… put it in,” you bumble out shyly, eyes avoiding his verdant ones.
“Nuh uh. Try again,” he hums, nudging your chin with his freehand to force you to look at him. “Tell daddy how much y’need it, doll.”
“That’s so-!”
“Say it or I won’t give it t’ya. I’ve seen those nasty lil books you read, doll—don’t try ‘n hide it from me.”
“…daddy…”
“Hmm? What was that, baby?”
“Give it to me, daddy…”
“Much better. Was that really so hard?”
“N-nooo- hah-!!”
With a wet shlick!, Toji bullies his cock inside of your drooling lil cunt, groaning at the tight vise that is your chubby cunt which stretches around his thick shaft, far bigger than the dildo that you weaponized earlier. Toji would normally do some nasty foreplay, but he didn’t want to wait—not when he’s been aching for you ever since you became roommates during sophomore year.
“Hhaa- fuuck, baby…” Toji hisses through his teeth, his large hands finding your waist. “Look at that… takin’ me like a fuckin’ champ.”
He was only about 3/4ths of the way inside you, his tip kissing your cervix. Toji didn’t want to even try burying himself to the hilt, not when he’s already risking to bruise you from the inside out.
You look so pretty like this, mewling and squirming beneath him…
“D-daddy~ ♡”
“Mm, yes, baby?” he smiles lazily as he trails one hand between your legs to thumb at your clit. “Y’wan daddy to move?”
You nod frantically, twitching around his length as your hips squirm at the feeling his calloused thumb on your sensitive little pearl, already gushing around his cock.
“Fill me up, daddy… knock me up-“
Toji could cum right there, honestly.
His hips move on autopilot as he drinks in the sight of you—debauched, sweaty, and oh so sexy beneath him as he pumps in and out of your tight cunt, letting it swallow up his length as he ruts into you back ‘n forth.
“Don’t worry, dollie,” Toji grunts, jaw slack as he fucks into you. “Gunna breed this tight lil cunt—fill y’up ‘n make myself a real daddy.”
That earns a moan from you, your fingers coming up to claw at his biceps as he continues to circle your clit and fuck you like his life depended on it. Your little cries fill the room as the bed frame smacks against the wall over and over, squeaking alongside the springs in your mattress as he fucks you with reckless abandon.
“Wuu- ahh-! Ngh-!”
Plap-! Plap-! Plap-!
“M’gunna c-cum!”
“Yeah? Y’gunna- agh, fuck- cum for me, dollie?”
“Y-yeshh- oouhh~! Harder-! ♡”
“Fuuuck…!” Toji nearly collapses on you as he pumps into you one last time before letting go, unable to contain himself as thick spurts of his cum shoots into your needy lil hole. He doesn’t even process you crying out as you squirt all over his sweats, staining the front of the pants as your nails nearly pierce the skin of his upper arms and your back arches off the bed.
“Agh, fuck-“ he hisses, way too sensitive for his liking, but doesn’t even think about pulling out. “Shit- that’s so hot…”
“Quit looking!” you squeak, covering his eyes with your palms out embarrassment. Toji snickers, grabbing your wrists to pin them down at either side of your head to kiss at your bitten lips.
“Don’t be embarrassed, baby—s’cute,” he coos, breath hot against your flesh. “Y’squirt like that off’fen?”
“N-no…”
Ah, could you get any cuter?
It’s makin’ him horny again—that fucking freak.
“T-Toji…”
“Mm, yeah, doll?”
“…You’re hard again…”
“Mhmm…”
“…”
“…Can I keep goin’?”
“Please-“
“Nasty lil thing… don’worry. You’ll be pregnant by the mornin’, pill be damned.”
cw: dubcon, intox, general nasty talk, also reader is a big girl in this
Imagine being with Nikolai as a bit of a late bloomer.
He’s the first real boyfriend you’ve ever had, and he takes almost too much pride in that.
Every guy who’s ever tried to get close to you before has been a boy. Didn’t know how to handle you right. Didn’t know how to caress a sensitive doe like you. Didn’t have enough weight to pin you with. Didn’t know that sometimes when girls like you start backing away, it’s because they want to be chased.
Nik is sweet, really. Always worried about how warm you are, how comfortable you are, if you’re relaxed. He knows you’re fidgety— that you need to feel one of his weighty palms on you before you’re able to settle.
He knows his malyshka is a skittish thing. Not used to being around men. No, you were used to boys that wanted to get themselves off, while males of Nik’s variety won’t stop until you’re devoured.
Pliant. That’s how he wants you. Relaxed, hazy— not enough thoughts in that pretty head for you to start worrying when his touches get heavier. That’s why he keeps holding his drink to your lips, telling, saying “take another sip for me pchelka, yeah? There you go— good girl.”
Pchelka is a good name for you, he thinks. Little bee. He’s having you sip nectar so that you make plenty of honey for him later.
Nik usually likes to drink something that puts hair on the chest, but for you, he’ll nurse at something sweeter for a change.
He knows you’re ready when he feels the warmth of your cheeks while you slur against his skin.
Nikolai never fails to grope and squeeze at your softest parts when he has you spread and gasping under him. When you’re too drunk to redirect his hands, embarrassed by how fixated he is with your hips, stomach, and thighs. He has experience, and he learned long ago that laying with a plush girl is the closest a mortal man can ever get to laying with Venus.
He pinches at your cheeks and coos down at you, swooping to suck at your tongue and teethe gently at your lower lip.
“This is just what my girl needs, yes? Nice and spread and relaxed for me… that’s the only way I’ll manage to fit this thick cock into you, malyshka.”
He drowns your fear, your fight or flight, with liquor and syrupy words that stick in your mind better than your own thoughts.
He keeps his weight on you, just enough to keep you still without smothering. The way you quake when he bottoms out brings his smile all the way up to his eyes. His hand settles on your stomach, beneath your navel.
“You feel me in here, zoloste? This place is just for lovers. And you keep it nice and warm for me, don’t you, malyshka? Must’ve been so lonely all this time, waiting for a man— your man— to keep you settled enough to push all the way in here…”
He laughs to himself as if he’d remembered an inside joke, still caressing your skin.
“It’s a place only your husband should be, don’t you think?”
𑄽𑄺 warnings 𑄽𑄺 blackfem!reader, drabble, onyankapon, grumpy!onyankapon, sweet!onyankapon,dominant!onyankapon, angry sex, drunk sex, black woman, vaginal penetration, rough, lil bit of sweet talkin’, hair pulling, creaming, oral [f] [m], choking, praising, LOTS of dirty talk, riding, condomless sex, kissing, spanking, just a fine ass black man, minors aren’t welcome!
sorry y’all, i been celibate and just want the testosterone of a black man. i beg.
ᖭི༏ᖫྀ :: you come back from the club, mouthy, tipsy and blabbering to your boyfriend. all that talking has onyakanpon give you just what you’re asking for.
STRAWBERRY FLAVORED MARGARITAS ALWAYS MADE YOU HORNY. You made the terrible decision of making that your choice of drink when agreeing to a girls night out, knowing where you really wanted to be— in bed, cuddled up to your man. But you missed your friends, and Onyankapon missed you even more.
Although you were always together, his weekend routine felt incomplete without you. He had already gone to the gym, got something to eat, and took Cupcake—your American Bully—out for a run. The minute he left you to walk out the house in that fuschia dress, he knew you’d be trouble. The gold jewelry accents as your dark hair fell in crimped waves, the scent of Miss Dior along your throat that he couldn’t pull away from, skimpy heels combating the entire look together—he would have broken someone’s neck behind you.
As you stumbled into the women’s bathroom, the dark red lights added onto the energy you felt of the song playing within the club—PHAT by Dababy—buzzing your entire body as you wanted to shake ass with your girls. But first, you had to have a little fun.
You leaned yourself into the full body mirror of the bathroom, bending down as you arched your back into the camera, taking salacious pictures of yourself. They were faceless, only showing the curves of your body in the dress. You sent them to Onyankapon, a small, tipsy grin along your face.
mama <3 :
don’t i look pretty?
He was now within the mirror, clippers in his hand as he faded the sides of his head, beard trimmed down as well. You weren’t there to protest the cut, loving when his facial hair was more full, whether it was in between your fingers or deep in your—
Back to the point, LARGER THAN LIFE by Brent Faiyaz was his current choice of album. He glances down at his phone as he sees the message, eyebrows furrowing. The sight of you under red lighting, filthily posing for the picture. It made him more irritated than anything.
my ony <3 :
my pretty ass baby. drink some water.
The message back makes you feel a bit deflated. You wanted more. Your mischievous eyes glance around, seeing you were still alone in the bathroom. With that, you latch your fingers onto the top of your dress, pulling down the fabric to have your breasts spill out, nipples hardening from the air. You snap the picture, holding one of your tits in your palm, your brown lined Cupid’s bow lips also within the photo. You press send, sitting along the countertop of the bathroom, awaiting for a response.
Your phone buzzes after five minutes. You look down, seeing only a couple of words.
my ony <3:
yeah, aight.
You can’t help the grin that spreads along your face. With that, you notice that your phone battery is lower than expected, and you know your friends aren’t ready to go home. You sigh, shutting off your phone in risk of it dying, heading back to the section to try to shake off some of this inebriety.
Onyankapon goes to text you again, but this time it doesn’t seem to go through. It was in your habit for your phone to die, but tonight wasn’t the time. He even went as far as calling you. Straight to voicemail. Of course, your friends weren’t answering either. His eye could’ve twitched.
Getting your key into the door was your current mission hours later. Your phone was buzzing from the amount of missed phone calls as you turned it back on, a giggle stifling from your lips as you continuously shuffled your keys around, desperately trying to find the oversized Hello Kitty one. Your feet ached, heels high and tall as your ankles trembled, wanting nothing more than to be barefoot.
When your eyes finally register the pink key—assuming you’d touched it a thousand times—you lean against the door as you swing it open, holding yourself up by the bottom of your feet. They felt extremely heavy. You step inside, slowly pushing the door to close, locking it behind you. The LED lights in your condo were a dark purple, blaring to the low beat of the music playing around the walls, PARTYNEXTDOOR accompanying your ears. He’d probably fallen asleep.
Despite all the noise you’d been making, you try to tip-toe with your heels, realizing that your mission was successful. That’s you turn your head towards the kitchen, anyways.
You freeze momentarily in your steps, eyes widening. You knew he’d be angry, but you wanted to make a sneaky escape into bed next to him— Alas, your plan had failed miserably and you turned to face him with an innocent smile.
“Ony, baby—Why are you awake?”
The room seemed to shrink in size because of his imposing figure. It didn't matter how many tattoos covered his muscular body—you would always remember his face card. Strident jawline, dark eyes that gave him the expression of annoyance or solemnity, but the tattoos that decorated his cheek made him stand out amongst men. His brown complexion shimmered under the light, as if he had oil on his skin.
He just blinks at you, brows furrowing with obvious irritation. You were supposed to be home at ten. It was now two in the morning. He crosses his arms as you could see a vein straining on his neck, also glancing over the lipstick printed ink of your mouth tatted along his throat. He was pissed.
“And where the fuck has your ass been?”
His silky black durag has a knot tied within the back of his head, shirtless, upper body exposed as his black sweatpants hang on his hips. He’d just woken up after dozing off.
You pout slightly, not liking his attitude. “The girls wanted to be outside longer. I wasn’t driving, so I couldn't tell them no.”
“The girls know you got a crazy ass nigga at home. You could’ve at least picked up my fuckin’ calls.”
“My phone was in my purse,” you try to defend, now walking over to him, wrapping your arms around his neck, “Did I wake you?”
Despite his annoyed demeanor, his arms make their way to your waist. He’s gentle, but you could pick up the way his fingers dug into your skin.
“You know I can’t sleep without you.”
“Cupcake likes to cuddle,” you refer to the large dog, “Don’t be mean to her. She loves you just as much as I do,” you rub his beard, scratching it affectionately.
He grunts lowly, “Gimme’ your mouth,” you standing on your heels as you give him a peck on the lips.
You then groan, leaning down as you rub your ankle, “My foot hurts,” you pout, “Ugly bitch at the club stepped on my toes!”
He couldn’t help but soften up at your comments, a gentle hand rubbing at the back of your neck soothingly.
“She stepped on your shit on purpose?” He asked, brows furrowing.
“She gon’ say ‘bitch, move’ when she was all in my way. I didn’t move, so she stepped on my heel. Should’ve busted her fuckin’ head open,” you talk shit about the random girl in the club, “Baby, my feet hurt…” you repeat more softly.
“You gonna go back and fight her?” He poked fun, now lifting you up by your thighs to release the tension off your feet. You giggle as you wrap your arms around his shoulders, yelping, ‘wee!’ as He carries you to the living room, setting you down on the couch.
“Lemme’ see. I’ll ice your little ass foot.”
“Can you rub it? With the ice? Think they’re red,” you request, carelessly throwing the shoes in opposite directions, feeling the bottom of your feet throbbing even more.
He hums, “Hollon’, baby,” disappearing into the kitchen as you wait on the couch. Cupcake comes running into the living room, jumping on you immediately. You giggle, hugging her head as she snuggles up against you, having the zoomies as she takes back off into her kennel.
Ony returned with a bag of ice, leaning down in front of you, placing the ball of your hurting foot in his lap.
“You really couldn’t leave early?”
You shake your head, “They wanted to hit up the after hours. I said nooo, my man wants me home. They said your man lame, you’ grown! I said, I am! But I miss my man! But ooh, baby, they had lemon drop shots for two dollars! Maybe that’s why I’m so drunk…” you ramble.
He listened attentively to your rambling, tilting his head to the side. He had a small smile on his face, his expression gentle at your drunken blabbering. He loved listening to you talk, even if you were saying nonsense.
“And you bought ‘em? You know you’ a light weight. You can’t handle your liquor, baby.”
“I had water too!” You protest, “But it was too late. I’m not like—super drunk, but because I’m home now, I can just…float,” you say with a hum, tilting your head, “….You’ happy to see me now?”
“Happy as fuck. I was about to go down to that club and shoot that shit up about you. Tryna’ get fucked up in that pretty ass dress, too. I got your pictures.”
Your slender eyes blink at him, glimmering under the light, “I’m pretty?” You knew the answer, but your floaty mind wanted to hear it anyway.
“Don’t be playin’ stupid with me.”
You lean forward, poking your lips out as you sigh, “You’re so sweet. Gimme’ a kiss.”
He leans forward, placing another soft, slow, kiss on your lips. He pulled back to look at your face, his large hands cupping your jaw, his brown eyes scanning your expression.
“‘Love your non-listening ass. Even when you come home later then I tell you to.”
Your demeanor changes, not liking how he worded that sentence. A reminder, your system was sugar-rushed off of several lemon drops.
“Tell me?”
You raise an eyebrow, “Tell? Don’t be funny, lil’ boy. You ain’t my damn daddy.”
"Lil’ boy?"
He raises an eyebrow at you, “You’ talking shit?"
“Big shit, actually,” you roll your eyes, pushing away the ice he holds, “I don’t wanna talk to you no more.”
"Yeah? You don't wanna talk to me? Let your fuckin’ feet hurt then.”
“That’s fine!”
He becomes slightly agitated from you childish responses, gripping your ankle in his hold to keep you down, “Chill out. You’re still tipsy.”
“And? I don’t give a fuck about my feet, you, or my mouth. Come shut me the fuck up then, bitch-ass-nigga.”
It’s like you won’t stop talking. Your mouth fires off curses as you attempt to stand from the sofa, wanting to just get out of your clothes. He hears that trigger word, bitch, a word he asked that you never called him. It was the ultimate disrespect.
He stares you down for a moment. His gaze was intense, intimidating. But there's now a glint of amusement in his eyes, and a humorless chuckle follows.
You go to walk away, but he’s faster.
He clutches you by the back of your neck as he twists you around, gripping you up as he kisses you, opening up your mouth as he sloppily puts his tongue in. You’re stunned for a moment, hands gripping for his skin, but it’s the alcohol that has the kiss throb in between your legs—You’re spent.
He pulls back, his hand still on the back of your neck as he presses a kiss under your jaw, before grunting against your ear, “Big ass fuckin’ mouth,” he sharply gruffs, “Come suck some dick. Finna’ shut you the fuck up.”
His voice is assertive, deep in your ear. You can’t help but be a little excited. You wanted this type of reaction from him. You’re kneeling yourself down without having to be guided, tugging for his black sweats, watching as his dick springs from beneath the material. His tip is a dark pink, veins prominent as it slaps along his belly button. Your mouth waters.
You wrap your fingers around the base, staring up with your dark lashes, cheeks warm and red as you dig your teeth into your lip, “Want my mouth on you, baby?”
Your inner thighs throb again as he lightly smacks your cheek, gripping your jaw open to separate your lips, “You fuckin’ heard me. Don’t play right now.”
He watches as you take him fully into your mouth, throat humming as you swirl your tongue around his tip, eyes closing as you nod your head back and forth. He reaches back, tangling his fingers through your hair as he guides your movements, dark eyes watching each time you take him deeper.
“Make that shit sloppy as fuck,” he grunts.
You open your mouth wider at that, eyes dropping low as you nod your head back and forth, tip dragging along the roof of your mouth, sliding deeper in your throat. Your saliva begins to increase, jaw aching each time his balls slap along your bruising lips, yet you moan in pleasure, wanting more—needing more.
Your eyes are practically stars to him. They glimmer under the lights of the living room, music strumming in his ears as you hollow your cheeks, back arching, ass poking out of your dress as you lean forward to be as close to him as possible. You watch him like a movie, his baby pink lips halfway open, head falling back as he groans, tightening his fist along your hair.
“Oh shit,” his low voice moans, “Suck my fuckin’ dick just like that, baby. Need my shit messy.”
He knows how much you like him praising you on, your lips firmly wrapping around his tip, molding your mouth around it as you slovenly suck, the sound echoing along the room. Your jaw burns even more. But the sight of his large hands encapsulating your curls, inked abdomen tightening as he watches your every move, your saliva warm from how hard he’s thrusting in your mouth, it’s like a drug. An addiction. He slows down, holding your hair with both fists, pulling himself out of your mouth as you stick your tongue out, awaiting to catch him again. His tip slaps along your jaw, the giggle leaving your lips captured by your intoxication.
He feels your hot breath on his tip as he looks down at you, seeing your tongue hang out of your mouth, wet and glistening in the dim light. The sight alone sends a jolt straight to his already throbbing dick.
"You're gonna swallow every last drop I got for you."
His words were firm, almost demanding as he watched you take him back into your mouth. This time, he held onto your head aggressively, fucking your eager mouth at a slow pace, allowing you to savor the taste of him.
You drag saliva along the veins of his dick, pulling your mouth back as you hum, “Feel good, baby?“
“Feel good as fuck, baby. Good fuckin’ girl. Tryna’ get fucked like a princess,” he grunts back to you, watching as your thumb runs over his tip, rolling your hand in a motion all the way down to the base of his length.
You circle your tongue back around his tip, sliding your lips around before pulling his length all the way to the back of your throat, the walls of your breath swelling as you gag, melting in his pleasure.
“Gonna nut, baby? Talk to me.”
"Finna’ nut all in that pretty ass mouth, baby,” he promises to you, and he does, his voice dropping to a low growl as he pushes you further, forcing you to take his entire length between your lips, the inside of your mouth becoming warm.
When he pulls back, his dick slides out slowly for you to lap up any leftover drops of cum that dribble out. He then tugs on your hair, bringing your face up to meet his.
You instantly stick your tongue out to show that you swallowed, giggling as you run your tongue against your lips, “Cleaned you up so good.”
You know he’s sensitive. You flick your eyes up as you kiss his tip, the giggles faltering off your lips like nothing as you tipsily moan, “Pretty ass dick, baby.”
“Don’t be fuckin’ greedy.”
He grunts as he pulls you up by your hair, smashing your lips against his in a kiss. You’re encapsulated by his mouth, tongue thrusting in between your lips, the feeling making your eyes roll back, moaning as you open your mouth wider. You loved kissing him. His dark pink lips were full, nearly overlapping yours as you made out with him.
He pulls you back, fingers around your throat as he commands, “Get on the sofa. Spread your legs.”
Ony’s already on his knees as you bend over the black velvet furniture. You spread your legs as you arch slightly, face hiding within your shoulder, eyes turning back to meet his. He’s trailing kisses along your thighs—it’s torturous at this point. Your pussy throbs as he’s blowing his breath against your core.
He spanks the skin of your ass as he growls, “Nasty ass. Always wanting me.”
He’s already down there, his lips wrapping around your clit, bottom lip dropping lower to rub against the entirety of you, tongue swirling to spread you open. You reach your palms behind, spreading yourself for him, forehead kneeling against the furniture as you breathily whine, “Yeah, baby. Always love when you eat my pussy.”
“Watch that fuckin’ mouth,” he warns in between your flesh.
He’s eating you like desert—Licking you from bottom to top. His hands find their way to your hips, pinning you down to the couch as he shakes his head from side to side, deepening his tongue against your folds. He halts as he comes up, pulling your face towards his as he grips your chin, commanding, “Spit in my fuckin’ mouth,” the moment he says it, your tongue sticking out as you drop saliva in between his lips. He accepts it, going back down as he coats it along your pussy, the feeling making your thighs tremble. He’s rough. And sloppy. Just how you liked it.
Latching back against the sticky walls of your pussy, you become more wet as he French kisses the throb of your clit, head swaying up and down as he flattens his tongue against the overall of you.
He’s lapping you up like a thirsty man. His tongue is thick and heavy against your clit, pushing you closer to the edge. His tongue continues its assault on your pussy, licking you in circles until you start squirming underneath him, desperately trying to hold your mouth.
His hands leave your hips, moving to grip your ass to expose more of your dripping entrance to him. Without warning, he buries his tongue deep inside of you, his lips sealed tight against your wetness as he starts fucking you with his mouth.
“Pussy tight as fuck, baby. Even on my tongue,” he grunts.
“Come fuck me, Ony,” you pout, “I’m so fuckin’ horny,” you almost cry at the pressure between your legs.
He doesn’t talk shit like you expect him to. Instead, he pulls his mouth away from you, your body lightly jumping as you feel his tip sloshing around your opening, patting against it, kissing the outside of your walls.
“This’ what you want, huh?”
He brings his hand around the front of you, palm clutching around your throat to pull you up closer to him. You try to nod your head, pushing your hips back to relieve the friction. You thought you were going to faint.
Your mind is still buzzing. Every inch slowly sinks into you, an ache itching in the depths of your walls, making your hips tremble as you gasp lightly. You push your body forward to escape, which only makes Ony grip you back, rolling his hips forward as he tsks, “Nuh-Uh, don’t do that,” making your eyes flutter shut as you whine, “Ooh, fuck. Daddy.”
Your whining makes him grunt, spanking you in response to your mouth, sensitivity spiked as you whimper. He smacks his lips, “Cut that shit out. You’ crying for my dick, take all of it.”
The heaviness of your ass drops against his abdomen, air spurring in between your hips, the suction making you quiver in response.
You turn your head, jaw dropping lightly as you suck in a breath, moving your body to adjust. You lift your hips as you watch yourself, eyes flicking up to meet him as you slide back down, listening to the skin connect, stomach cramping as you shudder out another whine.
“Gonna take all of it,” you desperately gasp, digging your fingers into the material of the couch, beginning to swirl your hips around as you fuck yourself, walls gushing at your eagerness. Each time you come up, his tip coats with more of your cream, moans progressively losing sense behind them each time your ass claps against his hips.
"Needy ass fuckin’ girl," he grumbles, gripping onto your waist tightly. "I be’ spoiling you too much.”
His right hand reaches onto the left side of your waist to get a good grip on you, dropping you up and down to watch your bodies move in sync, matching your rhythm as he starts fucking you harder. With every thrust, he slams into you, filling you completely, making you gasp out loud. He leans down, whispering in your ear, "Pussy wet as fuck. You hear my pussy? She’ talking. Just as loud as your fuckin’ mouth.”
You do listen, skin slapping against each others, your pussy squelching and sloshing as he now has a hold along the back of your dress, using that to tug you down, the air secretion igniting loud sounds with it. Your cheeks are red, something that usually happened when you became shy, turning your head back towards the wall as you moaned.
"Don’t be all shy now. Look at me. Need to see your face while you creamin’ on my shit like that.”
The command is sharp, leaving no room for refusal. He feels you tense under him, your inner walls trembling around his dick. He keeps pounding into you, your juices flowing down his shaft and onto his balls.
When you don't obey immediately, he spanks your ass to make you shriek, hard enough to leave a bruises before demanding again, "Look at me."
You instead kneel your head against the sofa. It’s not long before he becomes impatient, and he pulls you to stand flat on your feet. He keeps your back perfectly arched, rubbing his tip along your folds as he’s already sinking back in, making you lightly groan. He then takes your arms, palms tight around your wrists as he pulls them back and raises them slightly above your body, thrusting his hips forward, skin loudly echoing together as he gives you mean—almost enough to bully you—thrusts.
The moans you give are shocking, standing on your toes to escape from him, pussy tightening as the back of your thighs sting, friction against his hips, arousal dripping against his balls and abdomen.
“Agh—fuck—baby, ooohshit. Oohshit, Ony,” you’re rambling to him, unable to move as you’re trapped in this position.
"Shut the fuck up. I ain't wanna hear none of that noise."
He goes back to pounding you, ignoring your high pitched squeals, the arch of your back deepening as you want to jump out of your skin.
"Quit fuckin’ running. Take this fuckin’ dick. You’ wanna be grown, be fuckin’ grown, big girl,” he talks, skin harshly meeting with his, his dick painted with your arousal, ignoring the way you messily sob, a darkness in your vision as your eyes are staring into the back of your head.
“Ooohh, daddy. Ony—baby. Fuckin’ me so good, baby. Fuckin’ love you. Oh my god, love you, babyy.”
“You’ need more? You’ still talking?”
You feel defeated, senseless as he continues to fuck you, uncaring if he’s mean about it.
Yet turn your head, erotically giggling in between your manic episode, unable to stop your mouth from talking.
“This your pussy, Ony. You’ hear her? She missed you so much,” you whimper, wanting him to forgive you from your insults earlier in the night.
“I don’t wanna hear all that."
He picks up the pace, his balls slapping against your ass with every thrust. You sing to him, gasping and whining pathetically. The sound of your bodies colliding fills the room, drowning out everything else. He feels you tighten around him, your walls clenching down on his length.
"You' gonna cum? Or you' just gonna keep talking?"
“Baby…” you softly cry, “Ony, keep talking to me, baby…be nice…” you whimper, missing that side of him.
You’re sorry for coming home late. You’re sorry for talking shit. You’re just sorry. But this punishment feels all too good.
"You' sorry now?"
His tone is mocking—he knows he's got you right where he wants you.
"Keep talking. Mean it.”
He continues to fuck you mercilessly, his words cutting through the pleasure like a knife.
“Sosorry, baby. Sosorry, Daddy. Fuck me harder. Wanna cum all over your dick. Fuckkk, cum in me. Don’t stop,” your eyes well with tears, digging your teeth into your lip.
He releases your hands, his fingers stretching around your throat as he pulls your back to meet his chest, mouth along your ear as you stand back on your tip-toes, taking everything he gives you.
You messily moan as you lean back against his shoulder, using the strength you have in your hips as you circle your ass around, wanting to match his rhythm, jumping as you feel him spank you again. You were in a lustful haze.
“Look at you’ taking my dick, baby. You love it?”
“I love it,” you whine back, face warm as you take his other hand to put it in front of you, putting it in between your legs as you want him to rub your clit. Sometimes you were bold. Sometimes you weren’t.
You can hear the arrogance in his chuckle along your ear, his fingers rubbing in circles against your clit as he grunts, “Cute ass,” which makes you whimper, putting your head down to hide your warm face.
Your mind falls back into the fuzziness of before, the intimacy of it all making you feel drunk again, your legs feeling numb as he fucks your brains away. You feel yourself wanting to go limp, hooking an arm around yourself to hold his head from behind, his lips latching along your throat.
“You’ think I don’t know when my pussy about to cum? Look how tight you’ getting,” he grunts, spanking you again, your ass probably red by now.
You can’t stop the orgasm that comes, pathetic moans leaving your lips, your hand shaking as your brokenly whine into his mouth, body wanting to collapse as he grabs for your free hand, trapping it under his that clutches your throat you keep you in place.
You’re stuck in place again, creaming heavily on his dick, gushing and cumming in intense waves, pushing out the arousal as your eyes clutched shut, body trembling to ride out the wave.
“Ooh, that’s good as fuck, baby,” he grunts, “Cum just like that.”
You seem to sober up the minute your orgasm behind to subside, and your eyes are terribly heavy, just wanting to sleep. You feel a kiss along your neck as your legs come off the ground, being carried as your wrap your arms around his neck.
“You’ ready to cuddle?” Is all he asks.
Your eyes peek up despite how tired you are. You ask, “That’s it? Am I ready to cuddle? After you did all that?”
“Do you need it again?”
“No.”
“That’s what the fuck I thought,” he kisses your forehead, “Let’s go to sleep.”
currently thinking about plug!geto beating your pussy up after a hotbox….
“oh suguruuu,” your eyes rolled back in pleasure, freshly manicured nails (paid for by yours truly) digging into his biceps as he fucked you like he hated your guts. he had your seat reclined back, knees pushed to your ears as he gave the you meanest strokes known to man.
you peered at him through your lashes, mewling when you saw he was already staring back down at you. his eyes were low n red, the tiniest smirk on his face bc he knew as long as he had you like this you couldn’t run from him. sure it was cramped as hell but shit he wasn’t complaining—especially with the way your pussy was gripping his dick.
“you look—s-shit! look so pretty like this y/n. pussy feels so fuckin’ good. . . so fuckin’ soft. am i making you feel good y/n? speak up,” he got no response in return, your attention solely focused on his the view of his dick pounding into you. the sight was very erotic. . . one could even say it was pretty. you were broken out of your thoughts by a quick slap to the face, followed by geto gripping your jaw, squishing your cheeks together.
“i said am *thrust* i *thrust* making *thrust* you fucking feel *really hard thrust* good?” you nodded frantically, tears now filling your lash line because baby he was fucking you that good. “yes—yes sugu you’re making me feel so good thank you,” you sniffled, making the sick man laugh.
“you’re so cute,” he hummed, pressing his lips to your forehead before pulling his dick nearly all the way out just to slam back inside you. he stayed in place, now choosing to grind his hips into you, his hard stomach rubbing against your clit in a way that had you seeing stars. your hands slapped against his chest, whining something along the lines of him being to deep—but right now in this moment?? there was no such thing as too deep.
in fact he recalled you telling him not too long ago you wanted to feel him in your tummy again, so he was actually doing you a favor if you think about it—but who am i kidding your not doing anyyyy thinking right now.
“m’gonna cum sugu c-can you—fuckkk-uh!” suguru was already one step ahead of you, the rough pads of his ring and middle fingers now rubbing vicious circles on your clit. your body tensed, thighs shaking as you came on his dick for what felt like the umpteenth time. geto fucked you through your orgasm, his own trailing behind as he came in you with one last stroke.
*sighs dreamily* hotboxes with geto were always the best
Heyyyyy the boops are cute and all ^^ but- while you're clicking that boop button. Why not click for Palestine as well? It helps alot, keep eyes on Palestine!
Happy Halloween to those who celebrate! and never forget from river to sea, Palestine will be free!
i saw a post about being the loser girlfriend and i can’t stop thinking about being gojo’s loser gf.
he’s so popular and loved by everyone even the professors, but he has one obsession and it’s the weird lord of the rings fanatic girl that wears oversized clothes and can’t shut up about d&d
gojo’s down so bad he finds himself in her dorm again after leaving a party even before midnight.
“shut up about aragorn princess or i swear i’ll break your tv” he groans from between your legs as the return of the king plays in the background.
he often gets distracted during classes, checking if you texted him or what you’re doing. probably something dumb like debating theories on reddit… he pouts looking at your profile picture.
"ahn ‘toru you said you were gonna behave” you look over your shoulder at the boy sucking your neck as you cockwarm him. you’re trying to finish your paper at your desk, but the way he keeps moving and throbbing inside you doesn’t allow your mind to focus.
“princess i’m behaving by not pushing your face into that stupid poster” he points to the huge batman poster that decorated your wall, “and fucking you till you can’t talk” he thrusts up to emphasize his point.
and whenever he sees you across campus with that dumb legolas shirt he can’t stop himself from dragging you to the closest bathroom and pushing that shirt up to suck your tits, “can’t believe you actually go out like this” he murmurs while groping your ass over the tight biker shorts.
“yeah i can see how much you hate it” your hand is down his pants jerking the cock that begs for your attention. it’s such a turn on for him to touch that gorgeous body that no one imagine it’s under all that fan girl merch.
“so pathetic— mmph” he murmurs against your neck as he comes in his pants, failing to notice he’s even more pathetic.
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